This is very much needed to be talked about. Nothing bad but, I need everyone that wants to, I need you to help my channel grow.

I have a goal of 250 subscribers before the four months are over on YouTube.
Let me talk to you about the reason I need this support before you feel I'm just greedy and just in it just to get popular.


That is far from the case. It's to help a cause.


If I can earn 250 subscribers in four months, I get picked to get free stuff and a discount code to advertise and earn 3,000 dollars which will go to a desktop and save to move out.

I really need your help! https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCu.....fc0uqMODDk9AXQ
Thank you for understanding even if you don't sub.

Try to pass this around, please!

One more journal of the day. I made another video that I'm honestly proud of and want to show everyone! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hOefmyliDSk

the psych wards put you in the same place as people that have the same issue and make you go to groups that don't involve your issues and make you do the same subjects over and over and if you go to groups you leave but if you stay to yourself they feel it isn't working and on top that, you have to make friends leave but, can't give them a way to contact you outside and when they do give their number they want something from you and if they can't get it the block you from everything. On top of that, they take you off meds that are already helping and put you on 5 or 10 that make you worse and keep you two more days after the med change and send you home saying you are fine because they are proud they drugged you with shit that'll send you right back and do the same stuff all over again. They refuse to contact your doctor and you can't keep your cell phone or anything like gaming stuff and give you T.V that has a fire stick. They won't turn on adult movies even if you want to watch them but, around here they keep bbc on which has even worse stuff than horror movies. Like a movie that was on last time I went was a girl that was making the husband cheat because she agreed to carry their child and lived with them and said she'd kill the baby and cut and shit. drink a lot as well. But, Halloween came on which is way tamer and we had to turn it off.
and on top of that, we couldn't put on music that was sad or cursed because we had to be happy all the time. They also put men who tried to hurt females in the same spot.
You can't have caffeine when there even if it helps relax you which it does for people. Decafe tea and coffee and that shit doesn't help anyone. The cooks kept giving me pork even if I said it made me sick and they put a thing on my records that says I can't have it so, I don't even bother with them anymore. I just deal with my issues by myself and try to get over them with my real doctor. That reminds me, they don't contact my doctors about meds they take me off of but tell them the ones they put me on.
They also preach about how bad weed is for you which is more natural than the shit they put you on while you are there. weed can be bad depending on how it affects you but, it's better than meds that fuck you up
they also want to give you a false diagnosis to over-medicate you as well
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I've been through it for so many years so I know, growing up and because of issues I had as an adult and it doesn't help at all.

Because you've not seen more doing coloring in a while I will be getting back to it!
I sadly got bored because I only had a few colors to pick from so, it was making it hard to color pictures with a select few to pick from.
Well, I got some more coming in and it's super exciting! I want to get back into it so, I shall!
Thanks so much for the support when I did coloring pages in the past.
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Also, I'll get back into posting YouTube videos next week. I wanted to take a small week's break and so I did.
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Also, I'm hopping on the 29th to go see Game Grumps live and not leave till I meet them. I'll take a few pictures with them if they let me and post them!
I'm trying to get into taking more pictures worth posting.

So, I know I've not posted in a long while. Real-life has been super busy so yeah.
That's beside the point.
Into the juice now.
I'm going to see game grumps live on the 29th for an early birthday gift. I'm turning 31 on the 30th. I'm meeting the best boys! I'm super excited and plan to take some hemp oil first.
Crowds make me uneasy and if I meet them, I want to be relaxed and not have a meltdown because it's people I don't really know how to act around due to people I admire.
So, that's why that day is going to be the best day ever.
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On a side note: I quit drinking any alcohol even when at nice events and I'm happy about it. I'm old enough to not keep killing myself and getting more issues than I already have
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Also, I may try to hand them my Discord! I will be brave, with a touch of hemp oil lol.

https://brybe.com/freelancer/nanoartworld friend opened art commissions and that's their page

I can't believe how fast time has flown over the years.

My foster parents took me in when I was nine and I've lived where I live now since age 22 and now,

On June 30th, I'm turning 31. It's been so many years of good and hardships.

I really want to keep bettering myself!

Yes, I'm alive! I've just been busy with real life and my channel. Please forgive me for being so inactive.
Anyways: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w8q0fcjMjlY I made a new video you guys may like.
Also, I hit 173 subscribers on Youtube, I swear I'm going paces. Please forgive me for being so inactive, love you all and have a great day! speaking of which, I've been happy for more than an hour, it's been lasting two weeks and I'm glad. I don't know why but, I feel good.

So, I have one taker on the last journal and I am happy.
Also, I'm taking a few days from Discord but I'm okay don't worry. I just need some space I guess. I'm still going to talk here and on other social media and other sites. Please talk to me even here while I'm away from Discord.
I also still plan to make videos because I'm getting better and better. If you'd like to support my youtube channel that's nice. too. I'm at 161 subs and my goal by my birthday is 200. That's June 30th. Help me reach my goal, please. By the end of next year, I'm going to try to reach 1K.
Anyways that's my update so have a great day.

