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On monday...


I worked Friday night and Saturday. Had Sunday off. I played a little
beatmania. That game rocks.

Health:
As for my cold... it feels a little worse (though it is a monday so I can't be
sure). Throats been a little sore (not gonna keep
me from talking though). I think it may be a sinus infection, due to the
symptoms and the discharge. But especially the pressure in my sinuses. Been
sort of headachy lately.

Code:
Sunday afternoon, I realized that I really needed to finish my coding
assignments. I hove no problem doing them, for the most part, but I've been
letting them pile up.
Code maintainability is very important. Efficient, clearly written code with
lots of commenting is good. The assignment 'Lab 5' built off of 'Lab 4' (labs
just being major coding assignments, not the inclass ones). I didn't think I
was going to reuse such a stupid program, so I didn't waste time with it.
Unfortunately, this made the modifications more painful than they should have
been. After triple checking my code I debugged to try to figure out why it
was not working. I stepped through the code, line by line a few times till I
found the problem. And it was something really stupid and I already forgot
what it was but I did comment in the code where I found it. So in the end,
the program is essentially kludge and should be rewritten, but there is no
time.

Oh yeah, forgot to mention. I work tonight. 6-11pm

Final Exams:
Yep, it's that time again.
Please Note: If I get mad or snap at you (very unlikely, but just in case) I'm
just under a lot of stress and it isn't anything personal.
Anyway, finals are approching too quickly. I'm not ready. And it is my own
fault. Also, I may have failed a course because I forgot to hand in a lab or
two. I may or may not be around much for the next week.

Overall, I'm actually doing pretty good for a monday.

I remember now why I stopped taking that stuff.
I decided to take my sleeping medication so I would be unable to stay up late and so I'd get more sleep and thus not be tired.
It was interesting to say the least.
As I looked around my room, still awake but half dreaming, I watched the walls become red and dissolve, melting into lava. For some reason, the room was filled with blue pulses of data. It was awe-inspiring and yet somewhat disconcerting at the same time. I didn't even feel myself slip away into sleep.

The dream:
I looked around, not sure where I was, though I felt like I had been there before. There was something... an assembly or dance of some sort... seemed like in a gymnasium. There were a lot of cute girls there. Suddenly I felt an arm around my shoulder. A girl dressed in a pink hoody was at my side. She had fair skin and blond hair, and she was slender. I didn't know her, but it really didn't matter to me. I put my arm around her waist. She seemed somewhat surprised. We talked a bit and we decided to go somewhere more private. We went into the girls bathroom, which was amusing because of some of the dirty looks I got from the females already in there. I suppose one or two of them yelled at me but again, at the time, I didn't care. I wrapped my arms around her, holding her close and pressing my body firmly against hers. She was pressed against one of the brick walls, painted a sort of bluish eggshell color. She felt so soft and warm, and I pressed my lips against hers as she held me tightly and kissed me back. My hands were inside that soft, cute hoody of hers and they were caressing her back as my lips hungrily kissed hers.

I wish I could remember the rest, if there was any more, but the next thing I remember was the scenery changing. The scenery was bits of Deus Ex and Deus Ex: Invisible War. So now I'm suddenly in a FPS, blue arcs of electricity shooting from the damaged Universal Constructor. Why I was there is beyond me, but I must have been JC Denton or something. There was a very cyberpunk feel to this part of the dream. Very Neuromancer.
Anyway, I was probably supposed to solve a puzzle or shoot someone but...
that girl
was there
and I was making out with her.
Even though there were sparks everywhere and the lighting was dim
her tongue and mine.
Even though there was danger
I was with her
and nothing else mattered
just us
and our passion


Then of course, people kept coming in and shaking me, trying to wake me up.
I tried to go back to sleep but to no avail. The dream was gone. I rarely dream. Or if I do, I rarely remember it. But this dream was so real. Was so tempting. It was quite possibly one of the greatest dreams I ever had. ...I can still almost feel her... almost taste her. *sighs wistfully*

And so now, I'm in my micro design class (AKA Digital Fundamentals).
I ended up sleeping in too much and missed the morning. The bus system was very inefficient and I had some time downtown so I stopped by the book store and picked up a copy of some magazines (mac addict, shonen jump, 2600 quarterly, and linux pro magazine). This will give me something to read for a while.

Oh, and the phone situation is taken care of. They misrepresented the information and they agreed to pay the ~$6000 data transfer fees.

