I already made 1 journal about this, but I feel the need to make another, I had a friend that was able to hold him for another couple days for me, but I still need to get him another place and afford boarding. If anyone can help Ace so he doesn't have to be in a shelter than please! I found a better boarding place for him that won't have him in a cage all day and that I don't need to pay a crapton of extra money just so he gets more attention and one on one time with a person. He'll get to run around with all these other dogs until it's bedtime every night, and it's about 3 minutes away from the apartment I'll be getting too. I know he'll be well cared for there and it won't be too hard on him. One of my friends recomended the place as well because their uncle and mom had boarded their dog there for a trip. They said they'll work with me the best that they can since I explained what happened, but I'll still need to pay.
Please, if anything share this around.

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Okay....so first off I know it's been a while. Long story short my abusive living situation has turned into a me being homeless situation. But i have a place guaranteed November 17th. And my dog has no place to go. I had friends watching him but they could only do so for about a month. So, as much as I hate too, I'm asking for help to get animal boarding for Ace, or if anyone on here lives in columbus ohio that could just watch him. That would help out so much too. This is my last ditch effort and the only option I have left. It's honestly down to getting the money to help with boarding costs. Or he's gunna be stuck in a shelter with who knows what going to happen to him. And I don't know what else to do. Please, if anyone can do anything just please please help. Even sharing this and getting it around will do something.

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This is the go-fund-me a couple of my friends have said to make. And that they would try and help donate as well. And share it around as much as possible. I'm hoping so much that it will work.

The emptiness inside just keeps getting bigger and bigger and it won't stop growing.
I don't know what do to anymore.
Thing's aren't getting better.
And the fight is getting harder and harder to the point I don't know how much longer I can keep fighting.


Sorry.
Vent over.

That mess ends my spam of uploads!

so for some reason my laptop is giving me issues trying to upload my poetry. hopefully this gets sorted out so i can get it up! i finally found all of it and found some more of my more recent work as well. so whatever is going on with my laptop needs to fix so i can upload it all. or i have no idea what i'm going to do xD

I managed to find my old poems! I read through quite a few of them as well. I would like to say most of this were done in my middle school years. With that being said they are not very good and I have most definatly improved (at least I like to think I have matured from my middle school brain).

I would also like to point out that these were all made before I became a Dedicated Spiritual Satanist. So any sayings of angels and heaven are not related to christian meanings. Those words even in the past were nothing but a concept to me. and image or embodiment. they had a meaning to them. But for me, it wasn't a "christian" meaning of them. to me Angel meant something to protect or guide. watching over me. Not some all good glowing perfect being telling me to only do right and perfect and yada yada. To me back then Heaven meant some place that was good, happy, peaceful. Just the meaning of it. not that some place you went to after some big judgement after you die. Some Poems did play off of that. because that's what most people liked and would understand. But even back then. I never considered myself christian. i never believed in that. even if i did believe in something. it was surely not some all good god that was forever judging my actions and i would be sent to "hell" if i did so much wrong. or that would punish me if i didn't believe in him. all of that and more. i just thought to get that out of the way. i have never considered myself christian or believing in them. even if i saw some of their concepts. back then to me heaven just meant some wonderful place where things would be happy. and angel would do nothing but protect me no matter my personal choices ect.

onto another note. i miss poetry and writing dearly and hope so much to get back into it again. so again if anyone want's to give me some topics to write off of or idea's to help me get back into it i would love to hear! i stopped writing in middle school just about do to a bad mental state I was in at the time. Even if i seamed happy i wasn't all quite there most of the time. and a passion i dearly loved managed to slip away from me and i havent been able to grasp it back.

I do hope to do some colab work with a friend of mine at somepoint as well. so we'll see where that goes.

hopefully i'll be popping out some more poems and stories more frequently now!

So I've been lazy the past couple years in doing my poetry and such and in all honesty it saddens me. I hope to get back to it again soon! And I'm happy to take some idea's for some poetry themes! But for now I will be posting quite a lot of my old work on here! I do not mean to annoy by doing so since it can be quite a lot. I haven't look through them in quite a long while. Although it does sadden me because I remember writing a poem in middles school i absolutley loved about rebirth and pheonix. And I was never able to find it when I last looked it through them...which sucks xD so i'm sure I've lost more than just that one. haha

Anyway! just appologies in advance about the constant stream of poems to come!

So recently I made a post on a FB page called Furry Art Under $20 hopeing somebody would be willing to make me a ref sheet of my Etna for pretty cheap or would be interested in drawing her. I know she is a complex character. But i am very much wanting to get a ref sheet of her done. I was hoping to get a 2 pose ref sheet with front and back/side view of her. as well as a mouth view and paw view. currently what little money i have i am trying to put towards my trip to AC this year as i am very excited for it. but I greatly want to get a ref sheet done for Etna before then as well. So far nobody has taken an offer on doing her sheet. would any of you be willing to take her up? i'm willing to spend around $40 if need be. but price is still negotiable. but i don't have much to spar since AC is so soon. Or if any of you have recommendations to look at? For those of you who do not know Etna is a 9-Tailed Fox/Dragon species i am working on.