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Ppl who owe me art
 Nycket (pony design)
 Rhavvy (10 telegram stickers) (almost done)
 contrabeast (dead icon)
 misheru-san (Cat bull full body)
Mandee - Christmas reindeer, Christmas wreath

Ppl I owe
Kristahl - telegram (full ref - done) (pride badge - in progress) (icon- done)
 MasterCabbolf (ref sheet - in progress)

$60 Ciel phantomhive black butler cosplay size small/medium brand new in plastic buyer pays shipping
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24426446/

$25 15 inch totoro plush new in plastic buyer pays shipping
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24426436/

$30 Galaxy lion with art
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24426381/

$30 Snow fox with art
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24426391/

$10 each unicorns or $20 for both comes with more versions
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24426416/

$20 dutch angel dragon comes with art
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24426424/

Please message me if interested I'm in some debt and in need of money for medical emergency posted across sights

this bitch  Roaring-Flame-Cat shes super cool and needs more credit yo her arts come a long way too and shes amazing yall should commission her ^.^

Is there a reason why I'm being blocked by random artists I mean I always credit I never steal and I usually pay on time unless certain situations prevent me so.....idk what's going on I've tried to fave some people's art I'm watching and it says I'm blocked and because I'm blocked I can't ask why not sure what's happening here

My good friend  KitsuneSkyy needs some money to afford foods and living he's accepting commissions here are examples and prices http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7497606/
We appreciate any help thank you

kill me already.......somebody I'm done......

I'm losing my artistic inspiration and motivation.....

Staring out a window looking at my past
seeing bad and good but that smile just never lasts
faking half my laughs some fun here and there
life has been so tough but yet I made it here
just finding myself in an endless pit of disrepair
I crawled and I climbed trying to make it out there
working very hard my life almost had meaning then it came crashing down

now I'm here bleeding out on the floor
barely breathing I don't want to live anymore
I tried so hard and go nowhere
falling drowning darkness in my soul
I hope you will forgive me one day
but today I go away

depression growing stronger bad luck closing in
anxiety ahead and nothing I can change
I needed help and that I knew
no money and no life as I sit there in my hospital chair
I never knew it be like this
my life long goals now gone I wish things could change
I always hoped for a better day it never came and so I'm here

now I'm here bleeding out on the floor
barely breathing I don't want to live anymore
I tried so hard and go nowhere
falling drowning darkness in my soul
I hope you will forgive me one day
but today I go away

i hated it so much and man it hurt
you gave me hope but not enough
I loved you and I always will
I know you'll hate me cause I'm broken
I tried to win but I just lost
these games where never my strength
I'm sorry I hope you forgive me some day

now I'm here bleeding out on the floor
barely breathing I don't want to live anymore
I tried so hard and go nowhere
falling drowning darkness in my soul
I hope you will forgive me one day
but today I go away

A little over a year ago a good friend of mine passed away and I wanted I specific art piece to remember her by and a tribute to her I've tried time and time again to do it myself but I get caught up in to many emotions and just can't do it I'd appreciate the help it is specific what I want done and and I also want a good artist to do it I do not have much money but I could pay possibly little for this it would really mean a lot to me if someone would help or find an artist who would I've thought about her a lot and it might help me move on and get a little closure if I got this art piece I really hate asking for free or discounted art being an artist myself I know how hard some of you work and it took a lot of courage to even talk about this never less ask for help anyway thanks for reading

That day as I slept the princess met me in my dreams Everfree can be dangerous she said thus I have arranged one of my royal guard captains to meet with you and escort you through Everfree during your research he shall meet you at the path entrance from Ponyville to Everfree tonight I bid you good luck on your research and report to me your findings I nodded yes princess understood as I woke that night I packed my saddle bag with the supplies I needed and headed for Everfree it's kind of the princess to think of my safety but I think I could handle myself I let out I light snort it was a silent night it was warm with a light breeze Luna's moon shown brightly as the stars twinkled in the sky my who of steps tread lightly on the soft ground as I approach Everfree and think of someone accompanying me I start to get nervous and shy I'm not much of a social pony and I can be awkward I prefer to work alone but the princess must have a good reason for sending a guard with me my eyes and ears lower as I apron the silhouette of a pony in front of Everfree Forest my tail slightly tucks in between my legs as I take a deep breath slowing my pace as I approach

