Goodness it's been a while, hasn't it? . . .



Geezum crow, where do I even begin?

-- I'll keep this summed up for ADHD friendly reading:

Found out 7 doctors couldn't diagnose me for having Celiac Disease. It nearly killed me. I had to get hip replacement surgery from the disease eating my bones... had a massive bout of PTSD trauma as years of repressed memories hit me when I came out of surgery, I forgot who I was, and lost a lot of my memories for a while as my mind tried to forget it's past --

I'm slowly picking up my positive memories from an 80% traumatic life and rebuilding a positive mental life.

Spent the past years studying psychology and neurology more to help reinforce the therapy and myself as an artist.

You can't become a beautiful tree if you don't have strong roots. So I've forced myself to go completely back to the basics, relearn everything and not produce anything until I was confident it was something I could be proud of!

EDIT:
I just wanted to say I love all of you duders~

Hello, my Lords & Ladies!

First of all, let me say I am SO sorry for the lack of updates and content.

Most of you know by now, I'm recovering from a LOT of PTSD and identity theft bullshit my foster parent(s) thought they could dump on me and get away with - on top of a slowly deteriorating right hip bone (OsteoNecrosis. ow.)
In a few months, I should be in a situation that will allow me to be able to pay for the operation to get it fixed, and have a new home with an office devoted to proliferating content for all of you.
All of this wouldn't have been possible without the help of my loving mate Razoth -- WHO, I will be getting married to later this year ^- ^ surprise! heh
So in short, I'm still around, I'm still alive - 2020's just being an absolute fucking titanic cunt about things as we can all agree, and it's going to be a monumental task to keep a strong sense of determination and to push on.
I've come this far and I've only become a better person each step, and I'm never going to let you guys down. You've always been there for me and reminded me of what's important, and likewise, I will never give up on you guys!

Be safe, trust your instincts, and be excellent to one another!
GAMI CROSS
TEAM S3 [SanitySoldSeparately]

Question:

How is the market for Audio erotica? -- I have a very lewd idea that I'm gonna try out tomorrow for you guys~

Just a reminder, Razoth and me are gonna be roaming around FAUnited 19 starting TODAY!

Alright let's try that again!

My Lords & Ladies, join me and others on the Sanity|Sold|Separately or 'The S3' -- Stay up to date with all the goings on in the S3 Universe, Omnigeddon, and all the nek0gami erotica you could want! Stylish Gentlemen Bastards welcome!

---- J O I N TeamS3 D I S C O R D ----
>> https://discord.gg/7fJSZ5D <<

To set the record straight, and clear things up -- I work with two computers. Astoria (beefy desktop computer) and Virago (laptop)

For some Eff'n reason, that even people that work in software engineering background, couldn't figure out, Astoria will NOT play nice with Paint tool Sai, and I use sai because I'm comfortable with it, and I know how it works.
That's key to being a good artist, knowing how to use your tools.

Virago, however can run sai, but is smaller, older and not as powerful... I no longer move the old girl around because I don't know how much longer she has left to live ...

Okay If it's not obvious by now I anthropomorphize important objects. Which isn't a weird practice to do. It shows a level of care you have for something. Some humans don't treat each other like living creatures... but I'm getting off topic...)

So, my solution- because, I'm a stubborn gentleman bastard, who has to do things on his own, I made a cloud system of backups and organization - a Network... The metaphorical Base of operations of Team S3 as it were...

The purpose of this journal is to keep you guys - my fans - in the know of what's going on. I want to be honest and transparent with everything I do. Because, you Lords and Ladies are worth it. You mean the world to me.

This is just a quick journal that won't be the featured one -- that's still the commission list. don't worry... That thing is still there aimed at me like a revolver with the hammer pulled back...


But I was wondering, with the speed of technology advancing and how I seem to keep missing out on what is new and in style at the moment, is there any furry voice chat hubs? I can't survive on only talking to you guys once or twice a year... it's not healthy. And I don't want to interact with kids that just want to shoot each other and open loot crates. I need to find something that isn't a frigg'n 'job' like an mmo but can allow me to be social.

