I haven't been writing much, more likely at all, for the past couple of months due to lack of motivation as well as the bullshit that is called "Life". I haven't forgotten about My Friend Is A Unicorn at all. It's still not being made public until I make some changes that I feel satisfied that it needs. When will it be republished is unknown at this time.

Sorry for the inconvenience, but this year is not going well for me, as I'm sure you all know why from my last several journal entries.

I wish I had the time and the spark again...

...That I live in an apartment complex a few blocks away from a Walmart store?


...Should I be worried about a mass shooting happening there as well...?

... In my home state.

5 dead, 21 injured.

Now, as of 2019, Texas have more mass shootings than any other state.

These fucking people... these damn, fucking guns...

When will this ever end?!?!?!

So recently I posted a few suggestive pictures on a page I own. Of course they were nude as they were showing nipples and such, but any pictures that have intercourse, masturbation, gaping pussies had to be censored severely.

YET, SOMEHOW Facebook sees it as a violation despite that they are NOT real people and all are artistic, thus restricting my privileges to comment or post for a week! I made absolute certain that nothing would cause any red flags.

Facebook is so FUCKING CONFUSING regarding their standards and it fucking pissed me off!

I'm so up to this point to say fuck all and leave Facebook and find another social media that aren't so strict as they are.

I can't even find a way to dispute the damn violations or try to ask what is acceptable and what is not because they don't have any way of contacting them!

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!

In the next event that Furaffinity goes down, I am also on Sofurry as well. Though I don't frequent the site often, it is where I post my stories as well. Keep in mind, though, that the SF version of my stories aren't as good as the ones you read here.

As for my progress on my main story, well there haven't been any lately. I haven't lost interest. Far from it, actually, but after that 20k-word erotica I just finished, I'm just a bit tuckered right now.

Once I feel a bit more refreshed and I have some free time fron my family bullshittery, I will get back to it. Also, in case you haven't noticed, chapters 1 through 3 have been removed from my gallery. I truly thought I was done with them, but nope, turns out they still missed a few things. Which I have fixed, by the way.

Anyway, once chapter 4 is finished, I will post them all back up soon. Though once I do, I can't guarantee that I won't take any down again in the event I forget something... again.

Thanks for listening.

I wish I could get some comments or feedback on my stories. I like getting the Favorites noticed, but it would be also better if the readers would tell me what they like about my stories, or at least tell me they enjoyed it.

I finally got the erotica done, and BOY did it take so long. It seems that I made quite a doozy of a chapter despite that it was just going to be a solo story. I had hoped that this would at least take me a week to finish, but as you know, life fucking sucks balls and likes to get in my fucking way. Even though I finally finished it, during what time I had left from the past several days I was able to make some corrections here and there. However, since I am OFFICIALLY done with it, I will not be doing any more corrections except for proofreading any grammar errors and stuff.

So with that said, I will post it later before I can finally focus on my main story.

PREPARE YOURSELVES, BECAUSE LIKE I SAID, THIS IS A DOOZY OF A CHAPTER AND THE HARDEST EROTICA I HAVE EVER WRITTEN.

Mom took Buffy back to the vet today around 10 am...

I never went with her, and I'm conflicted whether I should be glad I didn't or I should have gone with...

Over the course of the few weeks she looks like she was getting better. She was eating mostly wet food and still drinks a lot of water...

Then yesterday... she couldn't eat anything, nor even stand on all fours. She even struggled to move one spot...

Now Mom came back home around 11:30 am...

with carrier... devoid of Buffy. She's...

......................(Sniffles).....................

Buffy is by far the best kitty we ever kept in our lives. She is very chatty and playful, but whenever we feel down, she would come over and comfort us, and sleep with us through the night. Then she give us nuzzles on the faces to wake us up, whenever it's time for breakfast or she just wants some attention. For her not to return home, it's...

Now our other cats, Simon and Shadow, will be down one cat in their lives.

For her to just go like that... it felt like a part of my life has left me...

She fought hard through her diabetes, and while there have been times she regressed, she always stayed strong for us and for her other cat friends.
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I... I wish we could have done more to keep her around...

I love you, Buffy, with all of my heart. And I know now that where you are now you are no longer in pain anymore, and you can be happy forevermore. I wish I was there for you, and right now I feel like a shitty person.

May you rest in peace... my sweet, little cat.

I'll post a picture of her once I get it from my mom via email later on.

(2005 - 2019)

I just found out today that my account on Omelet Arcade has been banned for 6 days. It's a livestreaming app and I have no idea why that happened. All I've been doing for the last couple of days was stream Horse Haven and there wasn't any issues so far.

Perhaps I should email them and find out what the reason is for this action.

What the subject above says.

The past several days have been nothing but stressful for me. Since then, I barely had any time whatsoever to get to my writing on anything. Not to mention feeling ill out of nowhere. It started out with a small cold, then I started getting headaches and now I'm sleeping for nearly 12 hours.

I really hope this will pass so I can focus more on writing. I'll try to get some words in before 10 tonight, but it may not be as much as usual.

