Someone stole my Debit card info this morning ti seems so I am sorta without one until they issue me a new one. Really sucks but at least I was able to buy groceries before they locked my shit down, so I should be okay. Just a bummer is all.

So I have commissioned the Author  Doombeez for a 3 chapter story commission, and 1 and 2 are up now on his page. I'm incredibly pleased with how the story has turned out thus far, and would encourage anyone who has an interest to check out his page!

Part one can be found here.

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/44295040/

and part 2 here.

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/45505463/

Seriously! Take a look if it is of interest. I promise you will not be disappointed!

So my question is why is it that so many artists will not only open commissions with like only a 24 hour warning, but do so on any day but a Friday? In this case I am referring to higher quality, and thus more expensive artists? I can swing a commission, but at the same time I do not have the money just to sit on for months waiting for them to open back up? Would honestly be helpful if they opened things on a Fridays (Payday for most people), or at least gave a solid heads up more then 24 hours in advance.... What brought this on is an artist I am subscribed to on Patreon has a policy that they will offer commissions to Patreons first before posting it to FA, so I have been watching their feeds for months, with no indication, and then yesterday they all of a sudden post that they are going to open on FA, and completely bypassed those on Patreon. This is significant, because if they had mentioned this on Patreon a week beforehand they normally do, I could have gotten one. I mean the main reason I am subscribed to their Patreon is this early access on commissions they are supposed to give. Thanks for listening all.

“Dude” is a gender neutral term for me, so if I call you this it’s not me ignoring your gender. Had to address this last night so I thought I would state it here.

After everything that has happened the past week I'm going to just be taking a step back. Going to kiiinda inactive for a while. I have a few things lined up commission wise so I'll post those as they are ready, otherwise I'm going to be kind of quiet here. As always with any commission work I post please go show the original artists some love. Have a good time, and see you all when I feel like being more active.

So yesterday I had a falling out with somone I was collaborating with who after a direct discord conversation voiced some concern with some of the topics with the project. The project has since been scrapped, but what I need to discuss here is the issue that led to the whole thing falling apart. The person I hired to help after several months of my commission with them on this, voiced some disagreements with certain aspects of the whole idea. My issue here is I was very up front about this aspect being a part of the entire project from the start, and even after the voiced their concerns I asked them up front if this was going to be an issue, to which they told me they would deal with it. Now the problem here is I feel they somehow decided to label me in an unfavorable way after this point, and thus leading the to whole thing going down in flames. So I want to clear thing sup on a certain issue.


In my commissions I attempt to maintain a very strict separation between the commission which is inherently a fantasy, and work of fiction, and reality.


The fact that I was basically judged on what was at it's core going to a piece of erotic fiction in a completely fantastic and unrealistic scenario kinda frustrates me. Especially since the other person involved is apparently going through psychological training, but yet had no issues with essentially judging me over a work of fiction they were helping me write. So I cannot believe this needs to be stated but the stories/ fiction / commissions I pay for do NOT completely represent who I am. I really do try to hire artists who can do a commission that I feel is within their range, so please keep in mind. Do not judge me for my taste in porn. especially since in this case it doesn't have any real individuals involved.

So this morning I had a falling out with an artist from here on FA. The whole thing that truly bothers me now is I honestly think the entire situation could have e been avoided. The long and short is I was commissioning said artist to help with a larger project, but they apparently had issues with certain aspects of the project. This led to a slow spiral where the entire thing is now not going to happen. Another thing that really upsets me is at the start I was very passionate about this whole collaboration which was going involve quite alot for future stuff too, but now the entire thing just is a bad reminder of a lot of wasted time effort and money. It really does hurt that something I was genuinely excited for is now something that only brings me grief. I should probably state now that the entire point of this journal is to attempt to process what just happened.

I’m just so frustrated right now and this is the only outlet available to be at the moment so here I am. I’ll most likely delete this at some point once I feel better. Anyhow thanks to anyone who reads this.

 lucidum is offering spoopy story commissions this coming month! They are in a bit of a pickle and need the extra funds. Their rates are extremely reasonable and their work speaks for itself! If your are interested please take a look at their page!

