So, after the emotional turmoil of these last few months and some technological anxieties, I think I'm going to take a hiatus.

I don't know how long it'll be, and I can't really estimate my own mental stability right now, but I will be back, and I'm not vanishing entirely. I'll still be active on my writing socials; I just need some time away from the artwork, and probably social media slightly.

With any luck, I can rebuild my backlog, fix some of those tech issues, and work through some of my mental problems in that time. Wish me luck, and I hope you hang in there!

If you commented on my works, forgive if I don't find it. If they're on an old, buried piece, I don't think I'll be able to tell where it is. It's a long way to scroll lol

alright, so...update. I think i shall take a small break from posting. I think I need to recharge a tad, and maybe let myself focus on editing my Ryomina fic now that it's first draft is entirely done. I dunno when I'll return exactly, but I very likely will eventually. I just need to chill out and stop worrying about my work, y'know? Thanks to all who are willing to wait and be patient with me <3

So, since I've been so insanely spotty with my posting, and I'm likely to continue to be spacey at times, I thought I'd give you guys a reward for following me still! So, while I run a poll on twitter, I'm going to also post it here. So, please comment which of these options you'd enjoy:

- DTIYS

- Art Raffle

- A spicy request

- other (leave a comment below with your idea)

Thank you all again for sticking with me and being so patient with my disappearances. I'm really trying to get a handle on my mental health and find my passion again so that I can put out work I can be proud of and feel you guys will also enjoy. That means some of my art might be of a different genre than you've grown used to, but I hope you will grow to enjoy the varied content I might put out all the same. Thank you again for hanging around!

So, for those of you curious, I have been going back and forth between depression, burnout, and just not liking my art. That's why I haven't been posting art.

Recently, I've decided that I just can't force myself to go any further. I am unhappy with my work, have no motivation, no interest, and no ideas for art, I can't go further in this state. So, I've decided to ACTUALLY take a break. I won't post for a good long while, and I'm going to try to focus on cultivating that enjoyment I felt when drawing and making art. I just need a complete break from doing art daily, so I'm letting myself just draw when I want instead of focusing on having something to post every day.

Thus, the lack of posting. My adopts are still available, and so are my commissions, but I'd suggest you be patient with me getting back to you and working on any comms. Hopefully, I'll return with artwork I'm happier making, and can adjust to accommodate myself more. Thanks for sticking around! <3

So, I guess this is a little poll in a sense. Because, I have a question,

What can I do to get you guys to commission me?

I have fairly cheap prices, I feel my art is good, I draw furries, I'm even taking NSFW commissions, so what do you guys want that will get you to show a bit more interest? I'm trying to see what can bring in more commissions.

Hi guys! Small update, I am intensely struggling mentally right now. It's just a low time of year for me, and shit's been a bit rough for me art-wise. So, that's why art is slow. I just wanted to let you guys know that I am not purposely vanishing, just really struggling.

My mental state isn't the best, and while I love art, I likely have depression, which makes it super fucking difficult to do shit, especially in a winter time season.

So, little update, seperate of the art I will post in a bit. My desktop is dead, so I will have to slow down with art. The good news is that I have a laptop, and my backlog is somewhat saved! The next few posts might be low quality, but they're the best I got.

I know I've been off and on here, but I think I need a proper BREAK. I've been taking a few days off here and there, sometimes for friends, sometimes for mental health, but I think I need a real, lengthy Hiatus to get myself in a good spot again.

I dunno how aware everyone here is of the fact that I take commissions, so I decided to make a journal for it!

Last updated: 6/17/25

Prices
Sketched waist-up: 15$

Flat color full body: 23$

Shaded full body: 30$

Full body with background: 40$

NSFW: Add 11$ to the tier of your choice. I.E. an NSFW sketched waist-up would be 25 dollars, so on.

(Price increases per character added or complexity of design)

What I'll draw:

- Fanart
- NSFW (An additional 11$ to the requested tier)
- Monster girls/boys
- humans
- Demons
- Anthro/Furry characters

Questions:

How much would an additional character increase the price?

- My rule of thumb is that an additional character doubles the price of the tier you paid for since it doubles the time and work!

