Thats right! I'm still here! I survived an aneurysm and a seizure. But nevermind the details. Surgery was successful and now I just struggle with headaches and having no real outlets =w=

Now I try to bounce back! I have to remember the things I forgot and and even make some works more presentable! It's a daunting task, but I'm up for it as long as you guys love it~

That said, I have quite a few things to upload :3

While I've been gone/recovering, I've been posting on X. But, ever since the tendrils of political discourse got in, shoving a lot of the... artsy among us out, It hasn't been going anywhere. I know it's because I was late. joined at the exact wrong time =w=;'

If you want to check it out, though~:
https://x.com/noonie_beyl

do it >:3 I'd love it

It's been a very long time.

We've all got one, though, right? An image that comes to mind while it's--or or less--blank? Not exactly a structure, and yet very contained--even though it may not have any parameters to speak of...?


That sounds nuts--what I'm getting at is: I could paint it! And I only talk about it because I just now realize it And it all wonderful because nothing but perspective has been stopping me. Well, there's a lot more to it than THAT, but you know what? I'm over it.

Arts is so much better than maths. |3

Too broke. Too far behind. I'd go through all my feels right now but complaining makes my head hurt.

I'll just sulk.. thinking about the butts I had appointments with... meeting all those furs at my booth.... Getting shitfaced in someone else's double-decker while lookin like a heck of a specimen to someone who hasnt seen it yet

Not to mention feeling like a master of my craft with my simple paper-arrayed-on-table next to booths that have scaffolding and STILL getting customers feels some kinda special~

AW I'm doing it anyway SIIIIIIIIIIIIGGGGHHHHH

I'm going to TFF in March even if I gotta hide from security and sleep in a tent on the fuckin roof.....

I've been thinking it over, and i believe i want to publicize/practice using some of you guys! Specifically (but not exclusively) those in need of icons. I can take 3-5 on mondays--each reasonably priced--and post then as they're finished on Fridays!

I thought of this after noticing how many of my new watchers dont have an icon and i can fix that ;3

Those of you reading this can advise! What do you think?:
35 for a colored piece, reg size and icon sized
50 for a short animated loop icon sized

Seem fair and enticing?

I've just been shovelling it into my discord (sometimes twitter) x3 I'll treat you guys too :3

Like, 1 in 10 peoole who look at my works favorite. Here, there, anywhere. I have the skill and I'm backed up by many, but i must be blind to whats holding me back.

I've assumed it was my lack of coloring skills, or maybe my sometimes very low volume of posts; maybe I'm just boring... But recently i think its because i hardly ever make rule34.

I mean--i get it: use popular icons to boost my own popularity--but if you follow me hoping i make more pokemon porn or something, you should know that i consider r34 a crutch intended to attract young people. And not only am i grown (and dont waant kids in particular looking at porn i make because its more relatable to them), but i dont want that to be my drawing point.

I would much rather draw genuine furs over someone else's profitable, intellectual property. Thats not a dig at artists who do but but i wanna be a famous one that doesnt.

Lately, ive been working on self improvement because mechanical skill isnt good enough on its own. And frankly, i should have been coloring the whole time, even if i dont like coloring as much as i like sketching. But I can handle forced regimens.

Anyway, im just wingeing because its been like 22 years doing this. Ive been thinking: a job i hate would just be namy times more lucrative... And there's insurance (which i need) sooo...

EDIT: im not saying i might quit doing this! But i dont think i can capitalize on it.

This year sucked. I hated the entire ride so far. it's so bad, I don't have the patience for my passion which is a travesty if there's ever been one written!
BUT I'm gonna pick myself up out of the gutter. After I attend MFF, I gots to get me a job because I need insurance and ignoring my health aint the play--too many people die suddenly of things they've been silently enduring. Naaah, even though I am a Kaiju in human skin, Imma stop doing that.

it'll help me out in a number of ways, Insurance, esteem, motherfuckingmoney and giving my too-powerful heart something to do instead of pump angrily on standby. AND MAYBE a contender for King of All Monsters like me could find myself a "one true adversary" if you know what I'm sayin. Because ya boi is about tired of NOT having someone within arms reach. Muhuha I hope whoever that is, is as squishy as a fatherless marshmallow. for support! and certainly not so I could bully them =w=

