Hello everyone.

I had to be sure if I had permission from  pervynamek02's family if I could openly post this up.

It's with a heavy heart, that Adrian (Addy), had passed away October 2, 2025 at 1:55 am. He was battling against brain tumors for 23 and half months. He had passed on during his sleep. Even so, it hurts me and his family that he is gone.

Adrian and I knew each other for many years as artists in the TMNT community over on deviantArt close to 2007 range with our love for Leonardo.

I was so happy for him to have gained so many friends and became an inspiration to artists in posting what he loved doing most. I know he inspired me, too, on dA and especially, on FurAffinity.

We met at Otakon, in person, year after year. Then eventually we became boyfriend and girlfriend during Bronycon 19. It was so sweet when he asked me to be his girlfriend. I remember how I got rather flustered in public I was when he asked.

He practically saved my life ever since I became quadriplegic. In the months of me being in the hospital in 2019, hearing his voice in words of love and encouragement are what had kept me going. He was my hero.

He was the sweetest, kindest, bravest, most gentlemanly man I have had ever met. He could light up the whole room with his smile and laughter.

I referred to him as "my handsome knight" as he referred to me as his "beautiful princess".

I certainly know that I will never forget him. His warmth, his love, my memories with him - I will forever cherish in my heart.

I love you, Adrian. I always will.

Rest in peace, my darling.

 pervynamek02

Hey everyone.


I am so sorry for not having been active for so long. (I'm not dead!)


I've felt guilty about that.


Not to mention that adapting as a quadriplegic is quite the physical and emotional ordeal.


Anyway, I cannot move my lower half/legs of course, but I also cannot move my fingers. I am getting better with my hands through time.


I hope I can do art soon. It will just take longer for me.


In the meantime- I want to thank you everyone for having me in their thoughts/prayers.


Thanks for stopping by, watching, and favorites as always.


Much love,


nichan

Hey everyone.

As you know, from the car accident Oct 4th, I am a quadriplegic from a C5, C6 spinal injury.

However,

1. my arms are getting stronger.
2. I have more feeling in parts of my body
3. I can use a fork WITHOUT A BRACE.
4. I can VOLUNTARILY wiggle some of my toes
5. I would usually cry from family bullshit, but no.
6. Not afraid of dad because his rage stuff are now hysterically childish.

I still need to do a post about what I went through, let alone who to thank in my journey. You know like my buds Jay, Greg, John, my 20 years bff Katie, and of course my amazing boyfriend, Adrian. AND MY MOM FOR BEING A FUCKING BADASS.

So anyways, it's funny that I have a lot of money from birthday and xmas. I have been trying to look for people who would allow me to ask for commissions of Nikame + Addy. ...*coughblush*

Anyways, just wanted to give you all a heads up. Thank you all for you kind words and prayers.

❤🐢

To give you all a heads up, I was in a severe car accident on October 4th. Cervical spine fractures. I got home January 10. Cannot use my hands or legs. Ugh. May take 1-2 years to get my hands working again. So no art for a long time.

Wow.

I have not updated my journal in forever. Sorry about that!

I've been kind of quiet lately because honestly, I haven't had much to say. Not to mention I tend to find myself pretty boring. ^^;;

*clears throat*

So anyways - I can tell you guys what has been up lately.

I've been on/off with art as you can tell, but I'm trying my best. It's hard coming up with ideas sometimes. I mean I know I haven't been that original with anything. I prefer to draw based on my emotions. *shrug* When I pour my heart into an idea, I tend to like what I do more.

So what has been the good and bad news of things? Well, I'll start with the bad since that stuff is... well, bad.

If you've seen my Facebook or Twitter, you may have heard about my dog, June.

We had found out that she had a tumor which was supposedly at her spleen. It turns out though that it was NOT on her spleen, but near it. It was the size of a lemon! Holy crap. We are glad that it wasn't on the spleen because that usually means that dogs with that would have 3-4 months to live after surgery.

So for now we're waiting for a biopsy results for it. We haven't heard anything yet, but hopefully we will tomorrow.

At the moment, June has been doing better little by little. Getting back to her peppy self and such.

So fingers crossed she does not have cancer. The doctor had said that her organs look great, so her odds are very favorable.

So it's kind of bad news, but at the same time there is a silver lining to it.

I'll keep you guys posted about that.

Now onto the good.

You may know about this, but... um...

>//u//<

A big change in my life happened early August.

Hopefully he doesn't mind me disclosing this, but  pervynamek02 and I are officially a couple! *screeching!!* <3 I have been much happier since then, actually!

