Well they rang to tell me what were with my mri scans, apparintly there is some sortove cyst or something i cant rember but they sead they will have to remove it, lucky for my is only a small one so they dont have to rip open my skull just a little hole and drain the puss out of it and then take the skin layer out and blah blah blah, so seems like im going under the drill this time YAY

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xeVV2KD1GqU

I have herd it some where before but cant rember sadly

But this song helps me sleep when my heads herting so it should put you guys to sleep like baby's

Night all

Well im back from all the scans with a really bad migrain at the moment, but the guy looked at the scans and whent "hmmmmm yes i see, im booking you in for a nuroigest" so now i gotta whate till another doc can have a look and till then im going to be on these Fing meds with play around with my head and mood. but well hopeing every things ok with it

Well as some close friends and other people know since not last saterday but the saterday before i have been suffering constant migrains, when ever i would exsert my self in any way i would get a migrain allwase at the same spot on the back of my head, such a throbing pain i would brake down in tears it hert so much.

Last thursday i whent to the hospital to have a CT scan of my brain to see what was happening, they found something. they didnt know what it was or even the right shape it was so at 8:30 am today im haveing a MRI scan to take a more close up and more detailed look at the brain to find out what exsaly it is. im takeing the brighter side and saying that its nothing because say if it was a tuma i wouldnt be fealing any pain or atleast thats what i been told.

So i will give you all a update when i get out, and im sorry if i havent been able to talk to some of you rescintly the medication i have been takeing has even made me sleepy.

Love ya all Night

I ask that any one that does read this jonral, that they do take a minit of silence for not only my horses that had passed away on this day last year but allso any ones pet who has. i will try to make today a happy day when i will be rembering the good times. have a good day all.

Some of you know and some dont but on tuesday last year on the 17th my horses were killed, I truely did love them alot. they were my family and well i dont think i will be in the best mood of all. so if i dont talk to you on msn or anything its nothing personal ok.

all i know is i cant log into my mail or msn

It shows one of the only things which makes me sob nearly every time at the end,

Cold Case.....its the best show its got truely awsome music in it but without fail nearly every time i watch it i tend to tear up a bit at the end. I dont know what it is but it just hits me hard, the wrighters for the show are truely amazeing in the way that they can tap into emotions like that.

Allso my heart goes out to the people in germany and the us who had lost people today in both of the mass murders.

Yes its ture i cant go on my i pod is dead

sorry yeah just wanted to make a jornal to getrid of the old one, but yes my ipod dear ipod had for 3 years now had finaly died and its a sad day i dont know how ever i will go on *acts all dramatic* lol

Well hears your chance guys,

Rivfur a big fur meet going on in july in my home town of brisbane is happening and we will be getting a poster made by  black360 something that looks like this http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1825293 .

So hear is your chance to be in the poster, Me and  Foxymalone are makeing a raffle for the poster, If you win the raffle you will be placed inside the poster itself with our mascot and some others.

So you may be asking yourself "Night how do i get in on this awsome action" well my friends its ezy as this you simply pay for some tickets for the raffle, the tickets will cost 2.50 AUD each or 5 for $10 AUD

The paypal address to use is foxymalone[at]gmail.com and type in the note Who you are and contact email.

I as that if you can post something informing people about this we would like to get alot of people to buy a raffle ticket because all the money will be going to rivfur itself to make it the best ever

Extraversion |||||||||| 38%
Stability |||||||||||||| 54%
Orderliness |||||||||||||| 58%
Accommodation |||||||||||||| 58%
Interdependence |||||||||||||||| 70%
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Mystical |||||||||| 36%
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Adventurousness |||||||||| 36%
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Conflict seeking || 10%
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Individuality |||||||||||| 43%
Sexuality |||||| 30%
Peter pan complex |||||||||| 36%
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Vanity |||||||||||| 43%
Honor |||||||||||||||| 63%
Thriftiness |||||||||||||||||| 76%

Stability results were medium which suggests you are moderately relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic.