I'm truly sorry if I'm disappointing anyone eager to read my stories, but please just bear with me for a little longer.

The posted chapters of My Friend Is A Unicorn have been removed again. Reason is that Google Docs have gotten a new update and their Spellcheck feature have gotten better. I looked back on my chapters and saw a lot of errors than I care to admit.

Plus, because the blame is solely on the constant distractions of my family, there are a few things that I have forgotten to put into the chapters.

That means I have to remove the old submissions and reupload the updated chapters again. Of course, this would have been avoided completely if the developers of Furaffinity have started fixing the issues with "Overwriting Old Submission Files. (Stares unamused at the admins and moderators)

I apologize for the inconvenience. I sincerely hope that this WILL be the last time I make any reuploads, but when Imdo finish a chapter, you will have to give me up to a week to revise and look over them and make sure I didn't miss anything. If it's all good, then the chapter will be reposted earlier than. Same thing goes with the solo-chapter erotica I'm working on.

I'll start on the revising tomorrow since it's late here. I hope I won't be too sleepy to forget when I wake up, since that's a big issue I have right now. I tend to forget what I'm thinking once I slip off into dreamland. Fingers crossed.

I'm going to make some changes on the submissions in the Horse Haven: World Adventures submissions made here. It's not much, just taking out the names and replacing them with each horse's breed name as well as change their gender to Any, the latter because all the horses of their specific breed looks the same regardless of gender.

That's all.

From 6 to 10 PM last night I was able to get myself closer to finishing the erotica. Then today, I woke up not only with a painful headache, but also my hands - more specifically the fingers and knuckles - are twitching with excruciating pain. It hurts like someone is taking a giant needle through my head and hands. Even now, I could barely type this journal entry without wincing and clenching my teeth to keep myself from groaning.

This isn't the first time it happened to me, as two months ago I was doing some intense drawing just out of boredom (all stick figures and not really awe-inspiring, so I won't post them here.), and because I was griping the pencil for too long that my hand cramped up badly.

I think I may have to take a break from my tablet. That means no writing or playing Horse Haven. Hopefully closing my eyes and resting for a bit will help alleviate the pain enough so I can get some writing done, even if a little bit.

Progress is at 90%, in case you're wondering how far I'm at.

Everything in real life has been spiralling downhill for the last few weeks since my last journal. I got a really sweet cat that haven't been eating for the last several weeks, and we found out why when we took her to the vet:

Type-2 Diabetes.

We have been giving her medicine and mainly wet food almost on a daily basis, and she's been peeing a lot and went to the litter box almost every half-hour. If that isn't stressful enough, my mom, who loves to do nothing but drive me to the brink of insanity, has been making me clean it out about 5 times a day now. It used to be just twice a day, but no more since the cat was diagnosed.

The only good news I can share, though, is that the erotica is nearly done by 80% estimate. I honestly don't know when I will actually finish it because of all these constant distractions and mom taking a liking to keep interrupting me every 3 minutes whenever I start typing. God, she is one sadistic bitch! I don't like disrespecting my family members, but sheesh, give me a break, will ya???

That's all I can share for the night. Thanks for not giving up on me, my friends. Pray for me that the craziness will end someday, and the cat getting better, so I can have longer free time needed to continue writing.

It finally came in today. Now if I can get over this slight burnout I'm going through and fully charge the keyboard, I can finally get to finishing the erotica. It's only slight since yesterday evening's riding lesson left me a bit exhausted and sore, so I won't be too long from writing. I do apologize for the delays though.

Oh yeah! I forgot to mention that burnout is now an official medical condition, and I'm glad I'm not the only person suffering from it. It's still a terrible feeling. I always thought that I couldn't write because of the lack of motivation, but it turns out that wasn't the case.

That's the date when my new keyboard comes in. Now I have to make sure I am well-behaved until then, as my mom so bluntly put it.

(Snorts indignantly) Treating me like I'm a foal. Hmph!

I have been trying to get some writing done, but doing it with the on-screen keyboard is nothing short of a pain in the ass. I have to worry about mistakes when I type as well as the autocorrect trying to add words that I don't need. It's harder to watch the document I'm typing in and using the on-screen keyboard at the same time.

I'm sorry I couldn't keep my promise to get the erotica out yesterday. I only managed to get the first part of the sexual activity in, but not done.

By the way, this one-shot is over 13,000 words and rising, and will probably be far more once it's completely finished. Now it's just a matter of when and if my mom will give it to me when it's delivered.

(Sighs out of boredom)

My mother finally ordered the keyboard so I can continue typing my stories, but she's not going to give it to me straightaway when it comes in. Instead, she wants me to earn it by being well-behaved.

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I'm fucking 27 years old, not 8. I wouldn't be writing porn otherwise!

Seriously, I'm almost done with the short story I was suppose to get done by today, and I have to earn my new keyboard??? What fucking nonsense.

I know I have a temper, but it's not my fault my old keyboard decided to go crappy on me.

