Hey all!

So, I'm attending Bronycon this year~ If anybody wants to like, hang with a Pata and the like - 3-.

..... There's not much else to say on the matter ^^;

Hey guys~

Thanks to a certain benefactor, I'm going to be heading up tomorrow to the New Years Fur Ball in Deleware~ So if you're going, you should like, see me! And we could like hang out or something~

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A good friend of mine asked me to pick him up from the airport and stuff because he's coming to Bronycon this year, and I figured "Hell, I guess I could do that too!".

So, if any of yoooooooooou guys are going to this, you could actually meet the REAL Neo! That's crazy, right? <3

Hey guys~

I'm playing the Stalk Market in Animal Crossing, and I need help making a huge profit on it! I need to know any prices above 101~ preferably in the 200 range or more~ I bought 4000 turnips~

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Please, post yours so you can visit Elysium~

Hello fellow scribes and audience~ I have a couple of announcements about this years National Poetry Writing Month challenge!

I wanted to announce that this year I'm going to implement two special cases for certain daily challenges!

Firstly, Wednesdays in April will be Found Poetry Days, where I will construct a poem using the "Found Poem" method of taking some written work, prose or otherwise, and constructing a poem from its words as closely to their original use as possible. At first, this may not sound as interesting as it could be, but I made a found poem I adored from using text from A Clockwork Orange for Creative Writing (I've been meaning to post the works from that class :S)

Second, Sundays in April will be Poetry Revision Days. With the amount of poetry I have amassed through this challenge alone, I have a LOT of material that could be considered good, but not great. I'd love to use this opportunity to get votes from you guys to which poem each week I should revise. I'll post a few links for suggestions, or you could suggest your own revision work from my collection of NaPoWriMo poems (only NaPoWriMo works please).

Lastly, I plan on getting a tumblr account and starting to submit my works to that medium as well. This'll mean anybody could access my poetry via either FA, IB, or tumblr. This'll give me the chance to share works without blasting the idea that I'm a furry to people |3;;...

Thank you all again for watching me!

As far as commissions go... Well... This is kind of the reason I didn't take payment :S I haven't forgotten, I'm just found myself incredibly busy yet still. I'm so sorry for the unacceptable delay :S

Sorry for the lack of activity here on FA guys (besides me faving porn everyday and other unspeakable things). It seems its about time that I write poetry once again!

I won't lie, I've been busier than ever lately, so I haven't put much thought into what to do this year yet, except for maybe something with quotes. I had an idea last night that the majority of my poems this year will be inspired by either random or famous quotes - maybe even taking in some of your guys' favorite/personal quotes and working with them! We'll see how that goes~

I have to work on some projects and homework this morning, so you'll see me post in the evenings as usual...

Thank you all who have been so loyal and kept up with me all these years, and cheers to my 6th NaPoeWriMo!

Yeaaaa, 3/3 is a Pata's birthday |3; I maybe should have announced this earlier XD

Here's to another year of Orange earwing'dness >3

Hey folks,

I'm sorry you haven't heard anything from me in a while. Life's been really stressful for me lately... That said, I'm sad to report I've yet to feel the drive to write anything still.

I wanted to take a moment though, to let you guys know I will be starting and documenting my Nuzlocking of the new Pokemon Black 2 game! It should be fun! I'll be trying to make the journal sound like an accounting of Neo's journey firsthand.

I'll post the little tidbits on here and IB, so look out for them if you enjoy a little PKMNNLFF (Pokemon Nuzlocking Fanfiction)

Take Care,
Neo

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I'm all about freebies, so good luck~

Because science and poetry don't mix! Snicker Snicker...

In all semi-seriousness, its that time of the year again where I scribe a new set of 30 poems! This year, the challenge? Is trying to figure out what to do with myself |3;; I had this grandiose idea where all 30 poems would correlate to each other into a bigger story... but I don't think I could do that with 30 poems x.x especially since one of them has already been written. I'll be posting another one later tonight!

So, I invite you all to watch me here, on Inkbunny, or Twitter, as I bring you all another month of poetic justice!

Thank you all <3

And that means this Saturday, the 3rd, I'll be turning 26!

