Hello everyone,

Why I'll write:
Things have been quite busy and active in my life for the last while, and to help out with the cost of some new changes, I'm going to open story commissions for a little bit. Turns out, buying a house is very expensive and bills are tight! This'll help me to recoup some costs for groceries and stuff.

What I'll write:
Pretty much anything. I'll let you know in private notes if I decide I can't do it, but for the most part consider this zero limits. It doesn't have to be NSFW, and it doesn't have to be SFW. I really do mean pretty much anything. I do ask that you have a fairly good idea of what you'd like out of a story, though. I'll gladly lend my creative juices to the process, but if we're talking something more than a simple NSFW story, I'd like at least a paragraph or so with some details/characters/world/etc. If the concept is too vague, I may still take the commission, but I may also limit how many words I can actually write for you.

When I'll write:
Depending on the length of the story, I'd ask at least a 2 week window to complete your story. If it's a hugely long story, I'll let you know if I need more time than that when we start the process, and because of my incredibly busy job, I may need to ask for more time after giving an initial estimate anyways.

How much for I'll write:
I'm going to be charging $15 per 1,000 words of story. Each 1k words will roughly take me an hour of writing/editing to get it post ready, and my free time for writing is in relatively short supply. I'd like to add a soft cap of 20k words, but am open to doing extra chapters as well. Payment through Paypal.

As an addition here, if you would like a picture to accompany your story, we can consider that as well, but my art skills are still much lower than my writing skills, to the point that I don't LIKE charging for art, but drawing is hard and I don't want to do it for free. If this is something you're interested in, we can talk details on an individual basis.

For whom I'll write:
As said, I'll write pretty much anything, and am open to doing chapters, but I will need to probably limit a queue to 3 people (stories take a while!).

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How I'll write:

I might work on one story at a time, but I may not. Until I start your commission, I won't ask for payment, but my two week quote also won't apply until I receive payment and start on your story. I'll work on one at a time, and I'll let you know when I'm ready to start yours.

Spots will be first come first serve based on comments to this journal. Even if the queue is full, go ahead and comment and I may consider expanding the queue if what I have on my plate isn't too much. I'll message you for details after you comment!

So, it's not like I post on any sort of schedule anyways, but I'm going to make this an official hiatus.

It's not that I don't want to draw right now or anything, but I'm going to take a break to work on art. After doing that figure drawing, I realized that I've been getting better, but at a much slower rate than I probably should be. Things just aren't progressing like I want them to.

And I think I've sort of realized why. When I sketch stuff out, a lot of the time I'll either stop sketching after a sketch or two that I don't like, or I'll like a sketch a lot and start working on that. But the problem is, if all I ever do is work on full, completed pieces, I'm not really focusing on anything and practicing what I need to.

So, I'm going to force myself to not finish a single piece for maybe 2-3 months, and I'm going to try to do real sketches every single day, and I'm going to actually work on things I need to work on. So, hopefully when I come back, it won't have been after me being dead for a while like it often happens, but because I've been working and studying on getting better.

If you guys want to see my sketches and stuff that I do, I can certainly post them here in scraps or something. But, unless people want to see all that, I probably won't post here.

Anyways, if you don't see me for a while, then hopefully I'm sticking to this and actually practicing.

Also, if you're reading this, let me know what kind of content you actually want to see around here. I'm probably done with pony, but do y'all prefer the Pokemon or furry stuff? I can go either way on either at this point. With y'all letting me know, I'll try to work on getting better at either humany stuff for my anthros (which need a lot of work tbh), or on animaly things for my Pokemon (which tbh also need a lot of work).

Well, since Tumblr is telling everyone to fuck off, I won't be posting there anymore.

I post most everything I make to FA anyways, so nothing will probably change for anyone here. But, yeah, fuck Tumblr.

Anyways, it's been quiet around here, because in about a week, I will have finally god damn graduated from college. I won't say art and stories will explode after that, but I may be less dead, who knows? It's exciting and absolutely horrifying at the same time. Woo.

