So I figured while I'm here I'd write a thing.
I know I don't need to explain why I've been off the grid for a long time, but I guess I just feel like it right now. This journal is more for me than anyone else, but why not post it to the www and see what people say about it?!

I've been kind of busy growing up and crap over the past few years. I've found it hard enough to find time to make my art, let alone find the time to hurdle over that barrier of anxiety I have every time I go to post something I've made. i hate that I'm so sensitive about my artwork. It has to be perfect before I can post it anywhere, and it kills me. If I forget one little detail its like, HOLY SHIT I need to fix it now! Like, with the ref I just posted I forgot to put a copyright or SOMETHING indicating that I did it, and got briefly horrified. It's almost laughable, it's not even me. BUT it IS a much less-significant horrified now compared to the years past, and I have been posting more on Facebook recently.

So I have stacks of artwork that like, only I've seen, or a few close friends have seen. I'd really like to post more somewhere, and for some things i draw, like furry things, I just don't feel comfortable posting it on my business Facebook for like, my family and non-furry friends, maybe even a coworker to see. Like my non-furry friends are ok with it and everything, but I know how I feel when i see a cringey weeaboo video or drawing and wonder; is that what they think every time I post my stuff on here? HAHAHA... Awww... Also my art is pretty dark so i can imagine for a normal person that is probably a pretty weird combo.

Anyway a big reason why I've been quiet, other than working a full-time job, is that I've been afraid that some asshole is gunna leave a negative comment on one of my posts and ruin my day... week... year maybe, probably just because they're feeling shitty about themselves for the moment. And I feel like the fear that I feel at this point is mostly just because that has happened to me before, like I'm sure it's happened to all of you artists out there, and not so much because a past experience is still haunting me in the way that I think the experience over in my head and my heart drops kinda thing. When I think of it now, it doesn't bother me quite as much, ya know what I mean? That probably doesn't make sense.

SO the reason why I am here now on this trash heap of a website is that I think I have more confidence in my work now. I've been working on my anxiety, HARD. I'm so much better than I used to be, and I take the time now when I am anxious to realize that it's just my stupid little lizard brain, and things really aren't a big deal. SO what if someone doesn't like my stuff?? There's always going to be people who don't!

Anyway this isn't a huge "I'M BACK!" message or anything like that. I can't guarantee I'll be back even after this post, but for now I think I will be back sometimes at least. I have to post this shit somewhere!

I hope you enjoyed my rant thing. If you made it this far, you get a gold star! *pukes*

-Spit

Thank all of you for your submissions! For those who made artwork
for this years con book and/or badges, please send a small (business card sized)
advertisement for yourself for us to put in our artist recognition section of the con book! =)

***If anyone still has some last minute submissions they would like to send in
I will be accepting them thru April 1st!***

Email me here with any questions, comments, etc: spitfire_jackal[at]hotmail.com

Thank you all so much for your hard work!
We cannot thank you enough for your continued support! <3
-Spitfire

Help my friend and her dog!:

 sorahusky :

My poor shiba Inu, Kichi, had to go in for an unexpected surgery for an abscess in her mouth tues and the kennel I boarded her at while at furpocalypse starved her and didn't tell me about her not eating!! I need help raising some money for the vet bill. SO.....

I am offering a custom (CANINE ONLY) partial suit at a fraction of the cost. (Eye color is just for example in pic)
$560 and you will get a foam base by Stuffed Panda Studios (static jaw) follow me eyes, DVC nose- fully lined, armsleeves, hand paws with DVC claws & Paw pads, tail and feet Paws!!!!
YOUR character!!! No complex designs please.
I accept PayPal. Serious inquiries only please!!

I have another base as well and may be offering the same deal if I can, any money helps!!!
Pass along!

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18161025/

Teaser Sale

*Transmission intercepted between the leaders of the EFE, FTA and FIA*

“You can’t hope to stop me and my henchmen you fools!”

“You’re outnumbered! Surrender now!”

“Perhaps I’ll just recruit some more henchmen and rebalance this quagmire of ours.”

Greetings Agents and Evil doers alike, this is a special announcement. The Evil Furry Elite are recruiting, and seek to gather power to take over the world.

There is a discount code active until Friday at Noon ET (May 29th 2015 @ 1200 hours ET). This code is only valid for the first 10 tickets it is used on. You can get 15% off your purchase of an Evil Furry Elite (tier 3) admission ticket using the code ‘GRANDSLAM’



Added to this special teaser sale, those 10 ticket holders may have their character shown in a cameo in our convention booklet. Simply email WickedXcore.events[at]gmail.com with the subject GRANDSLAM and the legal name you registered your ticket with.

Link to the site: http://fur-xoticon.com/archives/111

For some reason the past few images I posted are not showing their thumbnails...
They are visible when enlarged but not otherwise
Does anyone have an idea whats going on with my stuffs?

Hey guys thanks so much for voting! Dante is at 153 likes now! He needs as many as he can get!
I need your help to get this guy to hollywood and all it takes is a vote! >>>>>>

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15820153/

IT ONLY TAKES 3 EASY STEPS!
1. go to http://insidefilms.com
2. Click "MOST LIKED" under "SEE WHAT OTHERS HAVE CREATED"
3. Click "LOAD MORE" until you see this awesome guy! Click on him and like him! =DD

I need all the love! I need the most likes to win! <3333 You guys are awesome!!

