Yea. Been a while since you've seen this name post anything xD

Righty, uhm.. Just curious really. Kinda tempted to bring this guy back into action. I dunno, been missing him somewhat, as have some of the people I've been talking to. Being a bird was fun xD

Eeehh..

Just seeking opinions and all right now. xD

You wonder why I'm packing my bags.

Just found out that one of my 'friends' decided to lie to someone to deliberately cause some shit. I won't list names, and I won't list the situation. All that needs to be said is that it caused me HELL for the duration. Seems half of my friends I can't even trust. Jesus Christ.

EUGH!

I've been dreading having to write this journal, but, now is as good a time as any.

I'm leaving all this behind. Everything. A new chapter of my life has begun, and this one must come to a close. My new email address has been handed out to those that deserve it, or those I feel have helped me move forward with myself. Or hell, those that TALK to me XD

So, yea.

And no, I'm not going to explain my reasons. I attempted to explain to one of my friends, who in turn took it as an insult and became quite aggressive towards me.

This will ultimately come into effect come the 20th of september. Why the planned date? Because thats when I want to. It leaves everything neatly sorted for University also. I'll frequent a visit onto my old account Obsidianashes[at]live.co.uk from time to time up till this date.

So..
In the words of one of the best films..
"So long and thanks for all the fish!"

Wow, where to start?

This month has been, to put it shortly, crazy. I think I've felt every single emotion known to humankind for the past four weeks. Everything from mental breakdowns to sheer amounts of laughter and bliss. And yes, I feel like I should share with you the past couple of major events in my life.

Okay, firstly! Drama.
Oh woe to the mighty drama-beast. Seriously. If drama was animalised, it'd be the rampant little dog that humps your fucking leg constantly and leaves stains on your favourite jeans. Small and annoying enough to ignore, but if left ignored for too long, leaves a fucking nasty mess. So yes, drama has been humping away from the beginning of this month. Everything from nasty acusations, to rumors, to downright lies. I've been dragged through tears and blood from some pieces, having to listen to everyone QQ about their life and what's going on and what's so wrong about it, when I don't have the balls to say that my own life has problems. EUGH! (And no, I don't want to talk about it.)

Secondly, as if the little bitch drama wasn't bad enough, along comes the cunt of a fucker, cancer.
Found out a couple weeks ago that my sister has cervix cancer. It's female, and class three. Not that I actually know what the hell that means. All I can tell is that it's pretty damn bad. She's been operated on, and I'm pretty much being kept in the dark. All I know is that she has about a 50% chance to get rid of the cancer from the op. If there's a God out there, I'm praying to it.

Thirdly, university.
Finally! GOOD NEWS! My university application has been completely confirmed now. I'm officially a student now. I'm just waiting on the last phase of my student loan to be completed, and then I'm home free! For those that care, I start univeristy on the 21st of September. From that day on, it's partying for a week and buying discount crap (Woo fresher's week! <3) before lessons actually start. And what's better, is that I found out today that Dragonforce will be doing a gig sometime that week. For £16. HOW FUCKING AWESOME IS THAT? :D

And finally, LAN and WoW.
From Thursday to Tuesday, I spent the days at my best friend's house, along with  Wyebird for a homemade LAN party. This is mainly because his parents were on holiday, and we couldn't get to the LANRaiders party that was being hosted about an hour and a half away. Three PCs, two Xboxs and two TVs in a front room, with snack food and cheap chocolate and coke everywhere. What. A. Week. Games comprised from Starcraft, CoD:WaW, Red Alert and a three day binge of WoW (In which I managed to get my character from 49 to 63 <3!)

Jesus Christ. What a month.

Oh yea! I'm also changing my MSN sometime soon. Making a new account and all that jazz. And please don't ask me to add you onto my list. If I want you there, I'll add you myself.

TL/DR
1. I hate drama. And also think it's a small dog.
2. My sister has cancer.
3. I'm an official university student. And seeing Dragonforce in September.
4. I <3 LAN parties and WoW.
5. New MSN!

Done, and...done.
-Az

..must take a break!

This bird is going to take a long needed hiatus, just to take some of the summer holiday and actually use it to relax, rather than keep an eye out over drama 'n' stoof. This means no more FA for a while. I'll still passively check up every-so-often, namely to read notes and comments (If any), but I won't be spamming the F5 button any longer XD

I will be taking down all the art I have in my gallery, and will upload them once more when I return. This is due to the feeling I want when I get back; a feeling of 'freshness'. There are comments that have been made on some pieces of my gallery that either bring back unwanted memories, or are placed to inflict some sort of drama.