I also took more city photos.

Yesterday:
Classes were done and I decided to head home. Ofcourse, the bus system is
shitty so I decided to do some adventuring. Because winters are quite cold
here, A bunch of the buildings are connected via pedways. There is a mall
here, I hadn't gone to it for ages. It spans the second and first floor of
many of the buildings. The rest of the floors devoted to office space. It
was really neat exploring and I took a few pics with my phone camera. I even
found an interesting underground parking lot.
What is it about girls in scrubs? They just look so damn sexy. Labcoats
too. Ofcourse, I also have a thing for sweatshirts because they look soft and
cuddly, but that is beside the point. I know that was random, but a girl in
scrubs walked by just now, and distracted me.

Today:
*w*
OMNOMNOMNOMNOMNOMNOMNOMNOMNOMNONMNOMNOMN!!
I'm sitting in math class munching on cookies.
omg I'm so loud! *sniffs*
Pics of what I made on sunday:
http://nikura.ath.cx:5353/img/micro/1.jpg
http://nikura.ath.cx:5353/img/micro/2.jpg
http://nikura.ath.cx:5353/img/micro/3.jpg
http://nikura.ath.cx:5353/img/micro/4.jpg
http://nikura.ath.cx:5353/img/micro/5.jpg

*snorts* (eww groce)

Are these journal entries too long/boring?

uggg I feel so icky and gross
I AM AN AGENT OF BIOLOGICAL WARFARE *COUGHSNIFFLESNORT*
D:

mmmm, so I messed with shell variables on my mac. It is much better now.
The bus is moving very slowly and I finally had no more patience left so I pulled out my mac.

This weekend wasn't what I'd have liked it to be. It was productive but lonely. I had to do my micro board for the HC11.
So I basically soldered all day yesterday. Lead poisoning is bound to happen.

Saturday, I had to work. and that sucked, but I need the money so... yeah. I tried to book off a bunch of days for finals and holidays and I hope they
give me those days off.
Speaking of finals, I've got mine coming up pretty soon. I guess I'll have to study and do well on them. I really can't afford to fail anything else.

After work, I got home and climbed into bed. And then I wanted to talk to people, but no one was online. Alot of people were not online this weekend.
Or too busy to talk to me. I guess with finals that is to be expected but still... I miss you guys.

Some kid is drawing a house. And he isn't half bad either.

Man, I love ee. I know it isn't as fancy as emacs, but it isn't as hard to use either. I'm a freeBSD guy. It is my favourite operating system.
And it was the first *nix I ever used. ee was it's default commandline editor and I fell in love with how easy it was to use.
I do have emacs. And some day, I'll sit down and learn it. ...someday? psh! maybe I'll learn it in class today while I don't pay attention.
Oh, getting ee and emacs working was one of the things I did with the shell stuff I mentioned earlier. I'm always learning when it comes to *nix.

The soldering was actually very relaxing. I got to sit there and munch on cookies and drink many cappichinos while I did my work. Because we have to
program this board in future courses, I took my time on it and did it right. I have pictures on my server of how the board looks.

Oh, *sniffle* I seem to be sick. My throat is a little sore and my nose is runny when it isn't stuffed up. Part of this is probably due to the lead
fumes, but I was already feeling somewhat sick before so yeah.

Anyway, I need to transfer to my next bus and then I have to do class. I'll post this when I get a chance.

Truth or Dare? Okay, here's the deal........ You get to ask me *THREE QUESTIONS*, no matter how crazy, inappropriate, or just random, and I promise to answer it 100% truthfully (thats the "truth" part) ..........now I dare you to repost this and see what people ask you!

(this is makin me hot already! XD )

...
*seethes*




.
..
*rawrs very loudly*

I..I can't fucking take this anymore

*breathes deeply*

I mentioned in my last entry that my friend totaled his van. Luckily he is indeed ok.
well, shortly after writing that entry, I got a call from my phone company. They killed my line. So now I don't even have cellphones.

*shivers with cold and anger*

Then after the test, I had to head home. I left at about 4:15. It was 7:15 when I got in. It took two fucking hours for a trip that shouldn't have taken more than 45 minutes. Then the bus was in an accident so that added another hour.

And it is still like minus fucking thirty.

Fuck me, why am I still living in this shithole.

Horseradish mayo.
Yum.

