so, i saw ina stream i saw some themes that i am interested in. one is younger sibling babying older, another i personally like, is diapered caretakers, or caretakers being diapered by their wards(thing young babystiter, gets diapered by the youngsters shes watching and ends up being the watched one) is there more themes liek this i should explore? are they popular? i learn about awesome new ideas every day and i wonder what more i should look into?

share yur thoughts!

https://picarto.tv/thepadulvstation


it needs work a banner, etc, but ill be working on it as i go. anyone interested in me doing this frequently, sound off here please!

why am i alive? every day gets worse and worse and the darkness in my mind creeps around me more and more, every day is so fucking hard to live through, i just want to never leave my room, i never want to be around anyone, i cant make friendships work, im just so fucking empty and im sick and tired of it....


time to crawl through another shitty day tomorrow, with no real future to hope for anymore, fucking cheers to living to live...how the hell is this life so fucking meaningless....

another 10 hour day WEEEEEEEE

when i make a journal about feeing down, im ina very deep down and seeing people say nice things is always helpful. sometimes i need reassurance, and it helps having awesome peeps like you to be there ;3; updates will be coming soon(tonight) and imma get back to work and stop feeling bad and start getting better

Luv you all, thanks for supporting me ;u; this account continues to be such a amazing awesome postiive place for me causa you all <3

so i have been struggling with crippling depression, and while working and struggling with msitakes in college, and such, im wondering...is there one damn thing i AM good at? i HATEbeing this guy, i hate it so much, i used to look at every single picture i did, and marvel at the improvement, no matter how slight. now, i am the opposite. i see NONE EVER!and it drives me mad, it has crippled my enjoyment of art. its why things have slowed, the spark in my breast is fizzled,

i have so much i wanna do, so much i want to draw, but i am afraid to approach it out of fear what i produce isnt good enough. not to mention the backlog of things iw ant to do, it is become such a nightmare. any other artists ever deal with this? if so, how do you beat it so you can go back to arting

thanks to all who bid! winners will get notes 8D!

hours are bannannas, so trying to balance art and work...ugh my feet have never hurt more in my life!!!


in the meantime, im planning for after committed and emily if i can speed it up...im thinking of a story, a comic, around the idea of slowly starting ot mentally regress. i have read a few very good ones, and i like the idea of slowly losing control of ones faculties, then, by some caretaker type, slowly introduced to diapers, (because of your accidents) then, babyish clothing, pacis, then to being bottle fed and learning that this release is wonderful, and mentally, actively indulging. i have a thing for taking that leap, that willful release. somehting like that.


another is a brief comic of a young teen who jsut had to deal with an operation that left them incontinent and the struggle between the mother, and trying to help her daughter to acccept it, and slowly, indulging in her maternal instincts, slowly helping her daughter(or daughters, maybe!!) accept this. it ends up with the siblings( yeah i changed mid thought, siblings sounds better!!)being adultish babies! basically neither is happy, struggling to accept it, and mom just wants to help her "babies" and eventually, gets close enough to the real thing!!

thoughts 8D(also dont mind typos half awake z3z)

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19543768/

go here! a big baby getting a diaper check!

expect stream to finally be tested proll ythe latest by wednseday. i want to stream commish work and personal, and maybe ill even be able to get advice on art and make friends via stream! its soemthing i have wanted to do, and months ago i made a journal of it and people expressed alot of interest, so look out for that! once i get to a comfort point, ill be adding stream to my patreon tiers, with motnhly hourly stream time devoted to certain levels among the other changes there!

LOve hyou all, and thanks fr the patience, with the new job, school and art, im slower then i normally would be!

im not gonna change too much, like ill proll ykeep the reward tiers as is atm, but im going to start patreon exclusive content. this will extend to side art, some patreon exclusive pictures, starting with the planned sequel image to renamon and such. sadly, i havent got too much support and after seeing somethings, i have come to realize, people wont support if you throw it all out there. they have no incentive to. i wanted to go off a support as well, support, but im not sure people will be willing to offer much as that regard. i wont be hiding my comics or anything, but alot fo the side art, and art realted to it and fanart of stuff i might start putting in tiers


how im thinking of handling this is anyone supporting can see wips and general stuff. ont he side ill do art packs for the varying tiers. like higher up gets higher detailed images, and so on. does that sound like an incentive, let me have your thoughts!

LET"S GO M8!

