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Posted 3 months agoGreetings everyone! It’s been a while!
As some of you already know, I’ve kinda taken the back seat on things in recent years including my own posts here to get my head on straight.
I’d say it’s about time though I start catching up on my posts here, there’s a good 6 years of illustrations I need to catch up on. I won’t be doing everything at once, no way I can focus on that all at once, so I’ll still be spreading it out a bit. You will be seeing stuff I’ve accumulated while here in Canada so far.
Fureh is this week and I will be in attendance, so I’ll probably start posting after that con.
As some of you already know, I’ve kinda taken the back seat on things in recent years including my own posts here to get my head on straight.
I’d say it’s about time though I start catching up on my posts here, there’s a good 6 years of illustrations I need to catch up on. I won’t be doing everything at once, no way I can focus on that all at once, so I’ll still be spreading it out a bit. You will be seeing stuff I’ve accumulated while here in Canada so far.
Fureh is this week and I will be in attendance, so I’ll probably start posting after that con.
Bal’Kar are easier to draw than one might think.
Posted 10 months agoHey everyone!
Sorry for the lack of posts and updates.
There’s been a lot on my plate in recent times, I’ve been conditioning myself to work harder and aspire toward something.
Art and music production are slow as I keep getting told I’m actually TOO slow to make it a viable living source, especially with AI making it easier than ever. There’s just no chance in hell I’ll ever be able to keep up with today’s global pacing. Which is extremely demoralizing. Hopefully one day we can switch it so that AI is doing all the work so we the people can have the time to get passionate and manifest our long desired art projects to depict our internal worlds and universes, instead of it being the opposite of that currently…I find these days AI has taken away our art and music production. To pave the way for people to stress out, making us have no choice but to find hard-working, high physical demanding jobs that take us away from our actual passions.
Onto the topic at hand!
Have you ever wanted an artist to draw your character turning into a Bal’Kar? But then the artist turns around and says “that it’s too difficult”, or they will charge you an arm and a leg to draw it? Believe me, I feel your pain and that’s why I have not been commissioning as much these days, along with the added cost of living, the things I used to do just seem nigh impossible to achieve these days…
But what if I told you that the Bal’Kar are actually easier to draw than one might think.
Think of it this way, the Bal’Kar has a lot of chaos, Their bodies are amorphous, meaning there is a lot of unevenness in their anatomy most of the time. Believe it or not, this craziness that the Bal’Kar depicts actually makes it easier and more fun to work on, Artist don’t really have to worry about being asymmetrical as much, They don’t have hands or feet which are incredibly difficult to draw! Artist can actually hide a lot of the imperfections they struggle with within the chaos of the Bal’Kar transformation, thus making them easier to work on.
So I encourage artists to give it a go!
And I encourage commissioners to help convince their chosen artists to refer back to what I’ve said here, If you were ever worried about drawing the bal’kar because of how crazy the pictures seem to be.
I say try, give it a go! You never know how much fun you might have with it. I can tell you from my own experiences trying to draw them, that they can be a lot of fun to work on!
Sorry for the lack of posts and updates.
There’s been a lot on my plate in recent times, I’ve been conditioning myself to work harder and aspire toward something.
Art and music production are slow as I keep getting told I’m actually TOO slow to make it a viable living source, especially with AI making it easier than ever. There’s just no chance in hell I’ll ever be able to keep up with today’s global pacing. Which is extremely demoralizing. Hopefully one day we can switch it so that AI is doing all the work so we the people can have the time to get passionate and manifest our long desired art projects to depict our internal worlds and universes, instead of it being the opposite of that currently…I find these days AI has taken away our art and music production. To pave the way for people to stress out, making us have no choice but to find hard-working, high physical demanding jobs that take us away from our actual passions.
Onto the topic at hand!
Have you ever wanted an artist to draw your character turning into a Bal’Kar? But then the artist turns around and says “that it’s too difficult”, or they will charge you an arm and a leg to draw it? Believe me, I feel your pain and that’s why I have not been commissioning as much these days, along with the added cost of living, the things I used to do just seem nigh impossible to achieve these days…
But what if I told you that the Bal’Kar are actually easier to draw than one might think.
Think of it this way, the Bal’Kar has a lot of chaos, Their bodies are amorphous, meaning there is a lot of unevenness in their anatomy most of the time. Believe it or not, this craziness that the Bal’Kar depicts actually makes it easier and more fun to work on, Artist don’t really have to worry about being asymmetrical as much, They don’t have hands or feet which are incredibly difficult to draw! Artist can actually hide a lot of the imperfections they struggle with within the chaos of the Bal’Kar transformation, thus making them easier to work on.
So I encourage artists to give it a go!
And I encourage commissioners to help convince their chosen artists to refer back to what I’ve said here, If you were ever worried about drawing the bal’kar because of how crazy the pictures seem to be.
I say try, give it a go! You never know how much fun you might have with it. I can tell you from my own experiences trying to draw them, that they can be a lot of fun to work on!
Barely around
Posted 2 years agoI will admit I have been quiet for the last two or three years.
I plan to post more drawings submissions over time and I’ve not forgotten about all my small and larger projects. I’ve been finding it hard to focus on my art with so much on the go these past few years. It’s been getting to me a-lot and I just wish there was a way to spearhead my attention towards art and story building, but with my inability to earn an adequate salary, life’s been tough…really tough…
There have been many a night I begin questioning my existence and what it’s all for.
My “wings” just aren’t getting me off the ground and I'm coming up on 35 now... Its built up to the point I've stopped caring about earning money cause I've never been able to successfully do it.
Same goes for doing stuff online, My site gets taken over by a Japanese porn hub. Any subject I make gets drowned out by AI algorithms. I just cant seem to spread the love i have for my interests as much as i want to, it gets to me so rigorously!
When I do find myself in a position of earnings, its never felt like the hard work I put in has ever been worth breaking my body over.
I'm not actively looking for an olive branch but man I could really use one...
As for health, I am recovering from Covid. I hated how slow the onset symptoms were, so I will be slow to post things until i fully recover…if I ever recover…
Sorry for being so withdrawn...
I plan to post more drawings submissions over time and I’ve not forgotten about all my small and larger projects. I’ve been finding it hard to focus on my art with so much on the go these past few years. It’s been getting to me a-lot and I just wish there was a way to spearhead my attention towards art and story building, but with my inability to earn an adequate salary, life’s been tough…really tough…
There have been many a night I begin questioning my existence and what it’s all for.
My “wings” just aren’t getting me off the ground and I'm coming up on 35 now... Its built up to the point I've stopped caring about earning money cause I've never been able to successfully do it.
