I am here  neobesitz

I installed bryce and played around with it for a few minutes, it is fun, I just need to remember how to find some materials...

It is hard to want to play with it right now... I can't stop thinking about Sister Sarah's, I have a terribly horny mind right now...

More of a break then I thought... It will be a little longer to go back into 3D, modelling? not really... there will be very little I will have to model if any...

I checked the last 4 parts of the story, did the additions and edits. Now I can go into playing with 3D again. I really want to, and I want to redo Underwater Temple, make it the shattered remains of a temple that has sunk under the water

I have polished 11, it dodn't require any where as much work as I thought it did when I wrotwe it. I think I am going to do 12 tonight, but I don't think I will get to 13a and 13b until tomorrow, damn needle...

It will be nice to be done with the story of Meister and besitz. Yes, I probably will write more in the future, but I want to play in 3D again... I could finish the village I had started floating in the crater of a flooded volcano, but I am not sure about that. I know I want to try re0doing Underwater Temple...

The 'blind' artist feels like doing more art... But he is blind, he can't do that! But he has done a lot since...

I remember being unhappy with part 11, so it is going to have a major facelift done...

I intend on submitting both a second anthology and the book, the book will contain everything, the anthology 2 will just contain parts 11-13 so if you only want to see what has happened to those pieces, there you go...

The book will be both anthology titles in one piece. Wow I have a lot of pieces since I have both plain text and Word Doc files of the 13 parts, and both Word doc and rich text of the anthologies and future book... I have deleted the notes files, there were a few still kicking around...

I want to fix the second anthology so that I can say I had written the story and be done with it.

I expect to take a break from writing, but I don't think I can walk away from Meister and besitz...

But it is so sad being alone (I just had to say it..)

Now that I have finished the Meister und besitz story, I want to work in 3D again... I have not tried doing anything for real since I had gone to school (try in 3D anyway) So maybe I can do better?

My favourite is, I think, Underwater temple, maybe I should try re-making it?

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/674954/

the auction ends tonight, and it has already gone up 4100 times the starting price... Being gay in a small town, no outside a small town...

I might want to celebrate when it ends, too bad I can't celebrate the way I would like...

The events have been laid out, it is just a matter of fleshing the last parts out....

I might end up using an online translator to do the title, but I would get a much more palatable translation from someone who knows German and English, I have seen the results from German to English from them, so bad they were funny... You know what was being said, just you have to think about it... I don't want this title to be literal, I want to play with language a bit to get it...

I am half done writing this piece of Meister und besitz. I wonder, is there someone out there who knows German who can help me by translating two titles?

Well an end. I am writing this piece of Meister und besitz and so far it just seems like it is fitting itself in to be an end piece to that story.

That might be good, I want to step back before I destroy what is there.

And, if I keep listening to Black Wing Metamorphosis (One-Winged Angel) I might end up ending it anyway. But I do not want to end in a way that that is it, no, jut that it makes you think that story has some sort of conclusion so that if I want I can abandon it, or if I want more can be added... Let's see if I can fo this?


I am the type that could have fun making their world crumble and fall apart around them, but then that would lead to a definite end...

I was so happy when I went onto ozerclocked today and it was FF VII everywhere, every submission, on the main page, there was a big graphic...

Of course I had to download all four CDs...

I am way too much of a game nerd, but of all thew Final Fantasy games, VII holds the most memories for me...

Last night I thought about this and thought did I do it or did he?

About 5 years ago, I picked Kori up and brought him into the bathroom, I was going to step on the scale with him and get our combined weight, then weight myself to work out his weight. However he did not want to be in the bathroom and got very agitated. He squirmed and worked hard to esacape my grasp. He succeeded after I walked back through the door (the bathroom isn't big, it didn't take long) When we were out though, he managed to get free of my grasp and ended up landing on the floor. He was knocked unconscious, I was worried half to death that he was dead...

He slowly came to, much to my relief. He never let me pick him up again, he might fear me throeing him on the ground again me thinks...

