Hello everyone!

My last work day at work was yesterday and I'll be unemployed for a little bit. One of my friends seemed to be interested in me starting commissions so I wanted to ask you all if you'd be interested in getting a commission from me. I won't be starting immediately as I need to get back into drawing and re-build skill connections but after that I should be good. Let me know what prices you'd think you'd pay for something from me.

I don't expect a lot (or any) of feedback here, but any is welcome. I appreciate you taking the time to read this.

Warm Regards,
Nekot

Hello, sorry if I haven't replied to a message you may have sent me. Just recently got a new computer and tried logging into bluesky on it and noticed that they're blocking access to it in my state. I could get a vpn or whatever but I really don't want to, so if you're trying to get a hold of me and I'm not replying that's why.

Hello!

I figured I'd make one of these posts after noticing that there wasn't a bsky link available on my page. Also! Sorry for not uploading lately, just been really busy with stuff.

Bluesky: https://bsky.app/profile/nekotthebrave.bsky.social
Twitter: https://x.com/NekotTheArtist
DeviantArt: https://www.deviantart.com/nekot-the-brave
Weasyl: https://www.weasyl.com
Discord: nekot_the_brave (Please don't randomly add me or message me saying "hi", please state who you are and why you're adding/messaging me otherwise I"ll ignore it)

I've got a few more places, note me if you're curious if I'm also somewhere where I haven't stated.

Thanks!

*** Look at gallery before noting me or responding to journal please, this is so you don't waste both of our times***

Opening fatfur digital art requests.

I want to draw your fat characters. Please reference my gallery regarding what I draw, what I'm willing to draw will not deviate much from that. If you don't see a particular kink in my gallery, the answer is likely no.

No hyper, vore, blob, etc.

Might be able to draw your regular characters too if you really want that. Multiple characters is okay. Background is okay (will be likely depend on my enthusiasm towards the request). No comic panels. Repeat requests is okay to a degree but they must respect the rules above each time. If I don't find the particular drawing appropriate for my audience, I will not post it to my gallery (you're free to do whatever with it though). Can be SFW or NSFW, but if it is a licensed character (e.g. Mickey Mouse, Pikachu), SFW is only acceptable and I'll likely not be posting it to my gallery.

If you're interested, please note me or reply to this journal.

*** Look at gallery before noting me or responding to journal please, this is so you don't waste both of our times***

Hello.

I'm currently making a 3D Dungeon Crawler game, and I've been trying to phase out my default assets with new stuff that's thematically related to my project. I've been having an incredibly hard time finding much though on various websites like the Unreal, Unity, and Godot asset store or on websites like Etsy or DeviantArt since I'm trying to find stuff that people made that isn't AI-Generated.

Specifically what I'm looking for are an assortment of 512x512 or 256x256px fantasy portraits of various races (humans, elves, dwarves, etc.) that isn't pixel art (as that's not my aesthetic). Doesn't have to be realistic could be stylized.

If I still can't find stuff after a couple of months, I'm open to commissions, but I need to find someone who'd do these at less than $25/portrait (probably up to 30 portraits), so if you have someone you'd recommend, please let me know who they are, but don't engage with them for me because I'm not ready to commit to that at this moment.

Thanks ahead of time,
Nekot

So I haven't been using twitter lately, and I'm unsure if I should be using it.

I originally stopped using it like a month or two ago when the owner's anti-trans rhetoric was causing potential harm to the people that I knew, so I just forbade myself from using it anymore if it was going to continue going that way. But then they introduce that "inactivity" timer thing and I'm afraid of my stuff getting deleted because some dumbass said "this is a good idea". Not that I have a big following on twitter anyways, and only ever get a smidge of traction (like any views at all) if I'm retweeted by my friends. I'm just wondering what I should do, and how you all feel about what's going on. Like, I'm not sure if still using twitter is poor form to show support to my friends, and what I should do about the account deletion thing.

I'm doing okay otherwise, school semester is up and I posted the game I worked on, on my artstation.

On a side note, read previous journal regarding requests. I'm also open to some wg rps, info on my profile.

