Anyone who has been keeping track of me on this site for the last decade knows how outspoken I am about freedom of speech and freedom of expression. Over the last few years we've seen all aspects of our online lives being taken over by extreme elements from the political left of our society. I tend to keep this off of my main page as you don't come here for my politics, only my work. However I've noticed a disturbing trend of "rules for thee but not for me" that has become so egregious that I find my patience worn to a hair's width.

I want to show each of you FA's Rules of Conduct section 2.4 (https://www.furaffinity.net/coc)

"Do not harass anyone.
In this context, harassment includes creating an account with an offensive name, impersonation of another user, and remarks which discuss personal grievances, quarrels, malicious rumors, negative statements about, purposefully misgendering or deadnaming other individuals, and attempting to address or contact a user who has blocked you or whom you have blocked, including soliciting other users to pass on messages or otherwise make contact on your behalf. This does not include civil discussions about topics of public interest such as celebrities or government officials, but does include 'bewares' and similar content. If a particular type of content does not appeal to you, then do not seek it out to make disparaging comments. Users with a pattern of this behavior may be cited for harassment."

Now I've noticed something odd about this phrasing where someone can say something inflammatory to you...and you have zero recourse. So is this what you're attempting to push on us Furaffinity? You want to control our speech and allow others to post antagonist comments on our art and in our forums and they're allowed to block us to where we can't respond? You do realize that's silencing of people and if the person making these comments blocks you they're free to move on to the next person to attack? This is beyond unacceptable and I will make it my mission to make this problem known to as many people as possible.

*edit* I also notice how your rules seem to be in clear violation of laws protecting fair use. I'm specifically referring to what appears to be anti-parody policies in your rules. As far as I know federal law trumps your site rules. You might want to look into that because I know I damn sure am!

In case you haven't noticed FA, that most people already hate furries for various reasons. Letting your users berate and insult each other without giving the attacked any means of defense is a sign of how lost you are.

You've already purged a large portion of your userbase by driving them to other sites due to banning and restricting your users. I want a response from the FA Admin for this irresponsible set of rules so that the community can see just how much you're pushing down on them with the thumb of an iron fist.

I'm writing this journal for the public as my only means of penance.

As my previous journal listed I've relocated to Colorado. I thought that the change of scenery and quiet would help me recover from the last year. This turns out to have backfired on me in spectacular fashion. The relative solitude has let some kind of festering mental illness engulf me. I've begun to self destruct, driving away my (ex)wife and oldest friends. I've become uncontrollably unstable and vile to the point of horrifying. The worst aspect is that I know I'm doing it. I know it's life crushing mistakes. Yet, I'm compelled to do it anyway.

I don't want to move forward. I just want to draw everything to a close and be forgotten. So I'm purposefully trying to induce as much hatred towards me as possible. Something has gone terribly wrong in my head but I neither have the funds to seek help nor do I trust those that could. So now I'm in a death-spiral and part of me finds glee in it. I'm too tired to want to fight it as I don't see a goal to move towards. Moving here was probably my destiny and the end of my putrid story.

Those people I would want to show this to are out of reach now. That's for the best I think as it cuts out a rotting part of their lives that is best amputated. For everyone else there's just indifference. I don't wish to be involved in the personal lives of anyone anymore.

This brings me to the business side of the matter. I intend to continue working as instinct is powerful and it will allow me to finish my backlog. Once I've been able to complete what I owe I can lay down and rest.

In the meantime a warning is necessary to any potential buyers - Our interactions are strictly professional. I'm not a friend as this is a business. I will provide your the best quality in as prompt a time as possible but I will be unable to give a time-frame until more of my backlog is complete.

To those that once called me friend or family - I'm sorry. The Nate you knew died years ago.

My last journal left off on dire straights and I'd been so wrapped up in the chaos the last few months it's the shit epics are made from. I've finally landed on bedrock and I'm in a position to get life back in order. I'm currently staying with family, something I haven't done for 20 years, which is a strange sensation. I have a room to sleep in, a kitchen to cook in, and a desk to work at. Bare-bones and spartan to be sure. Utilities are a mix between limited and permanently non-existent so every day feels like a little adventure.