Vectors <-- no
Complex Numbers < -- adding, subtracting, multiplication j^2=-1 j^4=1
Phasors
Exam is short... took prof 10 minutes while watching tv and screaming at her kids.
(-b+-sqrt(b^2-4ac)) / (2a)
(r*|_theta)^n = r^n|_n*theta

The class mates are jibber-jabbering. Rambling on about rogues and making copper bars and orcs and crap like that. I dunno what the hell are they talking about. HOW I MINE FISH!?

My best friend totaled his van today, but he says he is ok so I hope he is. It is -23c out and the windchill is -30c

Networking class was fun. Learned more about Cisco IOS. I want to get a Cisco router if I can find one for cheap. I want to play with one so I can get really good with it. I'm really looking forward to the networking lab. I'll get to play with all that sweet internetworking equipment.
I hate this. I don't want some shitty math course. I just want programming and networking classes. I don't want to do the IC design. That class is so boring.

Test soon. Will update more later.

...all I want is her.

Dammit, I don't want to work tonight. I'm tired, sick, and drained. It's hard when you want to be there for someone, but they don't want you to be. And you wish you could help them, make them feel better.
I didn't even want to get out of bed today. We have a lot of snow and it is even colder than yesterday.
Fuck, the reduced connectivity is really getting to me. But it's uncovering a bunch of issues I had burried. Not necessarily a good thing, and I feel like a break down is coming but I dunno. I dunno why I am whining to all of you about this. I'm not the only person feeling bad. I'm not the only person with depression. I'm not the only person under stress. Maybe I'm an attention whore (probably) and maybe I'm self centred too. Fuck, this depression has been interfering with my school too. I've lost pretty much all my focus and motivation.
I'm lucky that Laura let me call. I finally got to whine to her about stuff and she helped me feel a bit better. And another friend on the messengers helped a lot. It's odd, cause she is almost never on and now that she was, barely any one else was.
Probably the most reliable way and simplest way right now is going to be emailing my gmail account. There is so much more I want to write here but I'm going to keep my mouth shut.

waoh
I feel kinda ashamed. It isn't even the coldest it is gonna get this year, and I'm already having trouble with it. At the moment, I can barely type with my left hand.
I'm a moron though. I wasn't wearing gloves cause they interfere with typing.
Although it is only -17c, the windchill makes it feel like -24c. Well, at first it hurt a bit. Then it didn't. My hands got numb. The real pain didn't start till after they began warming up. Felt like I was repeatedly banging my fingers with a hammer.
I should be used to this by now. I did grow up with weather like this after all.

Can I come and live with someone in florida or something atleast until the spring? Please? I need to migrate, escape this cold.

Now, aside from that, things are great. I got to skype with someone for the past two nights. I hadn't had a chance to skype with her for quite a while because of circumstances, but now I can. Hearing her voice again was wonderful. She is an amazing friend and once again, I am so lucky to know her.

I also had more people on skype that wanted to talk to me than I could talk to. That was a really good feeling, though I felt a little bad that I couldn't be there for everyone at once.

I'm pretty sure I had more to say. As usual, I forgot. So it couldn't have been that important. Oh also, I work tonight, so don't be worried or anything. I'll be home late, but I'll talk to anyone that wants to.

I'm really in a talking mood today. moreso than usual.
So I hope you all contact me on messengers because I would love to talk and just talk about life or scenery or classes or anything at all.

So yeah, now that I have access, I'll post todays journal entry.

First and most important, my fursona has finally been drawn: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/283006/

http://www.furaffinity.net/user/unicornspirit/ drew it for me and I'm so happy that she did, she did an awesome job. She is a really great artist and a great friend and you should all go check out her work. She even matted it! I definately recommend commissioning her.
Thanks Mel, you did a great job!


I'm pretty excited and squeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!! right now.
I'll explain in a sec but first...
I hate this bus system. Not only do they have shitty service to my college, but today, they are training a new driver. She is very nervous and I'm going to be even later than I already am. The only good thing is this girl sitting facing me is wearing a short skirt. And she has very nice legs. She is such a tease and she knows it, lol.
Oh, we are transfered to a new bus now.