Can I request a commission including one of your ocs?

- Yes! You can ask for any of my ocs to be added, SFW or NSFW content, it doesn't matter.

Are the prices negotiable?

- There is a bit of wiggle room with the prices, but it mostly depends on my confidence in your request and the difficulty/complexity

Can we ask for changes?

- Small changes (ex: small pattern tweaks, accessories, colors, scars, small tweaks to the expression) are free for the first 2, but things like poses are not up for changes past the thumbnail stage.

Could we describe a design idea for you to draw, or do we need a pre-made design?

- Descriptions are fine! Though if you have a specific palette you want, or a specific outfit, or fur pattern, I'll need visuals to reference to get as close as I can to your idea. Outside of that, if you use a description over a reference, I'll need creative liberties on small details like accessories and clothing patterns, things like that.

Can you draw a reference sheet for my oc?

- I can! The price will adjust accordingly, and if you're working with nothing but a description, please see the above question.

I feel like utter GARBAGE because I expected furaffinity to let me know if someone noted me. It's the obvious thing! Of course you'd get a notification of some sort if you get messaged on a website, twitter, DA, Instagram, they all let you know someone's messaged you. But, I don't know if I maybe don't have a notification setting clicked or what, but it took me a MONTH to finally find out someone sent me a note, and I feel like ASS out of guilt.

From now on, you guys might wanna just leave a comment or shout if you want an adopt/commission, I don't trust the notes system anymore bruh.

So, I'm gonna be writing more during the art break. Being creative will help me not trigger depressive episodes because I feel so stuck. So! Here's my writing tumblr, if you want fanfiction or og writing, go ahead and follow me there!

https://tumblr.com/blog/narrators-journal

Heyo! Decided to mess around and make my fursona a little bio. I kinda went ham with the universe and some of her story lol, but I hope you enjoy it!

BASIC INFORMATION

Name: Witchly

Nickname(s): None as of yet, unless you count her boss calling her dear when she flirts

Age: She is 19 years old

Gender/Sex: She was born and identifies as female

Sexuality: Witchly doesn't actually know what her sexuality is completely. She's a toonophile primarily and crushes on both male and female characters as well as a few real people throughout her life, but in real sexual encounters, it's difficult for her to completely feel in the moment and easily get off, so she doesn't know if she's ace, demi, bi, or whatever else. So she mostly just sticks to calling herself bi in some way.

Date of Birth: October 31st

Ethnicity/Species: Witchly is a cat-demon hybrid

Occupation/Job: She works as a maid for a very well-off family of snow leopard-demon hybrids.

World/Universe: Witchly lives in a world of anthropomorphic animals very similar to our own with similar trends, fandoms, and whatever else. The biggest change from ours is the fact that predatory creatures like tigers, wolves, and birds of prey are commonly seen as a societal upper crust. While they aren't all wealthy, the general population seems to have higher expectations for those who are predator anthros. Other than them, there are shapeshifting demons of sorts that aren't uncommon. There's also a separation between regular animals and anthros, kinda like how humans and monkeys are different.

APPEARANCE

Height: She is 5'5 at most,

Weight: 125 pounds

Body Type: she's pretty average, not too curvy, not too formless, just pretty normal.

Fur: She's a black, short-furred cat

Eye Color: She has gold-colored eyed

Hair Style: Witchly has long black hair she usually wears in a bun

Tattoos/Piercings/Scars?: she sometimes is drawn with scars on her stomach

Dress: Commonly, she wears baggy shirts or sweaters and pajama pants when she's not on the clock. When she does work, she wears a knee-length french maid uniform. The uniform is likely because her boss is notorious for enjoying that aesthetic.