I made my way out of OKC on the 30th and arrived here on the 1st. So there's an anniversary for later!

I'm well and safe so now I can focus on getting back on my feet. Thanks for sticking with me, guys. It's much appreciated.

EDIT - Moved to Colorado, fixed the title of the journal ^.^

So rent is due in two days and my electric bill is overdue by a month. I have $80 to my name and need $230 to keep the lights on. Rent...yeah I'm not going to be able to do anything about that right now so I'm just going to let the landlord know that I'll get it to it asap.

The only reason I'm asking for help now is because I have a bunch of work to finish before opening for more sales and I'm fairly certain I won't have time to make the funds needed in time. As of next month I'll be moving out of here so my cost of living is going to go down considerably.

This would essentially be a last push to get me out of this hole and back on the path to stability.

If you can help at all please consider sending a donation to my paypal - silverdragonruin[at]yahoo.com

Thank you all for reading.

I'd meant to do a second quarter report to everyone at the start of the month but was so busy I never got around to it. So here's what's happening now.

The start of the month was looking great. Then shit hit the fan. Bills came back in force. Part of that problem is that my ISP has been double billing me for months and because I was already behind I didn't notice it. I owe $200 tomorrow or the city shuts off our power. I owe another $875 for rent on the 1st, and I have a whopping $180 to my name. Not to mention that I owe people a fuck ton of money and art that I have no idea how I'm going to settle now.

I just snapped viciously at my best customer and I'm having a total meltdown at my wife over messenger. I've barely been eating, having made my one meal today two hotdog buns. I'm in agonizing pain and everything is overwhelming. I've tried so hard to keep up with everything but I'm drowning. At this point I'm not even sure why I should keep going.

Life is bad for me despite my best efforts. I'm a failure.

The year doesn't look like it's going to improve and so it's unlikely I'll post another one of these updates for...as long as I can think of. Not that it even matters since I haven't uploaded anything in ages so people probably don't care.

Good evening to all of you fine furry folk,

I want to start this year's first journal off with good news, so I'll do just that. I've managed to condense my currently finished pieces into a single folder and they're ready for upload. This means I'm about to flood your inboxes so I hope that'll make up for my lack of activity here ^.^

Now, on to current events. 2018 ended with a whimper and while we're doing better than we were things are still quite dire. Vixie has been without work since October and I've been having to cover everything since. However, things tend to pile up and now I'm looking at not being able to pay bills this month. I already missed two from last month so we're kind of stressing out.

I think business dropped off a bit as well but that's most likely because I haven't been posting anything. Gonna fix that shit right now! I've finally made it to a point to where I can start knocking out my backlog (a whole year later, sheesh!) and I hope to be able to finish them out as promptly as possible.

So with a little support from all of you we can not only survive but flourish as well. Here's hoping.

For now let's post some arts!

(Sorry if you commented on one of the ones I'd uploaded earlier! They were reposts >.<)

You guys have probably seen the new pictures going up on my gallery in large batches. That's still a small amount of them. I have over 150 more waiting to get uploaded with more being produced almost every workday. I'm overloaded with work and desperately trying to juggle bills and constant unexpected expenses. Vixie's job has been fucking her around and have slashed her hours to the point that what was a struggle is now a crisis. I had someone hijack my paypal on my birthday but thankfully that's been fixed but it also means I'm short on bills due to disputed charges. Vixie's been trying to apply for a personal loan but they keep jacking her around so I'm having to sit here while I type listening to my wife cry due to the stress of it all.

We're in bad shape, and we're both well past the breaking point. We struggle, we fight, we work ourselves to the bone but we're not able to stabilize since we can't crawl out from the hole this move put us through. it's been seven months and it becomes more difficult with each passing week. We need help in the worst way. We're looking at being at least $500 short this month and that's after cutting as many extraneous expenses as possible.

My stubbornness and pride keep me from asking for assistance most of the time, and I wind up being forced to more than I can bear. I just turned 40 and I can't help but feel like a total failure for having nothing to show for it. I can't pay my bills, I can't care for my wife, I even have trouble keeping up with work due to the sheer ever increasing volume of it. Desperate times force me to swallow the bitter pill of pride and beg for help, and this is sadly one of those times. Multiple times in one year...I'm such a disgrace v.v

Please, if you can provide assistance even for a dollar, would you be willing to donate to silverdragonruin@yahoo.com?

