Come watch us play games. Currently setting up for Heroes of the Storm!

https://www.twitch.tv/taxtic

My buddy Relic and I have begun streaming games together and we are trying to put ourselves out there. He has a half-decent following starting off due to his recognizable blue and orange suit showing up for the dancing at cons but I have much less and due to no recognizable features aside from pictures of me, I'm not very noticed.

I wanted to use this journal as a way of say, "Hey, Taxtic here! Go check me out at Twitch.tv/Taxtic and be sure to share with your friends." haha

This is going to be a semi-daily thing and and I would love to see you all there. :)

School and work stress me out.

That's a big reason I haven't been around.

For anyone who wants to talk, just ask. I may be willing to share.

For those who already have my info, feel free to throw something my way.

You just might make my day.

Well, tried having a second gf because she lived me so much and my girl didn't mind it. (she's awesome like that) It was a dumb idea. I am faithful to my lady alone as she is faithful to me. Will no longer be with the other. I just don't love her in that way anymore. I tried. It didn't work. I'm happy where I'm at, with the greatest girl ever. :) Love you, <3

Just wanted to let those people know that I will no longer be watching people who post adult art unless I like them as an artist.

Just so you know. Have a good day. lol

Well, I knew no one read my journal. Today is my birthday. Damn it...

Not a happy birthday. Don't want it. Just want it over with. I hate today and I know nothing good will happen.

Just wanna stay home.

I used to love dragons. They were beautiful, kind.....FUCK!

What happened? All the dragons I meet now are pricks. Fucking arrogant lizards that just want to stick the spiney dicks into something smaller and more helpless than they are. Disrespectful and rude fucking twats. I can't stand them. My whole image of dragons has been destroyed. They can't be trusted. *growls* Stupid reptiles.

....

Many people refer to their sonas as themselves. They are who they are and who they wish to be. So, it would make sense that your sona will do things that only you would do. (does not apply to sonas unlike themselves) So, if someone does something with their sona, it is expected that it is something the person behind it does or wants to do, right? Wouldn't that make sense?

Nyle is my sona and he is me. I do not display my sex life. Thus you will never see NSFW with him in it unless it involves blood. Nyle will not sleep with anyone that he is not in a relationship with. I would consider that as me cheating. I don't cheat.

So, if someone else slept with someone they weren't in a relationship with (while in a relationship with someone), and they say that their sona is them, am I wrong to imagine the two to be the same? Seriously. Am I wrong? Is your sona you or not? Are you wild and sleep with anyone you're close with? Are you faithful to one? I'm asking everyone because if a sona being you does things you wouldn't do, is it really you? I may still have this furry sona thing wrong.

I'd like opinions. Am I wrong to imagine things like a sexually active sona being like the creator behind it? Does a sona like the creator have exceptions to actually being like them? Someone explain this to me. Would your sona, if they are you, do things you wouldn't do?

Anyone wanna talk?

And I'm gone.

I hope it doesn't happen.

I'd hate for it to end this way.

Well, my birthday is an 11 days. Turning 21.

*wraps my tail around my waist*

I guess I'll make it to adulthood after all.

I'm not getting on FA anymore.

I'm now getting angry. I don't want to see these things anymore.

It's wrong but who cares what I think?

I think I was wrong to start with.

I'm just stupid.

So, I'm going into isolation.

Just not happy.

Nope.

I'm just not.

I was very happy. I still try sometimes.

I'm just not.

More hurt than anything.

Someone said recently that I think too much and it's hurting me.

Well, I need some time to think.

It'll probably hurt but I just can't pretend to be happy anymore.

I'll still look so, comment if you need me.

Thank you.

I have two partners. While one is very happy, the other is miserable. I don't know how to make her happy. I've given her permission to do everything she used to do that bothered me and she's still upset.

I don't know.

Any ideas?

I hate being such a useless partner.

Worried and bothered.

I don't know what to do.

Two people who were once close are now tearing at each other in journals. I tried to help and it got me blocked. *sigh* I don't pick sides. I hate "sides". It causes more wounds then others would think it to heal. At least I could still keep one friend who knows my feelings.

People say how they feel. A friend will understand this. Just because you oppose these feelings of theirs, it does not make you a bad friend. Two view-points is good. It makes people think.

Anyways, I am just getting my feelings out. Thank you for those who listened. :)

So, went to the movies, went to the store, the feel in the parking lot.

GUESS WHAT! I now how a broken ankle.

It hurts a lot. I now have a temporary splint on my foot before they put a cast on it.

and want to die

My holiday wish list:

Xbox One (only because all my friends are on the Xbox network lol)
COD Ghosts
Wacom Cintiq
Maybe a new wireless computer mouse. Mine is getting worn out a little. lol
5000 Riot Points for League of Legends ($35) A store-bought card works too.

I can't really think of more. lol
Some swords would be cool. I collect. lol
So...there ya go, if you were wondering at all.

Oh! Maybe a full-suit of my mate's sona. That would be cool. I want something for her too.

I don't care anymore. I could just use someone to talk to. I miss my friends.

My cell phone number is 615-335-5265. Only U.S. numbers pls. Keep me company.

This'll be quick because I have work. So, I'm just going to make a list of why I hate my life.

-Parents go on vacation, I watch house while they are gone, 0 fucking gratitude when they return.
-Parents hit me with everything I did wrong and gave me 0 thanks for what I did right.
-I'm falling behind in school due to communication issues.
-Afraid i can't recover in one of my classes.
-My girl has been very sick recently. Puking every other day.
-Sat through half an hour yesterday of my mom and dad screaming at me about everything that is wrong with me.
-Angry
-Depressed
-Self-destructive
-Feeling life slip away from me
-Caught in turmoil and unable to keep up
-FAILURE
-FAILURE
-FAILURE
-FAILURE
-FAILURE
----finally thinking about ending it...I obviously won't succeed anyways...

So,  XxmingxXo is my fa mate. Kind of playing a role but we're really close. There is an issue though. Even though we aren't really mates, she always gets are of her master and lots of others. Adult art. I don't know why but it really pisses me off. It feels like she's cheating on Brandeis. I know she'll be getting more art soon. This is why I am growing to dislike fa. It's all porn. That's all.