My philosophy is:
If you want something done, do it yourself.
If you can't do it yourself, ask someone who can help,
And if no one can help, learn how to help.

GamiCross#9234

Good evening my Lords & Ladies -- Just a heads up on my commissions and current work load:


[Razoth] - Character Sheet + Icon

[Mavi] - Bowser / Mavi -- Mavi +1 character

[Araclast] - Character +1 "Looping the Connection"

[Schinschi] - 2 pic WestMeetsEastRumpus

[togepi1125] - by this point it's just going to be a new image since my style has changed so much

[Dasaki] - Character +1 "Rammed"

[Kalo] - Krystal Ride)

[Mewtwo] - 2 Badge images + LGD




LARGE PROJECTS:

MOTHERFUCKING [ O M N I G E D D O N ] BWAAAAAHHH!!!

[The Gaminomicon]
[Satosuke + Sharess Comic]
[Future YCH] "Center of Attention"

Any I missed are on old HDs that are being reallocated to a new Cloud system of backups and will be added as their project files are found. My entire work system and Patreon is being reworked to speed up the overall system. This operation is called 'Sparkback' if you ever hear me refer to it. It's been a plan I've been working on since October to bring myself back from death, restart my Hierarchy of Needs homeostasis, reestablish contacts, and make sure I'm healthy enough to show up to Anthrocon for the first REAL time as 'myself'...

While this might not seem like anything to an outside observer, this is the most ambitious, daunting task I've ever devoted myself to from my point of view, so it's make or break time for this Grei. Ready or Not - Let's Rock.

---- J O I N TeamS3 D I S C O R D ----
>> https://discord.gg/7fJSZ5D <<

Geezum crow! Oh, my Lords and Ladies - it has been one HELL of an epic journey to get to this point, but I'M BACK!

After months of finalizing research, I have finished an 8 year personal quest of my own to - in essence, find absolute harmony with myself - to become a Body as One & a Mind of One. To be completely and utterly in control of my body and mind. It's required a monumental amount of self sacrifice, and support from friends who have seemingly unlimited amounts of patience in helping a friend in need... But here we are.

I have my goals locked in and I know where my life will lead me now. My erotica I create for all of you will never cease because it's what brings me the greatest joy in my life, to know I can make some of you happy and relieve some of the burdens of stress from your lives. My pace will be more methodical and less chaotic as I acclimate to a new system, and all of you waiting on commissions, don't worry, I'm working down the line on them and with luck we're looking at one upload a day.

The Patreon site will be getting more content from sketches and WIPs, and will now be the new home of my developing creation - my own universe of a series I'm calling "Sanity Sold Separately" - a story about a motley crew of losers set out to find purpose in their life by throwing themselves at fate and seeing what sticks. The universe of S3 will not contain any humans, only a vast array of non cliche anthropomorphic races, namely the Grei. The aesthetic tone of the world will be roughly like those of Cowboy Bebop, Trigun, The IDW Transformers MTMTE series, Firefly, Star Wars Rogue, Gurren Lagann and Voltron. I'm not saying this will be an animated series or a game or anything yet, just that it's going to be what I'm focusing on creating from this day onward (on top of yanno... drawing erotica for you duders)

SO yeah-- I'm sorry I made all of you worry and tested your patience with me, but I'm back my loves, and here's hoping I'll never leave you wanting ever again.

-Gami Cross
Team S3

Right right... I realize it's been a while.


which is in itself a colossal understatement, but how was I to know that my body was not ready to handle not only seasonal but climate, dietary and I'm pretty sure I'm bumbling around with something on the quantum level...

Short of it is - Yer lil Gami has been through the fucking wringer, lads... they've shot me with everything in the time honored tradition of pay-for-healthcare called "Throw it at the wall and see what sticks".

And what would be the end of the story for most people, I did my homework, and reminded myself that I have a bunch of horny fans that need someone to illicit feelings they never knew they had and passions they thought were forgotten...

Gimmie 2 weeks... And this Grei is gonna rock this place like it was 2006 with the style of 1986!]]