This plea brings me tremendous shame, and I completely understand if you're unwilling to help. At the very least thank you for taking the time to read.

-Nate

So I've mentioned having trouble with getting my birth certificate but I've not really gone into detail on the kind of troubles I'm having. I'm gonna remedy that today. Below is the latest in a 22 year long process of bureaucratic bullshit that I've been having to deal with.

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Called Texas Vital Statistics. Transfered to REDACTED in delayed records. REDACTED informed me that I needed a total of three documents with name, date of birth, and place of birth listed below.

-Affidavit of Birth Facts

-School Transcripts

-Baptismal records

-Hospital records

REDACTED informs me she is mailing a new batch of paperwork with the affidavit. No eta.

Called Mom to arrange things with her. Mom says there are no Baptismal records. Updating list below.

-Affidavit of Birth Facts

-School Transcripts

-Hospital records

Called North Shore Elementary - Spoke to REDACTED who told me they didn't keep those records. Referred me to Galena Park ISD Spoke to REDACTED who said that the state is only required to hold records for five years. Called Vital Statistics. On hold for 30 minutes, half of which was a recorded message, the other half repeated ringing. Conceded to wait. Will try again later.

Called Texas Women's Hospital of Texas. Went through automated system to have it hang up on me. After a hold I was transfered to a processing center which told me that the hospital only holds records as far back as 10 to 15 years. Older records are destroyed.

Called REDACTED back, got through to delayed records and was transferred to REDACTED's desk. Had to leave a message. Awaiting call-back

No call back; Calling Vital Statistics again. Spoke to REDACTED and was informed that my High School Transcripts should still be on record and that it would have the requisite information. REDACTED is sending a form (DPS application) records request. I will need to fill these forms out and send them to DPS. This will take some time, possibly several weeks, for the paperwork to reach me. Will update when possible.

Called Lamar High School. No answer as their automated service keeps directing me to an extention that won't answer. Calling Houston Independent School District. Told that they do not have transcripts for me, instead I'm found on a Student Roster for 1996. Does not list place of birth but does list social security number. Needing clarification; calling Vital Statistics. REDACTED was busy so I had to leave a message on her voice mail. Awaiting call-back.

REDACTED returned my call. The school roster is ineligable for use. Instead we need a Numinent Print-out (cost of $27) that is of my Social Security Card Application. Awaiting paperwork in the mail, will update when possible.

Questions on paperwork. Listed below

-Confirm what constitutes a copy of photo identification for Affidavit

-Contested paternity; may be unnecessary to fill out for Biographical Statement

-Clarification of $1 fee to the DPS

Calling Vital statistics. No answer, left message. REDACTED called back. I have the information needed. Will update when available.
Bought Money Orders and sent off all mail. Awaiting results - 11-14-2017

1st piece of paperwork arrived today. Texas Department of Public Safety. 1-2-2018

2nd piece of paperwork arrived today. Social Security. 1-17-2018

Paperwork appears to have been lost in transit. Calling Vital Statistics for replacement. Spoke to REDACTED, says she'll send the paperwork my way.

~Financial snag. Will update asap~

Lost paperwork again. Calling Vital Statistics. Replacement is on the way. Will update asap.

Paperwork arrived. Sent paperwork to mom. Awaiting return.

Affidavit is here. Compiling paperwork. Paperwork in hand, calling REDACTED to finalize information.

All paperwork is in the mail. Awaiting results - 6-27-2018. Mail arrived June 30th. Awaiting processing.

Update 8-15-2019 : REDACTED informs me that Mom had white-out on the affidavit which makes it ineligable and that Texas DPS sent me my driving history and not my License application. Paperwork is on the way.

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I've redacted names as to not incriminate but you can see the kind of run-around I've been put through. This is just since last year. They've been doing this to me again and again and again for my entire adult life. It's no wonder things have been so difficult.

It has become apparent to me tonight that I can no longer sustain this career.