So, because I’ve had a block on what to do for videos I will open a request and I’m very excited and I’ll show you what I’ve done for videos in the past after writing this.

I have 10 slots ready and I want to open requests to people who don’t have money. That and I don’t feel ready enough to have people pay and my videos aren’t so great. Yes, they are getting better but, they are not super good.

Which I’m working on getting better and will keep getting better.

So, these videos will be music or text to speech software on your characters or commission sheets.

I feel text to speech will be good for commission sheets. The reason I’m not using my voice is because I stubble and a lot which would make the commission sheet or videos bad. I also have a lot of background noise.

Though I only have 160 subscribers I’m hoping these are helpful to you.

I have to follow YouTube tos so I won’t be doing fetish videos or porn. Please keep it Pg 13 and have no nudity or fetish pictures.

I don’t want to get banned because I worked hard to get where I’m at now.

I also will not do politics even if I have done one video on Obama. However, I don’t want people to yell at me.

These will be free videos but take about a month to do because they take me an hour or more so, I have a job and I also do things in my free time. Thanks for understanding and please don’t rush me or keep asking if I’ve started.

I have a life outside YouTube and I have a real life job. So, I’m pretty busy and I can’t always work on videos. I am sorry.

So, again I won’t do porn or fetish stuff and that means innocent fetishes as well. I however will do kissing and cuddles as long as it’s not sexual or nude.

The goal with this is to help me when I can’t think of stuff to make and this will be my new outlet when I can’t think of videos to make.

Please don’t get mad if I don’t finish your’s first. I’m going by easy to hard. Or who ever ask first.

I also can’t do full songs due to copyright so, even if I did for my Skylar video I can’t do the full song because I don’t want to get in trouble and issues.

No, you don’t have to be subscribed though, it’d be nice if you are. I know my video are not perfect but the support is nice.

It would also be helpful if you pass the video I’ve made for you to your friends and whoever you feel will like it.

Reminder, I’m still a novice at working with video edits so please try to understand. They are not easy and are pretty hard for someone just starting.

Also, please like and leave a comment under the video if you don’t mind. This helps me want to keep working on videos and be more positive with myself.

Like I said, going through and making all 10 videos could take a month to finish because of work and whatnot and how long it takes to just make one or two.

Sometimes it takes longer to make videos than others.

If I do commission sheets I use text to speech and it sounds pretty nice. Just tell me what you’d like for it to save because this is your commissions' sheet and if you want me to put examples I can do that too.

I am not good at talking because I stubble on my work so it wouldn’t be good or professional and would sound bad, ontop of that I have background noise almost all the time. I live with five people and I make six.

If you want to add pictures you’ve done to the commission please make what you want me to say with the text to speech long enough to cover the whole video.

This could also be starting off with the prices and talking about the pictures you’ve done which is what I would like to suggest. But, it’s your video after all.

So, 10 slots are being put now. I hope you understand and agree with everything I put. If not, I can’t do the video for you.

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Again, thanks for reading even if you don’t approve.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TQ6TveAib4M commission sheet I've made a video on.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r8khu7Cs12M slide show I did of my character
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QRrWbWhplas about character I've done
dm me or email me at cherrythepitbull[at]gmail.com

So for SecondLife users, try to uninstall firestorm and reinstall it once every few months. It works better. I tested the waters and I am running on high and able to have my browser up which doesn't happen often.

So, my room is almost done and I can stream tonight and get on webcam because you can't see the rest of my room. That is a good thing.

My computer chair comes in on Monday so I'm super excited and the desk came yesterday. However, I plan to wait for people to put it together that know what they are doing which may take my desk a while to be put together. I just don't want to fuck it up because it was a butt load of money.

So, I have to wait for my computer desk for a while which could take weeks. I love the wait though because the longer the wait the more meaningful it'll be when it's done.

However, I will be able to get my computer chair in my room right away unless it needs work on it as well. So, I'm super happy.

As the last post said, I need to finish my room and get it together which will be finished this weekend and be a nice place for both the desk and chair.

So, I'm just in a good mood recently which started yesterday when my co-worker bought me a pop on the walk out the door. I finally also got my desk which I'm excited to get assembled even if there is a wait for it.

It's super cute and has cat paws and it's pink.

Anyways, that's my update of the day.

So, my new computer desk came in so I've been doing a hell of a cleaning job in my room which is stressful to put things away because of all the stuff I have and stuff I forgot I had.

Wish me luck on cleaning shit because I hate it so I'm taking a break till after dinner because I'm starving, whenever that will be. I will be cleaning the next two days so you may not hear much from me till I get shit done.

I'm also streaming my normal time so I need to get shit done so I can stream without a mess in my room so you guys don't see the mess I've made trying to clean.
I took things out of my dresser and just threw it around to go through stuff and it's giving me a hell of anxiety to go through and I have a lot of stuff I forgot I had.

So, before tomorrow hits 8:30 I need shit done so I can stream without a mess in my room because I threw shit on the floor and on my bed so I can go through it. I'm throwing a lot of shit away because I no longer need or care about it.

