I was extremely tired and I think I explained that in my last picture that I uploaded but I really wanted to try out the oven especially the convection part so I tried some Pillsbury morning breakfast cinnamon rolls which are supposed to be bake at 400° 17 minutes so I thought it might be a good test for the oven beings I now have some stuff sitting on top of it and wanted to actually see how hot the exterior of the oven got beings that it will be in this state for a wild my next adventure will be getting the parts for my car that is desperately needed so I will be leaving it this way for a wild or until I'm dead whichever comes first,I am 51 and you never know and I am old the shit, and have a bunch of shit that would kill the normal human.

I did find out though thinking something like that I need to back off about 25° and about 10 minutes as these cinnamon rolls did not come out too well they burned on the top a little bit and that is using the conviction oven I will be using the regular oven are tomorrow to see how it makes some cornbread for me, using my cornbread recipe that I put up earlier just don't know what I'm going to be using my iron skillet or my cake pan but beings this oven has sets for conventional or convection I will be using the conventional oven settings.

Sorry there will be no pictures of what I just baked in this oven and if my cornbread comes out okay tomorrow I will post a picture of it if not I will be making a note of the journal.

And I will answer to the best of my knowledge

I will not talk about Religion or Politics sorry but those are two subjects I will not comment on nor make any opinions on!!!

I was never blessed with the ability to have children.

My children right now are three cats you all know their names, I have posted many pictures of them and YES!! I consider them my children that I never could have and believe me I am like anybody who has children concerned with their safety at all times, that's all I need to say about that.

But although they are my children I cannot pass the knowledge that I have gained to them but this is not about that as I watch Smudge eating his sisters kitty treats and after all of the crap I went through today tarrying my thumb open as I was putting together the base for my new oven ((pictures will be posted of construction and destruction of kitchen)) and if you don't like it don't look.

Sitting back and looking at everything and wondering to myself why I do not have anybody to pass all of this knowledge on to, my cooking experiences and recipes a lot that I have tweaked on my own and a lot that I cannot tweak. The knowledge of building a high performance vehicle before there were electronic ignition systems computers and everything else a modern-day car needs to operate on. The ability to take a raw hunk of metal and machine it into an operating part that floats in outer space ((yes believe it folks I have parts floating in outer space)) but I do not have a daughter or a son to pass on the knowledge or the wisdom that I have gained over walking through this hellacious place we call Earth.

And having children is a blessing and they all should be cherished and love and taught the knowledge of their parents and grandparents and uncles and aunts for they are our future and they will carrying it on for us.

I thought about things and believe me it is very hard at times thought about leaving this world but unlike fairytales really cannot leave this world and less you do drastic things. I thought about how it would hurt people people I know I know deeply I can count them on one hand, not much to be said there.

Then I thought about my kids? My true children you see I was never blessed with the ability to have actual human children I was born sterile, I had many many pet children I think that's what brought me closer to the fandom, or are furry children and for them I will not leave voluntarily I do not know what would they do without me, especially one that is Smudge sorry I just do not know what he would do without me or anybody would do with him or how much it would break his little heart that I was not around to pick him up in snuggle him to rub is little nose or ears yes I have two others but out of all of the children he is the most important to me, that may sound harsh I do not love the other ones any less but he is the most closest to me.

Do not know a better way of putting that.

Last night I made a post "would anybody care if I left you all will"???????

Still again the only thing keeping me here on this plane world atmosphere planet are what ever the hell you want to call it is my three cats if you all don't know them they are Chiana, Aeryn Sun and Smudge; the first two mentioned are domestic short hair orange tiger striped with white belly average old kittycats the last one is my Russian Blue I have had many cats and dogs I mean I posted a picture of "TB" you may have to look back a few pages of posts of pics to find his pic of a Salt-and-Pepper-Toy-Schnauzer I had, "best dog friend companion I ever had" and I was very very very distressed over losing him so many years ago. And am still I am today.

If you gotten through all of that nurse a few more paragraphs that you will have to get through this is going to be a very long journal.

Sorry for my grammar which a few of you have commented on and said is despicable sorry for that did not take any proper speech courses and I usually do not talk to a large crowd, so if you do not like my grammar please leave and if you are a friend who does not like my grammar the only thing I can say is please dismiss me as one of your friends sorry but on 51 years old as you have read any other journal or journals and it's not going to get any better than this.