I just had a customer demoralize me to the point that I've lost the will to go on. I don't see a viable future in this business anymore and will begin searching for new employment immediately. Even though I'm still without Identification the paperwork for my birth certificate has been acquired and I've been waiting for results for the last six weeks. With luck it'll arrive soon and I can make my way down to the tag agency to rectify this situation.

I've already put in some applications to some work from home jobs that I qualify for but most likely I'm going to have to go back to something like fast food or bottom level labor.

I''ve been unable to progress on my backlog and even nightly streams have begun to stagnate with me being physically unable to complete all of the work in the few hours allotted. I've gained 40 pounds and become ill from stress of not being able to pay bills and the knowledge that this has destroyed my reputation. I have 20+ projects that are months overdue and I just don't have the time to get to them. With my body broken and the workload being way over my head I've just been treading water for most of the year.

The only thing that could save me at this point is if I could get enough people to sign to Patreon for a minimal amount to reach a sustainable level to cover the cost of bills. Since the damage to my credibility has already been done the likelihood of this is...slim at best.

I've been criticized for being slow and pushed around for it. Almost all of this is due to the fact that my drawing arm is torn to shreds and it makes even light work excruciating. This is no fault of any of you but I've tried to just power through it for years. At this point and at this rate I'll be lucky to hold a pen at all by the end of the year.

It's highly probable that with rest I could still produce some really great work, but not at the pace of a nine-to-five job like I've been attempting. This reality is punching me in the face every waking hour and I'm too exhausted mentally and physically to stand up to it anymore.

Cutting work entirely isn't possible at the immediate moment so I'll still be running streams regularly until I find new employment. To those on my backlog I cannot express how deeply I feel regret and shame for not providing you with your product up to this point. As soon as humanly possible I will refund you all until the backlog is gone. I've failed many times before but this is of such monumental proportion that I will carry this for the rest of my life.

I'm so very sorry I've let you all down.

-Nate

Hello to everyone, I have a big update to give today so let's get to it.

If any of you have been keeping up with me through my journals you've seen that the last few years, and more importantly the last few months, have been a financial and logistical nightmare. I'm way behind both on work as well as submissions. I seem to have dropped off the map and gone dark but this isn't the case. Most of my interactions are done through Discord now so it hasn't been very observable to the public. As far as the work is concerned I'm in a terrible loop of having to take in new work just to be able to work on what I take in. This keeps me from progressing on backlogged work and this is horribly unfair to those that spent their hard-earned cash to buy product from me.

What I need is a way to make income outside of just what my two hands can produce. With enough Patreon support I could manage this but to be fair I'm not expecting this. I feel that I have severely and irrevocably damaged my reputation with everyone so there's bound to be a lack of faith in me for this. In order to remedy the problem I'm going to have to make changes to the way I conduct my business and how I handle the public. So I'll be listing a few things to help with this.

First I must make an announcement. I have started a Youtube channel! I don't know how to link the channel itself so here's one of the videos - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TNL.....X2M&t=665s

The channel is going to be art related. I'll be posting videos of safe for work images that I produce with commentary, tutorials, FAQs, etc. I'll also be doing guest spots where I will have other artists join me as well as customers who are willing to talk with me while I work. I'm not sure what this can do for me but I'm hoping that in the future I can somehow monetize this.

I'm passing control of uploads to the awesome  shyala in order to start getting images in the gallery. This should bring my work back into the light so that's a very good thing.

This week I will be contacting everyone currently on the waiting list for commissions in order to touch base and make sure everyone knows they have not been forgotten. I'll be focusing on getting rough sketches out for anyone who hasn't had any kind of update since purchase, then proceed with images that already have some work done on them. This is going to mean pushing myself to a painful level but it's what needs to be done in the meantime until I can claw my way out of the current rut I'm in.

I will still need to run nightly streams so this is something that won't change, sadly.

From here I'm talking with people who have offered to help with some of the legwork needed to get things back in order and I'll be seeking some input from everyone via polls. I have a deep sense of regret that things have gotten this bad but self-loathing doesn't help. I need to take action. I'd offer to start operating more social media but to be honest I think social media is not the way to go. I'd rather have my work speak for itself and handle public interaction through chats, streams, and comments.