WOT U W8ING 4!?

also HAI! :D

just life and discourgement. i see so many great artists, get love form other great artists, and i have a few greats who talk to me and comment and its all fun...but i feel, to be honest...really like im up agaisnt a wall i cant climb. the struggle seems so real, when i feel i have made progress, and im proud, i see some artist who i jsut stare and think"how am i gonna get there?can i get there?" its os hard sometimes and it makes working difficult, with that image of a level i cant reach, burned into my head...when i see artists with other artists always praising them, i know its so dumb, but i always feel like im unworthy of attention, below so many of them. cause i mean, so many can do things visually i cant, and i want so badly to be at their level...
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i wanna know, you guys have stories like this? where your trying to do something thats important to you, and what kinda levels do you see and feel you wanna reach?times where you were brought down seeing someone whos like a master , at a point you want to be, and how you overcame it?anything of the like!

im doing the page 5 now, but ill have to rewrite all my notes...as today word decided to cut my heart out and corrupt all my work, for my main account and this one, over 2 years of work turned to nothing. i wont even pretend to be too big of a man to admit i cried for over an hour when this happened. so emily int he next day or so, then the track should be back on, more frequently once i fix things. sorry for the delay, i kjnow people like that comic so i want to keep on keepin it

thank you so much everyone of you for your support <3 you guys make me desperate to improve, so i can give you better and better content. always let me know how i can imprive, and i will listen and apply it to my art <3

thats alot of babs needing padded rooms-i mean playpens o3o;

thanks alot all of you guys who just started watching me and been watching your so awesome ;u; <3 i was hesitant to start this account, cause i was really nervous about putting myself and my interests out there and being judged but you guy shave been so cool and accepting ;u; <3

https://www.patreon.com/paddedulf

just throwing this up. since i want to one dya make decent money and a living if possible doing comics and content :D so if anyone has any ideas on how to baalnce it or things to add i would love to hear :D i want to make ti fair, balanced and appealing an dhelp me support my work. the more i can make the less i have to commish hunt, meaning i can get alot of comic pages out quicker :D

but i have no idea on how to market or make my art work for me, or any of that stuff D: i just draw, im not business or money minded, so what are all your thoughts ;D

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7346962/

check it out, they are on a sale thingy =D

im going to be lowering the prices i have and reuploading my com sheets, so i can have more commishions so more people can afford them ouo so lets see how that goes

also, how are people liking my comics so far?batties comic is pretty much fully done for chapter one in writing and ill be focusing alot on it for the next month. she kinda has a bit of a rough upbringing, but it explains why she becomes so sweet, and where her anger came so hopefully people like it!

i know progress is slow on them, which is why i started the patreon, to speed up and handle some bills and such so hopefully that grows over time ouo tonight ill be uploading th enext page of both comics in sketch and a thing or two im working on(i need to get used to having it i forget its there alot) and then ill upload wips of stuff. so do give it a gander if for nothing else but to tell me if i can do it better =D your input is so valuable so anyhting you guys have to say im willing to hear 8D

so i was looking over other com prices of other artists...and i came to the conclusion i think i may drop my prices my like, around 5 bucks for more expensive stuff, less for less expenive, but a global reduction. thoughts ouo?

anyone got any suggestions?fan chars? species? i know skelbely suggested wolves and canids so thats a start, and i have a pic with both impmon and guilmon in mind, but what else :D

committed emily, being worked on between a commish for peeps, your gonna liek this one, that im doing of the cutest mouse girl(maybe gift art in the futuree just because OMG cute!)but i am (hopefully) seeing improvements in coloring and anatomy and working on plant and flora(since that is a struggle)not to mention sequels planned to the rena pic since alot of you seemed to like it alot :D

ON top of all that, some very cute babu pics of cute babus bein babus <3


more dips everywhere! and soon cute stuff to the repetoire!

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7306155/

emerald is doing a raffle for art stuffs for her slot on mah patreon! https://www.patreon.com/paddedulf

check it out for a chance to be in arts :D

https://www.patreon.com/paddedulf

ill be dolling it up more as i have time :D

its a donation styled with some art perks,free monthly art stuffs, and seeing early updates, as well as ill be posting images and pictures people can vote to see finsihed, or just vote on in general . say x amount of people wanna see a padded this or that, ill go ahead and wip that up and post it on patreon. all stuff like comic wips and such will still be posted immediatly upon coloring and the only thing that will be patron only is the stuff voted by patrons

please take a look and see if anything offered there suits you, its all to help me continue doing art here and not lose all my time doing side work and stuff to survive D: tonight or tomorrow ill be posting some comic wips and random sketch stuff :D

so im drawing a 2 panel picture, of renamon in a diaper o3o

sorry for the long break, but i was doing some story stuff with it, and the page i have been sitting on for 2 months was sitting mostly done, while i wrote out story progression and ideas, mainly, tying it a bit in with committed(no emily wont be going to the asylum, but it might be coming to her 8O!) :D there wont be another long break like this hopefully, but i had to solidfy direction :D

so prepare to see emily say something naughty and end up over momma's lap o3o