I know, right? Freaken creepy :<

I'm kind of excited because this'll be the first time I've taken paid time off! I'm using one of my "Personal days" to get PAID to do NOTHING o.o; Fucking crazy. Back in my day, we didn't have that kind of shit! If you wanted time off, you'd get fired!

|3;; If any of you want to do something special, then you know I'll love it a ton~

ummaaaaaa that's about it o.o;

Hey FA,

I wanted to write to say that I'm so sorry I still haven't gotten to work. My life is going at 1000 miles per minute, and its all I can do to get a few hours to myself every so and so anymore. I fear that I may not even know how to write anymore! I've seriously been neglecting my promise to you all about 15 months ago. I want to make it up to you guys somehow, but adding more to my list will just make it that much harder to do x.x;

I did get a laptop finally though, so I may be able to take it with me to campus and just zen out somewhere and get to typing... something about my desk calls my attention to certain mannerisms such as "Get porn", "Fap", "Check IMs", "Check Sites", "Fap", "Play games FOREVER" till I pass out.

For all of you that are still waiting, thank you. For those of you that have given up, I'm sorry x.x but you haven't paid yet! So I may just surprise you :<

Thanks again,
Neo

Hey guys~

Sorry I haven't said much to you all as a group. I kind of find FA journals to be bothersome, since I watch over 1000 people and don't really like to sift through journals. I really wish there was a way to watch only certain people's journals - because I hate to admit it but I do watch some people only for their gallery...

Anyway. Long story short, I made it through my first real semester of school in a looong time! It was tough... I had a 7 day week between classes and employment. Now I have this decently long reprieve and I'm finding myself doing little more than playing a shit load of League of Legends. I'm now going to have 3 days off a week, the core of the week's apple, Tues-Thurs. After Christmas, I may just finally finish up all these stories that have been sitting in my box. Its hard to believe that I asked out for them in April x.x fucking unbelievable how time will fly, ne?

I want to formally apologize for those of you who waited and waited and waited. I'm finding it much harder these days to get into writing smut. My standards for fiction are increasing with my knowledge, and sometimes I look at what I've done and just ask myself how I could think that it was good writing. My biggest weakness is my inability to focus on revising. Knowing that alone has crippled my enthusiasm to create more. I want to say "And I'll be writing them all very shortly!" But I can't say for certain that I will be. Know this though, I will try to find it in myself to get them done. You've all been so patient with me and I appreciate it.

Thanks for reading, I'm going to go back to being absorbed by digital media now~

Hey guys... sorry my presence hasn't been well made here on FA, except to fap to porn and such. I've been in a like, month long funk... I just quit smoking again, my mother is driving me ape-shit crazy, and all I hear about these days is how the world is coming to an end, and how Obama is evil, and how nobody has any money. Well, guess what? I've NEVER had money anyway, so not much different! I hate when people act like the whole system is going to collapse on itself, like society is some 1000 ton construct being held up by empty promises and political bullshit. Everybody is forgetting the one major component in a society that makes it what it is - and that's people! And people are going to make or break this shit, not whatever Fox News is feeding the airwaves. So chin up, get your shit done, and get a little more in mind set of community and being worth something~

That aside, I've been ultra busy with absolutely nothing else but work and the expectations of my free time from the one who made half of me. I really have had my patience tried, and without the nicotine I really have a hard time accepting how childish the whole situation is. Its like every moronic or sentence that is spoken that I don't really give the breath of air; and I'm talking the exhale, the WASTE I make from breathing and making oxygen, is another brick of my patience being removed from my whole and being spilled on the ground for everything to just smash into little fibers and smear their feet with till there's nothing left but a pile of dust and a broken spirit.

...wait, right, that aside, I'm happy that just about an hour ago, plan "Get back into college with money" is coming underway~ I have gotten the green light to get financial aide and unless I'm mistaken, I can also loan out some stipend action each semester~ I got qualified for $9500, which I am going to take in its full even though my semester and books are paid for already by Pell (and if you knew anything about the state of my finances, you'd agree with me on this) and I'm going to put that money to work for me. I'm finally going to start seeing things like... a vehicle in my name that WORKS for more than a year (gasp!) before having a major malfunction that isn't worth the money to fix. Certain people out there (Yes, I haven't forgotten any of you [...though, nobody would be reading this save maybe one]) will actually GET money from me as I promised years ago. This is such a fucking wonderful step in the right direction that I might actually feel like a PERSON for once in my life again, as I did many years ago~

So~ Wish me luck. Yes, I suck, I haven't written anything still. I'm going to probably end up trying to make up my lateness somehow, but in a way that doesn't require me to do more work. I might give out these stories pro bono :S I feel really bad that its been so long... but that's how my life is, I can't focus on shit, lol.