For now this should get everyone up to speed on things and I'm gonna get some sleep (on Vixie's schedule so I'm up nights now) I'll see you guys soon!

<3
Nate

I've calmed myself and have weighed my options for the future, at least the foreseeable one, and I don't have much choice but to try to salvage my current line of work.

Without ID or even a Birth Certificate it limits me to...well for lack of a better term, working off the grid. That means I have to be self employed. If I don't have finances to pay bills I don't have them to start a new business from scratch.

This makes me feel worse than ever since I don't want to cry wolf every time the shit hits the fan. In this case that whole damn barn being thrown in a wood chipper pointed at our face.

So I'm back to work and making decent progress. I've been up all night so I'm going to get a nap and run a stream tonight (have to keep the lights on after all) and find a time to post some kind of image uploads. You know I don't really explain why I'm behind on that do I? FA has awful UI when it comes to uploading and nothing kills my available time than having to wait after each upload. So that tends to discourage me until it backs up into obscenity.

Anyhow, stream time tonight is 7pm CST. Thank you all for listening and I'll see you soon!

So two weeks in a row I've had people demand refunds because I'm taking too long on their commissions.

Yeah, I get it. I'm fuckin slow. I'm a disappointment and I keep fucking up. All because life has decided to kick me in the groin repeatedly this year. Is that an excuse? Fuck no! Is it a good enough reason to have let so many people down? Unlikely.

With so many people now screaming for money that I simply don't have to give and willing to attack my paypal account directly to get their way I think it may just be time to retire. I'm currently facing the last major hurtle for bills and they're almost under control but that's a moot point when I have people demanding refunds because I'm taking too long.

Was I not clear when I said they were emergency commissions? Was I not open enough for everyone to know that I'm struggling on the hair of absolute failure to keep the lights on? Have I dropped the ball and not been on a high enough mountain to scream to the heavens that my life is utterly fucked by the constant onslaught of expenses that I can't foretell?

My health has taken a nose dive and I might be forced to give up the very thing that has sustained me for years and then I have people who care only about their smut who want me to pull money out of my ass that I don't have. I can't anymore. I think it's time to take a job, any job, that can pay me enough to keep our bills paid and just give up on making anything more of my life. I'll have to work until I die as it is anyway.

My computer is in desperate need of maintenance today so hopefully I can reach some friends who will help this evening. Once that's done I'll begin the process of finding a new job since this one just isn't going to pan out after all.

Thank you for everyone who has been so patient and understanding. To those who aren't paying attention and just put me in a desperately bad spot...well, I can only blame myself so I'll turn my anger inwards.

Have a good day

So I let our young dogs out this morning since I was trying to sleep and they decided that 4am was a good time to be rowdy indoors. Once I woke up we found they had escaped the yard and were nowhere to be found. Some time later one showed back up in the back yard but the other was still unaccounted for. Not an hour later I spot him in another yard behind our next door neighbors place. I jumped in the van to go grab him but no sooner did I pull out of the driveway shit hit the fan. It's  vixiesnow's dog and as soon as he saw her he jumped the fence and made a mad dash towards her. Unfortunately our neighbor has three dogs, one of which is frighteningly aggressive. Now two of these three dogs are quite small in comparison to our pup, but three on one are bad odds. Our dog sustained numerous lacerations to his legs but he looks to have been spared anything too serious. However, once we brought him indoors he climbed under my desk and collapsed from heat exhaustion, pain, and blood loss.

He's currently in good spirits but still refuses to budge. I expect he'll have no choice in a few hours but to get up for food, water, and a restroom break. At that time I'll be able to asses the damage and find out if we just need to bandage him or take him to the vet for stitches. This is awful timing, as usual, and I'm not sure we could afford a vet visit. I'm hoping his wounds are superficial but that's going to require me keeping an eye on him. That means I'll be too distracted for work and I'll lose out on much needed income.

Such is life.

Been having to rest up the last few days, even as late as last night to be able to hold my stylus again. Doing better today so I finished up on an piece and I'm gonna move on to working on the next one now.