I'm sure ya'll have seen my new hyena fursona. If not, go look, because he's a friggin' cutie in my opinion. Expect more of him eventually, and expect more Pokemon and other stuff too, always.

I'm back from my trip to New York! It was a super fantastic time, and I made some fantastic friendships while I was there!

But now, it's time to get back to work. I start my student teaching tomorrow, but I should have my nights fairly free. I have some money coming in from doing some work this summer, and once I get that, I'm going to be ordering a new tablet ASAP, and I should have it hopefully by the end of this week maybe?

Anyways, I also do have (and have had, to be honest) Baron 6 (the finale!) completed, and just need to proofread it. I'm going to try and get that done today or tomorrow, then have it posted soon afterwards!

So, I'm not dead, just was on vacation for a while. I do have some sketches I've posted to Tumblr ( palibakufun.tumblr.com ) if you all want to go check that out or something.

Well, I took my tablet home with me this last weekend, and while I didn't actually touch it, I guess the pen fell out of the pocket somewhere, and I can't just buy a replacement because it's too old at this point.

I do plan to buy a new tablet, but that's going to take me a little while. So, sorry about the upcoming lack of pictures.

I got two people that have come to me for stories, which is good for now, so those slots are now closed.

But I will still take slots for pictures if anyone wants to do those!

Hey guys. So, I updated my commission page yesterday. I'm taking both story and picture commissions right now, because I'm saving up for something.

What am I saving up for now, you might ask? Well, when I was writing the Marcus story, I was using the Bad Dragon Rex size thingy on their site as a reference for how big he'd be down there.

...But I also discovered that the small Rex is exactly the size of Baron, and that means I want one really bad. Like, incredibly bad. So, consider commissions open as fuck at the moment!

So, I just realized that, when you download stories off Google Docs in RTF format, they keep their comments from Docs. I've been having other read my stuff on Docs before posting it, and they leave lots of silly, shitposty comments as well as helping out.

So, I JUST realized and caught that, so sorry for anyone who was really confused as to what the hell was going on xD I'm sure some people might like to keep them, but they were never meant to be a part of the story for the general populace, so sadly I'll have to keep them out now that I know to check for that.

Thanks for being patient, though!

I'm opening commissions, now!

Basically, you can get something like this: http://d.facdn.net/art/palibakufun/.....inkassbutt.png for $10 USD. I'll do ponies AND Pokemon, but only feral stuff. Add $5 for each additional character. No fetishy stuff, please.

This is just sort of a testing the waters thing, to see if anyone is actually interested at all. For specific information, I actually used the commission info page on my profile here.

Hey guys. I'm gay.

HAH APRIL--

Wait...

Guys, I think I've reached a sort of turning point in my life. Recently, I've been thinking a LOT; it's mostly been about myself. I think I'm really starting to realize who I am as a person, and all kinds of things. I'm a lot different than the 13 year old who jumped into the furry fandom... My God, it's been about five years now. I've changed so much over the course of these years. I just want to let you guys know some things about me, and why you don't see me very often, and why you probably WON'T see me very often.

First off... I'm still a furry... I think. I remember when I first got into the fandom through Pokemon, I was so excited to meet people who shared an interest in all the weird stuff I liked. It was really refreshing, and those early days were truly great. The porn was just mind boggling, and all the stories and everything. But in recent years, I've just not been so excited about that anymore. I still check FA and Wildcritters daily for new stuff, and even still save stuff. I still fap quite often, but I've noticed myself skipping some nights on occasion, just because I don't feel the need. I don't know if I've bled myself dry of real sexual wanting, or if it's just I'm finally outgrowing the surge of hormones that comes with being a teenager, I don't know.

But while Pokemon and furry things are becoming less interesting to me, for some reason, I've gained an absolute OBSESSION with ponies. I can't tell you why. I remember, back in '10 and '11, when pony porn started to show up. I didn't think anything about it, and just thought, "Oh, cool, some sexy horse porn," saved it, and went along. It wasn't until the summer of last year, 2012, that I actually got into the fandom. It wasn't a long, painful process like it is for many. I had already been a furry for 4 years, what was this to that? And that allowed me to sail pretty easily into being a brony.