Same goes for doing stuff online, My site gets taken over by a Japanese porn hub. Any subject I make gets drowned out by AI algorithms. I just cant seem to spread the love i have for my interests as much as i want to, it gets to me so rigorously!
When I do find myself in a position of earnings, its never felt like the hard work I put in has ever been worth breaking my body over.
I'm not actively looking for an olive branch but man I could really use one...
As for health, I am recovering from Covid. I hated how slow the onset symptoms were, so I will be slow to post things until i fully recover…if I ever recover…
Sorry for being so withdrawn...
Please Remove my website from your own personal ones!
Posted 2 years agoI should probably do my due diligence and make an announcement about recent events. I should probably personally spread the word about our website domain for the Bal'kar. It was highly unlikely but the unlikely has occurred. With the AI we have nowadays, I just knew it was gonna happen in my procrastination too...Someone snatched up the domain and is now using the site address as a redirect to a Japanese porn hub.
I highly recommend removing it as i don't want the Bal'kar being associated with it.
Godaddy has contacted the Buyer and they are offering me $5899 to release the domain (Basically Ransom). Unfortunately when the time comes to resurrect the site, we're gonna have to find a new domain. I'm sorry but I cannot afford to pay an opportunist.
Again, this is an announcement for people to take the website off their own personal site spaces and Telegram links as I don't want to give the opportunist any leverage on their own site.
PLEASE REMOVE: [www .the-balkar. com] and do not associate with it anymore.
I've yet to bring back another site as I do not have the resources for such a thing.
I highly recommend removing it as i don't want the Bal'kar being associated with it.
Godaddy has contacted the Buyer and they are offering me $5899 to release the domain (Basically Ransom). Unfortunately when the time comes to resurrect the site, we're gonna have to find a new domain. I'm sorry but I cannot afford to pay an opportunist.
Again, this is an announcement for people to take the website off their own personal site spaces and Telegram links as I don't want to give the opportunist any leverage on their own site.
PLEASE REMOVE: [www .the-balkar. com] and do not associate with it anymore.
I've yet to bring back another site as I do not have the resources for such a thing.
Partially Bal’Kar? or fully Bal’Kar?
Posted 3 years agoOk so lots of people like to dip their toes into niche things they are unsure of every so often.
I’ve suggested “trial periods” temporary TF as such so people can get to experience the Bal’Kar without actually becoming a Bal’Kar in our chats.
As you know I like to depict people succumbing to the Bal’Kar FULLY. That to me is a crucial part of the Bal’Kar experience.
And I don’t just say that cause I’m greedy and just want everyone to be Bal’Kar *cough* >.>
More along the lines of having a bond/unity with a creature race that has little to no internal discourse.(yanno, since we suffer from it pretty severely as humans)
It’s mostly about the experience and journey to monsterhood.
It’s essentially an “in-the-moment” mind depravity session with a whole bunch of kinkiness strapped to it. And of course, embracing the monster within, letting it fully take hold.
Becoming an ugly nuisance for society, and being unwanted. Sound familiar?
Many people, especially in the furry fandom have experienced trauma in some way in their lives, albeit bullied at school or abused/rejected by family and friends.
The Bal’Kar was conceptualized around my own similar childhood traumas.
That’s why the Bal’Kar resonates with so many here, because they too understand how trauma works. We develop coping mechanisms over time, and soon we find the things that traumatized us end up turning us on, because we’ve acclimated to those conditions being around us in our day to day lives.
So, I’ll stress this: even when you’ve had your fun in the Bal’Kar community, there’s nothing really stopping you from just leaving and moving on with life. I’d say that’s inevitable in most cases and fairly normal common human behaviour. People like diversity and I respect that. I too have a diverse list of things I like too! It’s not always Bal’Kar!
But if DO you want the true Bal’Kar experience. We don’t really do the whole “borrowed powers” thing. At least canonically. We do the deep dive instead. Some stick to it because of the Bal’Kars aesthetic as a whole. Most will just want it because it’s on their bucket list.
I get that people want to try without consequence. But then you are not fully immersing yourself in the true depth of the decision or perhaps you don’t even want it to be a decision! It’s inevitable! (Which is also a mindset people enjoy) doing it any other way takes away from the true meaning of a Bal’Kar Transformation.
So to answer the titles question.
FULLY BAL’KAR!
I hope this gives you all more insight into my own story too.
I’ve suggested “trial periods” temporary TF as such so people can get to experience the Bal’Kar without actually becoming a Bal’Kar in our chats.
As you know I like to depict people succumbing to the Bal’Kar FULLY. That to me is a crucial part of the Bal’Kar experience.
And I don’t just say that cause I’m greedy and just want everyone to be Bal’Kar *cough* >.>
More along the lines of having a bond/unity with a creature race that has little to no internal discourse.(yanno, since we suffer from it pretty severely as humans)
It’s mostly about the experience and journey to monsterhood.
It’s essentially an “in-the-moment” mind depravity session with a whole bunch of kinkiness strapped to it. And of course, embracing the monster within, letting it fully take hold.
Becoming an ugly nuisance for society, and being unwanted. Sound familiar?
Many people, especially in the furry fandom have experienced trauma in some way in their lives, albeit bullied at school or abused/rejected by family and friends.
The Bal’Kar was conceptualized around my own similar childhood traumas.
That’s why the Bal’Kar resonates with so many here, because they too understand how trauma works. We develop coping mechanisms over time, and soon we find the things that traumatized us end up turning us on, because we’ve acclimated to those conditions being around us in our day to day lives.
So, I’ll stress this: even when you’ve had your fun in the Bal’Kar community, there’s nothing really stopping you from just leaving and moving on with life. I’d say that’s inevitable in most cases and fairly normal common human behaviour. People like diversity and I respect that. I too have a diverse list of things I like too! It’s not always Bal’Kar!
But if DO you want the true Bal’Kar experience. We don’t really do the whole “borrowed powers” thing. At least canonically. We do the deep dive instead. Some stick to it because of the Bal’Kars aesthetic as a whole. Most will just want it because it’s on their bucket list.
I get that people want to try without consequence. But then you are not fully immersing yourself in the true depth of the decision or perhaps you don’t even want it to be a decision! It’s inevitable! (Which is also a mindset people enjoy) doing it any other way takes away from the true meaning of a Bal’Kar Transformation.
So to answer the titles question.
FULLY BAL’KAR!
I hope this gives you all more insight into my own story too.
Life update! Art has been slow.
Posted 3 years agoThis isn't uncommon for me in the Spring/Summer, I've been working pretty long hours at my current job working in a garden centre.
For spring, its been All hands on deck which hasn't given me much time for much progress on art.
July though, I've seen a substantial drop in hours, how the spring rush is more or less over with for this year, which means ill try utilize some of that extra time to get some owed Art done!