Like honestly any bullshit that I deal with when it comes to my father - it doesn't bother me nearly as much. I'm more like "Mhmm. Yeah. You're trying to make me feel miserable, but you're failing. I have valid reasons to be happy."

*clears throat* So yeah those are the main big things that have gone on. I know it's a short journal, but like I said - I tend to be boring. ^^;;

I'll try my best to post up more art soon once I come up with stuff.

Thank you for supporting me~

 nichan

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Hey all!

How have you been?

Well, I've had my ups and downs of course, but who doesn't?

Currently, I've been recovering from a cold I have had for a few days now. I'm still not 100%, but better than how I was.

Anyways, I just thought I'd pop in since it's been a while since I posted something on the journal.

So besides the cold, I have had something positive go on. Like for months now - I've been on a low carb/low sugar diet with my mom. I decided to support her in that since she has to check her blood glucose every day. I figured doing this with her would help her and it's been working out great for the both of us! She's losing weight, her blood sugar is fantastic so far, and I've gotten better health wise and lost a lot of weight to where I dropped to maybe about 2-3 sizes already! WHOO! It's nice to lose weight because I want to instead of being pressured by certain people. *sips tea*

And funnily enough I didn't do anything for the Thanksgiving holiday this year because so much crap went down that I was so worn out and pretty much said, "screw it". ...to be fair the holiday came up SO FAST. I was nowhere near ready for anything for this year. So hopefully during the Christmas time, things will work out much better for me.

Let's see... what else is up...

As some of you may know - Tumblr has pretty much become a crap show because of them removing NSFW stuff starting on December 17th. So if you followed my NSFW blog, that is long gone. I deleted it. However my regular tumblr is still there. ...that is of course unless they delete mine even though my stuff is safe for work there for the most part. SO I noticed people were hopping over on Twitter and I FINALLY got myself an account over there. So you can check me out here: @yarnturtle: https://twitter.com/yarnturtle Sometimes I might post art that I may or may not post here - so be on the lookout. Otherwise be prepared to see a lot of random stuff tweeted and retweeted by me. That and me still being such a noob with Twitter. ^^; I am having fun though. It's pretty awesome to directly talk to people more in a sense.

Other than that... not a whole lot has gone on. I will admit even though I have had some rough times, I'm strangely enough kind of happy at the moment. Like I'm still sick, but I feel calm. I guess it's because my mind is in a better place than it had been.

I'm hoping to get more art done, but that's been a little slow as well. I just need to have a moment where I come up with some cool ideas. Or hell, do one of those meme/quilt things with someone to maybe get me motivated. Since I'm feeling not too bad - maybe I'll try to doodle in one of the mini sketchbooks I got at Target recently. ...no really - in the xmas stuff up front where the $1 stuff is - look for sketchbooks there. I got 3 with a lot of pages for $3 a piece. Bargain!

Well, I think I'm just about done rambling for now. I just thought I'd pop in and see how you were all doing and just letting you guys know what's up with me lately.

Anyways, thank you always for supporting my work, favoriting, watching, and just being overall awesome people.

Much love,
 nichan

Hello everyone!

I usually don't do this sort of thing, but I wanted to do this for : pervynamek02 because he's looking for people to commission him since he has had some life changes recently. And I would be really happy if he got a lot of support because I care about him and love him a hell of a lot.

Anyway, it would be really great if you could check out his page and consider buying art from him. He's a super sweet guy and extremely trustworthy. I was very happy when I purchased art from him myself. ^^ He's very talented and I've always admired his work <3

So when you have the time, please go give him a visit! https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8864815/

Thank you so muchly for reading!

<3
 nichan

Hey all.

I'm sorry I've been rather quiet still. I just might be slow with things because it's been an emotional couple of days. I had to do something I was not looking forward doing which was potentially hurting someone I care about.

I won't go into details because it's a private thing, but it was something I had to do not just for me, but for them as well.

Nothing horrible happened between me and said friend, we're just taking some time apart to let everything sink in.

I'll be okay I think.

...I want to draw more though to help me keep me occupied. Just not sure what.

*deep breath*

I will be okay.

Hey guys! Sorry for not talking much. I was in quite a sketch binge mood today. I didn't post every sketch, but I wanted to at least post ones that I really liked.

I'm still somewhat timid with adult/mature art, but I think part of it is because I don't draw it all that much, and plus... I suppose I have to be in the mood for it. -shrug-

Normally I would get really good ideas for art with RPing, but dang it - I'm... too timid for RPing sometimes, too. Even if it's innocent stuff. -cough- It's a shame too, because that does help me draw more.