Sometimes....it hurts so much.....and I wanna give up so badly....and stop caring about everyone and everything.....i keep getting so close to that point......i cry....a lot.....probably to much.....not just is it mental pain.....but physical as well.....and that drives me to give up more.......the more time I spend in the hospital or at the doctor or getting treatments.....with little to no improvements.......i feel worse and worse about life.....and lol I wanted was a normal life.....to go to school...to have a job.....to go out with friends.....not be constantly taken care of by my parents.......i can't do anything.......I'm getting older.....and it feels like my life is going backwards.......I'm can't even plan for my future because I can only go day by day.......everything I ever wanted to do with my life........I'm most likely not attending Midwest Furfest this year......my medical bills are to huge and I don't have the money......i don't really have the money for anything anymore......I'm depressed all the time......I'm always stuck in the house........I really wanna give up........

1:Do you, sleep with your closet doors open or closed?
Open

2:Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel?
No

3:Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?
Out

4:Have you ever stolen a street sign before?
No

5:Do you like to use post-it notes?
don't really use them

6:Do you cut out coupons but then never use them?
Just cut the ones I use

7:Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees?
I have a chance of surviving a bear I'm allergic to bees

8:Do you have freckles?
no

9:Do you always smile for pictures?
Awkwardly

10:What is your biggest pet peeve?
I have lots but people lieing even about small things, people complaining when they don't know how good they have it or complaining about something good

11:Do you ever count your steps when you walk?
Not since I was a kid

12:Have you ever peed in the woods?
Yeah

13:What about pooped in the woods?
nu

14:Do you ever dance even if theres no music playing?
I have

15:Do you chew your pens and pencils?
a little

16:How many people have you slept with this week?
Sleep with my mate when he's over on weekends

17:What size is your bed?
queen

18:What is your Song of the week?
Song of the sparrow

19:Is it okay for guys to wear pink?
Yus

20:Do you still watch cartoons? 
Yes

21:Whats your least favorite movie?
Don't remember off the top of my head but a lot of action movies, kidnap, torcher

22:Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some?
No

23:If you're a girl, bra size? If you're a guy, pants size?
Big enough

24:What do you dip a chicken nugget in?
sweet and sour sauce or ranch

25:What is your favorite food?
Biscuits and gravy

26:What movies could you watch over and over and still love?
bedknobs and broomsticks

27:Last person you kissed/kissed you?
my mate  unix

28:Were you ever a boy/girl scout?
girl scout they where all bitches

29:Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine?
No

30:When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper? 
Wrote a love latter for my mate a while back don't remember exactly when more twords when we where first mates

31:Can you change the oil on a car?
No

32:Ever gotten a speeding ticket?
I don't drive

33:Ever ran out of gas?
Don't drive

34:Favorite kind of sandwich?
Meat and cheese

35:Best thing to eat for breakfast? 
Biscuits and gravy

36:What is your usual bedtime? 
9-10

37:Are you lazy?
Meh don't like to be but no chose a lot

38:When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween?
Lots of things

39:What is your Chinese astrological sign?
Dog

40:Are you horny?
Maybe

41:Do you have any magazine subscriptions?
Nu

42:Which are better legos or lincoln logs?
Legos
 
43:Are you stubborn?
A bit

44:Who is better...Leno or Letterman?
Don't watch either

45:Ever watch soap operas?
No 

46:Are you afraid of heights?
Yeah

47:Do you sing in the car?
Mhmm

48:Do you sing in the shower?
sometimes

49:Do you dance in the car? 
I have

50:Ever used a gun?
No

51:Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?
High school graduation

52:Do you think musicals are cheesy?
Never

53:Is Christmas stressful?
Family can make it

54:Ever eat a pirogi?
Yeah

55:Favorite type of fruit pie?
None

56:Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid
Wild life conservationist