Hello everyone, I'm still open for requests with a few conditions. I'd like to draw stuff related to what I draw in my gallery, so I expect that before you ask for a request, that you look at my gallery and understand what to expect. I feel like my gallery is a good indication of what I do and don't draw.

I may still accept requests that may be outside of what I normally draw under the requirements that I like what you're proposing or think that it might be a good challenge for me. I still have the right to refuse any requests that make me uncomfortable. Until I state that I'm specifically working on your request (e.g. acknowledgement that I accepted your request criteria), don't expect anything from me. If you read this and still want a request please reply with "I have read your journal and want a request." exactly in a note to me, then we can work out details.

In requests, to be clear of stuff that I'm not willing to draw (not exhaustive): Modifications of cartoon creatures and characters, Hyper, Scat, excessive Gore, and other things that might be brought up when pitching your idea.

I prefer to communicate via Discord for requests, but notes are alright as long as notes have some substance to them regarding what you want (please don't ask me if I'm okay or whatever if you're actually wanting an update on something, I'd prefer you just as the question)

Meant to do this but stuff.

Anyways, I had a really fun time at TFF. I got to meet some friends and had a really nice time overall. I only made it to 2/4 days that I was there though cus of some dissociation problems which prevented me from being able to attend those days, but the days that I did go to were really fun. The dance parties that I went to were really great as well and I had a lot of fun dancing to the songs that they were playing, which was better than the other times that I went to TFF by far x3. The dance competition was also really fun and there were sooo many people in that auditorium =P. I had a blast watching the dancers and really felt that emotion when the one fur with the flag spinning type dance (the one with the white drapes, you know which one I'm talking about) was on stage, made me tear up a bit because that's just what I do sometimes lol. I also went to a couple of writing panels (usually headed up by Kyell Gold) and got really good insight and inspiration to write and stuff. Also it was the first time that I got introduced to Kyell Gold proper, since I usually just kind of gloss over the subject matter of whatever artwork I'm looking at, and I bought a few of his books on my kindle which I started reading and enjoying. The fursuit parade was nice as well, I made sure to film it using the correct (landscape) orientation this time and may upload it sometime. Dunno x3.

Overall it was a nice vacation and I'm looking forward to going back next year, or going to a different con or something. I had been 2 years dry for a con for whatever reason, so it was refreshing to go back to one and be able to do whatever I wanted to do.

Let me know if you guys want me to draw something for you, just hopefully stuff that I'm comfortable with is all that I ask. You can look at my favs/gallery for an idea of what I'm comfortable with.

Warm Regards,
Nekot

So, as you've probably seen, there's been a lot of changes that have been going on around my account, my activity, and other stuff. There's some pretty good reasons behind this, and I feel like it's okay to share them with you guys in case you're all wondering why I'm doing 'x' or whatever.

