I'll probably not be using this FA for much anymore, or checking it. My own art and my self-identity is finally coming into focus and this was a nice little transition account so I could interact with certain people. I'm also coming into my own financially and might be able to actually afford a commission once in a while! Buuut, you won't see it here. You might find me elsewhere on FA, but you'd never know it was me~

Was fun, all you seven or eight watchers! So long!

And thanks for all the fish! *coughs*

Ready to begin anew.

A new chapter. An opportunity to learn who I am.

The continuation of an infinite process.

The one constant: optimism.

Let's see where life takes me.

...is everything I dreamed it would be. I didn't make this post earlier because I was too busy playing.

Also I'm sick. I got sick the day after Skyrim came out. By the nine divines, I am unfortunate ;_;

So to all seven of my adoring fans, I apologize, for I will be busy liberating the deer and elk of Skyrim from the tyranny of poachers and hunters for the next forever or so.

At what point in my life did a wire fence become a barrier rather than an obstacle to overcome?

At what point in my life did I trade the efficiency and excitement of running everywhere for the less conspicuous act of walking?

I realized lately that at some point I started to abandon my childhood sense of freedom for the adult security of social acceptance. My behavior feels constantly inhibited and monitored by a certain set of values that I had no part in creating. It's a creeping, gradual sort of process that scares me.

I feel like I am in a struggle to maintain my sense of self. It's a struggle with myself to stop trying to be what others expect me to be.

In short, I need to stop caring about what other people think of me. Easier said than done.

This is what I think about while going to sleep >< Yay for dramatic introspection.

Fire Bringer by David Clement-Davies is the only book I remember outright crying at the end of. No, the tears were not manly.

And yes, I only just read it. What of it!?

I'll get right to reading The Sight now >.>

And if you think I'm bad, I know a certain SOMEONE who hasn't read Redwall. Ahem.