So I got a new router. This is why I'm practically orgasming. My network was originally based on a 10mbps hub. Well, once I started using the network more, collisions made the network incredibly inefficient. So I took over an old dlink. 4 port, wired, 10/100. I've been using it since.
i doesn't have many features, but it is a solid router. Recently, I added a wireless router but only using it's layer 2 functionality (so basically as a switch).
Now I got this linksys one. I got it because in out networking lab, we were using a similar one and I really liked the features. Nice QoS and routing features.
I got screwed over before though, when I got a netgear but it kept crashing when I tried to push too much traffic over it. So I decided before I move most of my network to this new router, I'd test it first. Last night, I had this desire. A desire to subnet. I don't know why, but it was all hot and quick. I guess a little too quick, cause I would have enjoyed playing with it for longer but there is always tonight. But anyway, I subnetted and it worked nicely.
This is how you learn. Not reading a text or even reading pages on the internet. Even listening to lectures doesn't do it. When it comes to coding or networking, the best way to learn is to do. Hands-on.
Can't believe I'm so excited for subnetting.
There are a lot of things I need to play with on that router. VPN and routing being my priorities at the moment. I have another router so I may subnet it too.

Other than that, classes are going ok. And by that, I mean that programming and networking classes are my favorites and I am acing them. Math, electricity and IC design aren't as exciting. Speaking of programming, I sat down yesterday and coded up my lab in less than 2 hours. It is 99% working, I just need to tweak the formatting a bit.
Oh, and I also uploaded a few submissions to my SA and DA galleries. I don't know how people can upload so much, I find the process tedious. But I'll take more pics in a bit.

so I forgot my password, lolol.
And some certain admins are big meanie heads and didn't reset it. ;_;
I remembered it after a long time though.

Halloween... *yawn* I'm so tired. Thirsty too.

You know when you have a best friend and you love talking to her and simply hearing her voice can make a completely detestable day become wonderful, and then things happen and you can't talk to them much... well... it sucks and makes me sad, but I'll be ok.
Can't remember the last time I had a day off, the last time I got to sleep in. ...shit, just remembered I promised a friend I'd go to his house tonight.

I messed around with my phone. I can now use it to connect my mac to the internet. I should have stayed home today to sleep.

...z.z zzzZZZ

WTF! I keep writing a bit and then not finishing up. I wrote most of the below while on the bus home. Now it is evening and the energetic high has subsided as has most of my motivation and I almost got depressed but not quite and I'm totally good now.

Earlier:
I love talking to people, especially certain people that know who they are.
Wow, although I'm extremly tired, I'm totally psyched. I'm all hot and bothered to do some programming. And anyway, I probably have to pay like ten million dollars of long distance but yeah, I'm so happy. Weekend!
Hell yeah!
Royksopp is pretty awesome, I'm listening to a remix of theirs right now and it is sextastical.
Oh, sooooo good!

OMGOMGOMG
So like, I was like betatesting for Microsoft and liek, woah. They sent me a messenger bag for testing WLM. You all know that I dislike microsoft because OMG EVIL CORPORATION, but I totally like them more now. I still don't like what they stand for but omfg this bag is so cute. Yeah, I feel like a whore. I also sorta got like 5 grand worth of software from them (for educational use) for no cost, so... yeah.

Lol, I wrote this yesterday but never finished it:
So here I am on a bus, on my way home. The stressful parts of this week are over. Time to catch up on things. I haven't made any new submissions recently, I haven't taken much in the way of pictures lately. But I'll have to come up with something. Heh, I still didn't get an early night of sleep lastnight. I'm gonna have to work on that because I hate being tired. (lol, just fell asleep writing this)

Something awesome happened yesterday. I was showing my deviantArt to a friend and he went, "oh, you like that guys art too? He has some good stuff." I was shocked and said, "lol, that's me". lol, I really never expected to meet anyone that liked my art in real life.

So many people are being very loving and I like that. I love it when I can just relax and be myself. I'm very affectionate and loving... it's just how I am. I have such awesome friends.

My midterm went ok. Although I've really not been getting nearly enough sleep, I still managed to be awake during most of it. Fell asleep a few times and scribbled a bit. But got a 75% on the test. I was very surprised.

Still tossing around the videoblog idea. I'll likely make atleast one.
My rail of IC's came in. 25 quad NAND gates, 14 dip. Breadboard fun is imminent.

Finished my programming lab this morning on the bus. Still trying to catch up with the rest of my assignments. It's getting so hard to wake up these mornings. I really need to catch up on sleep. Apparently, I need to work on time management.