Feel free to scream at me and tell me to get back to drawing @ Telegram GamiCross

>> Treat people like you would treat a wild horse.
You can care for it, bond with it, love it, even help with it's breeding.
But don't be surprised if it kicks you in the face if it doesn't trust you or give consent.

Alright lads and ladies-- the move is complete, and now it's just the process of finding doctors and whatnots to get medications and all the other pill form patchworks to hold together the torn mental anal sphincter that is our psyche from the constant onslaught of information and to focus it into a harmonious way of generating at least half assed unique erotica and stress relief visual material

BUT- Before I get into a more verbose onslaught of titillating endeavors, I need ... A THING.

I am looking for someone who can help me construct a 3D model of Gami's face... I want to get my Chimera Demon's visage set in digital stone - to have a reference to pull from and even 3D print to feel (Remember, dear sweetlings, this artist has a 3D mapping memory when he TOUCHES things, not when he sees them.)

SO!! As if I wasn't an esoteric eccentric caricature of Erotica Willy Wonka enough already, I ask to you all out there of the next generation of 3D visual constructors to show me.... ME.

(And to Really make this weird I might just record myself saying all this- anyone who's heard me knows they're in for something awesome XD

WALL OF FACES!

Good evening my Lords and Ladies -

Above all with my fans, I want to keep a level of transparency - regardless of my ability to constantly contact with people -- OR WORSE -- a lot of my fans NOT being on FurAffinity.

In the psychological tradition that I know using bulletpoints makes items more appealing to the reader I won't waste your time in any long winded prose:

> August 9th I'll be traveling to my new place of residence for a while (won't move there for permanent until November)

> I realize I have commissions to do - I'm an empathetic creature and have no intention of not completing any of the images - HOWEVER each of the paid commissions - I consider to be VERY complex and detailed images that require my free time to work on -- So if you see something like -- Lucario or a Koopa erotica uploaded, that's because they're designs I have in my mind and can do within minutes, and upload them to keep you fans happy with new stuff.

>My Patreon will be updated constantly with sketches of Rule 34 stuff and the like in the meantime -- Just because I can't set aside dedicated time to learn a clients character design, mental structure of their situation and the passionate ideas they hold for the illustration, doesn't mean I'm not going to try all I can to keep giving you guys fap material.

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Summary? Living this modest life I have right now, and having all of you as my loved fans is the greatest thing I could ever ask for... I have friends that work in fields that have fans in the millions, but I don't envy them. I talked to a few of you at Anthrocon and told me things about how my artwork influenced them in positive ways-- and...
While I kept a straight face during that night, I've never cried harder in happiness...
I'm doing everything I can to move my life away from the ghosts of my past into a place that will let me fully be 'myself'. Think of someone making the leap of a transgender change-- but in my case- it doesn't involve changing gender. (hell, those of you have seen me- I'm already a mixed bag of what gender I am XD )

I love all of you lords and ladies, and am trying everything I can to make me better at giving you all not only the standard content, but hopefully branch into 3D work...

-- Gami Cross
SanitySoldSeparately

From now until November, I'm going to be working on moving to a new home with a friend~

Ontop of that, I'm having problems getting Sai to work on my main computer, and my current roommate is falling behind on being able to fulfill his end of rent.

Sai works on my laptop but isn't allowing me to do high resolution images.

Any help with donations or assistance would be more than appreciated.

I'm going to try to fulfill commissions and upload some old unfinished sketches in the meantime.

Again - any donations or financial help is more than welcome. Show your compassion and try to help out your friendly neighborhood smut artist that gave you all artwork decades ago that gave you all fap material that gave you erotic fantasies to all your suppressed animalistic kinks.

I've been out of town for the past few weeks and have had my attentions in other places than online- I should be getting back home this Monday (25th)

I'm so sorry I haven't been able to respond to you guys in Notes or on Telegram as properly as I should - You guys make who I am so I felt it necessary to make it clear I wasn't ignoring you lovelies.

I'll be back in a few days!

(PS: "Just listen to what the other person is saying or doing... and give it a push..."