57:Do you believe in ghosts?
Yes

58:Ever have a Deja-vu feeling? 
Not really but I guess sometimes

59:Take a vitamin daily?
I forget alot

60:Wear slippers?
Not really  

61:Wear a bath robe?
No

62:What do you wear to bed?
t-shirt and pj pants or shorts

63:First concert?
Crystal Bowersox

64:Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?
Walmart

65:Nike or Adidas?
Nike I guess

66:Cheetos Or Fritos?
cheetos

67:Peanuts or Sunflower seeds? 
Peanuts

68:Ever hear of the group Tres Bien?
no

69:Ever take dance lessons?
Would like to

70:Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing? 
Something he enjoys

71:Can you curl your tongue?
Yeah

72:Ever won a spelling bee?
Haha no

73:Have you ever cried because you were so happy?
Mhmm my mates falt for that

74:Own any record albums?
Yes

75:Own a record player?
Yes

76:Regularly burn incense?
Sometimes

77:Ever been in love?
I am in love

78:Who would you like to see in concert?
BOTDF, Black Veil Brides, Owl City, Say We Can Fly, and more

79:What was the last concert you saw?
Crystal Bowersox

80:Hot tea or cold tea?
Neither


81:Tea or coffee?
Neither

82:Sugar or snickerdoodles?
Snickerdoodles

83:Can you swim well?
Meh

84:Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?
Yes

85:Are you patient?
Depends

86:DJ or band, at a wedding? 
DJ

87:Ever won a contest?
Nope

88:Ever have plastic surgery?
No

89:Which are better black or green olives?
black

90:Can you knit or crochet?
No

91:Best room for a fireplace?
Idk living room I guess I prefer one outside

92:Do you want to get married? 
Yes

93:If married, how long have you been married?
not married

94:Who was your HS crush?
Had a few

95:Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way?
No

96:Do you have kids?
Hell no

97:Do you want kids?
Nope

98:Whats your favorite color?
Black and blue

99:Do you miss anyone right now?
My mate

1. Do you watch/read pornography?
Not really anymore sometimes with my mate but that's about it

2. Would you ever consider making (acting or directing) a porno?
no

[#3 was lost?]
?

4. Are there any friends you've thought about sex with?
maybe in the past

5. Any of your friends you HAVE had sex with?
Not friends anymore...

6. Someone famous you would have sex with?
Meh

7. Attracted to (men/women)?
Mostly men

8. Do you masturbate?
sometimes

9. Would you rather oral or anal?
oral

10. Would you rather be the dominant partner, or the submissive partner in a relationship?
I'm a switch doesn't matter like to be equal but I get scared to be dom at times

11. Would you ever want to be tied?
Yeah

12. Would you ever want to tie someone up?
Sure

13. Ever offered to tie someone up?
Yeah

14. Anyone ever offered to tie you up?
Don't think so

15. Would you rather your sexual partner be shaved, or unshaved?
Shaved

16. Are you a flirt?
I try

17. Do you own sexy underwear?
Not really

18. Pee games?
Intrested but haven't done any yet

19. Your weakness?
romance, kissing

20. Favorite features on a sexual partner?
Eyes, face, hair, cock, body, butt, everything

21. Your best features are?
:<

22. Would you have sex with music playing?
sure

23. If yes, what song?
Most likely BOTDF

24. Favorite word for sex (fucking, humping, shagging…)?
Fucking, sex, mating

25. Whispering or screaming?
When no one home like to get loud otherwise doesn't matter like moaning though

26. When you want to have sex with someone, what do you do about it?
Try and be flirty, touchy feely, kissing

27. Would you consider tying up someone and hurting them / being tied and having someone hurt you?
yes

28. Would you consider tying someone up and tickling them / being tied and having someone tickle you?
no

29. Would you rather be on top?
Depends on my mood but I like bottom a lot now a days

30. Sex on a holiday? (Easter/Halloween/etc..)
always

31. How much would you do for your sexual partner?
anything

32.Threesome?
not likely..