By the winter time, ill probably be back on art full time. but that's at least 4 months from now.
Things I'm Currently Working on clearing this list below before I open for Commissions again:
1. A 2 Character Bal'Kar TF
2. Branching out into a Cartoon Style UDTF with a messy and clean version. (i may be restricting access to this one as its an image im not really comfortable publishing, it is extremely graphic but at the same time, dont want to Dissapoint all those UDTF fans, so i guess ill leave it to the comments and see what peoples reactions to it are)
3. A Bal'kar Character Sheet
4. Another rubber Symbiote takeover/TF
I also have like....20 or so personal pieces on the go too. but I expect those to take much longer
One of those is the muchly anticipated "Bal'kar Oby'thk"
My Patreon has also been a bit slow, I've not had any of the $50 tier headshots since i first opened for them in January, then i had 1 or 2 in Fabuary.
If you want a quick art piece from me, going that route is something you should definitely consider if you've been waiting for me to open for commissions again.
https://www.patreon.com/balkar
https://www.patreon.com/balkar
https://www.patreon.com/balkar
And Finally!, I was able to get my permanent residency card! which means I'm now an official Canadian resident!
Thanks to Covid, the Delays on this process was so time consuming! but I'm glad its done!
I can finally start with some genuine progress on the Bal'kar Universe at large!
For spring, its been All hands on deck which hasn't given me much time for much progress on art.
July though, I've seen a substantial drop in hours, how the spring rush is more or less over with for this year, which means ill try utilize some of that extra time to get some owed Art done!
By the winter time, ill probably be back on art full time. but that's at least 4 months from now.
Things I'm Currently Working on clearing this list below before I open for Commissions again:
1. A 2 Character Bal'Kar TF
2. Branching out into a Cartoon Style UDTF with a messy and clean version. (i may be restricting access to this one as its an image im not really comfortable publishing, it is extremely graphic but at the same time, dont want to Dissapoint all those UDTF fans, so i guess ill leave it to the comments and see what peoples reactions to it are)
3. A Bal'kar Character Sheet
4. Another rubber Symbiote takeover/TF
I also have like....20 or so personal pieces on the go too. but I expect those to take much longer
One of those is the muchly anticipated "Bal'kar Oby'thk"
My Patreon has also been a bit slow, I've not had any of the $50 tier headshots since i first opened for them in January, then i had 1 or 2 in Fabuary.
If you want a quick art piece from me, going that route is something you should definitely consider if you've been waiting for me to open for commissions again.
https://www.patreon.com/balkar
https://www.patreon.com/balkar
https://www.patreon.com/balkar
And Finally!, I was able to get my permanent residency card! which means I'm now an official Canadian resident!
Thanks to Covid, the Delays on this process was so time consuming! but I'm glad its done!
I can finally start with some genuine progress on the Bal'kar Universe at large!
My Association.
Posted 3 years agoSome people are saying they can see me being associated with a biiiig green jungle cat....massive paws....
Can people see it?
Can people see it?
Neox Commissions are now closed!
Posted 3 years agoI’m full! All my slots for big commission projects have filled! I don’t expect to be open again till June or July based on my main job picking up for the spring now too.
I’ve actually been open and accepting of commission slots for well over 1 year now. But I’ve gotten to the point now where I have a lot of work to do on the current spots I had available.
All 5 of My $50 Patreon tier is still available so grab one of those of you are still interested. They are the smaller headshots/bust style I’ve been doing for people that wanna see more stuff from me. There is a much quicker turnover on my Patreon stuff too so do take advantage of that.
Over the next months tho be prepared for some awesome and incredibly bizarre pictures from me.
I’ve actually been open and accepting of commission slots for well over 1 year now. But I’ve gotten to the point now where I have a lot of work to do on the current spots I had available.
All 5 of My $50 Patreon tier is still available so grab one of those of you are still interested. They are the smaller headshots/bust style I’ve been doing for people that wanna see more stuff from me. There is a much quicker turnover on my Patreon stuff too so do take advantage of that.
Over the next months tho be prepared for some awesome and incredibly bizarre pictures from me.
There's slots open on my Patreon!
Posted 4 years agoHey everyone!
Big thanks to those who have pledged to my Patreon so far. There are still slots open for this month and I've completed last months batch and im onto a new one!
Been having fun with the work so far!
https://www.patreon.com/balkar
https://www.patreon.com/balkar
https://www.patreon.com/balkar
Big thanks to those who have pledged to my Patreon so far. There are still slots open for this month and I've completed last months batch and im onto a new one!
Been having fun with the work so far!
https://www.patreon.com/balkar
https://www.patreon.com/balkar
https://www.patreon.com/balkar
My Patreon is FINALLY here!
Posted 4 years agoHey everyone!
My Patreon has Finally Launched!
If you want first dibs at commissions from me,
If you want to see WIP works of mine
-Or- if you just want to support me and see me thrive as an artist, come join me there so we can talk about future stuff for some of my content!
Its been a long journey trying to set this up. I had an Australian account I never really did much with since I moved to Canada and lost access to it.
But with my permanent residency being approved here in Canada now, I can finally move forward with my Patreon in the proper manner!
https://www.patreon.com/balkar
https://www.patreon.com/balkar
https://www.patreon.com/balkar
My Patreon has Finally Launched!
If you want first dibs at commissions from me,
If you want to see WIP works of mine
-Or- if you just want to support me and see me thrive as an artist, come join me there so we can talk about future stuff for some of my content!
Its been a long journey trying to set this up. I had an Australian account I never really did much with since I moved to Canada and lost access to it.
But with my permanent residency being approved here in Canada now, I can finally move forward with my Patreon in the proper manner!
https://www.patreon.com/balkar
https://www.patreon.com/balkar
https://www.patreon.com/balkar
The Bal’Kar is an outlet, not a cult or sect.
Posted 5 years agoHey everyone. Sorry I’ve been out of the loop and not that talky. Today I thought I’d spend some time tho letting you all know what’s been happening with me and the Bal’Kar.
The Bal’Kar itself is a fickle one to talk about as everyone perceives it differently. Like what people see is someone singing music. A person can relate what they sing about to similar experiences they have had in their own life. Essentially painting your own picture of the song in your mind.
In someone’s painting, their perception is literally stamped onto a physical or digital plane that has been captured and frozen in time. My own expressions have also depicted some strange and exotic things, and I’m sure there’s more to come! But all is relevant to my own life experiences, perceptions. It is simply put “Brain Chemistry” perceiving.
My life has been a difficult one. One I have spent the majority of alone.even when I’m around other partners, friends and family, that Isolated antisocial perception lingers. As one can never truly understand another 100%.
My expression can be raw and wild in those states, which gave rise to some very lewd yet primal content here on my FA channel.