Accessories: She wears a thick collar around her neck sometimes, just in general liking chokers most of the time

ATTITUDE

Personality: Witchly's personality is rather fluid, but in general she can be described as sarcastic, mean, even bitchy, flirty, and asocial. In public or around general friends she's quiet and tries not to talk too much, just follows those friends around and vibes. Around close friends, she's still rather quiet unless prompted in a group, but when alone with only her friend, she can become sarcastic, self-deprecating, and begin to ramble more than she would around others. When alone though, she usually isolates herself and doesn't open up, even to her family. She's sensitive, being very bad at hiding her anger sometimes and no matter who she's around she can sometimes become viciously mean to those who piss her off, even passive-aggressively violent. Aside from that, Witchly's generally really flirty or lewd despite being as asocial as she is. The only real shift that happens outside of her friend group happens around more assertive people. In that type of situation, she can become very obedient to downright submissive to the point of codependence and relying on said person for comfort and guidance in social situations if the circumstances are right

Likes: She enjoys fictional characters, demons, angels, other occult or monstrous things, art, writing, being left alone most of the time, and Soda. More than that, she enjoys routines like going to school provides, animalistic instincts intrigue her greatly, as does the way animals are so capable of inflicting damage, but decide not to under some circumstances. On a more intimate level, she enjoys making sexual jokes, thinking dirty thoughts, and writing smutty stories. She especially enjoys thinking of certain things that might very well be kinks or fetishes like being dominated, wearing collars, being chased, being bred, bitten, and tied up. She is very much a sub who enjoys being controlled, even though she also has a rather bratty side. Of course, that's all speculated within her own mind, she more so enjoys the thought than she might the reality.

Dislikes: Witchly fucking HATES change in her routine. She's most comfortable in a structured, scheduled life in a job that gives her direct orders. Outside of that schedule or routine, she hates going outside when not needed. She also rabidly despises chicken, will not eat it unless it's from specific fast-food chains she trusts to make the chicken right. Witchly irrationally hates touching paper with damp hands, chewy, squelchy foods like fat, some gummies, and anything else that feels slimy and rubbery on her tongue, and generally being belittled of course. Despite her taste for dominance, she doesn't like a complete lack of control or powerless feeling, as with any good BDSM, there has to be a balance and a limit where the control stops and she's allowed to say no during intercourse.

Greatest Fear/Phobia: If Witchly had to claim any sort of phobia, she'd go with agoraphobia and a lack of control. She's also found that she fears or highly distrusts men more than she does women. Another fear is financial instability.


RELATIONSHIPS

Friends: Witchly has had a few friends, but most of them have grown apart as she grew older.

Best friend: She has a single best friend who she's very caring towards and tries her best to learn how to act in public, that way she's less awkward. Along with that, they're the only person Witchly has truly opened up to.

Significant Other/Crush: Witchly has a big fat crush on her boss, a rather wealthy snow leopard-ess. It may not be completely healthy, as she knows her boss has a lot of control over her due to giving her room and board as well as food in exchange for her work. They don't have a blatantly sexual relationship, but her boss does enjoy flirting and feeding into her liking for being dominated and controlled.

Pets: She owns a male calico she's named beefaroni

LIFE

Strengths: She's not super capable, but she at least has the forethought to realize that. That's why she sought out a job that provided her a place to live and food that paid pretty fairly while still being manageable for her. Aside from that, she's rather good at art and isn't bad at writing either. To her closest friend, she can also be a good voice of reason, able to provide some logic on some topics when needed so long as her words are taken with a grain of salt.

Weaknesses: Witchly has severe low self-esteem with admittedly codependent behaviors and an absolute shit ton of anxiety towards the world in general. She's also somewhat socially inept, super awkward, and can either be very talkative and seemingly rude, or very closed off and cold after any perceived annoyance or hostility from the others. She cleans but doesn't know how to cook and struggles with independence in general.

Hobbies: She loves to draw and write smut and feels she's pretty good at it.

Habits: She has a bad habit of taking over conversations when she gets to rambling. She also has horrible sleeping habits and eating habits. She generally just has horrible personal habits from her mental health, but she's trying her best. Other than that, she has a habit of rocking back and forth when in thought or shaking her hands when excited.

Health: Witchly struggles with depression, anxiety, and her boss believes she's autistic. Other than that, her health has ups and downs, mostly because of her bad habits encouraged by her mental issues. She has yet to get therapy but her boss and best friend are trying to encourage her to get help and likely medicated to help.