33. Sex before marriage?
already happened

34. Something that's important in sex that most people overlook?
Communication, knowing each others bodies and turn ons, foreplay

35. Pussyfart.
it happens on accident >~<

36. Tongue in your private area?
Yus

37. Tongue in your bellybutton?
no

38. Tongue on your other private areas?
uhh nu

39. Zodiac sign?
Sagittarius

40. Tips to turn you on?
be as romantic as possible, kissing, minor biting, licking,

So today is my birthday and unfortunately I'm sick and I'm quite disappointed because I was excited to see the hobbit come out and was happy it came out on my birthday now sad I'm stuck at home yet again got a few good presents haven't gotten many birthday wishes yet it's become quite disappointing this year but guess I should have expected as much the way life has been going hell even mff the only con I could attend this year had a friggn gas attack meh maby I should learn to stay home where I can't cause bad luck

Where are you staying?
main hotel

What day are you getting there?
Friday morning

Who will you be rooming with?
 unix  XxEzikeialxX  MasterCabbolf

Who will you hang out with during the convention?
mate room mates friends and whoever wants to hang out with me

Are there any panels you might be attending?
dance comp, floor wars, who's lion is it anyways, mlp panel or anything else interesting

Will you be suiting?
yes

Do you do free art?
no

Do you do trades?
sometimes

Do you do badges?
yes

Do you do commissions?
yes

What is your gender?
fluffball

How tall are you?
5'3

Are you taken? Are you looking for a 'mate'?
taken by my amazing mate  unix

Can I talk to you?
of corse

Can I touch you?
hugs?

How can I find you?
magic

Can I visit your room?
if invited

Can I buy you drinks?
yesh non alcoholic though pawlese on meds that can not drink

Can I give you stuff?
yes please celebrating my bday at the con as well gifts loved <3

Can I hug or snuggle with you?
yesh epically in suit

Are you nice?
most of the time

How long are you going?
Friday morning till Monday morning

Do you have an artist table?
no

Will you be going to parties?
yes

Will you be performing?
possibly

If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Night Wolf, Aura, Night, Wolfy,

Where will you be most of the time during the day/s?
idk wandering the con by my mates side probably with friends

What/where will you be eating?
what food I bring and con suite or what ever people toss at me

Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
why not

Can I look in your sketchbook?
if I have it on me

Can I draw in your sketchbook?
yes

Can I take your picture?
definitely in suit mostly please unless your a close friend

What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
have fun with my mate and friends destress and have a good con

I'm pretty close to giving up.....i can't make my mate happy.......nothing goes right at home.........medically I have more bad days than good.........insurance is getting stingy on us.....meds and bills are getting hard to pay for.......depression is consuming me I'm staring to lose myself again I can't escape.........here I go again down into darkness.......will you catch me......

I can't get a break worse and worse one thing after another hit after hit I really don't know how long I can continue like this.....i just want it all to end....

It's gotten way to much for me to handle......with issues at home......my medical and mental issues......I simply can't handle the slightest bit of stress I'm constantly having anxiety attacks I'm not sleeping well i have my amazing mate for support but because ha can't always be here for me I still can't cope things just keep getting worse and worse I'm trying so hard but going nowhere I'm at that point of giving up I really am...

She lays down in bed after being terribly sick she texts her mate finding out bad news on his side she sighs and whispers to herself I wish I could do something to cheer him up I'm useless can't work can barley get out of bed she tears up I can't do anything to contribute I'm a waste if space a waste of life I shouldn't be here so close to giving up again every time I'm close to getting somewhere I get sick again I wanna curl up and die I'm trying to keep myself together for him but I'm losing it again I don't wanna put him through this I need him but he's got so much to go through already I feel hopeless one hit after another and each time I get up I get a bigger hit and I get weaker and weaker each time I can't seem to get strong as soon as I get positive something huge happens to knock me down again I'm trying so hard I am she cries into her pillow and curls up I'm a curse she says softly yet they won't let me die but I can't get anywhere in life I feel doomed she curls up tightly blankets over her head and cries till she falls asleep

