Sometimes I miss the story we had going. I still don't think I belong in that group -- we simply lack the same interests -- but I have grown enough to stop hating you. I wonder if it's too late to go back. It probably is.

I wonder if I could bring myself to trust. I wonder if, now that I have "my rock" if I could try again since I wouldn't be so dependent on you. I wonder if I'd even be welcomed back after such an event. I doubt it, and I wouldn't blame you. There are tinges of regret when I look at the art you drew for me.

All I've learned from losing and gaining friends in these past 2 years is that I don't want to hate anymore. I wrote this here under the assumption that you might see it, that maybe it would give you some comfort to know I sometimes miss you.

Oh boy 1AM thoughts are great.

Surprisingly, my main fetish.

I kind of fell out of my rape fetish. I joined an RP community, my character got raped, and it was really rather nauseating to try to walk those shoes.

Now, I completely understand the fetish, so I'm not judging anyone.

I just...I can't see the appeal anymore. *Shrug*

Oh well!

Just babbling here.

Sorry for the lack of activity

well, not really but I wish I would draw more.

How has the world been? I have been relatively fine.

I've been screwing up a lot at work lately, and I'm not going to be surprised when I am fired, but alas.
I'll prove myself.

College is great, love my professors. The RP community is a new home to me. Uhh...
what else
OH!

Congrats to  sonictweaker! You got your job! NICE! WELCOME TO THE WORK FORCE!
Do your best, and I know you will. Good luck!

when you think an artist you've looked up to has actually gotten worse...

and you feel a bit sad

oh...

my body is having issues

My stomach must have shrunk, and I can hardly eat anything
it feels like I ate a rock, no matter what i eat

I've been losing weight and my appetite
so we're working on that

hello

no more commissions

nope

maybe art trades

also i see it MAINLY in sonic artists but is it really so hard to look at a picture of a vag/dick and learn how to draw it


wat is anatomy???????????????

Right so

I've noticed a lot of people complaining they only got X amount of comments and they never get attention and life is hard

I feel like if you draw for attention you're not going to be happy with what you produce because it doesn't get enough attention

Don't get me wrong, i know attention and flattery is nice and all but
verbally complaining about how little comments you get...is just er..

I don't like it, I understand it, but it just seems asinine

I NEVER get comments or faves.................. I wish I was popular
aw man i only got one comment? and its "cute"? sigh...

not even worth wasting your time over trivial things like that

Lately I've been messing around with my art, sort of, kind of not in a drawing mood lately
but I'm happy with where its going, I dont really care that no one seems interested, I enjoy drawing
and I especially enjoy drawing for friends


just rambling, what i am thinking and all

fight me lets go right now motherfucker

how are you


where does the majority of your drama come from? how do you cope?
I'm just babbling because im really fucking tired and bored

I gotta say a majority of my drama comes from the art community
whether it be terribad fandoms or dramatic art friends

I know my TF2 clan has been having some drama but ... its no where near as bad as art drama.

sighs

gimme them Steam IDs

I'll add the peeps I am familiar with

also I have not been in the mood to draw
I've join a TF2 clan and have been dead set on that and I have to say I am a lot happier than like
being here where a lot of people are unappreciated and disrespected

They are really mature for their age and I am pretty happy gaming with them so
leave your IDs here and I may add you

or don't, I don't really care

fight me

I got a single commission for my fundraiser. I'm obviously going to stop advertising since it's a no go.

Thank you  khrystal_dax for commissioning me and  tentaclesiris for advertising me.

I'm gonna be doing my own thing, commissions are still open. What I rake in will go to  toxicko until I hit my goal.


Anyone interested in a trade?
Idk what to draw
I don't know what to do with my art

I tried changing up the styles but nothing has wow'd me or made me thrilled.

Hopefully this fundraiser will cut back my bad commissioning habit. I blow so much money on commissions.

Ok I lowered my prices because I started to think it wasn't worth the price.

Ok I am not earning money for myself but for  toxicko who just got jipped by her parents and is really sad.

So I'll be TRYING to raise 200$ for her to help her out because I love her and she is my wife.



PRICES:

Sketch: $3.00 ---- EXAMPLE

Colored Sketch: $5.00---- EXAMPLE

Line Art: $6.00 ---- EXAMPLE
Flat Color: $8.00 ---- EXAMPLE

Full Color: $12.00----EXAMPLE

Chibi: $5.00----EXAMPLE

Extra characters are half the base price.


PLEASE NOTE
I'm not that experienced with porn, so intercourse/sex MIGHT be rejected.

specialty:
humans/demons/elves/human descent
sonic FCs
furry


PAYPAL ONLY PLEASE

All commissions are full body!


If you cannot help, please please spread this journal around!
If you show me the journal I will feature you!