Bio template: CriticalCritiques

Hey there guys! I just noticed that I have 15 followers here! That's absolutely epic, so what should I do? Please comment on this journal, or send me a note, just let me know any suggestions you have. The options I thought of were

a) pick a random follower and draw their fursona
b) draw something a bit spicier than usual to celebrate
c) Other (up to you guys)

i am BEGGING you. Don't hide your comments. I'm trying to see what you say, I NEED to see what you say. Is it a problem on my end?? Is it a website problem?? I NEED TO KNOW.

this is super childish, but I NEED to see the comments you leave, to know if there's issues with my art, to see what art draws in views, PLEASE QUIT HIDING YOUR COMMENTS.

Howdy guys! a little update, uhhhh Im doing kinda bad. Depression has been ramping up under personal stress, my sleep schedule has been garbage, so has my diet, it's just been rough. So! I'm gonna take a day or two off to see if maybe that helps me feel less like trash.

I would really like if you'd answer this poll if you can, it's important.

https://twitter.com/tobiaslancaste4.....93540176588803

So, I'm gonna take a small break before jumping into the new year for realsies. I want to work on my style a bit, and I don't know how to really do that, so I really need to focus and knuckle down a bit.

I made a little poll on twitter to see what I could work on next in my art and I'd appreciate any feedback. If you don't have a twitter you can comment on this journal if you want to offer feedback, otherwise just vote. Thank you to anyone who offers some feedback.

https://twitter.com/tobiaslancaste4.....66475198271492

My current adoptables aren't selling so well, so should I just trash them and try a new batch or keep going? any comments with encouragement or your say on why I should trash them.

so, my wifi has been out and will be for at least two more weeks. I want to die, I can't help pay the bill, can't get commissions, I'm bumming off of my sister's wifi to update you all. I've been forced to sit at home doing nothing but listen to audiobooks over and over and over again, cold inside and waiting for death to cure my unending boredom. Even when the wifi comes back pictures might slow down again. Not that anyone fucking cares, I could die and it would benefit my family.

Name: The narrator

Level: Guardian

Information:
We have very little information on The narrator's powers but have a description of the being. This description came from the sole survivor of the first expedition into Wonderland, and he was given the name "The narrator" based on the account from the survivor.

“I first saw The narrator while we were floating down into the inky liquid. He was further down, but I could see how he pulled in the few bits of debris that floated around us. Under him the clumps of dirt formed an island, he’d created an island out of almost nothing. It was awe-inspiring, I felt like I was watching a god, the god of our world, at work. Because of this, I’ve decided to call this god The narrator, because he is the writer of our story, the narrator of the book.”

Due to this except The Call can gather that this creature has creative powers and therefore could be the first living being Wonderland produced, but little else about his power’s extent.

Description:
judging by the lone survivor’s report we can glean that this organism is a bipedal feline who has a purple tailcoat. We also know he has a secondary form he attacks with, a semi-skeletal monstrous form described in the following passage.

“He stood like a black cat on its hind legs, his tail decorated with a bow of the same color as the bell-adorned ribbon at his throat. He didn’t wear his tail-coat, but I still could not see his arms, before I could his violet eyes fell upon my group of five and I watched as he grew taller, his head detaching from the now exposed rib-cage his bow sat upon, below that was his spine and feline hips, nothing else. His arms, if they had existed, no longer did, instead, his massive, clawed hands were connected to the ends of his neck ribbon. He was nightmarish, and he attacked with matching ruthlessness. I can only assume I survived because he somehow deemed me worthy of mercy.”

Powers:
insufficient information to say.

I just spent a day working on some vocabulary for my world, some terminology that will expand as things come up as well as change as I find better names for them.
Wonderland- The mysterious dimension that was formed recently. Not much is known about it.

Guardians- the strongest creatures so far created in Wonderland. Up to four are known for sure with their powers recorded. They are highly rare, so no one is sure how many Guardians there really are. They are the most varied in requirements for making a deal with one.

Toys- These creatures are the second strongest creatures created by Wonderland so far. They aren’t as human as Guardians, but eerily more human than the creatures below them on the rankings. They are semi-common and don’t have the most demanding requests for deals.

Puppets- Puppets are the most common, weakest creatures Wonderland has. They only wish to eat and are the easiest creatures to make deals with.