Anyway, I know the art I posted today is nothing spectacular, but I can say that I attempted to make stuff. ^^;;

-clears throat-

Been a while, huh?

Like I said - I've been goofing off mostly on my tumblr and FB lately.

I honestly still have not been able to draw anything no matter how hard I try. I'm still trying, mind you.

I guess to make this entry short and sweet - this is er... kind of a post to point out I'm not dead. n///n;

Anyway, I'll try my best to do art and talk to more people here since I've been really quiet lately. (Sorry about that, too.)

Also thank you for my watchers/friends for understanding, and thank you to my newest watchers for stopping by and faving my work as always. <3

~nichan

Hey everyone.

How have you all been?

I've had my ups and downs as of late. (Then again who doesn't?)

Anyways, I just thought I'd pop in for a moment to let you all know what's up as of late.

First of all, I'm really sorry for not having new content and that I have been really quiet as of late. Mostly it's because I honestly really don't know what to talk about or even post.

Don't get me wrong, I HAVE tried to draw stuff, but nothing seems to appeal to me. I've been this was for months.

It's just that I've had moments where I question myself on things. It's kind of hard to explain...

-clears throat-

If anything I mostly spend my time over at my tumblr of http://yarnturtle.tumblr.com. I seem to have a lot of fun there lately. (I'm not leaving any of my art sites - don't worry.)

As a side note though, I did see the new TMNT series content... and as some may know - I'm not impressed. At all. HOWEVER I am not against anyone that does support this AND I am willing to watch some of it to make a judgement for myself. I think the important thing is - if children enjoy it - that's great - it's mostly for them anyway.

And also the DLC for Injustice 2 of TMNT - oh dear Lord it's the best thing ever. ...it's a shame I can't play it on my PC though. -pout-

A-anyway... other than that, I've been messing around with my brother's Switch... anyone else play ARMS? I do enjoy playing against people.

Other than that... I might do something for Valentine's Day... Maybe something self indulgent in a sense. I don't know. I haven't had any plans for that day in general anyway.

Well, I guess that's about it. I know I'm pretty boring. Hopefully things will liven up for me soon.

 nichan

I hope you all have a good year this year.

I'll admit I'm still not quite myself lately as some of you may know through my FB page.

Hopefully I'll get out of this funk soon.

Anyways, have a nice new year.

 nichan

Hello everyone.

Tonight was another stressful night of my father having another seizure.

The seizure did not last as long as the others, but the aftermath was much worse.

At first my mom and I were not going to call 911. But then my dad got really aggressive. So much so that he pinned me to a wall and nearly broke my arm. He beat me and my mother; him punching me and my mom being punch in the face a couple times by him. Mom and I are fine though - just some bruises.

HE DID NOT DO THIS ON PURPOSE. HE WAS NOT IN THE RIGHT MINDSET AT THE TIME BECAUSE OF THE SEIZURE HE HAD. HE WAS COMPLETELY OUT OF IT.

I wanted to stress this fact to not have anyone yell "abuse". He did not know what he was doing.

Anyway, we went to the emergency room and thank God he was alright. Tests were all good and he's home with us now.

So hopefully we can all rest easy for now.

I may be on edge for a few days, so please bear with me. Hopefully when he sees the neurologist we can get this sorted once and for all.

A few prayers couldn't hurt either.

Thank you for reading.

~Nicole

Edit: Oh and it wasn't particularly cool that while my friends and I were walking to get back to my hotel room that three African American dudes said basically "You're safe now. But just wait till you turn around and I'll cut your f*ck*ng head off". ...Now I'm not racist at all, but seriously - it doesn't matter who you are - you don't say such things like that to ANYONE.

Hey everyone!

What's up?

Hm, not much with me. I think I've finally recovered from the fatigue from Otakon.

Some may be wondering though why I had a bad time.

Well, I'll explain this and then I'll go onto other things so I won't bore you to death. XD

OTAKON

Okay, on Thursday I arrived at the hotel and I stood there for 25 MINUTES at the front desk and they were not giving me any answers about if my room was available or not. They were like completely dumbfounded.

Now, let me make this clear; I set up this hotel a year and a month in advance using the Otakon website; so my records should have been there. AND this was before I found out the hotel had new ownership. Last year the previous owners had it where I automatically had a fridge and a microwave because all rooms had this. However, when I asked about this - I found out that I had to pay extra. ...no offense, but why the hell should I be penalized of this when I signed up for the hotel way before a new company owned it? I should have this anyway. And as a side note there isn't an option at the Otakon website for you to pick what kind of room to get except for double and king rooms. That's it. So I had no say.