I'm still going over things, I do not want to disappoint anyone I've tried very hard not to, my whole thing was to bring all of us together to understand that although we all have different feelings emotions and other sorts that we are always stronger when we are all together and we all support one another that's all I've ever tried for with all the things I've done.

And I know some of you are saying well what have I done meeting myself "Daniel Lowery" did not mean anyone else mean what I have done and tried to accomplish 2003 two 2009 which was the last convention I went to I always tried to make a Babyfur room somewhere where we could gather together for a little peace and comfort and yes there was the party pizza are whatever but it didn't cost anything people were asked to donate towards the cause and yes some did not like doing that but hey what the hell I tried.

Now; for all you who don't not know me I am Pandr Panda or Pandafof P. Pandafox also Max Bunny.

For a very long time and most of you know that I have tried deep in my heart to bring all of us together from the Big Furs to the Little Ones no one in their right mind can say I haven't tried that I have respected everyone's opinions about all of us whether we be big or little.

Now all of that being said; I'm not so 100% sure that the world deserves us or will ever understand us I hope that the younger ones of us can make the world open up to us. That is a wish.

Now most of you don't understand who I am where I have come from so the next few paragraphs will explain who I am what I have done not necessarily for the fandom, but what I have tried to do for humanity if you say that because I still don't believe that all of humanity should live but that is a different story.

I was born in 1964 shortly after JFK was assassinated actually almost a year, I was born with a lot of defects I mean believe me if you knew your child was born with the SHIT I was born with you would have had an abortion, not going into full details but I was not able to be potty trained in until about age 4 1/2 that is because I was in the hospital most of that time and when I was home I remember having a tube stuck up a certain place that no tube should be stuck in a little boy's penis, I remember my mom seeing her face with two diaper pins and him mouth as she was putting a diaper on me this was probably about the age of 3 to a battle 4 1/2 for most of you you probably were potty trained about 2 maybe 2 1/2 and don't even remember the process or don't even remember being diapered your older brothers and sisters and all of that that went on at that time was seemingly dismissed.

After all of that the spankings the beings the family members telling me I was just like my dad that humiliation that I went through as a child you all would not believe, "you are just like your dad, your father" do you not know how much that was so humiliated to you not know that I through grade school told everybody that my father my dad had died in a severe trucking accident which was not true but after the family told me what a piece of shit he was I could not let any of my childhood friends know where I came from and I became very isolated.

I did not get a college degree.

I was told by family members that it would never happen.

Not to mention any names.

I got my high school diploma after that I worked very hard and found out that a college diploma keeps you about is far as.......................... affinity.

So I went through trade school 18 months of trade school after graduating and let me tell you I graduated with full honors I not only was a graduate but before I graduated I helped other individuals with graduating, you can look that up at United States government trade schools Brecon Range Morgan field Kentucky job Corps Center, also Miami Tech which I at Breckenridge did 18 months at Miami University I did two years that is just for auto mechanics after that I worked for Goodyear, Firestone, Inner-City Tire City Tire, and a few other tire companies that you all know and get your tires from not trying to put them down just saying I worked for them.
After that and a great opportunity I got to work for a small mom-and-pop machine shop.

I started out sweeping their floors; "most of you will say that that's a good place to start: yes it was:"

Because of my auto mechanic experience and a few things I learned as being a electrician apprentice gal a lot of you don't know that I am into that whatever who gives a F___ ??

When you are 51 like I am yet to know a lot of crap.

Does anyone know why "LFP " was created can any one of you diagnose why I even tried to do that I noticed a lot of AB?DL videos up on YouTube since I started back in 2010 yeah all of you who do not understand 2010 is one I started those.

Not apologizing for shit.

I put those videos up to show the more humble respectable side of the BABYFUR!!!!!!! fandom..

If anyone does not understand this well it will be continued in a now there journal may be I don't know but this is the beginning of my existence and all I can say in all anyone can quote on their board is.



"For the love of what ever God you perceive can't we all get all long with each of their"

I am 51 years old I have struggled with diabetes since I was 15 years old.

I found the fandom in the 90s and it was such a great lift off of my shoulders, it was like being crushed by 1000 pound load and it was lifted off of me the friends that I found and the people I have met, was like the world had opened up and shown its true identity.