I just don't know what it is, but I can't seem to get my mind of ponies. I'm not sure that I'm quite as obsessed as what I was when I first became a Pokephile, but everynight is spent with me almost exclusively doing pony things: reading fics, looking at art, watching videos, listening to music, etc. Maybe it's the fact that the fandom is quite a bit more open that allows me to fit in with it so well, I don't know. It's not that I'm a really open person to a lot of people, it's just that with the music and videos on Youtube that furries don't quite have, it's allowed me to really get into the fandom so much more.

Also, the show. I, like many other people, don't know what it is about these colorful ponies, but I just can't help but love the show. I love the characters. I even love the ones I don't love. The show has allowed the personalities of the faces obviously shine through, and implant themselves in my head. When all this first started for me, I liked Rarity. She was sexy and had a sexy accent and was classy. I still love her for that. Then, after hearing a song and reading some stuff, I really fell for Princess Luna. And now, most recently, it's Twilight Sparkle. There's just something about her personality that just lures me in. With Rarity and Luna, it was more the looks and the backstory in that order that made me like them. Not that Luna isn't great; she's still the prettiest to me. But with Twilight, I've just become quite obsessed with her, and the way she thinks, acts, talks, etc.

I've REALLY been feeling the past few months that I'm not a fully sane person. That may seem like an obvious thing, considering I'm a furry, but it goes beyond that. My mind just doesn't work the way that everyone else's seems to. I actually think it may be a mild form of autism or something, but I don't really know. I mean, I know I can think and reason logically, but my mind just functions so abnormally, that I don't even know what to think about myself, other than I'm pretty much a freak. I'm really having a difficult time explaining to you guys what I mean, because I don't really know what I mean, to be honest. At first glance in real life, I seem like just a simple nerd. I can fit in with "normal" people just fine, talk about sports, talk about women, music, video games, etc. But then again, I can also just as easily go up to a furry and tell them why I find tigers to be sexy as fuck. I'm into almost every single fetish under the sun, but I don't divulge in them very often. My mind is so scattered and random, it's hard to keep track of.

But, I think I can honestly say that I really don't care. I've learned to deal with people thinking I'm weird over the years, and learned to not give them half a fuck, so I really don't feel bad about being so different and strange... I actually quite like being able to stand out from everyone else. I guess you could say I'm a hipster to the extreme, and to many parties. I'm a hipster to the furries, because I can just as easily fit in with the normal crowed, and I'm a hipster to the normal crowed because I can just as easily fit in with furries. The only real big group I can't say I fit into is jocks and people of the physical type. While not being like, morbidly obese, I'm not a twig either. I'm extremely out of shape, but oh well. But being so different from everyone, and yet being able to also relate with them, sort of leaves me feeling exiled from everyone else. Again, I don't feel sad about this or anything, and again, it's refreshing to be able to distance myself from other people. But, then again, I do sort of wish I could fit in with more people more often. I'm such an introverted person most of the time, and hate spending more than a night with any of my friends typically before I'm ready for them to go home and leave me to myself.

But anyways, I don't want to spend this entire journal bitching about being different. What I really wanted to let you guys know, is while I will still probably write on occasion, I think I've sort of stepped outside the Pokemon circle. As in, don't expect to see anything Cafe Plaisir related. I may get an idea and write it again some day, who knows, but I think I've just exhausted the Cafe, and really all of Pokemon. It really pains me to say I've changed so much. I still love them and everything, and hell, I'll still proabbly buy Pokemon Y, but I just can't see myself being as emotionally invested in it as I used to be. I guess what I'm saying, is I've become a lot more of a brony than a furry. I don't really know what else to say.