Equilibrium- This source of power is much more fickle, yet powerful. Equilibrium creates powerful beings of god level but is supremely difficult to balance to achieve full potentials.

Ink- This is the term used to refer to the substance The Call uses to go into Wonderland.

The Call- An organization put together to investigate the creation of a new dimension 4 years ago. In those years it has also been tasked with investigating any other odd phenomenon as well as explain the oddities people already live with.

All of this is prone to change

When Luna woke up from her dip in the odd liquid, she was back in the odd dimension she had woken up in once before, in the bed Narrator had put her in before. She vaguely remembered the room, the canopy bed, but she had assumed she’d imagined it or that it was from a dream, so she was more than a little confused at being back in the curious place. Nonetheless, this time she knew better than to ask anyone she met after getting up. So, she was cautious when peeking out into the hallway, stepping out when she saw nobody around.
The hallway was rather quiet, stretching in one direction until the walls stopped and the flooring turned into a catwalk that two staircases led to from the first floor. The other direction led to a corner, which Luna peeked around and saw an opening, a small sort of sitting area that cut into the hallway and was decorated with chairs and a few tables, a few colorful paintings, and a clock that spun so fast the ebony-haired girl could barely see the hands. The hall continued on the other side of the space, stretching for a while before another turn.
Listening carefully for any signs of life, Luna could hear the sounds of people talking across the opening space. Part of her knew better, it was best not to question the people she found, they could be like that bipedal cat creature and smack her over the head with a hammer. However, at the same time, she wanted answers to both the questions she had before and the new questions that were forming, like what this place was. Because of that curiosity, she was quickly slinking her way across the sitting area towards the voices that drifted from an open door, just catching the first bits of conversation, just snippets of words. They were talking too quietly for her to really hear them until she got to that side of the room and was close enough to hear into the first room down the hall.
“What do we do? I want these ideas, but I don’t know how to mix them in as things are now.” A woman said, her companion humming,
“Maybe we can try to rewrite some stuff? Edit how things work to mix them in?” A second, male, voice suggested, but the woman groaned,
“I can’t, these characters are already developed in this world, I can’t just throw it out for a second time, that’d get annoying for the characters.” the woman sighed, and when Luna cautiously looked into the room she saw a blonde woman in a blue dress standing in front of a cork board of papers with that bipedal cat creature in a purple tailcoat with a bow on his neck and tail from her first time in this weird place. “I don’t know what to do, I don’t have enough to make a whole new story for this, and I don’t want to throw it away…” the blonde woman said dejectedly, the thin-fingered cat creature pat her back. He went to say something, but as he was about to, Luna made the mistake of blowing a strand of stray hair out of her face, which made Narrator’s ears perk up and his tail droop while the blonde looked to him with tension in her...Pink? Eyes. Luna couldn’t really see them well enough to fully see.
“Alice, there’s someone here,” he said, his tail low. The two fell silent, allowing Luna to hear how fast her heart was now thundering in her chest. It felt like her blood was both cold and hot at the same time, fear made Luna’s thoughts buzz like a swarm of bees as the creature looked back at her.
The cat’s amethyst eyes narrowed and his ears went flat when he saw the girl, and the blonde, Alice, squeaked and bolted from view to hide when the creature spotted Luna. That was the point where Luna decided her curiosity was not worth death, so the ravenette bolted back down the hallway, the last thing she heard aside from the rush of blood in her ears was an unholy yowl like a terrified, dying cat, then repeated thumping and dragging, something was coming after her.
She could hardly see where she was going, her eyes were darting around wildly, unfocused as her primal terror carried her down the hall, across the catwalk, and down the opposite hallway. The thumping and dragging continuing after her, now accompanied by a ghostly giggle that seemed uncomfortably close behind her, just like the breath that she could feel against her back as she ran. The only thing that saved Luna from what she was sure would’ve been a painful death was when her foot went through the floorboards and was followed by the rest of her body. After a painful minute, she was back in the suffocatingly thick ink, no longer able to feel hot breath against her back or hear the thumping and dragging of whatever she dared not look upon while she had run like a scared rabbit. Instead, she was falling through the same goop she’d been in before, barely able to breathe, barely able to see the books, toys, and tile pieces that went by through the potent panic. Then, she sat upright in a new bed.