Recently I have been diagnosed with depression and have been on one medication but they changed that medication today to a very stronger medication.

Also I have been having feelings that one should not have also some very horrible dreams. Dreams of death and destruction feelings of worthlessness and that it would be better if I was not here anymore, in less someone has felt this then they know what I am talking about.

Being 15 with diabetes your life changes dramatically overnight things that you know you can do now you can't but you try and that is all I have done all my life is try.

I went to trade school I graduated high school and I went back to trade school again just to learn how to work on people's cars, after that I got into machining parts from pieces of iron and aluminum aircraft parts, then went back to trade school again to become a certified machinist and after 15 years of working at a machine shop became head quality control engineer and sold parts to our government.

Now I feel worthless they will no longer let me hold a job at any price point whether it be full-time or part-time are part part-time I cannot work a single hour for any job anywhere or I lose all of my benefits, benefits are $1058.00 a month plus $15 in food stamps that's it folks that's all I can make it unless I do something under the table and if they find out then I will have to pay back what ever they say I have to pay back?

The only thing that is really keeping me here anymore is three cats which I consider the children I never could have, and I imagine most of you may think that is lame but it is all I am staying here for and if I was to leave tonight I have made arrangements for all of them to be taking care of.

I posted a journal the other day about work on my car that needs to be done I set up a "Go Find Me" page for anyone that wants to try and help me out.

https://www.gofundme.com/t2zfzc

Those of you that know me know that I do not ask for much help, but sometimes you have to.
This is my only means of transportation I am on a very limited fixed income if you've read any other journal you know that my car has a lot of miles on it I can't afford another one and with all the other bills that I have I can barely afford to try and fix this one.

This is my only means of transportation to and from doctors to the grocery store and the pharmacies that I have to go to to pick up medications. So if you can help please do I can't say that I can give anything back in return but everything will be greatly appreciated.

Thank you very much.

I will be replacing the timing belt water pump timing belt tensioner also the camshaft positioning sensor camshaft intake and exhaust rocker arms rocker arm shafts seals valve cover gaskets upper and lower radiator hoses and thermostat serpentine idler pulley spark plugs plug wires and also may be the coil heater hoses and serpentine belts on my 2004 Dodge neon 2.0 L engine.

We'll be posting a video on the disassembly and reassembly of said parts will not be taking off the head all parts according to manual and online videos say that all these parts can be replaced inside the vehicle without removing the head also will be checking for soldier compression and cylinder leakage the car has over 93,000 miles so it's time to replace the timing belt and from visual inspections it looks like all the belts and hoses are original.

Will have to buy some specialty tools, three finger harmonic balancer puller and harmonic balancer installation tool and will have to buy some new torque wrenches which I have already priced at $161.00 plus tax.

Parts will range from $191.00 for the camshaft $91.00 for the timing set including water pump and tensioner pulley upper and lower radiator hoses are about $21.00 spark plugs are about $6.00 each X4 about $8.00 for the thermostat $21 for the intake rocker arms X8 $42.00 for the exhaust rocker arms X4 and $22.00 for the intake and exhaust rocker arm shafts camshaft positioning sensor is about $22.00 and a bunch of odds and ends which I do not know how much they are going to cost yet.

my uncle had been in the hospital since early December, and was diagnosed with leukemia beginning stages of it but because of his age it was very aggressive and they had to put him on a ventilator before Christmas, because of his breathing was labored everything was touch and go some days he was very responsive and some days he was not.

On Saturday they did a biopsy and the doctor that performed it said that there was no sign of cancer anymore but later that night started vomiting when they were trying to feed him so they did a CAT scan and found a large mass in his stomach and did a biopsy on it and found it was a very aggressive cancerous mass in his stomach and the family got together and signed a DNR and yesterday they took him off of the ventilator and he passed away later that evening.

Thank you, Bob for opening your house to me when I was younger and being a very good friend for many years I did learn a lot from you and I am sorry that you had to go that way, Daniel Lowery.

My cousin will be spending three weeks a month at my aunt's house is mothers, and I will be spending a week there when he is gone just to take care of my aunt and make sure that she is okay and can get to her doctors appointments and everything else she needs to do or if there is any emergency somebody is there.

I don't know when the funeral is going to be or anything, I am waiting by the phone so I can find out more information.