I upped my prices a bit since this is such a large goal. Please understand!

I am kind of in a depression rut. I can't really draw much for myself without giving up. I'm inking my last art trade now.

So I figured I'd do a chibi raffle.

How to enter/guidelines

- comment here with a reference of the character you want me to draw
- I'll give you a number
- I'll see how many people enter and put that amount into http://www.random.org/


I want to make someone happy with my art so I figured it might be fun to draw a random character.

First drawing
#13  sonicality


Second drawing
#14  Tomxwolf

OK sorry about the last time. I don't know if the last few who commented last time want to art trade but here we are again.


SO PLEASE comment with a reference of the character you want ME to draw and what type of trade you wanna do <w>

I'm thinking full body full color or chibi :) but it's flexible

I hope you're interested!

I'll note whoever

Hey guys! Please check out this artist and commission her - http://ninemafia.deviantart.com/

She's really cheap.
10$ for fullbody and color and +2$ for an extra character.

She has an ADORABLE cartoony style and I highly recommend her. She's trying to raise money for Otakon and in general.

She's a friend of a friend and drew this: http://ninemafia.deviantart.com/gallery/#/d326kjw for said friend.

If you commission her and show me proof (idk show me a screencap of a note of her confirming the commission) I'll draw you...something...idk yet

maybe a sketch and or chibi <w>

OH YEAH I AM BACK
hi

I'm leaving Thursday to go see  fission for a week. We'll be at CTcon but it seems like a small convention so I don't expect many people I know to be there.

Commissions are closed and will remained closed for a while. I am losing confidence in my art much like  [txin] and I want to experiment and do stuff for myself a bit. I want to make an elven water witch and do more things with Rot and Count.

Anyway, I can't wait to see Kevin :). a whoooole week with my bby

If you're single, what trait would you want in your lover?


I don't know if I can really pick a single trait in  fission but I really like his happy-go-lucky forgiving personality.
I could go ON AND ON about how much he is perfect 6w9 like I love how nerdy he is and how our sense of humor is the same
i like how he looks and how cute he is and Xwx

anyway, what do you enjoy the most?


Also

COMMISSIONS ARE CLOSED! Only sketch and Chibi commissions are open ATM. :) I MIGHT be raising the rates soon because of the community influence, nothing drastic though.

<_> Figured I'd keep a list of people I would love to commission in the future, but am too po' to do so ATM.


 thefuckingdevil
 toxicko
 agroantirrhopus
 fetalstar
 noxious
 labrum
 rokkanrokkan
 modeseven
 whitephox
 kloudmutt


VIA dA:

Dust-Bite
Wallabri
Popsiclette
kiwisruleXD
AikaXX
arvalis

I'll update this whenever I spot someone who catches my fancy 6w9
Just keeping track, feel free to make your own or suggest some.
Most of these people on here cost 20+ so thats why i cant afford them cries

So I just realized something, and I have to keep it a secret
buut I am going to be doing a lot of pictures from now until mid july

Should I upload them all at once or whenever I get one done? hmm...thinking in small groups
3 at a time maybe

Anyone want to?
I'm not exactly accepting YET because I have a commission but I'll note you if I'm interested!
Please link a ref of what character you'd like
I'm thinking fullbody this time
you decide whether or not it's sketch/flat/full color/chibi

Go ahead and offer! I'll note you when I'm free and if I'm interested!

If you had alll the money in the world, would you buy a fursuit?
What character?
Why?

I don't think I would. I can't imagine me in one and I'm not interested. I'm not really a lifestyle furry, or apart of the subculture(yet?). I saw someone selling them and making UV horns on a page so I thought I would ask. -w-

I forgot to post that here XD;

Prices: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/5753622/

I'm about to get quite a sum of money in and for future reference I wanted to know who you think is a pretty good porn artist on here?

please link me to them! I look forward to it.

So I just beat portal 2 and oh man it was amazing. I won't spoil it for you though!


I'm trying to raise money without dipping into my savings. So I'm asking/begging/pleading for commissions from you guys

What I'm trying to get:


http://store.valvesoftware.com/product.php?i=CP217


Money raised: 0/$50 (with shipping)


PRICES!

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/5612252/


Icons like mine fully shaded are 4.50
Sketches are 2$


I don't NEED this but it's the first thing I've really wanted in a long time other than Kevin. So if you could advertise me that'd mean the world to me!
I'm not expecting many offers, but I can hope! TwT

well...nothing serious at least, no big projects or art trades completed or person stuff etc

Why?

I'm sick! I can't even find the means to sketch out this trade. I'm normally real quick about them. I'm so weak and miserable. I've been sick all weekend and I thank god that this week is a blow off week thanks to state testing

Anyway whenever I DO try to draw in class/on the comp I find myself either asleep or shivering.

Sorry!