I'll still be around. Don't think I'm leaving FA, because I'm not. I just... won't be as active with the community any more. Also, after this May, I'll officially be a college student. If there's one thing I've learned from high school, it's that I am not the most responsible person in the world. If I don't focus in college, I'm worried at what the outcome may be. So college is going to be a very big obstacle for me to overcome, and I have trouble focusing when I have friends to talk to. Those of you who have me added on Skype and never see me, it's not that I hate you guys, I really don't. It's just that... If I'm not busy, I really just don't feel like talking to anyone, except to a couple real life friends. I hate to say I'm picking favorites, but I just don't really know.

So, as I said, I'm not leaving FA... but I think now is as good a time as any to just let you guys know... It's been a great 5 years, and I wouldn't trade it for anything else. A lot of my best and worst memories lay buried within the depths of the furry/Pokemon fandom, and I love you guys for giving me some great times. So, good ride guys. I WILL see you around.

...abrupt ending, whatever.

If anyone is interested, I'm going to offer up a couple $5 dollar stories that will be about 2k words long. If anyone's interested, let me know.

So I've been on FA since 2007, I think? Well, I have something to tell you guys. I JUST turned 18 today, so for all of you that didn't know before, now you do! My stories are finally legal and sturf :D And people who did know before, you don't care =P So yeah.

I've decided on my path to take as far as commission prices, and I've decided to do a standard price for all stories.

One-Shot adult/clean story - $10 (If you want a certain length, price may change to meet the length of the story.)

Chaptered adult/clean story - $5 per chapter. Chapter lengths will vary to meet what I feel to accomplish what I want with the story.

Please note, it's good to give lots of details when you commission, but don't write the story out for me. Just give me the general idea with what you want and I'll roll with it, otherwise you might as well just write the story yourself.

If you have any questions, just ask and I'll be happy to answer them for you =)

I think I've realized that size-based pricing isn't going to do so well for me as far as doing commissions. It's really nerve-racking having to meet a certain goal as far as word size goes, and it worries me if I don't think I'm going to be able to reach the goal. I want to know whether anyone thinks I should stick with that, or whether I should change.

One option would just be to price it when I'm finished, but I don't want to do that, for I don't want to surprise someone and them be not fine with the final price. Another option would to be just set a price for stories in general, for example:

One-Shot - $10

Chaptered - $5 per chapter (will be shorter than a whole story)

I was thinking that one, but I don't know how everyone thinks on that. I feel $10 dollars for a story that only winds up being like, 4-5k words is sort of a rip-off. So give me your opinions on what you all think, I'd really appreciate it! Thanks.

I lost my wallet Saturday, and thankfully someone had picked it up, called me, and told me they'd mail it back. All money and everything accounted for. There's still some good people out there...

Ah yeah.

PLEASE NOTE: If I make generalizations about all religious people or an entire group of people, I didn't mean to. But I do believe that this applies to way too many religious people.

It's hard to turn on the news without hearing something about politics, and it's hard to hear something without hearing about people bashing Obama for some reason or another. But, a lot of of hate I feel is due to people not agreeing with his beliefs. And I finally realized, that's why I can't stand religion.

People can argue all they want about Christianity and other religions preaching about peace and love, but that's not the problem. People can say religion is what makes them good people, but that I think is 100% false. People are good or bad, whether they have a religion or not. People may say that Christianity (I'll just use Christianity for my examples, since that's what I'm most exposed to, living in the Bible belt.) has brought them to a better life, but it's only the fact that they were good people anyways, I believe.

Let's say we have a man that kills someone. This man goes to prison for many years, and when he finally gets out, he wants to change his life around. Keep in mind, that he already wanted to change his life around. So he goes to a church, and becomes a Christian. He now believes it was Christianity that had saved him, but the fact that he sought help in the first place, means there was a way for him to change his life WITHOUT religion. If someone opens their hearts to change, they don't need religion to make their lives better. All you need is the want and desire.

Now, back to my problem. If a person is Christian, they believe themselves to be a good person because of it. But, what do they think of other relgions? What seems to me, and you may argue, but from what I've noticed is that a vast majority of Christians actually dislike other religions. They plain do not agree with them and don't even tolerate them. It sickens me, to think someone can hate another person for something they believe in. If someone is a Christian, I don't hate them because of that. Now, if they're a closed-minded Christian who thinks Christianity is the only way to be a decent person, THEN I might not like them.