Fuck...

At this rate, I may not have the motivation to keep writing again, and I wanted to get my main story done at some point. Not only that, my roommate is getting Borderlands 3 and he wants me to play it with him. I'm having problems with my Playstation 4 lately and I'm getting kind of bored with it. I don't need any more distractions as it is right now!

(Sighs out of boredom and depression)

Just when I was about to get to the good stuff, my keyboard suddenly stopped working. Lately it's been giving me nothing but trouble and it was super frustrating because it kept doing the long key press and adding the extra letters I didn't need, and now the whole left part of it is no longer working. No letters, no shifting, nothing. I was so mad with the piece of shit I bought for $20 that I literally snapped it in half and sent it flying across the room. No really, I did.

Now I'm without a Bluetooth Keyboard. The one thing that I mainly use to type out my stories gone. I ask my mom if she could get me a new one because I cannot afford it since I have no way of making money, and the fucking bitch told me, in her words, to "Go rob a bank". My family are nothing but scum of the earth. Makes me wonder why I still love them. >:(

I fucking swear, it's like the universe doesn't want me to write anything, especially when it comes to smut. Can I not have just a tiny little bit of peace without anything trying to screw me over?!?!

I can still use the tablet's on-screen keyboard to continue typing, but it's going to take me a LOT LONGER than usual to get anything done, whereas an external keyboard can help me get done faster. I don't even own a computer either.

I seriously am the most unlucky guy on this Godforsaken planet in the universe.

Is anyone else having issues with Google Docs? It happens to me on several occasions. Whenever I close a Document after working on it offline, it leaves that rotating arrow symbol and stays like that until I come back online. But if I open it while that symbol is there, the Doc opens up, then freezes a few seconds before crashing. This only happens when I'm offline and I back out from the Document, but it goes away once I'm online again.

Is anyone experiencing similar problems like this as well, or is it just me?

This can lead to issues later on in case I have no internet, and I won't be able to work on anything while offline. I have reported the problem, but so far there haven't been any changes or fixes made.

I just realized, and unfortunately forgotten, that my Docs take up space in my device storage. Knowing this, I'm probably going to delete the old submissions of my main story; because there haven't been any more changes to be made on my old chapters, I might as well reupload the old chapters as actual Story Submissions since I need the room for any new chapters I have to write. You will have to download them like any story submissions since Link Sharing won't be possible anymore.

At least they can be saved here. If I run out of room, I can delete my old files from Docs. And if I lose track of anything I can always redownload the old chapters from here to reread them and make sure I keep up.

The only problem is that once I make the submission, I cannot change the file. To prevent this I decided to hold off publishing any new chapters until they are at least 99% proofread and have no mistakes. In the meantime, I can still work on the next chapter until then since these changes and edits tend to come around after I finish and while I work on the new one.

I wish I had an editor who might be willing to look over my chapters so I can make fixes and submit them quickly.

I would have posted this entry last night before I got to bed, but then the power decided to go out in our area. Power came back, but we have no internet or TV. We still don't right now, so I'm at a restaurant with free WiFi so I can share the news.

Anyway, I'm almost finished with the erotica and I'm right at the start of where the sex will begin. I stopped here and wanted to get some sleep as well as plan out what I want to put in.

It's been over a year or two since I last made any smut so I may make some mistakes here and there. I'll try my best, however, to make sure that my readers will get the best entertainment as well as leave them a little heated afterwards so they can jolly off or have some of their own "fun" with their mates.

Ahem. Well, I'm going silent here until it's done. Once it's finished, I can finally focus on my main story, MFIAF. I apologize in advance for the lack of updates for that one. Here's hoping I get it done before the end of the weekend, provided I don't have any more crazy family-related distractions.

Thanks for keeping your faith in me and for sticking around.

I added something new to the first chapter, because why not. It's not something you would get in a real book, and on the internet anything is possible. It's not much, but if you read somewhere near before the MC's introduction, you will find a sentence underlined and in blue. Click on it and enjoy the story.

Back to work for me.

I apologize if I haven't made any updates on anything. The whole week since I started working on my stories have been nothing but crazy, and it's not because of the weather. Boy, was the weather in Texas a doozy. I'm glad the area I live in doesn't flood too badly.

That aside, I am okay and at the same time I'm not. I'm not sick per se, but I have been having trouble with sleeping even before I started writing. There are days I can't sleep and there are others when I do I end up sleeping through the whole day. Because of this, I lose precious time to write anything more than a paragraph or a few lines. And when I wake up I feel completely lethargic and just not want to do anything at all.

Is anyone else feeling this way as well, or is it just me? It's like there's a tiredness that just won't go away, and all I feel like doing is just sleep forever.

I hope I'm not having any health issues.

I know this may have come rather quickly, but after some time I decided to delay the new character for another erotica shot.

It may be a surprisingly quick decision, but the idea of featuring her came out of nowhere and just as quick. I had already thought about the horse breeds being introduced long before since I started, so it's an understandable choice.