Now for slightly negative musings:
It pisses me off so much. My job, that is. I work harder, but they only care when I mess up or don't work hard enough. And because of my job, I'm busy when my friends are free. And when I'm free, my friends are busy. And none of my 'in real life' friends are in to cuddling. Or hugging. Or being spontaneous. I need some physical contact.
And some people need to have good days. But they have bad ones. They deserve so much better. I hope things become better for them.

Communication is so important to me. I could really use some good conversation. Or even just rambling, I love talking on the phone/skype for hours.

I am so very tired. I think I may nap for the rest of this class.

Talk to you guys later. <3

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SQ7wQ83ieJQ
...I can't stop watching it. There is something almost hypnotic about that girl.
If someone can tell me why I find it so hot, I'd appreciate it. And links to more dancing like that, plz.

This entry has to be short because I have classes right away. Also, I have a midterm this afternoon. I don't think I studied enough for it. I haven't been sleeping enough lately either, but such is life.
OMFG she is hot! (I'm watching the high rez version as I write this)

I was thinking of doing a video blog. I have no clue why, but I might do it anyway.
Damn, class. Gotta go, more later.

eeeeeehhhhhhhhhhh.
caffeine *nom nom nom nom nom*
*sniffle sniffle shiver*

I'm very tired and cold but caffinated now-oh look, a sunrise!
So pretty!

Lol, the one course I'm naturally good at, programming...
lets just say my last 2 programs haven't really worked.
Or rather they work but not correctly.

Oho!! My new, non explosive battery arrived yesterday. So there is no need to fear for my safety, wonderful people. It's funny cause we're studying batteries in my basic electricity class. And so... I decided to switch them. But! my computer doesn't like not having electrons and so it turned off... I was expecting it too and wanted to see how it handled it and it did ok.

*sips* rawr! caffeine!

I need to shave.
I need a haircut too.
I look like an anus... Ok, not really, but lol.

I'm cold, mew, someone hold me?

We've had our first snowfall. It seems like it will melt though. I was gonna say some stuff but I forgot :(
Anyway, winter can be nice. I dream of cuddling in front of a fire and having hot chocolate.
I'm sure that I'll have more to post later.

Oh, work this weekend sucked. Moved a lot of pumpkins. My boss is mad again.

Ack, gotta go to class!

err........
oops.

Forgot to update this journal. Check my LJ for other journals I posted in the last few days.

Most recent one:
{
Journal Entry: Tue Oct 10, 2006, 8:35 AM
Finally got fed up siting here so I've pulled out my laptop even though I know I won't be able to post this till later.
There's been an accident. And suddenly, everything has changed. I should have been there by now, but everything is fucked up. As it is, I'll need to make some extra transfers, as I won't make it to campus otherwise.
But more about that accident.
We were waiting at an intersection, and I was spacing out as usual. Suddenly I hear this loud crash and see a car fly by. I hadn't been paying attention till the noise, but aparently a speeding truck t-boned it or something like that. The car landed on it's side (or perhaps it rolled, I only saw that it was on it's side). Within minutes, ambulance and firecrews were there. So of course, the bus was stuck there. And now I'm on a different bus but we are stuck in traffic. Fagottry to the highest exponnent.
The long weekend was somewhat good. I worked a lot and got double overtime for monday, so I just have to make the tiny amount of money left last till thursday. Then I'll be good for a while. Unfortunately, I didn't get a chance to finish my homework or relax. Oh well, I work friday too, cause no school this friday, yay!
...
K, in C++ class, posting now.
}


Anyway, crunch time.

I'm still rather shaken from yesterday. I feel amazing.
I decided to get back into the whole dating scene. A friend hooked me up. Unfortunatly, we were too different, and it wouldn't have worked out.
That was about a week ago.
Yesterday, many things happened. Text really doesn't do them justice, so skype me some time. Anyway,
-my boss didn't put me on night crew but promised to throw me all the extra shifts he could
-I got my hair cut which caused me to take an hour instead of a half hour break
-the stylist ran her fingers through my hair... I was practically purring.
-I gave her my number
-I got a call from a different girl, who wanted to meet up, so we went to tim hortens
-I drank a cafe mocha
-one of the two girls decided to teach me how to kiss
-this was my first kiss
-then she taught me how to french
-her tongue was in my mouth... twice!
(I know I suck at detail, but I haven't much time)

So no, I haven't found a girlfriend yet, but I've been learning interesting things.