Its been about a week, and for the first time in a year I finally have my own living space, and a bit of freedom thanks to my mother's vehicle that I'm using. A bunch of you may be curious where I've been, and its been quite a haul to get moved in, and feel like I'm in a place again. Its going to be short lived though - once I get a car I'm going to have to contribute more money to my mother and it'll be to the point where I may as well get a place on my own again. I'm trying to save up enough money to get a car, then be able to get a place without much issue... but part of me is being eaten alive by the wanderlust bug... there's so many of you guys out there I want to meet... and I honestly feel like I'd like to try to relocate again... but then another part of me wants to stay here with what's established and try to make it work for me - and finally get through some college so I can find real work..

Its hard, because one side holds a lot of possibility for happiness, and the other for personal prosperity. Although it should be obvious which goal is better for me, I am feeling really in need of...something more than my own life, if you get what I mean. I have countless people tell me how nice and awesome and amazing I am, yet I don't seem to get that type of sentiment for anything serious, for anything to fulfill my natural cravings and desires....

I'm not discounting the compliments, but it just feels like they're alien to application. I know finding a person takes a lot of hard work, and I know that there's a handful of you that would love to meet me and make it work or see what becomes of it... I just wish I had that going on here, in the real world where I am living day in and out, selling my heart out, clinging to a job and the idea that maybe I'll be in school again in the fall.

These stories I've promised - I should be able to start them up again... I've been sucked into League of Legends SO hard lately. Every living second I'm not doing something I have a particular friend that wants me on it and playing with him - so its kind of weird in that way... he gets SUPER testy about it when I don't do it too (quite obnoxious).

So, to all of you fans out there that still read these, wish me luck, and hopefully soon I can start filling out more smut for you~

Some of you may of noticed that I've not been around much lately, and some of you already know why. I'm faced to move out of my apartment within a week now, and I've not been at the apartment for some time now because I out trying to find out where I'm going. I'm actually going to have to do something I didn't really want to do - and that is move back in with my mother temporarily until I can amass enough money to buy a car and then to get the money to move out. This means too that you'll be seeing less of me still for about a week or two until I figure out what is going where and etc.

Just a blurb, really, I'm still here every so and so lookin at the porn and stuff~ ^^;

Thank you all for following me this year for my poem-a-day challenge~ I saw some new faces, and while I missed some old ones, I know that its not always easy to keep doing the same things each year... I should know seeing how I just continued a tradition that took quite some effort to fulfill. While I am happy I was able to post a poem/day (mostly) I felt that this year may of been a little weaker than my last years overall. But I also feel that some of my works this year pushed my limits a little bit - at least I would hope!

If you've been doing the math, this will be the 4th year I've done this challenge - and the 3rd time I fully completed it! That means, if you counted like I did, that I have 115 poems from this event alone. That's a lot of freaken poetry! D:

So please~ Take this moment to go through and I'd like to hear which of my works this year - or throughout time, you liked the most and why~ I'd love to hear from you guys again on this!

I'm going to get into real life things in another journal, for now I want to be in celebrate mode ^^;

When I wrote my last journal titled "Poetry canceled", I was at a very mental low. I have been feel very depressed over how my life's been going, over the stress of my obstacles I have to face and the news of how my parents' have been fairing... and how I fit myself in all of the chaos. I made a really bad feeling make an even worse decision for me.

Instead of trying to reach out and get some support, I tried to rely on people to find me and help me. This is a problem I've had before... and its not good. I always feel that my problems are simply too mundane or stupid to ask assistance from the people I care about, I feel that I'm going to bother them instead of make them happy like I want to. But as I read the reaction to that journal, I realized that not only was I being selfish, but I was also being really unfair. I never really gave anybody a chance to make me feel better about how I felt in that case, and I almost gave up on something I do enjoy a lot....

So, its my pleasure to announce that in a few moments I'll be uploading poem 2 and 3 for this year's NaPoeWriMo. The only difference is that I will only be posting this on FA. I was going to start my collection on Inkbunny, but I don't feel like going through the submission process twice (especially on a site I'm barely affiliated with). As much as I enjoyed the way Inkbunny works, I feel it'd be simpler to just keep it on FurAffinity.

I shouldn't care how many comments I get on my work, I know not everybody has something to say about my work... I just felt so alone in the process this year. But now that I know I'm not, I can't let everybody down~

Thanks again everybody.