So I've been dealing with mental illness for a long time, in specific, I suffer from Bipolar 1 and have some dissociation disorder. For a long time, I've had the depression part of my BPD kinda treated, I guess, but I was never really able to get the mania part of BPD looked at very well because it's... well... it's not like 'bad', you know? Whenever I had a manic episode, I was able to DO things. I was able to complete projects and whatever; but I'd also suffer from all sorts of other shit while under a manic episode, like convulsing and having feelings that I didn't want (i.e. smiling euphorically and not being able to stop). So I went to the doctor and expressed my concerns in regards to my manic episodes that were fresh in my mind at the time and she prescribed me a low dose of Quetiapine (which didn't do anything at all at the time, basically) and told me to go find a psychiatrist. So I procrastinated on that for a very long time. And so I end up playing this game called 'Night In The Woods', and the main characters in that game suffer from some of the same stuff that I do, and I was able to relate a lot to the characters in the game, and it made me 'feel'. At the time, I tended to hang on to things that make me 'feel', because I've never really been normal or had normal feelings, so these were always unique experiences for me. I later learned that the main character/PC, Mae, also suffers from a type of Dissociation disorder; which after looking into that (thanks Kotaku), I was able to finally diagnose a particular disorder that I had been suffering from for like 9 years. Dissociation. So, after reading about how to deal with it, I learned that it could be caused by trauma that I experienced in the past, kinda like PTSD; and so I chose to look into my past and, attempt to unfold things that I packed away. This caused me great distress, distress that I'm currently feeling right now, and distress that attacks me at any point in time where I read or hear about anyone being raped, bullied, assaulted, or whatever. I wrote a poem about it, http://fav.me/dbk34an, and this was the very first time that I told anyone, other than the school counselor mentioned in the poem, about this incident. This was my raw feelings copied directly to 'paper', or in this case, a digital poem. I wrote this at work. I didn't care, I just needed to get it out. Now everyone knows, and it's okay. I started drawing Night in the Woods fanart because, because I wanted to. Because I wanted to do this, and it made me feel happy. So, while I was drawing and unpacking these feelings, I finally scheduled an appointment with a psychiatrist, and when I got to see her the first time, I laid out all the details that I could. She diagnosed me with Bipolar 1, which was the only diagnosis that I've ever gotten for that, despite knowing that I've had it for multiple years, and she also diagnosed me with a type of Dissociation disorder after I told her (due to self-research) that I had depersonalization episodes. She increased the dosage of my Quetiapine to 100mg, and asked me to, after two weeks, to increase the dosage to 150mg. At 100mg, I could feel things start changing, but then Hurricane Harvey hit, and I was whisked way by work for business continuity purposes. But at that time, after work each day (I got switched from nights to work days for the time being) I got 'home' (aka, hotel), and I wanted to draw, and it made me happy to draw. It made me feel good, it made me feel something that I hadn't felt in... i don't even know. I felt passion. I felt... normal. Like... my feelings were natural, not artificial. It felt great. Then, we went home. Luckily, I didn't lose anything. Like zero damage what-so-ever, despite this being a catastrophic hurricane that totally screwed with everyone else (my team lead lost basically everything). And so, it came to around 2 weeks since I started the 100mg of Quetiapine, and so I upped the dosage to 150mg. This literally knocked me out for 2 days, I wasn't really prepared for the side effects that happened and had to take off work because I literally couldn't. But after that, everything was fine. I started trying to draw everyday, and my choice of subject has mainly been Night in the Woods fanart, because it's really helped me, and I'll continue to draw fanart for this fantastic game. But overall, everything has just gotten better. I'm actually motivated to do things, Like, I want to do things and I can actually do them. This is a totally new experience for me. I'm also like, re-learning all of my emotions because I've basically just been null for the past... way too long. No feelings, no emotions, no nothing. So yeah, I'm dealing with all of this new stuff; so I'm going to post vent art, I'm going to say shit, I'm going to care, I'm going to do what I want to do. Because I can actually do it now. There's nothing stopping me; and right now I'm just doing what I can, and that's drawing, working, participating in the wonderful Night In the Woods discord, and dealing with my traumatic experiences in the past. Unfortunately this also leaves me open to feeling those emotions in the past, which is just required for me to move on and grow. One of the nights in the past few weeks, someone on the NITW discord posted up a song, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ye5SS1jmM18, with the quote "this song makes me cry", and I listened to it and it resonated so deeply with me that it caused me to have a dissoiative episode which resulted in harm done to myself and some walls in my apartment building. I hadn't had one of these, in like... a long time, 4 years perhaps? Ever since I moved from where my parents were living. So, it affected me a little bit more than 'usual' because I forgot how I dealt with these, because back then, it was a pretty common occurrence (and luckily no one but myself ever got hurt). I'm not going to explain what goes on, even though I have it fully documented, simply because I need to actually talk to my psychiatrist (who's also acting as my therapist) about it, and will do that tomorrow when I see her. But in anycase, I decided to draw some stuff about it and I've been trying to get better and stuff with art and have been looking at new ways to expand my skill set and bring ideas to live. But yeah, that's generally what's been going on with me, and that's partly why I choose to draw Night In the Woods fanart and stuff, because it's helped me and I'm going through a whole lot of stuff right now. I really appreciate the support that you guys give.

I'll be there on a work trip with no particular plan, if you're going and want to meet up with me, feel free to ping me here and we can get some details. I'll be I'll be I think.. in Ballys from Thursday to Sunday.