It’s a bit weird hearing that there’s been people creating their own cultures and beliefs around the Bal’Kar I made tho...
People are even being hurt... which pains me greatly, relationships have formed between people because of the Bal’Kar which mean it has directly impacted people’s lives already!
Something that was made only in 2012! It’s a relatively new creation in the grand scheme of things. Something I am still working on, it’s great to see people doing neat spinoffs too, it shows people’s passion for what the Bal’Kar represents in nature. But it’s fiction and should always be kept in mind first hand.
Taking the Bal’Kar in a literal sense can be dangerous, all it takes is someone to take LSD (acid) and stare into one of those controller eyes for the entire time your tripping to have it do permanent psychosis.
Please keep the Bal’Kar simple and fantasy, I don’t want to hear that someone has been sent to a mental institution because the Bal’Kar obliterated their minds in a literal sense.
I get that my imagery is intense! I’ve said some fucked up things in my time alive. But it’s all an expression from my own experiences. A literal outlet for me dealing with all the bullshit in the world.
The Bal’Kar is not connected to any conspiracy or true facts in any sense. Let that be loud and clear!
“It's alright, it's okay, it's alright, it's okay
You're not a monster, just a human
That you made of your mistakes
It's alright, it's okay, it's alright, it's okay”
https://youtu.be/G5-KJgVsoUM
The Bal’Kar itself is a fickle one to talk about as everyone perceives it differently. Like what people see is someone singing music. A person can relate what they sing about to similar experiences they have had in their own life. Essentially painting your own picture of the song in your mind.
In someone’s painting, their perception is literally stamped onto a physical or digital plane that has been captured and frozen in time. My own expressions have also depicted some strange and exotic things, and I’m sure there’s more to come! But all is relevant to my own life experiences, perceptions. It is simply put “Brain Chemistry” perceiving.
My life has been a difficult one. One I have spent the majority of alone.even when I’m around other partners, friends and family, that Isolated antisocial perception lingers. As one can never truly understand another 100%.
My expression can be raw and wild in those states, which gave rise to some very lewd yet primal content here on my FA channel.
It’s a bit weird hearing that there’s been people creating their own cultures and beliefs around the Bal’Kar I made tho...
People are even being hurt... which pains me greatly, relationships have formed between people because of the Bal’Kar which mean it has directly impacted people’s lives already!
Something that was made only in 2012! It’s a relatively new creation in the grand scheme of things. Something I am still working on, it’s great to see people doing neat spinoffs too, it shows people’s passion for what the Bal’Kar represents in nature. But it’s fiction and should always be kept in mind first hand.
Taking the Bal’Kar in a literal sense can be dangerous, all it takes is someone to take LSD (acid) and stare into one of those controller eyes for the entire time your tripping to have it do permanent psychosis.
Please keep the Bal’Kar simple and fantasy, I don’t want to hear that someone has been sent to a mental institution because the Bal’Kar obliterated their minds in a literal sense.
I get that my imagery is intense! I’ve said some fucked up things in my time alive. But it’s all an expression from my own experiences. A literal outlet for me dealing with all the bullshit in the world.
The Bal’Kar is not connected to any conspiracy or true facts in any sense. Let that be loud and clear!
“It's alright, it's okay, it's alright, it's okay
You're not a monster, just a human
That you made of your mistakes
It's alright, it's okay, it's alright, it's okay”
https://youtu.be/G5-KJgVsoUM
Painful decision about the Bal’Kar Hatchery telegram ch...
Posted 5 years agoHey everyone...
It’s been quite the ride. The Bal’Kar chat is 8 years in the making, It was the foundation of our community that brought many of us closer together. Unfortunately over the years, It’s become a cesspool of unrelated cutsey uwu furwwy nonsense, along with a ton of drama over people I gotta be weary about.
It started getting out of hand a couple years ago when I moved countries from Australia to Canada. Which took away a lot of my time.
I’ve also been working pretty hard recently with my job, it’s been fairly demanding taking away most nights from me.
I just can’t manage a group of 120 in any aspect and I still haven’t gotten to the part where I don’t even have time to draw anymore. I’m too nice and I’ve let too many people trample over my creation to the point I stated seeing alternate and miscellaneous creations based off the original, sure I made the Bal’Kar an open species, but I never expected people to take the design and warp it into their own alternate versions then claim it’s their new OC.
I really wanted everyone to embrace the Bal’Kar for what they were initially. I opened the species up for that aspect of being part of an online collective. To embrace unity in a lust driven world that I wanted to create for people to escape to. A place that washes away those feelings of being lonely or unwanted in life. To finally embrace that monster you’d always convinced yourself you were. I wanted the Bal’Kar to speak for itself when It came to washing away those terrible self destructive feelings people get from time to time. Yet time and time again I saw people letting loose their personal life woes all over the public chat rather than focus on the Bal’Kars visual message and it severely took away from the beauty of these beasts of mine, long standing members slipped into the shadows, close friends started leaving and all our work over the years started to come undone and unravel.
We’ve lost touch on the original ideas of the Bal’Kar having this telegram chat up and running And I’m quite frankly over playing policeman/personal councillor to everyone’s problems in the chat. On all those fronts, Too many people playing victim. Too many people trying to be manipulative and twist my creation around their little fingers. And so now the chat has even pushed its creator away.
It’s upsetting. I feel a hole in my chest just thinking about it and I’ve even shed tears recently thinking about all the really good past time memories in the chats. But I can no longer give time to the Bal’Kar telegram chats. I was already at a stage where my presence was minuscule due to people’s behaviour in the chat, I can’t do this anymore, I deeply apologize to all who wanted to delve into the Bal’Kar and embrace them for what they are but I can no longer provide a chat with that in mind. People are making unofficial chats which has been causing problems with a BIG misrepresentation of the species.
Moving forward on things, leaving these telegram chats will hopefully give me more time to focus on creating more Bal’Kar content the way it was meant to be. I still have yet to make my Patreon account, my residency status has been put on hold due to COVID-19 so making my Legal Patreon account here in Canada for financial support is still in limbo.
I really want 2020 to just be over already. It has not been a good year for any of us and is causing people to go utterly bonkers.
Here’s hoping the Bal’Kar will make a triumphant return one day.
For now tho, peace out! And be nice in the comments!
It’s been quite the ride. The Bal’Kar chat is 8 years in the making, It was the foundation of our community that brought many of us closer together. Unfortunately over the years, It’s become a cesspool of unrelated cutsey uwu furwwy nonsense, along with a ton of drama over people I gotta be weary about.
It started getting out of hand a couple years ago when I moved countries from Australia to Canada. Which took away a lot of my time.
I’ve also been working pretty hard recently with my job, it’s been fairly demanding taking away most nights from me.