I'd stream this one but it's a private piece. I'll do everything in my power to have it done in the next few days so I can start streaming my work-days regularly.

There will be another stream tonight so I'll post up some more images beforehand. Should be fun ^.^

Thank you all for your time and I'll see you soon!
-Nate

Apologies for not posting something earlier. I had a mix up in my schedule and forgot that Wild Nights took place this past weekend. Since my attendance was comped and Vixie was attending anyway I'd agreed to go. Afterwards I needed some time to get finances in order and take some rest from the commotion.

I am feeling greatly improved today and I'm ready for work. I'm going to starting on some uploads followed by an open stream for people to watch me work. I'll be taking a break at 5pm for food and chores then I'll start up a sketch stream for the evening. I'm hoping a relaxed tempo should help keep my health in at least functional condition

A massive thank you to everyone who helped us during this time. We would have been sunk without you.

Now on to the arts!

It's been almost two months since my last update and I'd really hoped my next one would be so much more positive than this. If any of you have been keeping up with my Trello you've noticed I've had almost no progress on it and it's to the point people are beginning to ask for refunds. This is tremendously bad timing as things have only gotten worse.

For the last few weeks I've been battling crippling pain in my neck down to my wrist. This is due to a slipped disk riding on a herniated disk in my neck. I deal with this frequently but as of this weekend it has reached an all time high. I can't sleep, averaging 1.5 hours a night, can't sit, stand, anything without being in sheer agony. This is compounded by being my drawing arm so it makes the situation much more dire.

I know people are waiting on their work, and at this point I've had people on the backlog for six months. This can't continue but I'm stuck in a loop. Vixie's income has been low and with my own dwindling I don't even know how I'm going to pay rent. We're about to have gas shut off and we're scraping the pantry for food. Things are in a dark place right now and I'm freaking the hell out.

I have a stream sketch from Friday I still need to do and if I don't run one tonight the problem intensifies. I don't know what to do. At this moment I'm panicking, but life waits for no one so I have to push through the pain as much as possible. I can't afford to go to the doctor either so that's out of the question. Hahah-h-help?

I'm going to start uploading pictures and hope for a freakin miracle.

Paypal by request - silverdragonruin[at]yahoo.com

The move is finished and we're trying to get settled in. Things are a wreck and almost nothing's unpacked yet but the place already feels more like home. With the expenses of the move we're looking at around $2000 in finances to cover everything. I currently have $100 and bills due...today. Guess they'll have to wait :P

So that means a good chunk of my day is streaming and I have to divide the other art I have to finish between chores. I've really been unable to get myself motivated over the last three days due to the sheer exhaustion of having to move as frantically as we did. I overslept today since Vixie had a day off I wasn't aware of and didn't set an alarm. I'm looking at my workload and just don't have it in me to start at the moment but I'll at least give you guys this update and try to get my work schedule laid out for the coming weeks.

I don't want to keep you guys in the dark or add any more delays to work I have due but if I don't catch my breath I'm going to fall over from exertion. I promise I'll start getting some visual updates to everyone asap. In the meantime I'll get my uploads in order and start posting a few before streams so that you guys can see I'm still working my butt off :P

I have to catch up on these bills and figure out a way to squeeze everything into the time I have available each day since I need to get the house set up in the next few days (we have company coming up from Texas). Give me strength! For now I really need to decompress and take a few hours off for personal time. If you have any questions or concerns please don't hesitate to let me know in a comment or send me a note, I promise I'll always answer.

Thank you all for your patience and understanding,
Nate.

Alarm didn't go off this morning so I'm several hours behind schedule. I need to run out of the house soon to try to get some boxes and take the roommate to work, I'm gonna try to get the next commission sketch started today and tomorrow I'm going to have to start packing up. Not to mention cleaning. Oiy what a mess.

Still 300 USD short on my goal so there will be streams all this week from 5pm Central Time to whenever I drop. I'll post a notification as always when I do.

Also, I was held up and couldn't get to my uploads yet but that does bring up a question for you guys. What time of day would you most like to see new artwork?

Our ISP seems to have finally solved our connection issues so I'm planning a sketch stream tonight.

5pm CDT @ https://picarto.tv/Nateday

Hope to see you guys there!