Though I'm going to be happy when I get it done and cleaned up. I feel somewhat positive about finally getting shit done so it's not 100% bad. I guess it's going to feel good when it's done. So, I shall keep working on it.

The plan is to get rid of stuff I no longer give two shits about and mop the floor after without a mop. I plan to use a towel because the mop smells really bad and leaves shit on my floor. It's a very old mop and we need to buy new mops for sure.

I could suggest that. We have wooden floors so mops are bad for the floor anyways. We got the wooden floors a year ago and they are already messed up from chairs and mopping too much.
I will not be posting videos for the next two days so, sorry, I just need to get shit done and not worry about other stuff so I don't add more stress to myself.
I also won't be posting anymore till I get stuff done and am happy with what I've completed and am proud of myself.

So, I'm sorry if I don't respond to messages right away. I will check in here and there though, my responses will be slow and not right away.

Thank you for understanding what I'm doing and hope everyone is proud of me for doing deep cleaning in my room because I normally only pick shit up off the floor. I never deep clean ever. So be proud of me and whatnot. Love you guys see you on the flip side.

Yes, I'm talking about this video again because I worked super hard on it. Give it a like and maybe sub to me? It's a pinkiedash fluff video and I took an hour to work on it. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K0VmbhWc8r4 please give it a thumbs up and a view. I'm so proud of it and would love the support. Thanks and hope your day is going amazing.
Pony fans out there may love this video.

Happy Mother's day and always know, that they don't have to be your mother to be a mother or even born female. You can be someone you just see as a mother in your life.
For those who have a mother no longer with them, you can always think of them on Mother's Day and celebrate them.
For those who don't celebrate, we respect you too.
Happy mother's day to everyone and their mother figure and have a great Mother's day.

This is a short journal but I finally made a video I'm proud of https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K0VmbhWc8r4
It's pinkeidash and it's my little pony edit

I sadly haven't been sticking to the list of things I said I would and I need to restart the whole list.
Truth so, I've been so tired but. Back on track and start over.

In other news, I hashtagged a lot of my videos to see if more people view them. Also, I still make videos: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCu.....fc0uqMODDk9AXQ

Those are just some updates that I wanted to share.

Hello everyone, I made a big choice and a hard one just now. I know, everyone thinks this decision will be simple and easy. For me, however, this will be tough and hard.
Well, I've made a few but yeah.

1 ) I am not asking or getting seconds whenever I eat a meal. Not at all. No matter how little or big of a plate I have. No more seconds.

2 ) Exercises every day after I eat dinner.

3 ) Fix my sleeping schedule and keep it. I now go to bed at 10 pm and wake up at six am every day. This will give me the exact amount of sleep I need to be healthy and wake up every day.

4 ) Stick to uploading videos every day and keeping to it. This is even if I can't think of anything.


Those are the things I've decided to do. I may slip up sometimes but I can do it! I have faith in myself.

Wish me luck <3

So, I didn't link it in my last journal because I'm sure people get sick of hearing about it but, I did slightly mention it in my last journal yes, talking about this again.

I'm a novice YouTuber and would love if you'd support me: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCu.....fc0uqMODDk9AXQ

Hello everyone! Hope everyone is well and dandy.

I'm sorry I don't post much for I've been busy with real life and YouTube. I really would like you to know, I'm not lazy, just a super busy person.
I also don't have much to post so, again, sorry.


Recently I did write a fluff fic though: https://archiveofourown.org/works/38399332 please go take a read,

Again: sorry for being so busy lol

For those who celebrate Easter. Have a great one even if it's almost over.
I however do not celebrate myself but, have a safe happy day and a relaxing time.
Hope everyone is doing amazing and having a blast for their Holiday!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3FphiZFtmy4

Right, so let me tell you her name. Cherry!
Yup, for those who are just now watching, I'm a novice YouTuber and would love your support.
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCu.....fc0uqMODDk9AXQ

I rewrote my profile just now, go take a look

I woke up a fluff fic today: https://archiveofourown.org/works/38399332 Please go take a read.
Other place you can find it: https://www.deviantart.com/officalc.....gXBB-913145983

I've been super inactive the last few days. I really haven't had anything worth posting. I only post when I feel it's worth posting on here.

I hope to get back into posting soon but, can't promise it'll be every day. However, I post quite a bit on YouTube!


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In other news, I took a 7 block walk yesterday and did 20 push-ups and 20 sit-ups. I want to lose weight so bad but, want to do it in a healthy way. So, the weather is getting nice so, time to walk more and get my legs back.


I use to have amazing muscle in my leg but, winter killed it. I went to the doctor and I went from 215 to 185 which I'm proud of. I never thought I'd get back into the one hundred again.
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I also brought up that I've been busy with Youtube. I went one day without posting and lost a large number of subs. Please if you'd like: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCu.....fc0uqMODDk9AXQ I was at 145 and in one day went to 143. Please support the channel? Thank you so much!