I just can’t manage a group of 120 in any aspect and I still haven’t gotten to the part where I don’t even have time to draw anymore. I’m too nice and I’ve let too many people trample over my creation to the point I stated seeing alternate and miscellaneous creations based off the original, sure I made the Bal’Kar an open species, but I never expected people to take the design and warp it into their own alternate versions then claim it’s their new OC.
I really wanted everyone to embrace the Bal’Kar for what they were initially. I opened the species up for that aspect of being part of an online collective. To embrace unity in a lust driven world that I wanted to create for people to escape to. A place that washes away those feelings of being lonely or unwanted in life. To finally embrace that monster you’d always convinced yourself you were. I wanted the Bal’Kar to speak for itself when It came to washing away those terrible self destructive feelings people get from time to time. Yet time and time again I saw people letting loose their personal life woes all over the public chat rather than focus on the Bal’Kars visual message and it severely took away from the beauty of these beasts of mine, long standing members slipped into the shadows, close friends started leaving and all our work over the years started to come undone and unravel.
We’ve lost touch on the original ideas of the Bal’Kar having this telegram chat up and running And I’m quite frankly over playing policeman/personal councillor to everyone’s problems in the chat. On all those fronts, Too many people playing victim. Too many people trying to be manipulative and twist my creation around their little fingers. And so now the chat has even pushed its creator away.
It’s upsetting. I feel a hole in my chest just thinking about it and I’ve even shed tears recently thinking about all the really good past time memories in the chats. But I can no longer give time to the Bal’Kar telegram chats. I was already at a stage where my presence was minuscule due to people’s behaviour in the chat, I can’t do this anymore, I deeply apologize to all who wanted to delve into the Bal’Kar and embrace them for what they are but I can no longer provide a chat with that in mind. People are making unofficial chats which has been causing problems with a BIG misrepresentation of the species.
Moving forward on things, leaving these telegram chats will hopefully give me more time to focus on creating more Bal’Kar content the way it was meant to be. I still have yet to make my Patreon account, my residency status has been put on hold due to COVID-19 so making my Legal Patreon account here in Canada for financial support is still in limbo.
I really want 2020 to just be over already. It has not been a good year for any of us and is causing people to go utterly bonkers.
Here’s hoping the Bal’Kar will make a triumphant return one day.
For now tho, peace out! And be nice in the comments!
ANNOUNCEMENT: Bal'kar Wiki Down + Updates
Posted 5 years agohttp://www.the-balkar.com/wiki/Home
So it seems the php version is out of date and we need to do major updates to the website before it can go back online.
I might actually use this time and this recent issue to start work on the Bal'kar website again. I made a few more additions 2 weeks ago but I'm talking overhaul, new content Ect.
It has been neglected in recent years due to life as people may know of my situation.
With Covid-Over-9000 on the loose, im out of my usual job and have no source of income.
With isolation being the new thing...A Bal'kars weakness at that... i have found time for artsy stuff.
I'm working on finishing up the new Bal'kar Obyrith.
If anyone is interested in knowing what it is, I'm taking questions and suggestions once the cat is out of the bag.
I'm looking into starting a new patron account here in canada. My old account does not work anymore because its using an australian account i cant seem to change over.
I'll be starting all over again. I'll have a link to the new one soon. and put up a big starter package with access to all the secret stuff I've been sketching up.
The old account is dead so please, if you are still subscribed. Please Cancel it.
Patreon https://www.patreon.com/NeoxNorris
here is the link to my old one for quick access.
The link for my new one will be up this week most likely. All those that subscribe will be helping with the construction of the website.
I will have a ranking system fleshed out for different access levels to my art depending on how much support you pledge.
:Egg - $5 a month
Will be kept up to date on art, i will post all WIP and progress - i will be doing a mass dump
when i create the account and you will have instant access to all that's new coming from me including a unique dropbox link.
:Squishling - $10 a month
The above + 1
Signed prints of my work will be available to you at the cost of your postage quote. 1 Request per month. This will be a high quality print you could frame or just have as part of a collection. You will have access to my full resolution completed artworks too, so you could indeed print them off yourself, it just wont be signed.
:Bal'Cast - $15 a month
The above ++ 2
Will receive a quick character sketch (if people wish to negotiate upgrading their sketches to full commissions, i will have a conversation with you for pricing as it all depends on the amount of detail you want me to put in.)
:Feeder - $25 a month
The above +++ 3
I will get you set up with your own profile page on the Bal'kar Wiki we can fill with your own lore once its up and running. We can work on detailing, Put up art that i do of you OR Bal'Kar pictures your character has been in with express permission from the artist for it to be shown on our website. If i do not receive written permission or consent, it cannot go up.
:Bal'Kar - $50 a month
The above ++++ 4
Woah! Well if you think I'm worth it, ill give you a quick colored drawing each month.
There will be a limit on how many of these i give out
:Obyrith - $100 a month
The above ++++ 4
I am truly Honored! will work on a comic series for you!
These are limited too but! for the duration of you being subscribed at this level, i will work with you on a panel-by-panel TF comic. These types of things usually take months so its a long haul thing. Once one comic is done and you wish to remain subscribed, we can start a new project. If you cancel in the middle of the subscription, I will put in on pause the following month until you wish to pick it up again. I also have the right to put a pause to it for any circumstance, Eg: if something comes up and i won't have the time to complete it. ill keep in contact for resuming it.
If anyone has any suggestions, by all means ask!
AGAIN this will be for when i have things up and running and could be subject to change when i go to release my work online!
So it seems the php version is out of date and we need to do major updates to the website before it can go back online.
I might actually use this time and this recent issue to start work on the Bal'kar website again. I made a few more additions 2 weeks ago but I'm talking overhaul, new content Ect.
It has been neglected in recent years due to life as people may know of my situation.
With Covid-Over-9000 on the loose, im out of my usual job and have no source of income.
With isolation being the new thing...A Bal'kars weakness at that... i have found time for artsy stuff.
I'm working on finishing up the new Bal'kar Obyrith.
If anyone is interested in knowing what it is, I'm taking questions and suggestions once the cat is out of the bag.
I'm looking into starting a new patron account here in canada. My old account does not work anymore because its using an australian account i cant seem to change over.
I'll be starting all over again. I'll have a link to the new one soon. and put up a big starter package with access to all the secret stuff I've been sketching up.
The old account is dead so please, if you are still subscribed. Please Cancel it.
Patreon https://www.patreon.com/NeoxNorrishere is the link to my old one for quick access.
The link for my new one will be up this week most likely. All those that subscribe will be helping with the construction of the website.
I will have a ranking system fleshed out for different access levels to my art depending on how much support you pledge.