So I'm going be be opening up requests (well, officially, it's not like I would have turned someone down if someone asked me).

The reason for this is that I'm having trouble doing art because I don't have anybody to hold me accountable for anything that I'm doing. So I'd like for someone to hold me accountable to for something that I'm offering (i.e. requests).

So, if you want something, feel free to ask. Two week turn around minimum. It can be as complex as you want it but needs to be of a digital nature (no traditional art this time).

List of things that I'm able to do (not conclusive both sfw and nsfw):
Pixel Art (maybe pixel animation, but I'll need to re-learn how to do this),
Digital drawings (sketches, full color drawings, etc.),
Digital paintings (painterly style),
Writing (fanfic, erotica, ref sheets, etc.),
Digital Reference Sheets

I'll let you know if I'm not comfortable with anything that you send me.

Please NOTE me your requests here.

So, my last journal was over a year old and kind of needs to be refreshed.

Work sucks, but it's been better than my last job. Hopefully it'll get better when we get a new shift schedule, The one I'm on right now isn't very good, even if on paper it doesn't sound bad, but they are changing it soon.

I've been trying to work on art, but work has been killing my motivation to do anything other than just to recover from work, and I hope to change that and work on more art.

Looking forward to the new Nvidia GTX 1080, probably going to pick one up when it comes out.

So, for the past 2 months I've been unemployed. I lost my job at my previous employer during a merger with their (larger) sister company. So I've been pretty depressed and stuff about that, but for the past few weeks things have been really picking up, pretty much to the point where I was having interviews, possibly several, every single week day. That took up a lot of time and I haven't had much time to work on artwork and things. Though, I have been working on creating concept art for a game under the project name 'Cascade'. I hope to release some of that concept art and 3d models at a later date (maybe not the 3d models, as I might not have permission to post that type of project asset).

But everything in the past week has changed a lot of things. I got an offer that I accepted for a job in Houston, Texas for 70k/yr with some pretty awesome benefits, a lot better than my last job (both in pay and benefits). So, I'm really excited about that, and I am moving to Texas this Saturday and starting my new job on Monday.

I'm also going to do a lot more artwork that I'll be posting here. Not all of it is going to be good, I'm just letting you guys know that so that you're not going to be immediately disappointed with the quality or something. I'm going to work on trying to get 2 to 3 pieces of artwork done per week. They may or may not be digital. But, I've been thinking and I kind of really want to be a good artist, like someone who is at least somewhat known around the table. The only way to do this is to take what you do by storm, and do as much as you can and try as hard as you can to improve. Sometimes I forget that, that, you have to push yourself beyond what you think you are capable of to become something that you really want. So I'll be working a really hard on my artwork and such when I get to Texas. I'm really looking forward to it.

Anyways, I just wanted to give you guys an update since things have change a bit since my last journal and things.

~Nekot

I'm a bit short on money for the month and am opening commissions for this month only.

I'll do traditional art commissions only, you can choose if you want to have your art physically delivered to you or not, but that will cost a bit extra for packaging and shipping.


$55 - Full color mixed media scene w/background
$40 - Full color mixed media character poses
$25 - Pencil scene w/background
$20 - Pencil character poses
$10 - Pencil sketches

Scene = Up to 5 characters (or more depending on complexity) acting out something, say like a battle, or exploring ruins, or hanging out at a house.
Character poses = Up to 5 characters acting out/posing themselves with no background (2 friends hugging, etc.)
Sketches = Rough line sketch that may or may not be shaded of up to 5 characters.

I'm open to doing anything, but I will tell you if I'm not willing to do something. I'm not sure what that is though.

Please note me about commissions and questions about payment. I only take Paypal or Bitcoin

~Nekot

Maybe Kemo is or isn't gay. Who knows? But what I do know, is that FA admins are going to shut down site registrations really soon.

I've got a playlist on youtube that I'll be adding to that you guys might like: http://www.youtube.com/playlist?lis.....7v-Z5tJof2bgfQ

It's kind of like a chill, with the exception of Freeloader, but that's just cus I like that song x3. Had to include it *giggles*.

But I thought you might want to give it a listen to in case you like any of the songs there.

Thanks,
~Nekot