And just like that timehop reminds me of what happened today... and how much I wish the knife slit my throat this day... fuck it all..

Redownloaded Tera Last night o.o wanna know which server has the most people i know on here so i can transfer :D

Heres to hoping i get a xmas bonus from my job x.x ;w;

Pain alters the will to go on,
I find myself in constant struggle, rending blows
the light just fades, cant move on, im caught in the undertow

I hear a voice, it pushes me forward
"Dont you die" it echoes inside me, the urge to keep fighting
I grasp these words and hold ever so tightly
Ive fought this fight, and im never alone...

When darkness came, I teared up so hollow
I feel her voice, it comforts my sorrow
lending strength to live for tomorrow
I guess it done....im free from this undertow..

Hoping to finish off this paypal debt (debt free will be soooo goood)
Afterwards I plan to save up moneys to get a gift for my mistress ;-; this month marks 1 year since I met my mistress and I cant be anymore thankful..shes been there for me the longest and I just neeed to get her something ;-;
Gonna stsrt a workout program. Reach 180lbs by may so I can cosplay for Orlandos Megacon.
Shouldnt be hard.
other than that happy holidays everyone :D hope yall enjoy this month (fuck the carols)

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My Mistress is streaming 5dollar colored sketches and 2 dollar plain sketches :D 10/10 should check her out ^_^

I cant spend money atm cuz fml x.x but just as a personal reminder, I need to get oshi commissioned with a Boobyhat .-.

Thinking of Streaming league of legends again tonight owo I'll post link once I get on .-.

My phone is working fine for the most part. My main ordeal is my pc... need to come up with...500 dollars x.x luckily my brother is donating a graphics card and gpu (yay) ;-; just need the monitor, keyboard and rest of the computer parts. Hopefully this black friday is kind to me x.x

Any Blade and Soul Furs :D :3 if you are what server will you be playing on release ^_^ Me and My brother will be on Iksanus for the time being owo just for beta testing.


Also i wont be selling Oshi ._. i talked to "popufurs" for some advice on selling Sonas and apparently main ones dont sell because of the high price... plus 2 people i consider close to me advised as well not to sell him ono sooooo theres that ;w; if i knew how to draw or even had atable i would x.x could always get a second job for moneys ;w;

Im the kind of person that will do anything i could to help someone...but if its receiving help i get bummed out and just guilt ridden ._. and it fuckin sucks x.x :C

After a long time and considering options...I've decided to sell My Main Sona Oshi. ATM My friends are helping me set up a price for him considering all the art i have commissioned of him. I will post details later today.

Seamen, Aimi, CrystalForEver, DauxyCheeks and MyLoveless ;-; why must I be poor ;-;

Rest In Peace to those who died last night... My friend lost his sister in the attacks on paris...many others lost their lives to these gruesome attacks. keep the people of paris in your thoughts. To all the Paris Furs, hope you are all safe. :c i send my condolences to you as well

Might be leaving the fandom. Been putting alot of thought into it. Not sure ifnim selling my sona or not cuz of the money I invested into the art. Or just give him away to someone I know who will appreciate it. I really don't know

At times i really did wish i went through with my suicide attempts...

2 artist are at it again.. love the drama on this site (Sarcasm)
Best way to settle this imo

get their Sonas in a sexy fight scene >.> winner wins the war and gets to sexually humiliate the loser... BOOM

Paypal, why are you a piece of shit.. I use it once to buy a big art piece and I been paying it monthly yet it feels like its not going down.. hell I pay the minimum on my chase credit card and it goes down but not paypal? Am I missing a hidden feee or someshit. Cuz if I paid a 300 commission and been sending 25 dollar payments since may, id assume that it'd be halfway done for bein paid off... but kope :I... any suggestions? X.x cuz im pissed as fuck atm

Karma is Good/ LMFAO that is all :3

Soooo.. apparently this woman that im interested in asked me to do something that I find completely impossible to do. And im a standstill cuz the subject was brought up again last night..

How can someone forgive a person who intentionally hurt someone to the point that the thoughts and pain still feel fresh as if it was the day that it happened. Its come to a point that I cant afford therapists anymore and im just stuck dealing with this shit. Venting helps slightly but the pain still burns inside when ever its brought up.

Im at a loss at this point...

Eyyy facebook is down..
Side note water found on mars. As a whovian I am scared

Been playing somuch warframe and guildwars2 i forgot bout Tera...... Is is still Gunner best class na? ono

Soooo I got my twiitch account up n running :) Oshimura1992 ^_^
I stream warframe, league of legends, dragonballz xenoverse, guildwars 2 with friends, and other gsmes owo. Will be streaming in Bout 4 hours :D

^_^

- 2 piece commission Paid 2months ago...Awaiting Replies on 2 messages
25 Dollar Refund. Deactivated her account for whatever reason
- char commission (was told needed finishing touches so hyped!!!!)
- morning ych

My mistress owes me alot but her comp isfucked anally :C

and i think thats it..... Oh and
2 char ych