Now, not all Christians or of all religion are like this, but it seems to me that some Chrisitians just can't handle what their religion is about. Christianity preaches peace and love, as do most religions. And a lot of people DO try and do that... as long as the other person is part of their religion. Preaching love and peace is fine, but what ruins that aspect of religion is that, that love only applies to people of their religion usually. If two people don't agree with their beliefs, there's a good chance that they won't like each other. People just can't handle being apart of something that preaches love and peace, because if someone else ISN'T apart of that, they automatically assume that they're bad people.

I know that people don't need religion to be good people. I'm not openly atheist in real life. If I were, I'd be likely to not have a majority of the friends I do. Here's how I know though. People think I'm a good person. What does that mean? People think I'm a Christian. I'm not.

Now, I'm not saying all my Christian friends would abandon me, because there's a lot that aren't real Christians, I don't think. There's a big problem with that too, is people don't follow through with their religion, and fake it. They say they're a Christian, but they don't obey all the laws a Christian would. But any of my strong-believing friends would most likely cut me off, but only if they're not the kind of people who CAN handle religion and accept other people.

I've ranted a lot here, but I'm still afraid my point may not have come across yet. I'll try and summarize everything into something cohesive.

Religion isn't necessarily a bad thing. I don't believe that. What's bad about religion, is too many people don't know how to follow the teachings. Religions split people apart, because of how strongly you're supposed to believe in it. Your religion may say that you're supposed to accept everyone for what they are, but too many people can't do that. Take for example, Christianity. It says that you should not judge people, but rather leave that to God. Many people can't do that. They take it into their own hands to judge people as good or bad.

Society has outgrown the need for religion. In today's world, we don't need religion to tell us what's right or wrong anymore. We have a moral system installed into our society now, and we don't need to follow old teachings anymore. I feel that the world needs to come together, but that just can't happen with religion still in place. The world is in extreme danger due to race wars in the middle east with Muslim countries and Israel threatening a nuclear war. If people could just abandon their hate for one another because of religion, there would be no war. There would be no Taleban, there would be no al-Qaeda. There would be no threat of World War 3.

I'm sorry if I still haven't made any kind of sense... if you have anything to say, please comment and I'll try my best to reply to you. I just want to reiterate, I don't hate people because they believe in a religion, but I do hate people that hate BECAUSE of religion, because that completely goes against the teachings in the first place.

I seem to be noticing that sooo many of my favorite artists are turning out to be ones-without-penises. , , , , and even my most recent commission came from a female,

So, good job gals. Keep up the good work.

Okay, so Paypal still doesn't work, but I actually got another request for a commission, and I hate to turn down a new customer. I'm considering using my friend as as a middle man for deals, so stay tuned.

I probably won't be able to do commissions for a long time until I get some Paypal issues fixed.

Good bye, FA, I will be gone for a good day or two~

Yeah... that's about it.

I didn't really like my other price list, so I'm going to make a new, simpler one.

STORIES:

One-shot clean/porn story:

Less than 5k words - $5 (If you commission this and I go over 5k words, I won't charge you extra.)

More than 5k words - $10 (Once again, I won't charge extra if I go over.)

More than 15k words - $20 (This will require quite a few details about the plot line.)

Multi-chaptered clean/porn story:

$15 per chapter


ART: If you really like my art so much, I'll open commissions for pictures too.

Non-colored clean/porn picture - $3

Colored clean/porn picture - $5

CONTENT: I'll write/draw or at least attempt anything you want me to, but I can't promise good quality on some of the more unfamiliar things. Don't be afraid to ask, though! I'm very open =)


If anyone is curious about commissions, just note me and I'll get back to you as soon as possible. A little note, I do have other things going on besides drawing and writing in my life, so it may take me a little time to finish stuff. I won't charge you until I'm done, but I also won't actually provide you with the picture until I get paid, so neither of us get cheated.

Thanks!

People who don't tag their pictures because they think they're too cool =S