Pandr Panda

Well I was going to get a 2TB W. D. Green hard drive at the beginning of the month for $77.98 at Amazon but my car through a rear brake shoe and now it is grinding metal to metal in the right rear brake so I will be buying a new set of brake shoes and rear brake springs and drums and wheel cylinders can get all of this at RochAuto.com for $66.79 and $25.00 for the shipping and I can have new rear brakes on the car.

my main OS drive died the other day have been spending the past two days reinstalling all programs OS and everything still not finished yet, this means Little Fur's Productions is down for a little while until I can get those other programs installed back on the computer but I will have to get a bigger hard drive using a backup hard drive right now which is only 150 GB and just loading the main OS Windows 10 and some basic programs that I use daily have used up most of the storage on that hard drive.

Published on Jul 15, 2015

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"Don't Stop Belivin"
Artists Marci, Tavi Munk and Reva The Scart

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Xander my boyfriend, mate will be here on Thursday, will pick him up at the bus station in Lakeland at roughly 9:30 PM, have been cleaning the house for the past couple of days getting ready for his arrival, we will be going out to eat some time when he gets in have really not decided where were going to go hoping to make it very special for him and will be going somewhere to watch fireworks on the 4th.

And we will be going to megaplex, hope to see a lot of you there.

Love you very very much baby butt.

I just have to fix what I found, after reviewing wiring diagrams for my 04 Dodge neon and actually tracing down the wiring harnesses on the car I found a sub-wiring harness that somebody had moved in a wrong way it loops under the subframe when it should actually go over top of the frame so it does not come in contact with the ground it also appears that somebody has spliced into some of the wiring at this point, this wiring goes to the right front marker light and also the windshield washer fluid pump my front marker lights do not work and neither does the windshield washer fluid pump three of the wires and the harness are exposed and broken where it appears that somebody tried to spliced them but did a very bad job of doing so, I guess said there are three broken wires but I only have five contacts so I have to trace down one of the wires inside the harness so I have all three of the wires to put back together and then maybe everything else will work properly I will redirect the wiring harness the way it should have been done begin with so it no longer comes in contact with the ground, all this means is I have to cut back some of the plastic casing make sure that I have the right wire going to the right place and then reading casing the wiring harness.


I also found that I do not have a Jack or lug wrench so I will be buying one of those for the vehicle do not like going around without a Jack just in case something does go wrong on the road and hazard markers.


On the electrical problem "#15 fuse 15A" was burnt out I used a fuse from the fuse box same amperage and all of the running lights seem to work fine except the front marker lights so that's when I started tracing down the wiring problem and found the broken harness and I was going to jack up the car so I can get under their better to work on it and found I didn't have a Jack, so now I will have to go get one of those some fusible links and some small gauge wire and that should solve the electrical problems.

Previous picture of car https://www.furaffinity.net/view/15935061/

Published on Feb 20, 2015
Little Fur's Productions "Fly Like Eagle"
Musical Artist Steve Miller
Artwork by Taiv Munk
Video by Pandr

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First I'd like to thank everybody who read my last journal commented here and on Facebook.

Well I think I have it fixed and I did not have to recover the system it was a hardware problem, a memory stick went out on me and was causing a whole bunch of problems figured this out by pulling all the cards and then pulling all the memory sticks and replacing them one by one until I found the bad stick so I do have to get a couple of new sticks, but everything seems to be working okay now.

Main computer messed up So I am probably will be down for a while Writing this on my little Samsung's tablet Totals systems errors and getting the blue screen of death Tried my systems recovery desk but that did not work also tried the main recovery disk and that does not work

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1. What's my full name?

2. How old am I?

3. When is my birthday?

4. What's my favorite color?

5. Who's my best friend?

6. Who am I in love with?

First I would like to say I had a very nice Christmas, best one in years spent with my sister and brother and his mother and father and other sisters, my sister carried on the tradition of giving away a portable drinking mug filled with pistachios something my mother used to do every year and that really means a lot because I always looked forward to getting that.

Okay last Sunday everything was going okay had eaten dinner Jimmy's had left and I was sitting down to a nice quiet evening of video gaming and watching TV and maybe talking with Xander we still had half a movie to watch that I downloaded from a bit torrent "The Maze Runner" but all of a sudden I started getting a pain in my stomach lower part of my chest area just under the rib cage.