:Egg - $5 a month
Will be kept up to date on art, i will post all WIP and progress - i will be doing a mass dump
when i create the account and you will have instant access to all that's new coming from me including a unique dropbox link.
:Squishling - $10 a month
The above + 1
Signed prints of my work will be available to you at the cost of your postage quote. 1 Request per month. This will be a high quality print you could frame or just have as part of a collection. You will have access to my full resolution completed artworks too, so you could indeed print them off yourself, it just wont be signed.
:Bal'Cast - $15 a month
The above ++ 2
Will receive a quick character sketch (if people wish to negotiate upgrading their sketches to full commissions, i will have a conversation with you for pricing as it all depends on the amount of detail you want me to put in.)
:Feeder - $25 a month
The above +++ 3
I will get you set up with your own profile page on the Bal'kar Wiki we can fill with your own lore once its up and running. We can work on detailing, Put up art that i do of you OR Bal'Kar pictures your character has been in with express permission from the artist for it to be shown on our website. If i do not receive written permission or consent, it cannot go up.
:Bal'Kar - $50 a month
The above ++++ 4
Woah! Well if you think I'm worth it, ill give you a quick colored drawing each month.
There will be a limit on how many of these i give out
:Obyrith - $100 a month
The above ++++ 4
I am truly Honored! will work on a comic series for you!
These are limited too but! for the duration of you being subscribed at this level, i will work with you on a panel-by-panel TF comic. These types of things usually take months so its a long haul thing. Once one comic is done and you wish to remain subscribed, we can start a new project. If you cancel in the middle of the subscription, I will put in on pause the following month until you wish to pick it up again. I also have the right to put a pause to it for any circumstance, Eg: if something comes up and i won't have the time to complete it. ill keep in contact for resuming it.
If anyone has any suggestions, by all means ask!
AGAIN this will be for when i have things up and running and could be subject to change when i go to release my work online!
Sorry for the absence. Telegram up! Yay! Vancoufur!
Posted 5 years agoI have forgotten to mention here that my telegram is up and working again. The issue I had has been resolved.
Update on life.
Things have been tough here in Canada. It’s a Country that drives you hard at work and I’ve had less moods for drawing because of how tough it’s been trying to stabilize and adjust here. The stress has got me on some bad habits. I’m fighting with banks right now with these outrageous fees I’m being dealt for being in debt.
I’ve been having fun where I can, meeting new friend in this whole new way of life. Brand new dynamics I’m yet to understand when it comes to poly relationships. It’s like actually delving into a small version of hive mind mentality being in communication with more that just “another half”.
The Alberta Pup community I’ve been hanging out with has been a gorgeous experience, lots of really friendly frisky pups with many rubber experiences I’ll never forget.
I will be Visiting “Vancoufur” in Vancouver in a couple of weeks, so those in BC that want to meet up just pm me and we can telegram.
for organizing meetups.
I’m still unsure if I’m staying in Canada, so this could possibly be the only chance you get to meet me in the flesh while I’m in Canada.
Update on life.
Things have been tough here in Canada. It’s a Country that drives you hard at work and I’ve had less moods for drawing because of how tough it’s been trying to stabilize and adjust here. The stress has got me on some bad habits. I’m fighting with banks right now with these outrageous fees I’m being dealt for being in debt.
I’ve been having fun where I can, meeting new friend in this whole new way of life. Brand new dynamics I’m yet to understand when it comes to poly relationships. It’s like actually delving into a small version of hive mind mentality being in communication with more that just “another half”.
The Alberta Pup community I’ve been hanging out with has been a gorgeous experience, lots of really friendly frisky pups with many rubber experiences I’ll never forget.
I will be Visiting “Vancoufur” in Vancouver in a couple of weeks, so those in BC that want to meet up just pm me and we can telegram.
for organizing meetups.
I’m still unsure if I’m staying in Canada, so this could possibly be the only chance you get to meet me in the flesh while I’m in Canada.
See you all At Fur-Eh!
Posted 6 years agoI’m off!
Road trip to Edmonton in Alberta Canada for my first North American furry convention.
If you going, drop me a line so I can arrange some squishy hugs for those that want one!
See you at Fur-Eh!
Road trip to Edmonton in Alberta Canada for my first North American furry convention.
If you going, drop me a line so I can arrange some squishy hugs for those that want one!
See you at Fur-Eh!
Canada So far
Posted 6 years agoHey just want to make a quick journal here about my visit to Canada so far.
so for those that do not know. I have moved to Canada on a 2 year working/Holiday Visa.
The goal was to come here and start fresh, see if i like it enough to apply for residency here after the 2 year period. and eventually become a Canadian citizen.
The other goal i had was to get closer to the things i love. Within North America is the core of those things i love, the Furry Community, another reason i have come here.
Become more distinguished as an artist, as being a commissioner was becoming an expensive Hobby.
With barely any knowledge or experience in drawing for a long time, I drew a few things here and there. I have dove straight down the maw of the abyss. You will notice the art going from commissioned artists to Ideas that actually now come from my hands to it actually.
For years i doubted myself and my ability to draw. Tracing dragon Ball Z Art all the time that's about all i ever did art wise. All this time spent in Australia never knowing what i wanted to do led me to taking a leap into outer space so to speak. From Australian Commissioner, to Canadian Artist. My dream has been met. I have achieved what i set out to do. However i did take art classes when i was younger for which i am grateful for now, never realizing that i do love something, expressing myself through Digital Monster Art.
Life right now for me however is very tough...
Being this so called "Artist" I've wanted to be my whole life ended up being a whole lot tougher than i had imagined
Earning a living off drawing alone is not enough for me right now which means i have a job i am working 30+ hours in. I'm doing Canada proud in the workforce that's for sure! The lifestyle, environment, reactions people have to my behaviors here has me in shocked and panicked mode almost all the time. I have tremendous anxiety, stops me from communicating to almost anyone as i linger in an alien world. We may speak the same Language but you can definitely tell just by inner feeling alone you are in a very different place.
Sorting work out has been especially hard. particularly when in comes to transport systems. One of the Major reasons i just don't have a grip on Canada yet.
I've quickly slipped back into owing situations that has taken away a bit of my happiness away.
As i draw though, i just have this ebbing thought in my head to just keep going, try and be positive and see if i can do this...I've wanted this since forever. I've busted my ass for this opportunity and i'm messing it up
I've been trying very hard to get better at what i now do. And become a decent artist, Finally able to work on the things i love, like the Bal'kar, The Furry community, pup community.
The struggles I've had here have already prevented me from going to see British Colombia because of lack of funds. I have had huge disconnections all around me of late and I apologize that i haven't been around as i once was. Work is hard on all of us here.