Orderliness results were moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly organized, reliable, neat, and hard working at the expense of flexibility, efficiency, spontaneity, and fun.

Extraversion results were moderately low which suggests you are reclusive, quiet, unassertive, and secretive.

does not make friends easily, secretive, introverted, reclusive, observer, dislikes leadership, somewhat socially awkward, does not like to stand out, dislikes large parties, values solitude, solitary, avoidant, ambivalent about fitting in, not dominant, unassertive, suspicious, prudent, unadventurous, worrying, weird, intellectual, frequently second guesses self



Does this describe me in your eyes?

haha one of the best i ever saw really lol.

The group was given a big jornay to get from one end of the phiapeans and were given what they thort was alot of money, was only about 1000 US bucks XD.

So insted of getting cars to do it they got bikes and OMG it was funny like hell because manly Jeremy didnt know how to ride a bike at all XD.

God it was a awsome ep because if ya look close enuff you can see some sweet bikes.

Other reason for this jornal is for you all to keep a eye out on my submistions im going to be placeing a puzzle up soon ^^

Lord today was so draining on me XD

I started off wakeing up at 6 working out for 30 mins then after that repareing my garden, We been haveing horrable rains and winds and stuff so my plants have taken a beating but most servived but some of my orchids died *crys* but they were only young and not to devloped.

then from 10am onwards working got home only at 7:30 and im mentaly and phiscly drained so im taking another early night hehe.

Allso soon i will be haveing a new riddle up for you guys to figger out and trust me this one will stump you bad XD.


Now i shall leave you a link to a new fave song and the one i will be sleeping to called, Send me a song by the Celtic woman http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rh-q8RNLr3Q enjoy

http://www.ausfa.org/auction/

the auctions have now started,

We have such famos names as Blotch, SilverFenrir, Jonas Pride and meny more artists with alot of fantasitc art up to buy.

So go over and have a look and please if you have any questions dont hesatate to ask.

Ok as some of your furs may know in australia right now were haveing the worse bush fires ever seen before, Meny people have lost there lifes and there are over 181 people dead and there exspecting meny meny more. SO

Me and a bunch of other australian furs are makeing a furry auction. Were asking insted of furs around the world to donate money were asking that artists put fowed a commison, Basicly say if im a artist that is going to help out on the day of the auction, i will put up that i will draw something so then people will bid on me, So for all i know is that some one will bid $5 on my one and once the person who got the auction will then send me info and i will draw it.

So im asking artists music makers and any one really to pore there hearts into this. i ask that you guys please get back to me asap and i will be posting this on some peoples pages to ask if they can help so if you could make a jornal or something like this asking for help it would be appreshated.

Art types could be anything were accepting full pices sketches and so on

So far in the auction are:

 jonas-pride Whos putting one sketch in which can look like this http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1701032/

 angyl Whos A4 ink and colour piece, up to 2 characters and a detailed background but NO PORN
http://www.stoneorchid.co.uk/artonl.....2TheWolf_2.jpg

 zelgodis-graywords will be doing a story as to the limits of it i do not know as of yet

 nikitawolf will be doing a commison can be porn but no over the top fetishes I.E. skat water sports and stuff his arts like such
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1946087

 anhes Will be drawing a pic of art not confurmed what the rules are but art is like
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1958597

 artdecade Will be putting up a 1 mouth accses to his website

 Lightstep will offer one free custom dogtag portrait commission and allso a second commison of full color character portrait on paper free shiping

 Negger will be offering one of 2 commisons
Nº1 is a picture of one character, inked, flat colour with a simple background.

Nº2 is a picture of one character, penciled, with a more elaborated color and with a simple background.

