I'm so bad at keeping up my artwork.. and my journals. And... other things.

I'm in a weird place in my life right now. Caught between shores I suppose.

I'm going t get metaphorical with my emotions right now, because I just don't feel like being normal.

The past couple weeks of my life are kind of like this.



You know that feeling when you're sailing on a boat? The sun in your eyes, the wind in your hair. You're happy, content to allow the boat to have you as it's passenger, wherever it's going.

Suddenly, dark clouds loom on the horizon, and before you know it a storm is upon you. You aren't happy anymore, you're cold, frightened, and you feel helpless against the forces you can't control. The storm ends before too long, but the sun never quite comes out from behind the clouds, and the wind bites you as it whips past. You desperately want to stay in the boat, but somewhere in that storm it sprung a leak. You stay with it for as long as you can, but you work up the courage to jump off and swim.

The water is calm now, and you're swimming as best you can, drifting in the ocean. After a while, the water gets the best of you and you feel yourself being pulled down, the water slowly creeping up past your mouth, nose, eyes.

You're sinking. You're dying. You're cold. And worst, you're alone.

You give up, and just as you're about to let the cold water enter your lungs, someone is there, pulling you up. You feel his arms around you and your head breaches the surface. You breath air.

You somehow know, these arms, this person, you'll be happier with them then you ever were on the boat. Instead of just coasting, drifting along with no purpose, no direction, you're fighting together to find that warm sandy beach.

It still isn't anywhere in sight, but you know that as long as you're both still looking for it together. You'll get there. Someday.

Just thought I'd pop on and say happy valentines to anyone who might read this. Work and other personal issues have prevented me from posting much work... ever. I am however working currently on a pretty ambitious (for me) picture to showcase some new techniques I've been trying in photoshop. I was hoping to have it posted around valentines as it's a valentines present for my mate, but I'm not sure if I'll be able to meet that deadline anymore. ^^; Either way, I hope you'll come back and check it out when it finally does get posted. Ciao! <3

Hello to alllllll my loyal and loving fans! *coughs and looks around* Well, there's a couple of you out there somewhere. Thanks to my bf i now have his old laptop, and what better way to break in a new laptop than with a journal on the void wastes of my profile!

And so i announce, for the second time, a triumphant return to fa! I'm quite busy with work and all those unfinished video games so I'm not sure how often I'll be posting any pictures, but please, by all means feel free to suggest anything you'd like. To help me get back in shape for school I'm going to take on as many requests as i can< so please let me know what you'd like me to draw, and I'll see what I can do!

I've missed you all very much!
Aleyus <3

Stolen from Fuzzy ^^

[x] public speaking
[x] staying single forever
[x] rejection
[x] being a parent
[ ] giving birth
[ ] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[ ] closed spaces (being buried alive, locked in a closet)
[ ] heights
[ ] dogs
[ ] fish
[ ] spiders
[ ] flowers or other plants
[ ] Steve Jobs
[ ] being touched
[ ] fire
[ ] deep water
[ ] snakes
[ ] silk
[ ] the ocean
[x] failure
[ ] success
[ ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[ ] rats
[x] jumping from high places (into what, exactly?)
[ ] snow
[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] crossing hanging bridges
[x] death
[ ] heaven
[ ] being robbed
[ ] falling
[x] clowns
[ ] dolls
[ ] large crowds of people
[ ] men
[ ] women
[ ] having great responsibilities
[ ] doctors, including dentists
[ ] tornadoes
[ ] hurricanes
[ ] incurable diseases
[ ] sharks
[ ] Friday 13
[ ] ghosts
[x] poverty (ew, the homeless. i poke you with a moneystick!)
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[ ] being alone
[ ] becoming blind
[ ] becoming deaf
[x] growing up (heh, more like growing OLD)
[ ] creepy noises in the night
[ ] bee stings
[ ] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[ ] needles
[ ] blood
[ ] dinosaurs
[ ] the welcome mat
[ ] high speed
[ ] throwing up
[ ] falling in love
[ ] Steve Ballmer

Nuff said in the title lol. I'm getting really tired of all my pictures being that ugly grey from my camera, instead of the beautiful pristine white they should be!! Perhaps my next Paycheck will go towards a scanner, or something.. Oh well. Until then perhaps I'll just use the local printing shops scanner. But thats just awquard. >.> specially some of the pictures I have drawn...

<3

Im bored and figured it was probably time to scrap that old journal anyways >.>

I have absolutely no idea what to draw now, so I guess if you have any ideas leave em here and maybe it'll inspire me!

I'd like to wish all the furries around the world a very fuzzy holiday season! Happy holidays!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Also, I will try to be posting some holiday related art soon, yay, so please hold tight while I work like crazy to have them finished in the next few days o.O

Once again, may all your holiday wished come true!

Sorry, I haven't posted anything in FOREVER! The fates have conspired against me, so I have very limited internet access, no way to get my pictures onto the computer, and I'm a little drained from all that's going on..

I have found my inspiration again, so I'm gonna start doing some pictures, you never know, maybe a few will find their way here!

Well, yesterday my boyfriend decided to break up with me, the day after the death of my Grandmother, whom I was very close to. The whole ordeal has shaken the very foundation of my life, and I have spent the past 24 hours or so in a state of emotionsl turmoil. I hate to make this my second journal, because I was looking foreward to all the pictures I was going to post of us. Unfortunately the whole ordeal has left me somewhat inspiration-drained, and anything I do crank out will most likely be nothing more than depressing doodles.

I've only been a furry for, lets see... 3 days now! I'm still getting used to the concept but I am ready and eager to learn. I'd like to thank my good friend Tensor Darkwing for bringing me into the Fandom! I'm always looking for new friends and ideas for pictures.