And it was getting worse first I thought it was acid indigestion so I took a couple of offbrand Rolaids did not touch this pain so I tried a couple of chewable Pepto-Bismol tablets and 10 min. later I was calling the EMS. My lower abdomen was his heart is a brick when they got to my house, and we started off to the hospital the ambulance attendant took my EKG six times when up to the front of the ambulance three times and talked with the driver next thing I know all of the lights were on and they upgraded my condition from whatever they start you out with and put me on critical it seems that the EKG was coming back with a blip on one of the leads which she checked several times she started two IVs and I could tell that the ambulance was moving pretty fast, they got me into the emergency room ran right into one of the reception areas and that's when the real fun began.

If you can call this fun, by now if you touched my stomach there was no movement very dense and hard and very, very, very painful, and all of the checking and poking and everything they determined that I had a intestinal blockage so they gave me two doses of Delighted which I really wasn't feeling anything after that, checked me and him got me into a room the next morning or late afternoon I really can't remember the timeframe but it was the next day they commence to putting a tube into my nose and believe me I hate it when they do that I've had that done four times before unsuccessfully but they got it in this time hooked me up to a vacuum and that remove the blockage, the bad thing was that I spent New Year's Eve and most of New Year's Day in the hospital, I do have to commend the people at Manatee Medical Hospital for having a very caring and knowledgeable staff, A very good friend Jimmy AKA Squeaky Bunny for just being there, as he has been in the past, and Xander for sending me all of the voicemails I listened to all of them I am sorry I could not reply back to you or get a hold of you while I was in the hospital.


So I would like to say "I hope everybody is having a good new year" I know I don't post a lot but I hope that your new year is going to go 10,000 times better than mine did..

For the past couple weeks now.
I used to play these way back when they were first released on PlayStation, now I have found them on Amazon for PC download ranging in prices from $2.49 $4.49 those of you who have already played these games know that they are very challenging, or should I say extremely hard, almost fur pulling out hard, along with hair.

The first game "Oddworld Abe's Oddysee (yes that is the correct spelling) Is extremely hard,

hhere is a review that I found online that you might find useful, this is for the first game.

"If you like modern platform games, then we recommend you to try this great one. OddWorld: Abe's Oddysee is a really cool game, set in a fantasy world where wildlife resources have become depleted and Molluck the Glukkon, Abe's boss at the meat processing factory, decides to use Mudokon slaves as source of meat. It other words, he wants to kill you and your fellows. So you escape the factory, and you will try to save as many Mudokons as you can.

OddWorld: Abe's Oddysee features a very innovative game-play that, together with the great graphics and animations, makes of it an outstanding platform game, despite of being just in 2D. You will have to creep, walk, run, roll, hoist, jump and crouch to overcome a series of obstacles. Characters in this game have no hit points, meaning that being attacked (shot or mauled) causes instant death, but you will respawn at the latest checkpoint. You can save Mudokons by activating Bird Portals, that sort of teleports near them. The game also includes a lot of other attractive features, so just try the game, because you will most certainly like it."

And the video clip is from you to a walk-through for the first game. It is 1 hour 36 min. and 23 seconds, and that is part one

https://youtu.be/hv6mC8zmY2I

But if you are into very hard strategy games that take a lot of patience and are very aggravating, download it and check it out, I do advise if you are playing this on a PC tthat you get a game controller for PC in the old PS 1 style.

And tell me what you think, I am playing the last game in this series right now and I will be getting the newest one which is in 3-D call "Oddworld New 'N' Tasty" which just came out this year for PS3, PS4 and will be released later for PC, here is a video clip for that one.

https://youtu.be/i_OHdZpx0_0

got a call today from someone claiming to be from "Microsoft" saying that my computer was infected with a very serious virus.

Call me with an unavailable number, that was my first clue that that was a scam and then when he said that he was from "Microsoft" calling with a unavailable number I knew this was a scam before he said anything else.

Just letting you guys know that they are still out there and they are trying to get personal information don't give it to them, have been using Windows software sense OS 3.11 and I have never had Microsoft call me to tell me that my computer had a virus even when my computer had a virus..

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Imagine Dragons "I Bet My Life"
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For saying Happy Birthday, Tanks

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KISS "God Gave Rock 'N' Roll To You"
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