21:27 < Duo> its time to be a hero
21:27 <+Killfrenzy> AN hero.
21:27 -!- mode/#furaffinity [+b *!*kitsune@*.bendcable.com] by Calorath
21:27 -!- NullEnigma was kicked from #furaffinity by Calorath [cause I Said so]
21:27 < nikuramon> THE WORLD NEEDS A HERO, CHIEF
21:27 -!- mode/#furaffinity [+b *!*nikuramon@*.abhsia.telus.net] by Calorath
21:27 -!- nikuramon was kicked from #furaffinity by Calorath [Cya later - much later

Then:
21:28 <> [23:27] <Calorath> since I thought most of you were able to figure it out for yourselves
21:28 <> [23:28] <Calorath> the trolling that takes place in this channel will cease

21:29 <> [23:28] <Calorath> Duo, as you said, you don't know what's
going on
21:29 <> [23:28] <Calorath> And it is not up for debate
21:29 <> [23:28] <Duo> your right i dont
21:29 <> [23:28] <Duo> grand
21:29 <> [23:28] <Calorath> debate iritates me
21:29 <> [23:28] <Calorath> irritation leads to bans

Hay guys i'm a troll don't talk to me u mite get aids.


So ummm... lol freedom.
Though none of this is new, stuff like this has been going on for ages in the world. I shouldn't be surprised.

OURS IS NOT TO WONDER WHY,
OURS IS BUT TO DO
OR DIE

So, silencing the voices of your opponents is clearly the way to win.
Lets all rewrite history by deleating journals or deleating forum posts.

(PS, a more complete log is here http://absolute-zero0.tripod.com/Mi.....powercock2.txt )

#FURAFFINITY:
CENSORSHIP IS FREEDOM
2+2=5
WAR IS PEACE
FREEDOM IS SLAVERY
IGNORANCE IS STRENGTH

1. I ___ Nikuramon.

2. I want to _____ Nikuramon.

3. Nikuramon is ______.

4. Nikuramon and I are_____.

5. If I was alone in a room with Nikuramon we would probably _____.

6. I wish Nikuramon could _____.

7. Nikuramon should ______.

8. Nikuramon reminds me of _____.

9. If Nikuramon was an animal, he would be a ________.

10. One day, Nikuramon and I will __________.

11. If Nikuramon leaves I will___________.

12. If Nikuramon stays I will___________.

13. If Nikuramon was a noob I would___________.

14. If Nikuramon dies I would__________.

15.If Nikuramon asked me out I would___________.

I haven&#8217;t been very active lately. Sorry. I&#8217;ve been restructuring my life. Details follow.
(OMG the song is Ashes to Ashes by David Bowie now. It is a song about me, you know.)

So I got that job. They hired me on the spot. I&#8217;m a produce clerk at the local supermarket.

[img]http://nikura.ath.cx:5353/img/me2.jpg[/img]

What I do:
Stock and rotate the produce to deliver the optimal quality product to the consumer.
Sweep the floor to prevent falls.
Be very bored.
Answer stupid questions.
Etc.

More details about my first few shifts:
I learned just how much I don&#8217;t know about produce. To be honest, it isn&#8217;t that bad of a job. Just really boring. Currently I&#8217;m on five hour shifts, with a 15 minute break. I get pretty decent pay for what I do. My coworkers are pretty fun too. And there are some good looking girls there, and if I wasn&#8217;t so shy, I&#8217;d talk to them maybe. I love going into the cooler, it smells so nice in there. I&#8217;ll bring out whatever we are running low on and then prepare it and put it on display. The wet compactor smells really bad though. One time, I was sending a text message in the back and all of the sudden, someone came up from behind me and said &#8220;I&#8217;ll just be taking that&#8221; and confiscated my cell phone. I got it back after my shift was over. I found out later that it was the store manager. So now I leave my phone off during work. I try to take pride in my work. Oh, and they gave me a knife. I haven&#8217;t cut myself yet.

About my server:
I&#8217;ve gone through and cleaned up the directory structure also freed up a bunch of space. Also fixed permissions and stuff. Been playing around with the style sheet, added some contact info, recycled some code and added a bunch to it to make a simple feedback form until I code a proper one. I&#8217;m considering hosting/coding pages for people though I&#8217;m not too sure about the interest in that. Contact me if you are interested.
Oh, and the link to it is http://nikura.ath.cx:5353

Anyway, I&#8217;d better sleep, because I have to work today, so I&#8217;ll talk to you all later.