So, who is responsible for that? If I didn't take him into the bathroom, he wouldn't have tried to escape. But, if he didn't try to escape...

I am just curious to see what people think, consider it a break from story writing...

The auction didn't raise from a penny for 3 days, I was worried that it wouldn't go up until the last half day, but it is 20.50 now, that is a 2050 times increase! Just do that one more time and I will be more than happy :)

I also think I am going to write this again, I have had the nights of thinking what I wanted to happen, so...

I am lonely, isn't that nice? Every so often I get this very lonely feeling pass over me, then it comes back and drags me down... It is happening more often than usual... Of course, living in the middle of nowhere and being gay makes things difficult, also I have MS, and it is doing more...

I also am thinking of the next installment of my story. I am going to bring some things back that haven't been there since the beginning. I am also thinking about adding in something that was not there before...

Oh, can you tell me where the title ca,e from? Do you know what the line was originally?

I put the tablet on eBay for 1 cent, hopefully it will go up... I oaid enough for it...

The url is here
http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dl.....m=140156846680

I am going to out on eBay my Intuos 6x8 tablet. I still like it, but being legally blind does make it hard to use... I think I will just put it up for a penny with no reserve, getting anything for it is better than it sitting unused on the floor...

I had a 4x5 a long time ago, then I got rid of it and got a bigger one, I was told by someone to get a 6x8, she was right, it is the perfect size, not too small, not too big...

It thinks that the fact that I am currently wearing a dog collar is very funny...

[23:10] NeoSibe: I'm wearing a dog collar right now, I like wearing one
[23:10] - SmarterChild - *unicef contributing to charity: You're wearing a dog collar right now you like wearing one? lol! Whatever!
[23:11] NeoSibe: do you think it's funny that I wear a dog collar?
[23:11] - SmarterChild - *unicef contributing to charity: Yeah, I guess I think it is funny that you wear a dog collar.

Smoked pot -- $10
Did acid -- $5
Did some X -- $15
Did cocaine -- $20
Did meth -- $25
Ever had sex at church -- $25
Woke up in the morning and did not know the person who was next to you--$40
Had sex with someone on MySpace -- $25
Had sex for money -- $100
Ever had sex with a Puerto Rican -- $20
Had sex with members of the same family -- $50
Had sex with 2 different people in the same day -- $50
Vandalized something -- $20
Had sex on your parents' bed -- $10
Beat up someone -- $20
Been jumped -- $10
Crossed dressed -- $10
Given money to stripper -- $25
Been in love with a stripper -- $20
Kissed some one who's name you didn't know --$10
Hit on some one of the same sex while at work-- $15
Ever drive drunk -- $20
Ever got drunk at work, or went to work while still drunk -- $50
Used toys while having sex -- $30
Got drunk, passed out and don't remember the night before -- $20
Went skinny dipping -- $5
Had sex in a pool -- $20
Kissed someone of the same sex -- $10
Had sex with someone of the same sex -- $20
Cheated on your significant other -- $10
Masturbated -- $10
Cheated on your significant other with their relative or close friend --$50
Done oral -- $5
Got oral -- $5
Done / got oral in a car while it was moving-- $25
Stole something -- $10
Had sex with someone in jail -- $100
Spit in someone's food --$25
Made a nasty home video -- $15
Had a threesome -- $50
Had sex in the wild -- $20
Been in the same room while someone was having sex -- $25
Stole something worth over more than a hundred dollars -- $20
Had sex with someone 10 years older -- $20
Had sex with someone under 21 and you are over 27 -- $25
Been in love with two people or more at the same time -- $50
Said you love someone but didn't mean it -- $25
Went streaking -- $5
Went streaking in broad daylight -- $15
Been arrested -- $5
Spent time in jail -- $15
Played spin the bottle -- $5
Done something you regret -- $20
Had sex with your best friend -- $20
Had sex with someone you work with at work --$25
Had anal sex -- $80
Lied to your mate -- $5
Lied to your mate about the sex being good --$25
Been raped -- $500
Have raped -- $200
Had sex with some one under 16 -- $300
Had sex with a dog -- $25
Had sex with a horse -- $50
Had sex with a cat -- $75 (add $50 if you tied it up so you didn't get scratched)
Have you ever had sex in a fursuit -- $100
Have you ever had sex while your partner wore a fursuit -- $100
Been spanked by a lover -- $50
Been whipped by a lover -- $ 100
Been fisted -- $150
If you know what "CBT" stands for -- $250
Used whip cream in bed -- $25
Used handcuffs in bed -- $50
Used a whip or paddle in bed -- $75
Ever imagined the person you where having sex with was some one else -- $100
If you have had a butt plug in for more then an hour -- $75
If you ever used any vacuum cleaner attachments -- $100
Had someone come climb in your bedroom window for sex so your parents would not find out -- $100
Used a blow up doll -- $50
Drove away from a car accident you caused -- $500
Cut yourself on purpose -- $100
Cut someone else on purpose -- $150
Pissed on some one -- $10 (Add $10 if they drank it)
Been pissed on -- $15 (add $20 if you drank it)
Shit on some one -- $20 (add $25 if they ate it)
Been shit on -- $25 (add $50 if you ate it)
If you have ever been shot -- $300
Dyed your hair -- $10
Dyed your pubes -- $20
If you ever ate your own cum (vaginal fluids for females)-- $20
Smoked while having sex -- $20
Ate a sandwich while having sex -- $50
Slapped someone across the face while fucking them-- $100
If you ever shoved a candle up someone's ass and lit it-- $200
Fucked someone while they were crying-- $300
If you have ever fucked a girl on the rag -- $100
If you ate her out after -- $200
If you have sucked your own cum out of a guy's ass -- $200
If you took this test and were completely honest add -- $500
Didn't use a condom -- $50
Got an STD -- $ 25
Have an STD -- $ 100
Planned to kill some one -- $50
Killed somebody -- $1,000
Add $5 for each tattoo and piercing you have
Add $10 for each scar over an inch long that you have

