Sailsior.
I want people to stop calling me neil and start calling me sailsior. SRS BZNS. ._.
I don't know how to accomplish that. Can I make a second account?

Key: [x]=yes 1 full point, [/]=somewhat 1/2 point, [ ]=no 0 points
[ ] public speaking
[/] staying single forever
[x] Rejection
[ ] being a parent
[ ] giving birth
[x] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[ ] closed spaces
[/] heights
[ ] dogs
[ ] fish
[ ] spiders
[ ] flowers or other plants
[ ] that Scary guy...
[ ] being touched
[ ] fire
[ ] deep water
[ ] snakes
[ ] silk
[ ] the ocean
[/] failure
[ ] success
[ ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[ ] rats
[ ] jumping from high places
[ ] snow
[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] crossing hanging bridges
[x] death
[ ] heaven
[ ] being robbed
[ ] falling
[ ] clowns
[ ] dolls
[ ] large crowds of people
[ ] men
[ ] women
[ ] having great responsibilities
[ ] doctors, including dentists
[ ] tornadoes
[ ] hurricanes
[ ] incurable diseases
[ ] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] ghosts
[ ] poverty
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[x] being alone
[ ] becoming blind
[ ] becoming deaf
[ ] growing up
[ ] creepy noises in the night
[ ] bee stings
[ ] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[ ] needles
[ ] blood
[ ] dinosaurs
[ ] the welcome mat
[ ] high speed
[ ] throwing up
[ ] falling in love
[ ] super secret
[ ] gay people

Final Total: 5.5. (i was completely honest here)

If you wish to post this in your journal, it's been requested that you title it I'm afraid of __ out of 75 common fears.

If you get more than 30, I strongly recommend some counseling.
If you get more than 20, you’re paranoid.
If you get 11-20, you are normal.
{{{If you get 10 or less, you're fearless.}}}

stolen from  ratherdashing1121

A 'friend' recently took me for the proverbial 'ride'.
I loaned the fella 200 for a specific cause important to both of us and he spent it on random stuff, then lied and told me he paid the specific bill, he INFACT told me he had a copy of the transaction right in front of him. bullshit.

I've been loaning him months rent, and tried to be friends with me, and he's been a complete asshole at every turn.

I confronted him and chewed his pink ass out for 4 fucking hours in a parking lot tonight, he seems as if he's sorry, but he lied to me, and the lie kept comming for weeks, he only gave it up when I confronted him.


I'm so fucking pissed right now. i surpressed my anger long enough to try to hang out with him, we ended up channel surfing for 3 hours and i put my arm around his neck. The thieving lying asshole bastard is kind of cute.


TIEM F0R SLEEPZ

So A.C. is halfway over. I got some really cool steam punk goggles with adjustable lenses (yay). Not having too much fun though, lacking a friend to show me around, so I've been pretty much wandering about and bumping into new people, not a whole lot i can do without having tones of cash o.o. don't think I'll come next year, but i met some pretty nice people here!

Well, after a speeding ticket and a non moving violation Mangusu and I have arrived at AC! the story; i left at 3 am and pulled off the road about 12 hours later for a power-nap and a cop fined me 91$ saying that sleeping off the shoulder on the road was illegal! He did not care that it was an honest mistake.

I did speed a little so i deserved that, was trying to arrive before I fell asleep at the wheel or missed the con altogether! BUT. I had a ton of fun driving with Mangy! We listened to songs and played road-games.

I think Mangusu is still a bit annoyed with me being unable to drive at times after 2 full sleepless days and daily medication that causes drowsiness, and I kept pulling off for a quick nap x.x will find a way to make it up to him.
For now i'm at the con unsure of what to do, so I will get some sleep, Mangy is partying.

So, I decided to type out my dreams somewhere, whenever i might have them.
and recently my best friend went on a road trip so I'm bored :I we are skipping in halfway through the dream because dream memory fades quickly, here we go;

I was telling a story using paper figures to a group of kids in a parking lot, then the story came to life behind them, it was a shootout between some bandit and officers.
when the second to the last bandit was dying he opened the briefcase he stole and it had a note in it;
"the loot is mine, henry, suck this" and a grenade went off.

Meanwhile, (I had rented an apartment in this dream.) The last bandit, crawled into the window to the apartment carrying a case. (for this character i dreamed of a real life friend, so we will call him john.) i was then in a parking lot surfing the web with a gigantic old-school laptop, then I was bound in chains made of feathers.