ANYWAY, I'm still drawing and I'll upload stuff. I'm very SLOWLY getting through the more complex jobs I've taken on. I dont wanna get too.. whiny, but looking at animation frames for so many hours is HARD! I already cant focus on nothin for long AND YET I wanna do iiiitt...
Theres 4 people I hink about more than my own mother, and it's the ones waiting for finished products ;w;

And it's not like I dont have *anything* to show for these people. I do, It's that I... cant draw when I'm miserable. Theres lots of stuff--POSTED STUFF--that I look at and can recall how I was feeling. Theres some stuff in my gallery I wanna remake because they certainly could look like they were more fun. I want my stuff MOST ESPECIALLY the stuff that cost someone money to be GOOD. So good you show it to your dad! RRRR I can be the furry artst that makes you come out! XD lemme settle, but it's frustrating to think I'm only this powerful!

Which brings me to my last point: having a job (again) would gimme that human interaction I hear we crave, not to mention experiences to want/need to vent. SO be going back into a career (if you can call warehouse labor that) isn't the end. Matter of fact, you'll probably be seeing more ;3


_{PS:
To those 4 people I vaguely mentioned--you know who you are it's been some time: PLEASE BELIEVE IN ME!}

I feel like I'm running out of places to post. I took a break and twitter is flagging everything, Tumblr cut it's own legs off.
sure I got the ever enduring FA but so much of it's demographic hates it (for arguably petty reasons) that I feel like posting here isnt as lucrative as far as visibility goes.

So I beg the question: where the hell am I gonna post!?
I dunno whats hot in the streets right now but I'll try almost everything.

I honestly never thought I would actually NEED to make a website--I actually forgot how to do it without a certain Microsoft app...

Any suggestion in regards to where to migrate next would be pretty helpful

I'd be posting more but i chipped a molar about 2 months ago and all I wanna do is oppose the pain. I wont go into TOO much detail, but lets say I dont do much of anything besides avoid the pain--so p much nothing else.

I got plans to see a dentist but I'm uninsured and I fear that I might need hardware. Honestly, if they destroyed the nerve and stuffed a rock in the gap I would take it and be merry.

I'd have punched myself in the face by now but my left hand would definitely miss the mark.
WHEW boy I could pull my own cheek off.
I could swallow a gun--I dont mean a bullet, I mean the whole gun--just so I can feel a different sensation when I'm awake.
I could lie perpendicular under my neighbors car and wait for them to go to work.

remember kids, dont grit your teeth.
and see a damn dentist aometimes.

I love spicy food (haha)! and I blame that on my southern heritage.

I like spice so much that I buy many kinds of spicy things and find myself vocally disappointed in a lot of things that claim to be very spicy.

I'm often confused by why someone would refuse spice!
It took me a while but I finally realize....
It's because I'm a sado-masochist XD

A late friend of mine once told me he refused to eat lime flaming hot cheetoes in the bag size that I do. Later, he explained that he doesn't dump hot sauce on his red beans&rice! Because I just had to understand, he told me about a time when he was younger, and heavily suffered on the throne for bravely testing the Scoville Scale. He swore off the stuff.

My only thought about THAT was: "you're a wimp dude." and I thought nothing else of it.
Many years later, my own baby brother doesnt like spicy stuff.

They're both still wimps, but I realize it's ME thats the enigma lmao

it's funny how bravely I went more-is-more over the many opportunities I've had to push le spice; now realizing I dont suffer the consequences quite like my peers~

It's a little early for shark week, but I dooo have a running comic about with sharks!

I'm bringing it up cuz I really wanna show it, even though it's far from being a polished thing.

Suck it up and enjoy the ride!

There's moments--doing this--where someone comes out of the woodwork to tell me that I'm a sight to see. That they really like my works. and if I cant call that kerosene to my fire I've been using the stuff wrong!

It really says something to me because I dont like to color (it just doesnt hold my attention like sketching--and fixing sketches-- does).
obviously it's a bit of a handicap. What's so shiny about this coal brick is: The "someone's" I'm referring to must spend a lot of time appraising my art. which to me says, in lieu of definition you degenerates are fuckin here for it!

It brings a tear to my eye I been sucking up til now.