While I won't be on FA for a while, I will still be in contact on my messengers to those that know them. Please please -please- don't spam me however, the last thing I want is 20+ furs jumping on me and asking me why I've done this. I won't be roleplaying, except for a select few who I feel are mature enough to not develop feelings for it. I'll be there to chat, and laugh and keep in contact, not so your e-peen can fuck me.

Any commissions I still need to pay for WILL be paid when requested. I'm not about to black list myself here :P

Well, that's pretty much it. If I think of anything else, keep a lookout for an edit of this journal!

Ta-ta all~
Enjoy the holiday!

-Az

Oh WOW people.

I'm really shocked that I've managed to get this many pageviews for doing so little. I mean, all I do is commission and get art offa people x3. Well, don't look a gift horse in the mouth eh?

THANK YOU!

As always, I'll see what I can do for the 4000TH pageview. Probs poke one of my friends and get them to draw somethink. x3

-Aziran

Fine, you bastards win D:  myon and  moonberri.

1) Post these rules
2) Post 8 true things about yourself
3) At the end you must tag 8 people and post their icons
4) Go to their page and send them a message saying you tagged them
5) NO TAG-BACKS

1) I'm a bit of a grammar nazi. -Especially- during roleplays.
2) I suffer from streaks of insomia from time to time.
3) In reality, I'm a very paranoid guy.
4) I've been roleplaying since I was 12 o_o
5) My first piece of furry porn was a picture of a dragon feral being worked by a human girl. Gawd that was hot.
6) I lost my virginity when I was 12, to my first girlfriend..who was a Christian.
7) I lost my man-virginity (:V) when I was 16, to one of my (still) really close friends. <3
8) I seem to get myself into the worst case scenario...-constantly- \o/

Tags 'n' shit:
 KageRyuuUji
 wyebird
 mara-san
 Dmball
 Scyilla
 LeoMidori
 Booyakasha011
 Jemini
 smirnoff
 Zammy

OH SHIT I DID TEN >v>
*Shrugs*

16 hours. 16 hours of blissful undisturbed sleep. <3

Went to bed at midnight, woke up at 4pm today. *Stretches* And I feeeeel sooooo gooood! ^v^

-Az

It's been 54 hours since I last slept. I plan to try and sleep on the 57th hour (Midnight). My body is so exhausted, it's so hard to move or even type. It's a struggle to stand up from my bed. Jeeeeze..

Last time I ever do this. Not like I had a choice. Stupid insomia. -v-

-Az

Oh Lordie! I'm having too much fun with these XD

http://sendables.jibjab.com/view/F5qH7T05Lv3MuvcT
http://sendables.jibjab.com/view/z0pE933hvY83nVzR
http://sendables.jibjab.com/view/7eXIOAiJ8PDiWxxj
http://sendables.jibjab.com/view/RmUGhy7OF7tYKhLA

These are the one's I've made so far x3. I've used the faces of my college-friends, including mah best buddy Mark. (Just me and him in the last one ;3)

Warning, excessive faggotry xD

-Az

This is what we're gunna do.

Aziran and anything to do with him -stays- online.

I am NOT Aziran. I am NOT a Phoenix. I'm a HUMAN with a Phoenix CHARACTER. If you want to try and fuck Aziran's brains out, then feel free to try. But DON'T even THINK that those emotions mean anything in reality.

I'm sorry for this outburst, but I'm FED UP of people causing SHIT. There used to be a time where my emotions matched my character's, but not anymore.

Oh, and as a side note, don't freaking try to be my friend if all you want is a piece of cock. It's the fastest way into having a pissed off me after ya. YES I talk about sex a lot, YES I make suggestive comments, but NO, it does NOT mean I'm some sexed up bastard who wants to fuck everyone. Sex is a FUN subject. It's fun to talk about.

People can still call me Azi, or Aziran or whatever, but what happens online STAYS online. I'm just fed up with people trying to abuse their friendship to get in my pants, or getting me into a really nice place, only to turn around and destroy it. I hate to say it, but there are some furries out there who -only- live for sex. (Notice the word 'some').

Jesus. Some people need to sort themselves the FUCK out.

I was gunna do this regardless when I went to University, but recent events have tipped the scales. Sorry guys.

/rant

-Az.

..this is gunna sound REALLY weird :V

BUT it's 06:18 and I haven't even slept yet, sooooo, who gives a hoot?! =D

ANYWAY.

Is it bad that I find Az, as a character, really freaking hot? I mean, seriously. I know he's like a virtual representation of myself, but daaaymn, I think I have a mancrush on myself o-o.

Wow, that sounds so arrogant XD.

But seriously, is it bad to find your fursona hot? I mean, heck, Az is hung, and has knots. That's a win win! And the female side, well, two words on that department: FEATHERY TITS. :V

Jesus, I need sleep. But maybe not.