She slowly sits up in bed and swings her legs over the bed her feet paws touching the floor she gets up and wobbles slightly she grabs some clean clothes and walks to the bathroom down the hall she passes Setsuko are you ok night he asks she stays silent and walks into the bathroom and shuts the door she finnaly feeling ok enough to take a shower soaking her fur under the warm water and inhaling the steam she finishes up soon but sways and catches herself on a wall to dizzy to walk she slides down and sits on the floor until she's ok to walk again she struggles to her feet her claws making a clicking sound on the tile floor Setsuko knocks on the door Night how are you feeling are you doing alright in there she says nothing and he cracks the door seeing her struggle to stand she rushes over to help her wrapping a towel around her and helping her back to her room he let's her get dressed then helps her back into bed hold on he says I'm going to get you some water want anything to eat he asks she shakes her head no and a few minutes later he returns with a glass of water please drink and don't forget your meds she nods and he pats her head softly I'm here if you need anything please don't hesitate he tucks her in and leaves the room as she lays down clinging to a shirt of her mates she nuzzles it and sniffs it's sent making her feel just a tad better she lays her head on it and drifts off to sleep thinking of him....

Long time has passed she lays in bed late at night crying in pain the young wolf has fallen awful ill she often spends day after day resting in bed or in pain though she's enduring do much she's still happy because she's finally with the one she loves but she is still sad and depressed she wishes he was with her every night and she's stressed about the condition of her health often wanting to be left alone besides talking to her mate she sighs and curls up tightly hugging her tail and still crying wanting her love to be by her side the pain becoming overwhelming as she tries to hide her cries many night have been like this laity and all she wants is a break a little relief many in the house have stopped checking on her leaving her be Setsuko still tries to take care of her every day doing what he can she doesn't eat much anymore doesn't move much she tries as much as she can on her good days but that Isn't often anymore she's getting worse hoping something can be done to get her better but she doesn't have much hope though she tries her hardest especially for her mate but her will is breaking again she's trying her hardest to last but for how long....

The Princess has arranged a few royal guards to escort me to Ponyville the moonlight radiating down reflecting off there armor as I climb into the carriage though many normal ponys find it strange for a pony to sleep during the day and awaken at night I tend to feel more at home under the genital glow of the moon than the piercing rays of sun a cool breeze blows through my mane as we travel through the sky the Pegasus guards swiftly bringing me to my destination as we arrive in Ponyville we land and the guards bring me to my new home a small cottage on the edge of town close to the Everfree Forest I thank the guards and bow my head as they leave and I proceed inside and start to make myself at home the Princess already sending all my furniture and stuff here ahead of me I start to unpack my belongings not that I have many worldly posessions I never grown much attachment to things or ponys not that many ponys are awake when I am besides party ponys and drunks though I have made friends with a few of Princess Luna's royal guards since starting my apprenticeship I haven't been much of a social pony outside the Princess the guards and a few servants not that I could make many friends living in the night and I'm not a drinker or party type of pony and most of my time is consumed in Luna's research hmm it's almost morning best head off to bed tomorrow I start my research on Everfree Forest

My name is Night Wish I am a black and blue pegasi and apprentice to the great Princess Luna helping her study night darkness for years now many ponys don't see the Importance of this as we do understanding the darkness and the creatures that live in the dark aren't always evil I have been living in Canterlot serving the princess since her return from her banishment to the moon and her release of the nightmare forces I am originally from Cloudsdale born and raised but according to recent events it seems as if I won't be in Canterlot much longer the Princess wants me to go to Ponyville so I can research the Everfree Forest and some of the stranger occurrences recently so here I am packing up ready to leave for who knows how long at least I'll have a nice cottage for me when I get there to stay and use as long as I need so here I leave Canterlot I haven't been this far away from Princess Luna in some time but sure to be an interesting experience

I love you with every fiber of my being I belong to you mind body heart and soul for the rest of my life I'm only yours and I want the world to know that no matter what I'm 100% committed to you my love you are my one even if you leave I can never feel this way for any other and will still be yours forever I know some things are a little rough but that's not gonna stop me from giving my all I am your mate for life I will always be there for you day and night I will not lie I will not cheat I will not break my promises you have made my life so much better and I couldn't imagine it without you now that I have you I'll never let you go and I'll never give up I feel so lucky that you love me and are mine I want it to always stay that way I will always remain loyal to you no matter what you brightened up my life and brought me out of the dark and into the light you make me happy like no other and I hope I can do the same I will never leave you and I will never betray you I hope you'll always be committed to me as I am to you I know it's hard for you to believe my words but you are my world my everything there's nothing for you I wouldn't do I love you  unix and only you forever <3