Long as I have two hands, I'll keep it up for ya~

Next Month, I'm going to Florida for the first time is over a decade! It's not to stay (cousin graduating) but I'm still excited to see it! That being said, I'm GOING but I still have to repay my ticket (and I would also love some spending money (when I travel for once)

So by the morrow, I'll post many commissions I recently finished AND some more YCH auctions! Consider them for me~ ;D

Me, your large friend Noonie the Tsundere, is into watersports. Not that much, though. and the reason you might find ironically hilarious.
I'm moderately into WS, but I'm very "gun-shy"--that is retentive with an audience. So retentive, that I often cheat at sex by opening the room. its kinda sucks on the ever so rare occasion that I'd have an audience, but because I'm so damn smart, I made it an advantage.sorta. Go figure. I dunno how or why or why me for that matter, but I just put it lower on the shelf and mostly keep it to myself.

You might be wondering why I shared that. Me too. But if you look for it there's a protip in there.

One of the things I love about being a fur and knowing other furs is connecting a species to a personality.

I feel like I'm the only one that does it because I know a literal assload of people, but it's not too hard a concept really

cats for example. Imma talk about the small ones. Every one I know is some kind of snarky, sort of bratty that really only comes out when--well I call it hotpuss. Felines are apex predators, right, AND centuries of worship to back up all that precision focus; all the success. Telling em what to do is a 50-50 on results. Gotta be worthy after all. But then you have the subby ones. Take that DNA infused half earned-half made ancient aristocracy and put a gimp suit on it. These ones want to be topcat like other cats but losing in (the right circumstance) is preeeetty nice.
I know both extremes. One of them likes it when I give em poochie smoochies. The other one toootally hates it. But since I'm a big jerk dog I give em anyway. She can just fight me.

Big cats are a more mixed basket. they're way different from felis familiaris, but they're still felines. I CAN say their airs have a broader span, if that makes sense. Broader and slower.

I can do this for quite a few species-at-large! :D I like to think I can show a bit of how I perceive anthro animals when I draw em but soooo much of context is exposition and uuuughghghghjgj

_{I must state that there are exceptions to everything ever.}

why is gas so expensive in America? Good golly, I need a loan to have a full tank of gas for a week. I get it--small problem to have compared to sudden, unsolicited war but damnit. I drive a tiny, bedded truck and thank goodness because If I were still driving an Isuzu Trooper around, I may have to finally turn to prostitution for real! Like, no more dodging. Which is great for some people, but I hear it's really reallyhard work lol

_{This was supposed the year I'd go back to working AND drawing... GASP! Maybe this is a sign!}

I wanna talk more to you guys but I often dont know if I wanna post exactly what im thinking just because I feel like it lmao
I write stuff, and then realize I'm only a few minstakes from being considered one big headed himbo and I change my mind. It's often stuff about little things I deal with as an artist. none particularly bad or good but enough for me to open my stoic mouth irl.
If that sort of thing interests you, heres an example:

When I sit to draw I COULD fire up a stream, but then I look at the time and realize it's 830 in the morning. then I start to draw--alone--and do whatevers on my mind; it's usually whatever intense butt and/or throat stuff woke me up. But thats just the warmup.

Sounds like a great routine and all, but 3 hours later I might stop what I'm doing and realize I fucked it up or it's kinda stupid. And I did that shit for HOURS!

If I'm not a little discouraged at how impulsive--how driven into futility--I am, I'll do commissions LMFAO but only ones I'm well into. As you may well know sketching is my jam, so I bravely think I can sketch vividly whats on my mind (it's often in lengthy detail for art intended to be finished) and my back reminds me it's holding this position while I fuck off.

Anyway That's the kind of thing I wanna stream! But I can only get away with it waaaay early. and on weekdays.

Theres a light in this twilight though! I'm a little too busy being full of hate and sorrow to consistently remember to post to all the websites I'm on BUT I'm still making it!! I have an exclusive Discord, where I drag and drop everything I've done thoroughly enough to be visible. Usually as soon as I do it.
On top of that, you'll often be in it!! Guess how? Go on.
Guess.
_{www.patreon.com/noonietoon}

Hello again~

It's been a while, I know. I've been struggling with stuff, particularly with my dad deteriorating until he passed this past January. It cut me deep because he'd been so helpful to me. Best father figure I've ever had, and I've had 4. But I'm letting it go slowly...

Anyway, my page has been looking kinda dry lately eh? I can fix that :3

As you all may know, coloring aint my thing. It's a drag.

BUT, I still gotta do it--and I even have things waiting cuz I dont have the spine to provide extended concentration to do so

SOOOO I'm thinking of streaming when I color. Perhaps some engagement will help me commit to the hours @w@

Whatcha say? down for watching that?