Due to a lack of quality and desire, I'm not going to be writing any more poetry this year. I can't seem to rally up the drive to do it, and I don't want to fall behind this year and try to make up a bunch of work. Though, it doesn't really matter much, it seems a lot of my support has disappeared over the years. It was fun while it lasted, but I fear that I haven't got anything to really gain from doing it this year.

... I may cancel my writing all together. Its not very good anymore, and I don't want to waste anybody's time.

Do you ever just feel like you're just drained? Like, you can't do anything productive with yourself to save your life? That's how I've felt lately... and its really shitty since I really want to get back on these stories before National Poetry Writing Month in April. Its so difficult for me to get focused when I have so many other things coming up in my life.... I still need a car, and I need to also find a new place to live soon... I'm hoping that when I am moved out of this place I can find some piece and quiet every once in a while (lately, all the times its been quiet I use to feed my lust with fevered masturbation o.o [wow, that sounds perverted {but its true}])

Lately... I've felt like a lot of the people who cared a lot about me have moved on too, and now that these new faces are showing up, it feels strange.. since I want to be friendly and everything, but I want to also have those connections I found earlier in life... and want to embrace again. I just miss people, and I miss spending time chatting with them about whatever... anymore, I stare at AIM and MSN, and I may have a few conversations going, I sometimes really wish that a few certain somebodies were online to talk with as well that I miss a ton. (Not that I don't mind talking with new people either~)

I hate how variable my pay is. I get paid $6/hr plus commission, and that cane yield me anywhere between $8-$13/hr depending on how the weeks are... and its not like I can exactly forecast it. I always hound the numbers too, checking myself with everybody, and I get really discouraged whenever my days are bad and somebody else does so much better at the same job I do. The thing is too that I've done a lot of hard work and have gotten recognized for doing the other duties besides sale that need to be done by everybody often, but that doesn't really help my paychecks... its just numbers... I really want to quit my job over it. I'm sick of stepping in front of me and getting these huge sales when I'm left high and dry with nothing - especially since I'm behind x.x

Now the story: I was dragged out to a bar up in Columbia, MD - even though I had about $0 to really spend, on St. Patrick's Day. It was neat, since a girl I like a lot was there, but it was kind of sad when I couldn't really drink till somebody bummed me a few... I'm not sure how many I had, but I was downing them like nothing. Soon, I started to feel pretty good and buzzed, nothing really shit faced or anything (it takes a bit for that to work). I was then told that the party was shifting to a bonfire at my roommate's parents' house. It started off okay, I started drinking Guinness over and over, and was having a neat time. I've been to the house a few times and I knew its layout alright, but when I went to go use the bathroom none of the lights were on. I reached into the door and tried to turn on a light switch for what I thought was the bathroom, only to find myself feeling a strange sensation. Turns out I found the door to the basement instead, and I fell down a flight of stairs face first, landing on my head and my hand, on impact I whited out a moment and I kind of laid there in a daze, trying to piece together what actually happened. I heard my roommate's mother-in-law come down and she shrieked a very worried "Daniel!" and that's when I knew I had to get up and let her know that I was okay. Though since then, its been difficult to use my left thumb, and ... I'm not sure if I'm just tired, or something's weird... but I feel that my head might be a little affected by it... I'm not sure. I'm not sure what i'm suppose to do, I want to get some help with it, but I'm so broke right now I can't really afford a doctor's bill. For now, either way, its been a real shitty fall for me, and its made work really obnoxious... I just really don't feel like doing much of anything.

So yeah...that's the update on me for now. I hope to get on more and get some writing done at SOME point.... its unacceptable how long I've taken to get anything done, and I'm really sorry....

Values and stats are arbitrary, lol..

But yeah, I'm officially 25 years old.... how does that happen? Its fascinating that time flows so fast, yet so slow... Very strange indeed.

This new year (as well as 2011) has a lot to offer me if I play my cards right, and hopefully we'll be seeing a lot more work being done by me too....

Thanks Everyone for your support!~

... and I have NO idea what to do with myself x.x;

Yep~ I think I feel 100% cured~ Its about time too x.x I've been out for the majority of February....

Speaking of February almost being over - My birthday is in exactly 2 weeks o.o;; That's March 3rd. I don't really expect anything much, but any surprises would make my day~ Especially seeing how I don't think I'll be getting much (can't really expect much as you get older, eheh).

As far as writing goes.... well... I'm getting there, I think~ Maybe sometime soon~