I'm still learning the new ABSOLUTE FUCKING BEAST my boyfriend made me so I haven't learned how to stream YET, but as a small recompense - my Patreon just got 3 new WIP commission images uploaded to it!

I have a significant number of images standing on the precipice of completion, but I had to make a decision, and it's the more adult (in more ways than one) choice and will unfortunately delay my work for that time, but be patient my loves~

For in the next week or two I'm going to be constructing a center that will finally allow me to not only stream my artwork, but game with you, do 3D projects and so much more...

I want to go into so much more detail but until everything has happened and it's set in stone, it feels that just whispering it's existence like this is enough to cause it to vanish... But when it does, you dears will know!

I am so resolute and determined to be beyond what I am now -- and this is the first steps.

Gami Cross, Founder of S3 - SanitySoldSeparately

This is the beginning of my new life, and all of you I not just consider fans, but my family- so I feel it's my duty to try to help you all out with any problems you have, and first and foremost is me learning what I can about all of you. Establishing your looks and personality in my mind so I never forget you (and because the worst part of having lives online is that it's so minimalistic in icons and typing that it's hard to 'remember' people without building strong impressions-- And I want to properly remember all of you. Nothing is worse than feeling like you're not remembered.

I want to start you off by helping any of you feel better, showing you all how to make your body feel better and helping out any way I can.

As it is right now I'm kinda weak financially, but when it comes to knowing the mind, body, philosophy and how to make someone feel better about themselves you'll never find someone better and more willing to help.

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A quick bit of backstory:
My biological birth name isn't important, The name I go by is Gami Cross.

I was concieved on valentines day between an engineer named James Artz and an artist in the navy called Lynn Burgress- the father didn't want me and the mother gave me up for adoption to an elderly man and a simple southern woman- they tried their best to raise me as best they could but in the limited knowledge of the early 80s, raised me like sort of pet or small adult rather than a child, my immune system was compromised by them never understanding how to properly medicate a young body and kinda resulted in me not growing properly and making me look quite feminine in my 30s.

In a private christan school I was told my artwork talents were evil and not something proper christians should do - so I rebelled privately and hid my real personality away in my artwork and never let people IRL get to me or know the real me. I existed in MMO's like EverQuest and in my comic that involved my friends and pop culture for well over 8 thousand pages. I experimented sexually with tomboy girls looking to experiment with later with friends and fans of my artwork I met online. But I continued to never live 'as myself'.

After Y2K, 9/11 and the the entire world going crazy, I regressed into depression and drinking, continuing to believe events irl didn't exist and diving headlong into into a night job of security and existing where people didn't live or bother me.
I only existed online and almost died several times from the abuse my body had to endure as I refused to take care of it.


In June of 2017 Dementia started to take my foster father and the people I was living with with were pushing me away to seek their own lives-- I couldn't figure out why they didn't know I wasn't the person I was irl- that I was the kind person that existed online... it wasn't until my foster father died that all my attempts of learning neurology biology and psychology came together in a collapsed wreckage of my psyche that I learned my body was so damaged and that my mind barely functioned and I quickly began to rebuild my mind and body as fast as I could to avoid dying just like he had...

In less than a month I pulled up from the nosedive of absolute depression and staring at the brink of destruction into accepting and understanding what it meant to be a human, to think for myself and love others.

And... as hard as it was, it was the most exciting thing I've ever done.

I have so many friends I have to introduce myself to, so many friends and loved ones that I owe it to, to repay them for helping make me.


My name is Gami Cross - I created myself.
I am a mind of one and a body as one. I don't know what I do not know, but I understand failure is something you should learn from, and most importantly- Life is given, but Sanity is Sold Separately.

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EDIT 01:
Thank you all for what you've all said so far -- If you need to talk to me or want to share anything or ask for advice I'm more than willing to help and talk with you. I TRY to answer messages on FA's PMs, but the easiest way to get ahold of me is on Telegram @ GamiCross.
Team S3 (Stands for SanitySoldSeparately) is a group I have on Telegram of friends I consider my family - they're the ones I always refer to in my artwork. I'm always looking to expand my family and more than willing to add people to it if you're like-minded or just need some extra friends to talk to.