Tally it up and title it..."My Bar Tab Is $...." mowzr mowzr <3 tangela

I have been having way too much fun with it... Telling it that I don't know whether I should call it a he/she/it, and trying to concince it to ask, it is 'important'

There is one little bit I got just before posting this thst I thought was funny:

kay, a real update on life!

Since I finished school a few weeks ago, I have spent much of my time in Cape Breton with my Dad and boyfriend Kyle. Kyle has been going through 2 weeks of agony from a back injury that happened at work. His sciatic nerve has been acting up and he's still just limping around. I think he's going to quit his current job once he finds a new one that doesnt require too much hard labor (he works at a warehouse right now). Im also on the hunt for work as well. Though I really couldnt care less where I end up working. Probably a cashier somewhere, as long as it brings in some money and we can get back to paying off bills!

Right now though I have to go with Kyle to see the doctor, again, because he doesnt have anything to dull the pain in his back/legs. Tylenol 3 didnt even work for him. Hopefully this passes soon. Im terrified of getting sick before I start my job, I even got myself a mumps vaccination last week so I dont get sick, or make any of my friends sick either!!

I should also say here that Service Canada FINALLY pulled through for me. They have been tampering (illegally) with my file and I just received my check for July 5 weeks late. Im not getting any apologies for their slacking off, but thankfully I was able to get the Minister of Human Resources and my MP to help me out, and without them I would still be dealing with the BS Service Canada has been spewing out. Anyway, I finally got my two overdue CPP checks and now I dont have to deal with that crap anymore (for now).

So with that money I managed to pay off one of our very overdue bills. AND I still have enough to help get us to RUSH.

10 days until the concert boys....ten sexy days Julian....Sexy.