As i broke through them i saw daylight and woke up.
That was my first dream in about 2 weeks, that kind of thing is important to me, so I figured I'd write about it, dreams have significance to me, as they turn out to be true/have significance in real life situations.

Minus wall of text just for Chase Valentino Rocket, I know that annoys the FUCK out of him.

like really? how many does that make with billy Maes now?

here's some questions, you better answer them ;3

1. Your Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favourite Film:
5. Favourite Song or Album:
6. Favourite Band/Artist:
7. Dirty or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:
9. Do we know each other outside of dA?
10. What's your philosophy on life?
11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?
12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
13. What is your favourite memory of us?
14. What is your favourite guilty pleasure?
15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the 'world peace etc' malarkey) - what are they?
17. Can we get together and make a cake?
18. Which country is your spiritual home?
19. What is your big weakness?
20. Do you think I'm a good person?
21. What was your best/favourite subject at school?
22. Describe your accent:
23. If you could change anything about me, would you?
24. What do you wear to sleep?
25. Trousers or skirts?
26. Cigarettes or alcohol?
27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together? (If you have no idea, just say something crazy, it'll entertain me!)
28. Will you repost this so I can fill it out for you?

stolen from dashing1121

Turns out I'm bi-polar. learned on my birthday.

It's easy for me to sleep when there's someone else in my bed, but next to impossible, like, insomnia if I'm alone.

I'm probably the only guy who waxes his car at 5 am to the song Gorillaz when i realize, even with a comfy bed, I'm not going to be able to sleep.


CONSTRUCTING a fursuit head.


Driving to AC with Mangusu.


going on a ghost hunt with some friends.


Feeling so alone at times, i want to feel needed.


old friends avoiding me for who knows what, there must be a long list.


I feel like roller blading..................


Also went to springs recently, it was a LOT of fun, unintentionally felt up a hot lady-friend of Kitara~ almost swam down into a cave, and i pitched in with Kitara to feed Razr and Recca.

let Racca drive my car so he could show me how much better he is;
"'holy shit your clutch is sensitive','oh, my bad, i almost ruined your transmission there!'"



That's it for now.

HOW OLD DO YOU ACT?

[x] You know how to make a pot of coffee.
[] You keep track of dates using a calendar.
[] You own a credit card.
[] You know how to change the oil in a car.
[x] You've done your own laundry.
[x] You can vote in an election.
[x] You can cook for yourself.
[ ] You think politics are interesting.
TOTAL SO FAR: 4

[ ] You show up for school late a lot.
[ ] You always carry a pen/pencil in your bag/purse/pocket.
[] You've never gotten a detention.
[ ] You have forgotten your own birthday.
[x] You like to take walks by yourself.
[x] You know what credibility means, without looking it up.
[x] You drink caffeine at least once a week.
TOTAL SO FAR: 7

[x] You know how to do the dishes.
[x] You can count to 10 in another language.
[x] When you say you're going to do something you usually do it.
[x] You can mow the lawn.
[ ] You study even when you don't have to.
[x] You have hand washed a car before.
TOTAL SO FAR: 12

[x] You can spell experience, without looking it up.
[ ] The people at Starbucks know you by name.
[x] Your favorite kind of food is take out.
[x] You can go to the store without getting something you don't need.
[ ] You understand political jokes the first time they are said.
[x] You can type pretty quick.
TOTAL SO FAR: 16

[ ] Your only friends are from your place of employment.
[ ] You have been to a Tupperware party.
[x] You have realized that practically no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job.
[ ] You have more bills than you can pay.
[x] You have been to the beach.
[x] You use the internet every day.
[x] You have been outside of the United States 3 or more times.
[] You make your bed in the morning.
TOTAL: 20

I'm actually 19 this month xD

Well i moved into my new appartment two days ago with Kitara and Kurtsa.
So far so good! Had a wonderful housewarming party.
Mangusu, Kryos, and Chase helped me move furniture in and assemble it! :3
Going with a techno theme in my room, I am almost done decorating!
Oh, and I hit a fire hydrant with my car. :c

I'm in the Orlando area!
searching for an apartment and a job, going to room with Kurtsa Kitara and another friend. ;3
Meeting tones of new people, hit me up if you wanna hang out!