Nicoletta my canary passed away tonight. She suffered a heart attack when I took her to the vet to get the breeding identification band removed. I was doing that because the male canary suffered a broken leg due to the band. So I was trying to prevent that from happening to her. I really thought she was going to pull through she ate a little food last night but tonight she gave up her fight and passed on I'm afraid. The good news is even though Pavarotti is missing two toes he is doing well despite his messed up leg

 chutkat she is really amazing and I won free art just by being one of her watchers!!!

So Pava is fine he will be missing toes but he might be keeping his leg

But took Nicolitta in and she had a heart attack before they even went cut the bad off. I am now watching her and giving her a drop of valium every 4 hours for today and hoping she lives. I'm hoping but...it does look good. And all because I was hoping to take care of the band so she didn't get hurt and now she might die

And yaaay another 100 dollar vet bill T_T

*skitters to charge it* Im gonna text some bitches just cause Im lonely

so if you have tried to text me Im not getting it please note me here if you need something and certain people I can give the house phone to

Through my fingers time seems to slip. No matter how I try to hold on it slips. I get older, things change, people come, and people go just as quickly or more so. In my hole hours blend into days, days into weeks, weeks so quickly becoming years. I lose track of the last time I've done something and yet remember its been a significant amount of time since I've done anything significant. Are my problems so easily dismissed by a vocation? That's what people think, that is what they tell you when you're lost. I see it more of a distraction from the problems that are still there when you clock out. What happened to the adventure? The exploration? It seems to still be there yet it seems so out of reach for the everyday man. Slipping through my fingers not time now but mental stability. Why do I feel this way? Why have I always felt this way? Why do you ask me questions you do not let me answer before you dismiss my words as wrong? Why can I not be allowed to be who I am? Why do you care? Why do you bother me? How is it of your concern. When I sit in my hole quietly, do you bother me there? Slipping everything is slipping and I'm starting not to care.



((I have no idea @_@ just happened))

So he has a tiny little tape splint it may or may not heal but apparently they can live just fine with only one leg, plus I get the fun of giving him antibiotics which is so much fun with a tiny bird

So Im glad he is ok but ouch $100 dollar vet bill I wasn't expecting *waves bye bye to new tablet as its floats further away*

Ffff poor little birds foot is all messed up why do breeders put those fucking bands on their legs anyways totally a vet bill that could have been avoided and pain my bird didn't need to go through Im going to get the other band removed from Nicoletta so this doesnt end up happening to her to.

freaking nibs need one asap do any locals have one I can buy from them? Im nib on my pen is so worn Im loosing control of it so yeah fff I want a new tablet omg

Got hotel room : check

Got hotel room filled with awesome people: Double check

Ride: beep beep beep red flag

So yeah originally  slavawolf and I were riding up there with Shilo in the car but Slava's freaking work has made it so he will not be attending fwa after all but I am still determined to go

I was thinking about renting a car and driving there with Shilo since we should both have our drives license by then but Im a little nervous that is a big trip for two new drivers. So I'm hoping to maybe find an experienced driver to perhaps go with us and rent a car and such. I know I heard about a few people who were going to rent a car to go there and it would make more since if we went in together on something like that split the rental fee and gas money and such.

Anyways if you would be interested in helping in any way that would be awesome

I wanna go to the rainbow cactus and sit there talk and drink maybe dance a little but mostly drink

Ok so about to finish some commissions today and Im going to be taking a break to work on a few things. This includes but is not limited to comics, my website, and improving my style and skill by taking time to review tutorials and get back to basics. And while I do enjoy drawing my characters it gets boring after awhile so I thought I would open a journal that will stay open where you can post as many of your characters as you want and they may be used for practice which means free art for you.

Here is the thing though before you post you need to know just because you do post doesn't mean you will get something, there are no changes to be made to this art you get what you get, use the form Im posting I need to know somethings so I wont draw your character with something you are uncomfortable with. You need to understand that the art will not only be posted on fa but could also go up on my website crediting the character as yours of course.

I am looking for descriptions as well as just plain reff art!

