I knew it was October, I was actually incredibly excited for October and even relished in the first few days of it. The world began to cool from the suffocating heat of a Georgian summer and finally had settled into a strange grey wet chill. Halloween greets me in every store but the streets and houses are barren of the vestiges of the holiday. I feel so alien sometimes but I've been trying to find means to help me feel like I actually belong or if I would even want it if I got it. Beam me up to the Mothership and send my mind into hyper drive, maybe that would pump some life back into me. I don't have the urge to draw these days, my creativity feels hollow sometimes and it makes me feel like I'm trying to use myself as a marionette but I'm terrible at working the puppet. I've been finding myself fighting through depression through an unlikely source, yugioh of all things. I have someone incredibly dear to me to thank for sparking my interest back in it once again and I love them infinitely for it. I may be weird and depressed but I am thankful for the little things in life you sometimes take for granted; like a silly children's card came from your awkward years.

In closing I'm trying to take everything one day at a time and not overwhelm myself with the thought of what might be. I've cut some pretty fucked up individuals out of my life and I feel lighter for it. I'm now trying to go to school for networking+ so wish me luck, this is the first time in nearly a decade I've attempted to get a form of education and training like this.

- the other prettier Brambles

(P.S. the Dark Crystal: Age of Resistance is my current fave. Bring on the Skeksis!!!)

I'm tired of being held down by my self loathing and crippling depression and watching my life go by and I've cleared out a lot of the bad influences and toxic people in my life. Money is tight (As always if I am being perfectly transparent) but I'm not going to let that stop me from being the most amazing monstrosity I know I can be and Holy fuck the World deserves the Glory of me at my Most Radiant. A Good friend gave me an Art Tablet recently and I cannot be grateful enough, I'm learning how to draw with it and I think I'm starting to get the hang of it. Hopefully if I get good enough I can start posting my art again on this account since I've not uploaded anything since before the Dawn of time. If people like my art that is amazing but I'm doing this for me because it's something that I enjoy doing and I refuse to not do the things I love because some nasty evil little goblin inside my head tells me I'm not good enough or other people are better than you. I know I'm not the greatest but I'm not here to be the greatest of anyone else's standards but my own, as long as I can have fun and make others happy on the way I think I'll be satisfied with myself.