Also yes. His name is Dante; previously undisclosed xP

hehehee!! >>>
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15820153/

He wants to be in a hollywood movie!! PLEASEE vote for him! I need all the likes I can get! If you already did and you want to help more you can like him in a different browser again! Sharing this post would be so helpful!!!

IT ONLY TAKES 3 EASY STEPS!
1. go to http://insidefilms.com
2. Click "MOST LIKED" under "SEE WHAT OTHERS HAVE CREATED"
3. Click "LOAD MORE" until you see this awesome guy! Click on him and like him! =DD

Thank you SO much for those of you who voted and shared already! He's at about 40 likes now! But he needs a lot more to make it! <33

I need all the love! I need the most likes to win! <3333 You guys are awesome!!

hehehee!! >>>
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15820153/

He wants to be in a hollywood movie!! PLEASEE vote for him! I need all the likes I can get! If you already did and you want to help more you can like him in a different browser again! Sharing this post would be so helpful!!!

IT ONLY TAKES 3 EASY STEPS!
1. go to http://insidefilms.com
2. Click "MOST LIKED" under "SEE WHAT OTHERS HAVE CREATED"
3. Click "LOAD MORE" until you see this awesome guy! Click on him and like him! =DD

Thank you SO much for those of you who voted and shared already! He's at about 40 likes now! But he needs a lot more to make it! <33

I need all the love! I need the most likes to win! <3333 You guys are awesome!!

I survived my first AC! Wooo! yeah...

My Ac was alright. Spitfires debut wen't well for the most part.
I roomed with my mate , and my amazing friends , , and Misc. Cheetah who of course does not have an fa lol.

The trip was long and very loud thanks to wolf's crazy ass subaru and his music <_<
we got there early and had to wait into the afternoon for the room to be ready which sucked pretty bad.
There I met this awesome kid: and we watched all of the mentally insane start to slowly pour into the hotel. I ended up napping in and 's room before ours was cleaned.

So I already start this big acid trip of a convention on minimal energy levels but whatever, i ended up having a good time that night and the next day was alright too. I got to play a bit with one of my favorite dancer furs, , and on those days i actually had enough energy to do my thing that i do a lot.. dance around like an idiot!! I honestly really just enjoyed walking around the convention in suit; I mean the rave and stuff is fun but i cant stay in there for more than 10 minutes at a time xD

I definitely saw a lot of cool fursuits that made my eye sockets giggle. I went to the crux panel and fell deeply in love with the species xDD thinking of making a crux sona sometime soon!

There were unfortunately a lot of things that just didn't go very well at this con. I would have enjoyed it so much more if I wasn't so exhausted the whole time.. drinking obviously helped with this xD but by the end of the con i was so tired and anxious I could barely speak, let alone figure out wtf was going on around me. I missed the dance competitions I really wanted to go to because I had to nap. Went to the smash competition but got bored instantly waiting for other peoples to play.

The parade was an interesting experience. We just leave the room and and i are playing around waiting for the elevator. He accidentally knocks one of my teeth out. I figure alright, fine.. im missing one of my front teeth... im ok with this. But then otw out of an elevator packed with fur my tail is ripped clean off x_x We were already rushing to get to the parade to be in the guinness count! But thankfully , whom i now dub spitfire's savior (for some reason he is always there when something goes wrong with my suit), came to the rescue and used one of 's tail pins to stick mine back in my tail hole. Thank you so much both of you guys for helping me out i was really freaking out under all that fur xDD

And of course I'm going to mention the whole situation. I'm sure the only reason that asshole is going to look at this journal is to read the part about him xp''

The only reason I responded to that phone call was because I accidentally poured water down my fursuit and took my head off... so thank you for giving me that stupid water bottle xD
I called back and was told my boyfriend was drunk.. what else is new? I wasn't informed of how bad the situation really was which i am not happy about. Either way i ran in suit across the entire hotel to change and get to the omni.
in short I believe I made the right decision. He was freezing cold, foaming at the mouth curled up under the toilet moaning these ungodly sounds that wrenched my heart. I couldn't bend his fingers, and he couldn't move or open his eyes. I was panicking, and did not trust anyone in the room. Especially because they weren't helping him AT ALL. I thought they could have drugged him, and I wasn't going to stand by and watch his pain wondering if he was going to die for multiple hours so yeah...

Thank you so much for being there with me. I feel like the situation was more painful on my end than his honestly. Still wanna punch that random fat guy in the face.

That aside, I feel almost as if i didn't really chill enough with anyone so much during the con.. we were rushing around to so many different busy places it just feels strange.. I also wish i got to hang out with more...

either way I got to experience Anthrocon and all its disgusting, sweaty, drunken glory. I still loved it. I still feel the PCD. Just not as much as I had hoped I would.

heres a stupid short video of myself being happy i think taken by ? how did he get my phone...? pshhh alcohol

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1Nbw.....ature=youtu.be

and a better video taken by my love, ^_^ <33

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y9PIho2B9dc