I have not yet decided if i want to stay here or come back to Australia at the moment. Right now I'm in limbo, Torn between the two. I'm not sure if its me just looking in all the wrong places. but i am still hopeful i will be able to see a whole bunch more of you all when i come to Fur-Eh up in Edmonton in June!
The people I'm with here in Canada are super nice and incredibly hospitable. I just need to get over my own thoughts of thinking I'm ruining everything all the time!
I hate my anxiety. I've always been an introvert so again, the change is a bit shocking for me.
Anywho! thats enough outta me!
Expect to see more art soon! and thanks for those very few that visit me on my Artstreams. I'm not good at announcing them.
If you do want to hear me announce you can always follow my art announcements on telegram. https://t.me/Neoxart
so for those that do not know. I have moved to Canada on a 2 year working/Holiday Visa.
The goal was to come here and start fresh, see if i like it enough to apply for residency here after the 2 year period. and eventually become a Canadian citizen.
The other goal i had was to get closer to the things i love. Within North America is the core of those things i love, the Furry Community, another reason i have come here.
Become more distinguished as an artist, as being a commissioner was becoming an expensive Hobby.
With barely any knowledge or experience in drawing for a long time, I drew a few things here and there. I have dove straight down the maw of the abyss. You will notice the art going from commissioned artists to Ideas that actually now come from my hands to it actually.
For years i doubted myself and my ability to draw. Tracing dragon Ball Z Art all the time that's about all i ever did art wise. All this time spent in Australia never knowing what i wanted to do led me to taking a leap into outer space so to speak. From Australian Commissioner, to Canadian Artist. My dream has been met. I have achieved what i set out to do. However i did take art classes when i was younger for which i am grateful for now, never realizing that i do love something, expressing myself through Digital Monster Art.
Life right now for me however is very tough...
Being this so called "Artist" I've wanted to be my whole life ended up being a whole lot tougher than i had imagined
Earning a living off drawing alone is not enough for me right now which means i have a job i am working 30+ hours in. I'm doing Canada proud in the workforce that's for sure! The lifestyle, environment, reactions people have to my behaviors here has me in shocked and panicked mode almost all the time. I have tremendous anxiety, stops me from communicating to almost anyone as i linger in an alien world. We may speak the same Language but you can definitely tell just by inner feeling alone you are in a very different place.
Sorting work out has been especially hard. particularly when in comes to transport systems. One of the Major reasons i just don't have a grip on Canada yet.
I've quickly slipped back into owing situations that has taken away a bit of my happiness away.
As i draw though, i just have this ebbing thought in my head to just keep going, try and be positive and see if i can do this...I've wanted this since forever. I've busted my ass for this opportunity and i'm messing it up
I've been trying very hard to get better at what i now do. And become a decent artist, Finally able to work on the things i love, like the Bal'kar, The Furry community, pup community.
The struggles I've had here have already prevented me from going to see British Colombia because of lack of funds. I have had huge disconnections all around me of late and I apologize that i haven't been around as i once was. Work is hard on all of us here.
I have not yet decided if i want to stay here or come back to Australia at the moment. Right now I'm in limbo, Torn between the two. I'm not sure if its me just looking in all the wrong places. but i am still hopeful i will be able to see a whole bunch more of you all when i come to Fur-Eh up in Edmonton in June!
The people I'm with here in Canada are super nice and incredibly hospitable. I just need to get over my own thoughts of thinking I'm ruining everything all the time!
I hate my anxiety. I've always been an introvert so again, the change is a bit shocking for me.
Anywho! thats enough outta me!
Expect to see more art soon! and thanks for those very few that visit me on my Artstreams. I'm not good at announcing them.
If you do want to hear me announce you can always follow my art announcements on telegram. https://t.me/Neoxart
Life update on teh Neox (beginning public streaming)
Posted 7 years agoHey everyone!
Long time no see. Just thought i would Drop a Journal to say hey! I'm not dead!
I've been living life in the fast lane moving here to Canada. Its been a huge Culture shock for me and I'm finding it hard to fit in. Its almost Halloween! and the Snow is not far after that so hopefully you will see more of me in the coming months doing some art.
On the Art side of things, they are incredibly slow. Ive been stuck on the same image for 5 months.
I'm earning about 50 cents an hour on art right now which has forced me to get a minimum wage job to cover my living expenses here.
I'm not finding myself in very good situations financially. I'm broke as fuck which is putting a damper on my visits to cons and .
That and im still settling in as mentioned, it will probably be about 2 years before i can start seeing places further out, and probably 5 years before im visiting places in the USA
Not the best scenario i want to be in but thats life i suppose.
I've been getting very little time on art due to me being rather social IRL, new work and around the house projects to keep my new family happy.
Like i said, hopefully ill be getting more Art time now and i can begin publishing Bal'kar stuff again
I've had some wonderful people step up in creating their own Bal'Kar story lines and art and the support ive been getting in my small Telegram chat has been an overwhelmingly positive impact on my life.
If you want to come watch me draw! you are most welcome to join!
https://picarto.tv/Neox
Long time no see. Just thought i would Drop a Journal to say hey! I'm not dead!
I've been living life in the fast lane moving here to Canada. Its been a huge Culture shock for me and I'm finding it hard to fit in. Its almost Halloween! and the Snow is not far after that so hopefully you will see more of me in the coming months doing some art.
On the Art side of things, they are incredibly slow. Ive been stuck on the same image for 5 months.
I'm earning about 50 cents an hour on art right now which has forced me to get a minimum wage job to cover my living expenses here.
I'm not finding myself in very good situations financially. I'm broke as fuck which is putting a damper on my visits to cons and .
That and im still settling in as mentioned, it will probably be about 2 years before i can start seeing places further out, and probably 5 years before im visiting places in the USA
Not the best scenario i want to be in but thats life i suppose.
I've been getting very little time on art due to me being rather social IRL, new work and around the house projects to keep my new family happy.
Like i said, hopefully ill be getting more Art time now and i can begin publishing Bal'kar stuff again
I've had some wonderful people step up in creating their own Bal'Kar story lines and art and the support ive been getting in my small Telegram chat has been an overwhelmingly positive impact on my life.
If you want to come watch me draw! you are most welcome to join!
https://picarto.tv/Neox
See you all in CANADA
Posted 7 years agoOnly 10 hours till my invasion of North America begins.
well...yanno...its that plan ive had in the works for years. but flights are booked and everything is accounted for!
Stopping over in LAX then pumping it up to Canada-Land to finally be with my pup
golawaya
I never thought this day would come...i see so many long-distance relationships fall through but Gola and I have held fast and its finally happening.
Keep an eye out for me in Cons in NA over the next few years. Finally, a Chance to meet you all has come!
well...yanno...its that plan ive had in the works for years. but flights are booked and everything is accounted for!