Ok if you understand all that and you want a chance at free art post the below form ((one form per character please aka don't throw more then one in the same form))

I AM ALSO LOOKING FOR HUMANS TO DRAW


Name of Character:
Build of Character:
Manner of Dress:
Adult Art?: ((Yes or No))
If yes to above: ((what things are you not ok with))
Is your Character mated: ((aka are they exclusive if so please link mate))
Sexual Preferences:
Character Personality:
Description:
Reff links:

got my new icon from  pocketmen today oh its so awesome I feel a need to play starfox now

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/...../#cid:30888119

chance for a group shot only $10 bucks a slot Im getting one

Whoot 2013 ...whatever

I'm feelin weird right now

Will work on commissions at some point but Ive been sick for days and just need to draw something certain

https://secure.join.me/663-912-323

I are still sick omg so tired of being in the house T_T

stole it from  radface that stole it from someone else XD

HOW OLD DO YOU ACT?

[x] You know how to make a pot of coffee.
[x] You keep track of dates using a calendar.
[x] You own a credit card.
[ ] You know how to change the oil in a car.
[x] You've done your own laundry.
[x] You can vote in an election.
[x] You can cook for yourself.
[ ] You think politics are interesting

TOTAL: 6

[x] You show(ed) up for school late a lot.
[ ] You always carry a pen/pencil in your bag/purse/pocket.
[ ] You've never gotten a detention.
[ ] You have forgotten your own birthday.
[ ] You like to take walks by yourself.
[x] You know what credibility means, without looking it up.
[x] You drink caffeine at least once a week.

TOTAL: 2

[x] You know how to do the dishes.
[x] You can count to 10 in another language.
[x] When you say you're going to do something you USUALLY do it.
[ ] You can mow the lawn.
[ ] You study even when you don't have to.
[x] You have hand washed a car before.

TOTAL : 4

[x] You can spell experience, without looking it up.
[ ] The people at Starbucks know you by name.
[ ] Your favorite kind of food is take out.
[x] You can go to the store without getting something you don't need.
[ ] You understand political jokes the first time they are said.
[x] You can type pretty quick.

TOTAL: 3

[ ] Your only friends are from your place of employment.
[x] You have been to a Tupperware party.
[ ] You have realized that practically no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job.
[ ] You have more bills than you can pay.
[x] You have been to the beach.
[x] You use the internet every day.
[x] You have been outside of your home country 3 or more times.
[ ] You make your bed in the morning.

TOTAL :4

[x] You have filed a tax return
[x] You have used a pay phone
[x] You have been served alcohol without being ID'd
[x] You have purchased stamps at the grocery store
[x] You have purchased a lottery ticket
[x] You still have and use a VCR

Total: 25

Real Age: 25


apparently I act my age XD

Um Kinda fun the first night but not really much of a con. It was more like a drunkin furry room parties that you had to pay to participate in. Schedules were not even given to people who paid at the door so there was no way to know what was going on. Booze seemed to be the main drive of this party ((will not call it a con)) while booze is fun I go to cons for more then just getting drunk off my ass. I can say almost everyone there really fun and nice but it also felt like drama was trying to bubble up about stupid things. Anyways I left early a little mad I paid money for this only thing cool is to own the little con badge that had fluke's art on it. Otherwise I don't think I will be going back if they do a con next year, yeah cool if they all wanna come down and hangout or something but Im not paying to go to spring break of furries.

I dont know where to find info on it or Im just lazy or something some one help me out would you

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4110211/

 lilwerewolfgirl 's cat needs to go to the vet and she has custom adopts open so please go check it out

just blah

So yeah not the best day ever I'm not going into detail. Didn't really get anything I wanted least I'm health other then thyroid and over weight aka blood pressure and heart rate perfect some freaking how and found out just how bad my old doctor was good luck to my new one getting paper work from them but got asked a few questions I felt werent really appropriate. One good thing is he may have figured out my problem behind weight loss he has refereed me somewhere for more test. Maybe If we fix this I can loose the weight on my own either way Im heading towards a weight loss surgery meeting followed by seeking a gender specialist which I think I found one in hampton just have to look more into it any ways really emotionally draining day so yeah.....