I’m hoping someone can point out the specific songs used in the following video. If you know either comment or dm me. Both are fine.

When a fantasy adventurer LOOKS like an adventurer. By this I mean instead of pristine epic looking armor, and a big ass flowing red cape, and the best magical weapons money can buy from warmart, they are wearing practical armor, with a big ol' backpack or rucksack, and less flashy weapons, even if magical.. I love it when they look like Thorin's company from the Hobbit, and less like The pristine white knight on their white stallion....yeah that guy probably never even leaves the castle for fear of scuffing his boots... I dunno why but seeing a character who dresses like a real adventurer is just something I really do appreciate. Bonus points if their gear has more mundane things like a tankard/ water pouch, and a mess kit included!

This is a vent journal nothing more. i merely wanted to dump the contents of my brain into some other format.

This all started back in the early 2010's. I'm a bit fuzzy on the exact dates, as I had a lot going on in my life aside from this, but This is when Skype was in it's heyday.

I joined as forum with an RP channel in it, and things were okay for the most part. I had my Skype info out in the open so one day I get a new message. This person wanted to RP just one on one, and I agreed, and soon they wormed their way deep into my life. The thing is they would post minimal info on their end. They claimed this was so others would be free to their imagination, but looking back I think they just liked to have others do all the work. When I say their posts were minimal I mean like 2-3 sentences tops, where as at times I was posting walls of text I put a lot of effort into. Thing is they were very persistent, and this soon made me uncomfortable. I have severe generalized anxiety, and soon asked if they would mind just RPing on the forum. They gave some BS reason why they don't and then for the next couple of years hounded me almost constantly about RP. It got really bad. They even tried conning me into buying shit from their Amway account, luckily I never bought into that. I told them about my anxiety, and they tried to get me to use these wrist band things to help me. I politely refused, but they would continue to press this, among many other issues at me. Finally this all culminated when I told them that me and a few friends were making a web comic, and they insisted that I introduce them, well I leave them alone with my friends for like 1 hour, and next thing I know my friends are pissed. This guy in the span of like 30 or so minutes tried to complete hijack the comic, and omit certain things he did not approve of from the plot. By this time I finally blocked him, but it was too late, the damage was done. Now any time I try and RP my anxiety spikes, this issue only occurred AFTER meeting him. Thanks to any who read this.

So The story is now entirely paid up with  Lucidum and the revised, and extended last chapter should be coming soon! The following chapters will be posted as they are ready! stay tuned!

Hiyo! Just wanted to give a heads up that me and  lucidum have discussed the future of this story project, and as soon as I have the income )hopefully soon!) I'll be commissioning him to finish the series! As such I am gonna give the the titles of the remaining chapters, but only that! Don't want to spoil anything!

They are in their following order:

Da truck!
The Hitch Hiker
Last stand
Home is where the belly is
Epilogue

They will be posted both here, and on  Lucidum 's page when they are finished! I hope everyone is looking forward to this as much as I am!

As soon as it's finished being proof read, I'll be posting a 3rd story under the original submission. This is sort of a prequel to one of the original 2 shorts so keep an eye out!

EDIT: I'll be posting chapter 3 to Fallout Odyssey at the same time, and then I'll be doing a bit of a hiatus afterwards. in regards to Odyssey.


EDIT 2.0: Apologies for the lateness. Working on things asap!

Okay apologies for the crappy title, but I have a bit of good news. Been working on a story with  Lucidum and it's a good one!

The story will follow multiple chapters, and I will be posting only the first one shortly. I am SO happy to see this story come to life, and Working with  Lucidum on this endeavor has been a very enjoyable experience! As an author he is very easy to work with, and good at keeping in contact/ keeping me updated with how things are progressing. I also have another couple stories in the works Via him, as well as at least one other by a different author, but you'll have to be patient!

The story is essentially a Pregnancy themed fallout fanfic. I sincerely hope you all enjoy!