Oh and here's more crap - they sprang the surprise that my card was going to be charged each night (temporarily) in case of damages. ...I was never told this beforehand. That is fishy as all hell.

ANYWAYS, after I got that all sorted - I get to my room finally.

How was my room you ask?

...Well here we go. -cracks knuckles-

1. Sticky spot on the floor

2. Giant red splotch on the floor (that's not creepy at all...)

3. Hot water faucet to the sink almost popping off

4. Beds creaky as all hell

5. Shower with no ventilation (which almost suffocated me one night!)

6. Shower drain took forever to drain water out

7. Holes in my bed sheets

Now I don't expect everything to be perfect. The stains - fine - the holes - they were small so that's okay, but the stuff that can be potentially broken and if I get blamed for it? That's bullcrap.

That's right people. We spent $600 on this shoddy hotel room. Whoo hoo. Start up the band.

So I sat there in my room for a couple hours for my friends alone just talking to my mother on the phone. Then once Satura showed up, we met with Addy and got dinner.

...and man - it took a long time to get a cab. HOWEVER, the staff member that was trying to get the cab for Addy was awesome. I appreciated what he did.

The next day though in the morning - I was not happy. I got up having heard breakfast closed at 10 so Satura and I got there at 9. ...then we get treated like dirt just because I swear they thought I was lying of the fact that one of the staff told me 10. So she coldly told us to get some cereal and leave. -rolls her eyes- God. I'm not a freakin' peasant.

The ONLY staff member I can say I genuinely liked to a welcoming level was the cleaning lady. She was an angel! We didn't even have her work on our room because we honestly didn't need her to. We're pretty clean people. ^^

Now you may be wondering. How was the con itself?

Um... all I did honestly was go to the dealers' room and artists' alley. I've met some nice people! But... I only bought a tiny turtle plush keychain for $5. That's literally all I bought.

But even so, it was wonderful meeting people! Especially interacting with some fellow artists. ^^

If anything, I enjoyed mostly doing the things outside of the con more than inside of the con. That's not really a good sign.

Either way, during this event I was mostly emotionally exhausted. I cried each day of Otakon and grew more and more frustrated with it.

And it made me realize that even though I have had fun with my friends... I didn't have fun at Otakon entirely. It felt almost in a sense a chore to me since I was the one mostly worrying about crap at times; like booking my room and badge stuff. Not to mention carrying in my suitcase 8 bottles of water and other things.

It's too exhausting for me.

So with that being said - even though Otakon is moving to DC this year, I think it's best for me to retire from Otakon for a while. I just don't think I can handle another breakdown again where I feel like everything is on my shoulders. And with me not being as into anime these days - it's not fun for me either.

So as of right now - I've gone to Otakon since 2002 and I'm for now ending it with 2016.

Will I try another con?

Not sure. Maybe AwesomeCon. I would love to go to TFCon even though I'd probably end up going alone.



OTHER STUFF

Oh my goodness are you still reading? Well, I thank you!

I know I haven't really been that active lately with art and such, but I will say I am happy to inform that I will be drawing Raph for :TMNT-U's class photo this year! I MAY draw NiNi in it this time for the class, but I'm not sure. We'll see. I have not drawn turtles in a long time - so please bear with me.

I've mostly been hanging around on tumblr a lot these days. I'm having fun over there and I've made some friends along the way.

OOH!! I also have a Skype now! I can't really post the name here since it's an email address (MSN account) and I don't want to get phished. I'm hoping to get my headset working so I can do voice stuff for once like voice memes! I've been dying to try one of those.

Other than that... I did go nuts buying stuff with my money from after Otakon...

Let's see... I got...

1. Wei Jiang TransformersG1 Commander Masterpiece MPP10 Optimus Prime - http://www.ebay.com/itm/252484494430

2. AOE Sword of Justice Keychain - I'm turning this into a sweet arse sword hair stick. http://www.ebay.com/itm/121690497747

3. This dress - http://holyclothing.com/index.php/d.....own-dress.html

4. A skein of yarn and some beads/pearls for my snood to match said dress

5. This badge - https://www.etsy.com/listing/463344.....irls-like-cars

6. A er... 18+ Transformers doujinshi. ...I'm a sinner. I won't post a link since it's an 18+ listing.

...I think that's it.


Hmm... I still have a little bit of money left... I wonder if I can find something Brave Police J-Decker based to buy... especially if it's custom. I love custom stuff.

Other than that though... not much else really going on with me yet! Hopefully things will pick up for me in the art department since I've been lacking in there as of late.

Welp, I think that's about it from me then. Sorry for the rambling! I hope to have stuff for the internet soon.

<3

 nichan