Stopping over in LAX then pumping it up to Canada-Land to finally be with my pup
golawayaI never thought this day would come...i see so many long-distance relationships fall through but Gola and I have held fast and its finally happening.
Keep an eye out for me in Cons in NA over the next few years. Finally, a Chance to meet you all has come!
NOTICE: Telegram Bots using my identity
Posted 7 years agoJust be wary that there are Telegram bots using my identity as "Neox" To spread propaganda about underage sex and a whole bunch of other bullshit.
This is a disgrace and I want it gone. I can't wait for Karma to strike back at those responsible. Cause...its gonna happen.
These bots are mentioning that I want people to stop going with the flow and think to accept Illegal Behaviour.
who's spamming advocacy of illegal activities using my own commissions as profile images for bots.
Because of this, I will be terminating my Phone number and I will be bumping up my privacy.
There is a certain amount of trust lost here. When I give out my details its generally given to those i want to be friends and form bonds with.
When its taken from me and then used to spread misinformation or illegal propaganda. I'll make sure of it that you answer for your bullshit.
This is Harassment and I want it gone!
If you see any bots spamming this bullshit know that it's not me and I would never say those things.
I'm more the person to say to you all "Go with the flow, Sometimes blindly too *winks* stay healthy and hope for an awesome future WITHOUT doing what is already illegal inside your own lands".
This is a disgrace and I want it gone. I can't wait for Karma to strike back at those responsible. Cause...its gonna happen.
These bots are mentioning that I want people to stop going with the flow and think to accept Illegal Behaviour.
who's spamming advocacy of illegal activities using my own commissions as profile images for bots.
Because of this, I will be terminating my Phone number and I will be bumping up my privacy.
There is a certain amount of trust lost here. When I give out my details its generally given to those i want to be friends and form bonds with.
When its taken from me and then used to spread misinformation or illegal propaganda. I'll make sure of it that you answer for your bullshit.
This is Harassment and I want it gone!
If you see any bots spamming this bullshit know that it's not me and I would never say those things.
I'm more the person to say to you all "Go with the flow, Sometimes blindly too *winks* stay healthy and hope for an awesome future WITHOUT doing what is already illegal inside your own lands".
Neox Commissions are Full!
Posted 7 years agoComissions will be queued and completed in the order of below!
I will update this journal with progression so keep an eye on it!
Keep a closer watch on Neox's Art and Commission updates my joining my telegram announcement channel! : https://t.me/Neoxart
Queue 5 spots Open 2 remain:
- 1: 
ShaneKanayo Bal'kar Bust - Color/Shade (Complete)
- 2: 
That1furrydeer Deer Bust - Color/Shade (Complete)
- 3: 
AgentofEmpathy Bal'Kar Bust - Color W/Short Story (Complete. Writing Short Story)
- 4: 
Jaysky-Wolf 2 Character Eggs tentacles Mpreg Color/Shade W/Short Story (complete)
- 5:
DrakeHavok Full body Fox Symbiote - Color/Shade/Complexity/Weapon/Clothing
If you have any questions, leave a comment below!
I will update this journal with progression so keep an eye on it!
Keep a closer watch on Neox's Art and Commission updates my joining my telegram announcement channel! : https://t.me/Neoxart
Queue 5 spots Open 2 remain:
ShaneKanayo Bal'kar Bust - Color/Shade (Complete)
That1furrydeer Deer Bust - Color/Shade (Complete)
AgentofEmpathy Bal'Kar Bust - Color W/Short Story (Complete. Writing Short Story)
Jaysky-Wolf 2 Character Eggs tentacles Mpreg Color/Shade W/Short Story (complete)- 5:
DrakeHavok Full body Fox Symbiote - Color/Shade/Complexity/Weapon/ClothingIf you have any questions, leave a comment below!
Keep a closer watch on Neox's Art and Commission updates!
Posted 7 years agoTelegram is pretty staple throughout the furry community now.
If you want to keep track of my Shenanigans when it comes to Art
Join my Art announcements Channel so you know exactly when im open/closed for art!
Stream announcements!
Bonus giveaways ect!
https://t.me/Neoxart
https://t.me/Neoxart
https://t.me/Neoxart
If you want to keep track of my Shenanigans when it comes to Art
Join my Art announcements Channel so you know exactly when im open/closed for art!
Stream announcements!
Bonus giveaways ect!
https://t.me/Neoxart
https://t.me/Neoxart
https://t.me/Neoxart
No monster Anthrocon this year for the Bal'Kar
Posted 7 years agoThe Monster themed Anthrocon has been on my bucket list since its inception years ago. I would love to have unleashed my Bal'Kar upon the con,
But it's not to be. Dreams don't prevail for everyone I'm afraid. With Dental surgery coming up, not to mention my big move to Canada, I'm gonna have to win the lottery to have it all done the way I want now. Or something totally unexpected comes up. That's the only hope left i have for it.
I was unable to save, I have failed myself here in Australia time and time again. I can no longer take life for fun if all its going to do is keep beating me down into the dirt. No matter how hard i try to focus on my goals, none ever seem to come my way.
So now living has become a fight and I must become stronger somehow.
One has come into view now though and i am forever both relieved and thankful for it, and that is i have been accepted into Canada with a working visa for 2 years. I hope to perfect my skills in art, animation AND music while im there and eventually make my way into the furry frontier.
But it's not to be. Dreams don't prevail for everyone I'm afraid. With Dental surgery coming up, not to mention my big move to Canada, I'm gonna have to win the lottery to have it all done the way I want now. Or something totally unexpected comes up. That's the only hope left i have for it.
I was unable to save, I have failed myself here in Australia time and time again. I can no longer take life for fun if all its going to do is keep beating me down into the dirt. No matter how hard i try to focus on my goals, none ever seem to come my way.
So now living has become a fight and I must become stronger somehow.
One has come into view now though and i am forever both relieved and thankful for it, and that is i have been accepted into Canada with a working visa for 2 years. I hope to perfect my skills in art, animation AND music while im there and eventually make my way into the furry frontier.
Come listen to the latest Hardstyle tracks with my 2018 PL
Posted 7 years agoCome see it all on my 2018 playlist.
The strong bond of hardstyle
https://open.spotify.com/user/12924.....SoOty2n6lQ7mXw
Tracks are usually added weekly!
The strong bond of hardstyle
https://open.spotify.com/user/12924.....SoOty2n6lQ7mXw
Tracks are usually added weekly!
My heart....
Posted 8 years agoWe are who we are. With no reason to hide our spark.
The shape of my heart is but a silhouette in the dark.
The shape of my heart is but a silhouette in the dark.
Oops!
Posted 8 years agoI did it again.