So yesterday when Vixie made it home from TFF she told me she had sat down and talked with some of my watchers. They expressed some concerns and I feel it's of the upmost importance to address them right away.

I appreciate feedback from people since it helps me improve and keeps my butt in line ^.^

The first big complaint I heard was that I lacked structure. I haven't had a schedule up in ages. The second being a lack of visibility, I've fallen behind on uploads and am way too quiet. These are both quite legitimate concerns and I'm happy to motivate myself to correct them!

For the issue with the schedule I'd really stopped posting it since so many people outright ignored them. So I felt discouraged and thought I was simply wasting time making them. Easily fixed.

As for uploads I wound up falling behind on them because I'd get some...severe complaints from clients that they weren't seeing progress on their pictures but saw others being posted. So I would hold off on posting until I'd finished more pictures to avoid the backlash. There's nothing quite as crushing and terrifying as angry customers in a business where reputation matters so much. I'm going to upload more tonight after I finish with my work for today and as much of a dickish thing as it is to say I'm going to start outright ignoring complaints that I'm not fast enough for some people.

For me being so quiet I really think that's just a result of being so damn busy all of the time. If I'm having to take out time to post notifications for everything I'm doing I'll never get work done. Sometimes I have to let tunnel-vision take over so I can grind out projects or handle offline problems, such as this month with having to do so much work for the move. Maybe I can try actually using my Twitter account but I'm increasingly hesitant with that due to the amount of negativity I keep hearing about from it. If you guys have a better solution I'd be happy to hear it, just don't recommend Facebook since it's the same problem.

I might not be able to fully address these topics right away or even this month but as soon as the move is done I can stabilize and set these things right!

Apologies if any of this came off as abrasive. I simply want to be as honest and direct as possible. If you have any questions or comments feel free to post below or note me any time!

Thank you all!
Nate

Thanks to the purchases of a number of my watchers I've been able to make my deadline and collect the funds needed in time. I deeply appreciate the business and am profoundly grateful to everyone for their support.

Sadly I'm facing a couple of delays in getting commissions completed at the moment. We have the move coming up in a few weeks and due to Vixie's work schedule I'm going to have to handle the vast majority of the work involved. I'd planned to have at least five of the projects done this week but I'm on day four of some kind of stomach bug. Diarrhea is not a good thing to have for extended periods of time so I might have to see a doctor in a few days if it doesn't clear up.

Regardless of that I'll upload some more completed images tonight to at least hold everyone over. To everyone that's bought something from me, including those that bought them before I had to open emergency commissions, I WILL get to them as soon as absolutely possible.

Thank you all for your patience and continued support. You're the best! <3

Okay so as I stated in my last journal we're planning to move. The place we applied for was accepted ahead of schedule so it's set us further behind financially. In order to keep the lights on and water running we need to make 700 USD by February 7th. That's incredibly tight on us, especially since it's not calculating up food or toiletries. I need to make some sales asap or we're going to crash and burn.

I'm open for all commissions with any content. No restrictions since I damn sure can't be picky. Please note me or comment here if interested.

Thank you,
Nate

So finances have hit a critical point and we're on the verge of moving. I'm a month behind on some of our bills and I need to make funds to pay for the deposit and first month's rent for a new place.

As of now I'm focusing all of my attention on getting my commissions completed and uploads submitted. I could really really use the help or we're going to fall flat on our asses and lose everything. I'll post as often as possible so people know I am working exceedingly hard to complete their projects in a timely manner. If all goes well I should be able to clear everything I currently have in a month, just in time for the move.

If you can help please note me or comment that you want to purchase a picture on this journal and I'll get right back to you.

Thank you all,
Nate

Taking in more orders this week so I can get back on track. Got hitched recently so I'm having to work extra hard due to being broke as hell XD

If interested please note me or leave a comment on this journal. I will list a link to pricing and make a list below. Thank you! ^.^

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5832202/

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1.  Ryusei-Lupi
2.  Bundadingy
3.  s0c0m_3

Good evening, everyone! I'm here tonight to let you know I'll be streaming sketches from 12pm Central Time until whenever I drop. So make sure to drop in for a view

See you guys then!