My roommate Sirinoth has just got himself a new job and that's helping us both let me focus on getting better at my artwork and eventually I'll get something stronger than my weak laptop so I can stream artwork on OBS / Twitch and talk to all of you.
Just trying to stay positive and focus on being the adorable Androgynous Grei artist you guys need me to be and keep you guys entertained and satisfied!

I was thinking of making this a comic that showed graphic examples of this--
>however I decided against it in favor of working on images of my paying clients ---

But here's the idea I have- to poise to you guys:
(And, by all means, please give your opinions on it below.)


>> Imagine if your mother walked into your room -- You had a poster of the Black Swordsman 'Guts' From Berserk swinging his gigantic sword through a bunch of demons. The horrific monsters are torn apart by the sharp slab of metal, spraying crimson into the air, their guts spilling and bones breaking. Corpses of their victims behind them as a horde of more monsters rushes the swordsman. -- Would she or your father have any opinion on the poster? What about if a younger sibling saw it?

Now then -- with that said, what if there was a poster next to it with a happy beautiful lady in a field of flowers and a bright piercing blue sky. She wore no top, her breasts shining bright against the sunlight and her perspiration.

All of you can imagine how your parents would react to things, so how would they react to each poster?

... Sadly I can guess what the majority of the answers will be. -- And that is something I continue to question every day of my life, and more so every day that I became an individual adult...


Those skimming to the bottom of this journal looking for the point, I'll end this with a question and a request -- Why are the things society has set upon us become something that dictates our life into something that refuses to let our humanity experience happiness?
So my request to all of you who call yourselves fans of my art and messages -- Don't strike out and do something that would disrupt others view of the world-- but in your own internalized minds - the universe that is your existence - question what you were told by those who had outdated ignorant views...
Imagine the perspective of the world in other views... Regardless of if a view seems too easy or pleasing and you think it's too good to be true, try it out... It is possible to be too cynical and shut the world out from moments that are truly happy.

Don't wait until it's too late in your life. Imagine reality in your own eyes. Don't take the words of those you grew up with as truth.

I love you all, and continue to wish happiness for you all.

Gami Cross.

EDIT: To those wondering- I was raised by foster parents who had a very strict biblical outlook on life, and doubly so the school I went to always threatened and mocked me that I was secretly drawing porn.
But any time I drew violence or gore, no one batted an eye... Those people were okay with me watching Robocop and 80s horror movies --
but when a music tape had hints of talking about sexuality or a movie showed showed a couple in love-- that was the breaking point.

I remember being on a bus for a school trip and Monty Python's Quest for the Holy Grail was playing-- teachers were okay with the whole movie --UP until the Castle Anthrax scene. THEN IT WAS EVIL AS ALL FUCK!!!

Happy Valentines Day...


To those of you with a special someone that you would do anything for and has become someone so close to you, that your bond still causes the flutters of butterflies as your body is filled with Oxytocin and endorphins, I wish you continual happiness and that your passions never cease.

To those like myself - try to stay strong for yourself, realize the pain is a chemical reaction of oxytocin withdrawal and I empathize with you through tear filled eyes at the pain loneliness and hopelessness in this timeline you have to unfairly endure.

If money and distance were not a factor, I am sure an unfathomable amount of us would be able to find happiness - But until then, care for yourself, love yourself and better yourself for others. Strive to do the impossible, and never second guess your gut instinct to tell someone how you feel. They may be wishing for the same, but one of you has to be the brave one to take the first step.

With love, respect and passion-
Gami Cross.

I apologize for the long hiatus of artwork and content, but ever since June of last year, my adoptive father had been battling 2 forms of cancer and dementia.

I got to see him one last time - but on January 18th he passed away.


He was the most hardass no-nonsense stern faced battleaxe of a father. And he made me capable of withstanding the worst the world can throw at me. As much as I mourn my father, I want to comfort my mother who is going to move back to Alabama with her sisters.