 KrazyHorse will be putting up a basic inked line art max of two charicters

 SilverFenrir will be putting up one of his blotchysketch commisons

 thefabfurry will be putting up a tridional ink and color commison with max of two charicters

 iPoke will be placeing a pice of art up

 SpiritCreations will be doing a commison BUT has a long delay on when it will be done

 Freckles will be doing a sktech commison

 Orthan will be doing a commison

I figerd out what all this thinking was about, just mostly the amount of stress im under at the moment had made me question the choses i had made in life, its been a bad mounth and next mounth will be worse. As some of you knew earlyer this mouth my brother was killed and next mouth last year will be when my family...my horses were killed. im not really looking fowed to it but i know i gotta think nicely on it and rember the good times.

After all the thinking i did tho it made me think on night himself and the stuff i did wanna change. there are parts of night that i personaly dont like about him such as colors, so i am changing night but not his sona or form really. im going to make him agen more like my self in real life but more so what i would like to be like allso. I just thort i would drop you guys a note to tell how it is and reading your comments and stuff did help me think.

So thank you alot

That your fursona isnt you, like not what you would be.

The reason im makeing this is because it feals odd. i know Night is my fursona the horse, because i love horses and stuff. but then at the back of my head theres something saying naaaa.

I dont really know what to think but then i do think that if i was to change and im not saying i am right now changeing but if i did i would make alot of unwanted drama and allso make some people dislike me a little, so its confuseing i thort i would ask you guys if anything happend like this to you

Ok as some people know in the world is that australia right now is in a grate time of need. In the state im in at the top of it is haveing mass flooding and blocking the attempts of people getting out. But if we go down the sates to victoria there are masive fire storms around.

This has been on record the worst storm we have ever had, at the moment there are 86 comformed deaths and over 700 homes destoryed.

I allso keep hearing storys tho of all the animals dieing and sadly being left behinde when people are havening to run for there lifes, its sad to hear all the deaths of the people around of there familys and animals.


So tonight i ask you to please say a Prayer for the people that have lost something in this moment in history which australia and may even the world will not forget.

This day last year at 3 am i got a phone call saying that my brother was killed in a hit and run.

So today is a day im down which i use to rember the good times we had and try to think fondly on them all.

Hell yeah today i whent to Wet and wild with a bunch of furs.

OMG the water slides every where its was so much fun, and one of my friends got verry sunburn XD he looked a little funny .

There was this one slide which free falls. i could see the start of it and my first words out were "OMG WERE ALL GONNA DIE" lol wanna fun and funny as hell.

Really a awsome day yet right now i feal like im on deaths door step sooooo week and my feet are just killing me XD.

Yeah im gay im sorry girls but i like the men better.......


I dont know just something random before bed XD

Well i was told by centerlink that i needed a job capasity assesment thing so i whent and then they sent me to a sycoligist or something like that to test if i did have aspergis and dyslexia, they did there questions and got me to do stuff like circals and stuff.

They sent me out a letter saying oh yes i have dyslexia and aspergis but now apparintly i got Depretion......IM SOOOOOO SHOCKED.

God knows im not the happyest person around and i verry rarely smile unless forced to by jokes XD but like depretion, its not like it stops me i function allright but its not a shock so like i dont care but really people are stuped.

But well it dosnt matter im not gonna go on the pention i would rather be working .

Alltho a nice happy pice of info is that the Devil Wheres Prada is goning to be on TV and im going to wet and wild YAY

http://au.youtube.com/watch?v=rDE8HvGIt2U


yeah It's a Beautiful Day for Cancer

so cover up

Well if you do i got to say have alook at this,

http://www.picarelli.com.br/capa/im.....ie_casseus.jpg

Marlie she is such a strong girl, when she walked around people shuned her and sead such horable things, i dont know how people can live there life like this some times because i truely know i wouldnt be able to.

SO people if you think your lifes bad have a look at something like this and think how it would feal to be some one like her, AND im not saying your lifes not bad its verry possable its worse in a difrint way but im trying to say try to think more about how it really is bad compared to some one like marlie.

BECAUSE SOME OF MY ONES HAVE!!!!!!!

yeah i knowticed i commented on a pic of art earlyer today and when i looked at it agen it wasnt there like at all disapeard, but it allso happend to a comment on one of my art, some one commented when i whent to reply to another persons comment it was gone.