-Az

P.S
My brain hurts TvT

Eh, might aswel do this eh? *Shrugs*

So yea, ask me aaaanything you like. Just, preferably not too personal stuff oki? XD

-Az

Gyah D=

I hate the summer because of this. No job, nothing to do, nothing to play.

Someone, please, entertain me. I dun care how, just please do D=.

*Dies of boredom*

-Az

..that Phoenixes aren't meant to be nocturnal?

THEN WHY AM I STILL AWAKE? >:C

04:31

:V

-Az

..been SO FUCKING PISSED off with someone that you just want to reach through the monitor and RIP THEIR GODDAMN EYES OUT? No? Well trust me...

..YOU DON'T WANT IT.

/vent

-Az

I've installed the two most infamous things on the planet.

WoW and SL. ._.; My life is gone.

If anyone is on the Moonglade server (EU) for WoW, feel free to let me know~
Same goes for SL, if anyone wants to chat to the birdie while he sets himself up, look up Aziran Sabra. ^v^

-Az

PS.
God help me ._.;

This is just pure awesome:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-wX8AbBWc08

Thought you guys would like it =D

-Az

It is truely amazing the power music has over our moods. Not only our moods, but our thoughts, our actions, our very souls. Everyone has that one song that can lift them up from the very bottom of the pit of despair right back up onto that cloud of bliss.

For me, this song is 'Wind's Nocturne' from Lunar: Silver Star Story for the PS1.

This song, no matter what mood I'm in, always brings tears to my eyes but also makes me feel as happy as I can.

Now, I ask you, what is -your- song?

-Az

P.S
A video of 'Wind's Nocturne': http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ROt6hC7WWio

HAI GUYZ.

Nearly 200 Watchers! <33333. Thank you ALL for those already watching me =3. Money providing, I'll sort something out for the 200th watch~

-Az

Oookay.

I never really enjoy doing this, but with Confuzzled tickets going onto sale soon and my only source of income being cut, I'm gunna need some money.

Now, I refuse to accept donations. Absolutely and outrightly refuse to. This isn't what this is for.

What I'm proposing is that I will do practically anything for any amount of money you can spare towards the ticket. I lack many particular skills, but I can try to do anything you want.

I can try my hand at drawing for you, or writing a story for you. I could spend the day roleplaying with you, or simply listen to you rant and rave about whatever problems you have. Anything you wish me to do (within reason), and I will try my hardest to do it.

Heck, if you live close enough, I can even do things around the house for you x_x.

Birdie really wants to go to CF.

NO NEED YOU GUYS! ONE OF THE MOST AWESOME PEOPLE IN THE WORLD JUST SAID HE'D BUY MY TICKET COMPLETELY! <333333!

-Azi

Thank you to everyone. You guys are amazing. <3

Lol! =D

So, I'll no doubt take this down after a while, but for now, I just wanna get this off my chest.

As many of you know, me and Halo have been split up for about a month now. Many of you have been dragged into this and have heard either one side or both sides of the story. As such, I'm fed up of this shit.

Even now, I can't do anything right. Through my comments on FA to Mara-san and by telling her that I was able to upgrade my Skype to have the ability to call the USA for £3 a month with unlimited usage (Namely so I can speak to all of my friends theres, but also certain people) I was 'rubbing it in her face'. As such, she took it upon herself to threaten me with a description of the things she's done with her new master.

I know this is going to sound really shit, but this has really hurt me. Granted, I'm not completely over her, but by trying to achieve this seemingly endless task, I end up provoking more onto my shoulders. I meant to be seeing her at the next meet to get a couple of my old items back, but after this, I can't even find the will to go to it, incase a confrontation or something happens. I know I hurt her, but a part of me still cares for her, and hearing/seeing her with her Master will have..well..results I have no idea what they will be. I know I'll be with my friends, but..eugh.

I'm sorry for this all, I just need to get this off my chest. Right now I just need a cuddle TvT

Curse my sodding heart for this >V< /emo

-Az

P.s Halo, I don't care if you read this. Bitch about me, complain about me, I just don't care anymore. After I get my stuff back, I doubt I'll ever be able to look at your face again. We're dead. Not that it matters to you.

..that people have multi-gender characters?

Regardless of if it's the same character with two genders, or a whole bunch of characters that have the whole spectrum; is it 'weird'? I mean, I'm asking this because I've had a few of you say that you'd like to see more of Female Azi (Must be the boobs xD) and have been contemplating having her as a more 'settled' character. Of course, I'm still the original male Aziran.

Just gathering opinions, as always. <3

Ooh, and as a sidenote, if I WERE to get more art of AzFem, what would YOU like to see? ^^

-Az