I have quite a number of commissions already done and waiting to be uploaded but if you're a fan of mine you know I have to throw my passion into each release and description -- and I'm just not feeling at top form right now. Things will get back to normal, but I'm just asking you to bear with me. Nothing hurts more than seeing your mother crying.

“No one is actually dead until the ripples they cause in the world die away...”

― Terry Pratchett, Reaper Man

https://twitter.com/GamiCross/status/956717239109083136

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Any donations or help for my mother would be appreciated and reciprocated with artwork - Paypal is GamiCross[at]gmail.com -- The memorial will be on the 25th of February. He's cremated and has a full Air Force Honors stand and flag.

Firstly, I know there's a bit of art I still owe for the last while and I want to apologize to everyone with how long it's taken. Due to some complications things have been a bit slow going, but I'm making sure to chip away at things one step at a time. Honestly, I think for many of us, 2017 has been a pretty sucky year all around and as bad as it has been though, time inexorably marches on, dragging us kicking and screaming along with it. That said, I want to go over some goals for the new year:

I know it's been kinda rough and patchy with updates and I do plan on fixing that to bring more content than ever to all of my watchers. So expect the next year to have more updates, whether it be artwork, journals, or other (possibly) fun things. In the coming months, I hope to keep a more regular update schedule, and even if there's a shortage of art I will attempt to at least write more journals to keep everyone up to speed with life in general so I don't come across as some spectre that shows up every few months only to vanish again for no apparent reason.

In addition, I have started to make more use of the Patreon page I started ages back, and will continue to do so. And before you start to worry, no, I do not intend to use patreon as a paywall to block off my content. The vast majority of my finished content will still be posted here with exception to a few patreon exclusive perks. Some examples:

-Getting exclusive look at sketches of unfinished/uncompleted work
-Getting to see the WIP of current or ongoing projects
-Seeing the release of finished projects up to two weeks before anyone else.

Again, i want to stress this will NOT be used to gate off finished works, any project that is completed will still be posted here, so everyone will still be able to enjoy the content. The difference comes down to, instead of going to a restaurant, waiting half an hour for your food, and enjoying the meal, those who help support me via Patreon get a Kitchen table, where they can see the prep work, and the food being cooked and plated before being served their steak. If that sounds like something people might be interested in I would highly appreciate it. For those interested, my patreon link can be found on my user page, or can be found here https://www.patreon.com/GamiCross .

And a final shout out to all of my viewers: words cannot adequately convey how appreciative I am of those who have stuck with me and helped support me in the good times as well as the bad, and those who will be there to help support me in the future, and those who are simply there letting me know that what I do has meaning.

All I can say, to every one of you, is thank you.

Time to whore my talents to make ends meet again.

The contusion to my leg and sprained quad muscles are almost healed to the point I can put weight on it (Still have popping tendon when standing GHH!) So, almost capable of going back to work -- But until then:

COMMISSIONS OPEN *microphone feedback*

Contact me via Telegram: GamiCross.

OKAY SHEESH gimmie a second guys hehe -- Sorting through the lineup and shortly I'll have a list of the commissions here, if I don't immediately contact you, I'm only Grei, I'll answer it when I can, I'm not ignoring ya!

IN PROGRESS
> Togepi1125 - Fox & Falco City Renovation Project (line/color)
> Dasaki - Pretty Birdie Appreciation (line/color/shading)
> Auviere - sketch

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WAITING LIST
> (Still putting together)

I'm trying to figure out how to create myself a portfolio to show how proficient I am in voice acting... Here's a short sample of what I'm capable of...

> The Omnigeddon Pathfinder Campaign

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Drunk Raza & Zicaw
Scouting the Red Dragon Caves

Eddie Mome The Soybien Spy
Eddie Mome's Magic Show 01
Eddie Mome's Magic Show 02

> Night in the Woods

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NITW - Intro
NITW - Gregg's Naked Adventures


> Random

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The Stand King's Bizarre Adventure

Gami - Otterly Horrible

GENERAL VOICE EXPO

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And yes, while my leg is healing and I'm out of a job, I'm more than willing to do any voice work for any project provided it gives me a means of paying bills.