Things are going well.

I've done some registration stuff, so I can get back into college.

I'm really excited about a project I'll be a part of. There are some people I really admire on it, so it should be fun working with them.

I've been betatesting a new game, and it is pretty cool.

Also, the boost of speed pleases me, thanks guys (mainly Dragoneer). There are still lots of problems, but atleast it is useable now.

To do:
-job hunting
-fix my website (I keep putting it off)

I have a bit of a headache, though I haven't had any alcohol for over 2 months.
I was camwhoring the other day, and discovered that if I gell my hair back, I can look similar to the tetragrammaton cleric in Equilibrium.

A project I'm involved with 'changed hands' recently. Although I'm really ticked off about the whole thing, it got me thinking. I don't think it is very professional to care who is in charge, I should focus on the code and only the code. Emotions simply don't factor in. I guess I'm not the stereotypical cold, hard programmer... not yet anyway (but I'll be working on that).

In other events, I've been playing some Animal Crossing Wild World, and Oblivion. It is nice to see that my gaming computer can still perform decently, even before I upgrade it (maybe later this year). I suppose I also ought to work on my website, but perhaps later.

Also, if you haven't read this, you should: http://www.gnu.org/philosophy/right-to-read.html (I'm a member of both the eff and the fsf, so I tend to evangelize about these sorts of things, please humor me by at least skimming it)
"The right to read is a battle being fought today. Although it may take 50 years for our present way of life to fade into obscurity, most of the specific laws and practices described above have already been proposed; many have been enacted into law in the US and elsewhere. In the US, the 1998 Digital Millenium Copyright Act established the legal basis to restrict the reading and lending of computerized books (and other data too). The European Union imposed similar restrictions in a 2001 copyright directive.

Until recently, there was one exception: the idea that the FBI and Microsoft will keep the root passwords for personal computers, and not let you have them, was not proposed until 2002. It is called "trusted computing" or "palladium".

In 2001, Disney-funded Senator Hollings proposed a bill called the SSSCA that would require every new computer to have mandatory copy-restriction facilities that the user cannot bypass. Following the Clipper chip and similar US government key-escrow proposals, this shows a long-term trend: computer systems are increasingly set up to give absentees with clout control over the people actually using the computer system. The SSSCA has since been renamed to the CBDTPA (think of it as the "Consume But Don't Try Programming Act")."

I dunno any more. I'm usually on the internet constantly, but lately, I haven't been hanging around these sites, nor have I been paying much attention to IRC.
I've also been using more stimulants and avoiding sleep as much as possible. I keep telling myself to work on my website, but I still haven't touched it since the 7th. I don't even know why.
I'm getting sick and tired of people who think clock-speed is the the most important thing influencing performance. Users that ignore my product recommendations, get what they think is best, and then expect me to install and support it. Users that can't even recognize slight lag when they are experiencing it. At least I was adamant about the wifi router. I'm still not happy about it, but it is significantly better then the previous one.

Also pissing me off is copy-protection. Apparently, using a CD or DVD burner makes me a software pirate. Infact, some CP methods break useful applications for mounting ISOs and for programming. Oh. and the user isn't consulted about it, either. This isn't a new issue, but I'm mad anyway. The other day, I was trying to get an app working under XP x64 (I hate everything windows stands for, and yet, I still keep it around.... I hope I'll never need to touch vista though, nor do I intend on supporting it for my users.) It refused to work, because it wanted the 32-bit version. Well, in the end, I forced it to work anyway, but it reminded me of SC: Chaos Theory. Due to starforce copy protection, chaos theory doesn't work on my system. Ubisoft refuses to fix it, and starforce says it is ubisoft's responsibility. A game I bought refuses to run due to the copy protection. Frankly, corporations are going too far these days. Starforce exhibits behavior that would classify it as malware. Infact, it has been classified as malware and starforce threatened lawsuits and FBI involvement. ex: http://www.boingboing.net/2006/01/3.....hreatens_.html
How much more crap are consumers expected to take?

I guess what frustrates me more is the fact that so many don't care until it is too late. It's a lot harder to regain freedoms once they've already been taken from you.

(I can't even say I'm completely innocent, because I still use things that restrict my freedoms, but at least I'm making an effort to use things like GNU/linux and speak out against things like this)