keep forgetting to post parts here. Well, before I go to take a break from art and maybe focus on writing to push the story forward, have the second part

The initiation room was one part beautiful and one part scary. The dark walls were decorated in red velvet curtains, the tiles were a creamy white, turning light shades of orange or yellow in the dim, warm light that emanated from the fancy looking lamps and bounced off of the obsidian colored pool of water in the middle of the room. Luna felt very uneasy about the room as Lucy led her and her twin brother, Nico, into it. That anxiety was not helped when Bacchus followed them in, his yellow-green eyes taking on more unnatural hues of yellow in the light of the dimly lit room,
“Alright! Luna, you should go first. You have a higher chance of surviving and coming back because you have the higher potential for magic.” The white-haired creep chirped, smiling amiably at the two and giggling when Lucy elbowed him in the side,
“There is a very low chance of death, so if you want to go first Nico, it’s safe.” she assured, glaring at her companion while Nico stepped forward to the edge of the pool of ink,
“Okay then, do I just step into it?”
“Well, you can, but we’ve found that if you wear light colors light white, you’re more likely to attract something.” Lucy explained as Bacchus led Nico off to change into something of a scrub-like uniform before letting him step into the pool, “Fully submerge yourself,” Lucy advised once he was in, and soon Luna couldn’t find her brother in the shimmering pool of ink
It took an hour, and in that time Luna changed into a plain white dress for her turn before she saw her brother come to the surface, gasping and coughing as she and Bacchus haul him onto the tile. Lucy went and fetched a doctor, who made sure Nico was okay before Bacchus carried him to a room to rest. When he returned, he smiled at Luna,
“Now, Lilith! It’s your turn!” the odd man chirped, making the knot of unease that sat like a stone in Luna’s stomach grow heavier. However, she bit back that discomfort and stepped into the liquid.
The night-colored liquid was warm, which was a bit odd but she was more concerned with the thick, mud-like density of the water. Before she could even get in deep enough to submerge herself it felt like she was being sucked down, she could feel her arms dragging her down face-first into the liquid until finally she closed her eyes and let it. To her surprise, she could breathe under the surface, it was difficult, but she could, so she chanced opening her eyes.
She saw things floating by as she sank, clocks, pieces of tile, bricks, books, clumps of flooring and ground, all things that a swimming pool should not hold. When she looked down she saw the only stationary seeming thing in the place, a semi-circle of a black-and-white tiled floor that she was approaching until a piece of tiled floor blocked her path.
Instead of reaching that semicircle of tile, she landed on the island of floor, getting to her feet quickly and trying to look around again, only to see a looming mass in the darkness. She only knew it was really there because the picture frames, books, and bricks floating around disappeared behind it.
Luna would’ve spoken, but she didn’t have the breath, all of her breath went to keeping her alive, so all she could do was think what the fuck are you? However, she wasn’t expecting a reply
“I am a creature, a Guardian, you’ve sparked my interest.” He explained, able to speak like she couldn’t,
I sparked your interest?
“Yes, have you made a deal with a creature like me before?” The thing asked, a pair of ocean blue eyes opening to look at her. From their placement, she could guess it might be some sort of rabbit. She shook her head at his question, getting a sigh next, “It depends on what creature you get, but for me, I keep it simple, am I going to need to baby you?” He asked, and Luna shook her head No! Don’t baby me, I want-no, I NEED to be independent! She thought, feeling a small mixture of anger and dread. I’ve been expected to do poorly, I can’t prove them wrong if I’m babied… She thought, blinking away the sensation of tears in her eyes, but the random creature she’d found seemed to hum,
“Very well then, take my hand.” the creature instructed, reaching out a shadowy form of a hand that Luna took.
Suddenly, she was dragged upwards through the thick water, and just before she felt ready to black out from lack of air, she was on the surface, gasping for oxygen and coughing like her brother had been. She tried to tell Lucy or Bacchus about what she saw, the creature she’d met, but she was coughing too much and Lucy just shushed her, telling her to rest. So, begrudgingly, she gave up her consciousness.