Now that things are settled around here and my place is done getting remodeled, I've been considering a steady stream schedule.

Thing is, I'll probably only do it two days a week and at an early time like 10am (central). perhaps maybe in the middle of the night too, but thats not as good a time.

Anyways, I'm thinkin about it

What kinda sucks is I hate to color. I really only ever do it for yall. But it's so valuable to the eye that I know I'm just crippling myself by largely not coloring. I cant be alone in this, right? Thats the preface here comes the web.

I can sketch something quickly, which I think is a pretty neat talent. On top of that--given a couple hours or so--I'd detail it out, fix it up, make it awesome. And then I'd get really enthused. Often I do more than I said I would because I love to pick the best lines out of many and really chizzle things out. And then I gotta color that shit, which is triple the time. and oh HOOOO boy you wanna talk about a self-imposed burden. Clearly I've chosen to repent for something I dont know about! I love doin that shit to myself =3=

Often, when I get to the point of coloring, if I had not been disturbed, it will have been hours, and I might wait to color. But coloring is laaame. by that I mean it's sooo SLOOOW. At least for now it is. Y'know what I do when I get up? Somethin fun, which is something amid the many awesome thoughts I have fresh at 8am. I call it a warmup, work on it for four hours or so (probably have to stop to do some other RL shit) and wind up losing the time unspent on commissions and such. OR, i may have been doing a commission. So I really only color in bits, especially these days.

It all takes me doggamn forever; a trillion layers which I always ALWAYS mistakenly mix because I dont like stopping. Sometimes, I fling my pen and lament because I've been coloring on the wrong layer for 35 minutes. Feels bad man. I gotta metaphorically take a lap after that kind of thing. icing on the cake? The wind can blow my power out and has for many years. So now I gotta shell out some dough to get something that will prevent me losing progress.

But I'd be an idiot if I didn't understand everybody loves color, and I dont mean just from a digital art standpoint. so y'know what I should do?

Watch Streams. Got any recommendationnnsss?

I dont know if it's common knowledge, but FA (and pretty much anywhere) has periods in a day where the most activity is happening. Maybe it's just me and I'm a big ol doofus, but I always wanna save the good stuff for those times and either miss it or come up to bat and realize I can do slightly better.

I tried things like Postybirb, but I cant trust it yet to do exactly what I want; so in the meantime I thought I'd wing it, but my schedule/environment dont allow me to be available around all the Peak Hours of FA and Twitter and etc. I used to just fire away when I started to get traction on Tumblr but then they cut their legs off.

No one's fuckin awake at 8:30am with me, when I have all the inspiration. Why do I wait til 5pm to share it--as though I dont live with 4 needy people? I mean it's 5pm somewhere by 8, eh?

...Know what I'm gonna do? Wing it for a while and fire away whenever. All the stuff I make for shits and giggles so often. Maaaybe I'll be doing myself a favor.

Shit sucks now, i know. But I can miss out on up so much earned money (and i cant file a tax return sincel i don't make enough) so that money is just gone--for now and into the foreseeable future.

And most of the time, the money is spent before i finish the job, so it REALLY blows when i expected $100 and only get $92.

So lately ive been giving the price and then adding the tax in: FOR ME, ITS 7 PARTS PER 1; 7 cents for every dollar. 7%

For example, if i sold a ref sheet for 75$, 5.25 of that is gone, so I'd actually have to sell the ref sheet for 80.25.

This is just to be ttransparent about pricing for you guys in the future~

Lately I've been wondering how great it would be when I could finally go back and speedpaint the shit out of a lot of the things I made.

Would be nice if I had that kind of time and space. And theres some things--commissions mostly--that I'd love to take a second crack at _{if that was reasonable at all}.

These are just thoughts. And a lil insight into how aware I am that my productivity has gone down.

I got some ketchup to do.

Also, about the price raise, I'm postponing doing that cuz I'm considering working more fulltime. Not just for money, but doing all that labor and shit is p healthy for a dude built like me--and I'm 31 now.
Also also, my family are vampires and I cant get enough free time to not only do commissions, do patreon duties, AND have fun with this whole thing. Cant complain out loud though, cuz I'm very patiently living here almost for free.

That, in a nut shell, is why I've slowed down so much over the past months. I cant do nothin except be patient and try. It's especially bad lately (ironically) and silently, it drives me NUTS but I know what it is--and Imma keep truckin