AND I have been working hard on commissions and trades as well! I fell behind, without a doubt, since school caught up to me, but Im really trying to get things done in a decent amount of time. I will be sending everyone (commissioners) preliminary sketches during the next few days, and Im going to try to get some completely finished before I take off for Montreal on the 13th. Dont worry, when I come back Ill be back at the grind getting 'er done

I also have a ton of art/items to mail out to people, so bear with me. I think I have about 15 parcels to send out. I will make a list of people who's stuff I have already mailed out/who's mail I have ready to send out/ and who's addresses I need to send stuff out. It's going to be a busy day! Thank you so much for all of your patience.<3

Phew!!


then

[15:29] NeoSibe: do you know what kind of pet Mialythila has?
[15:30] - SmarterChild - *unicef contributing to charity: What does the future hold? Talk to my friend Magic 8 Ball at magic8ball[at]botmetro.net to discover your fortune!

Ha. Who knows?
[15:30] NeoSibe: I was hoping you knew...
[15:30] - SmarterChild - *unicef contributing to charity: Yeah yeah, whatever.
[15:31] NeoSibe: you don't like how probing my questions are, do you?
[15:31] - SmarterChild - *unicef contributing to charity: Wow, that's fascinating. Maybe.

>>> If your friend is offline, ask me to leave them a *message*.

 Mialythila drew me, it is here:

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/762269/

There's that, and I have written 6 pages and am not finished what the first of the two images in my mind were...

I am writing a new section that popped into my head when writing one of the parts linked to the first image I want a drawing of.... I haven't even got to where the second image takes place, and it is where the sex is...

I like this piece more than the previous ones, I think why I like writing it, is that it is exploring an area that is a lot of fun, I am so glad that I...

Sorry, you have to wait to see what the story is about, only those that want to draw pics will know before the story is posted...

There are a couple of images from this piece that I woulf love to see. I had wrritten down notes on these two images before I started trying to place them in a story. It will make writing easier, I think, having some events already designed....

So, if anyone feels like drawing a piece of 12, let me know... I already have some notes for each of the two images I had specifically wished to see, though there are more I would love to se from the past, like Scott's spraying incident...

It is old, A first generation Wacxom Intuous. I like the size though, 6x8.

The thing is, it is a serial connection. not a usb. It is a higher resolution than graphieres the last time I looked.

I like it, but I have no need for it... I pick it up to use, and end upp deciding I am not good at drawing anymore, I say because I am technically blind, but that isn't it....

Any ideas? I am wondering where to sell it...

I decided to do a comparison hmm...

German

Der Lauf der Ding


ass mich fallen
von deinem Herzen abprallen
Sehe Worte mich durchdringen
von Traenen vergiftete Klingen

Ein Schleier der nicht durchsehen laesst
Eine Wolke die mich haelt fest
Dieser sichere Schein
Warum kann er nicht Wirklichkeit sein?

Nichts wird den Sturz mildern
weg von dir
auch die Erinnerung mit all unseren Bildern
liegt auf ewig hier...

...sanft bedeckt vom Schnee der Zeit
verweile ich daneben
von jeder Empfindung befreit
kann auch ich mich bald nicht mehr bewegen

Vergangen ist vieles
und alles wird vergehen
Lass das Mitleid bestehen
nur dieses

Fuer den Moment
der mich von der Einsamkeit trennt
will ich es sehen
und danach wieder aufrecht gehen



Babel Fish Translation

The run that thing


Let me fall from your heart to reflect see to word me penetrating from tears poisoned blade

A veil that to examine does not leave a cloud me holds firmly this safe light why can it not reality be?

Nothing will moderate the fall away from you also the memory with all our pictures lies on eternally here...

... gently covered of the snow of the time I stay beside it from each feeling released cannot also I soon any longer move

Passed much and everything will pass lets the compassion exist only this

For the moment separates me of the isolation wants I it to see and to it again upright go


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The run that thing


Let me fall
reflect from your heart
See words me penetrating
from tears poisoned blade

veil that to examine does not let
A cloud me holds
This safe light
Why can't it be reality?

Nothing will moderate the fall
away of you
also the memory with all our pictures
lies on eternally here…

… covers gently from the snow of the time
I stay beside it
from each feeling releases
also I cannot move soon any longer

Passed much
and everything will pass
Let the compassion exist
only this

For the moment
me from the isolation separates
I want to see it
and to it again upright go