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It's not a simple disagreement.
Posted 6 hours agoThe following journal is going to upset a lot of people, but i have some thoughts.
I want to start by saying I don’t condone the murder of my political opponents, but I’m not going to mourn the death of Charlie Kirk and I won’t be condemning the celebrations of it and I have my reasons.
I also won’t be celebrating his killer either. There will be tangents.
I have something I want to get off my chest. I’m getting really sick and tired of people boiling political discourse down to “just opinions”. This is NOT simple disagreement. A simple disagreement is when you are debating whether you prefer sausage on a pizza or peperoni. Debating if transgender people should exist, that they not be tossed into asylums is NOT simple disagreement.
Imagine being a trans person having to debate whether or not you should be locked up. Imagine being a person of color having to do the same. Imagine a lunatic slashes the throat of a innocent stranger and having yourself be lumped in with the lunatic. You are all the problem. You could condemn such a vile act, but you are part of the lunatics race and am responsible for the lunatic.
Marginalized people mind their own business doing nothing remotely morally objectionable are flashbanged by the same grenade. And after this guy’s death, the right will do everything in it’s power to target people minding their own damn business and trying to survive through the day because they are angry by statistics. Doesn’t matter if those stats are true or not, they are angry as a individual not white or straight, YOU are the problem.
You draw porn, they hate that. You use welfare just to survive, they hate that too. You want to be your true self and dress and act the way you want and they hate you. All because you just so happen to be a part of the same group of a individual that hurt them. Or worse, you’re not living the way their god demands you to live.
I get it, I use to be a centrist, you guys know that. I would always try to see the issues as a both sides thing. Actually, I was worse . . . I grew to be a bitter hyper conservative due to the influences around me and all the people who would validate my stupid stupid opinions. I use to have a crisis of thought. I see crime statistics and ask myself if I should hate my own race. The reality of course is that didn’t really matter. In conservative eyes, if you’re anything but a white male, you’re a born sinner. It’s wild to me people who are lgbt and people of color will willingly lean on a side that would just so easily turn on them.
I could understand having issues with the left. The left has issues, but why would you trade one wrong for a side that is even worse? I don’t really get the thinking at all. During my time trying to be that, all I could think about is all the self-loathing apparently I must feel for myself. You’d be surprised how often I ended up in those groups and had to performatively hate what I am all the while the same group condemns everything I stand for. I’m just a sick person in that eyes in need of a conversion, but of course, I cant change my skin color so it didn’t really matter what I do because in the end, they’ll turn on me.
Honestly it’s wild to me people immediately go conservative because some feminist said their favorite video game is sexist. I came to a conclusion that I don’t have to agree with everything someone on the left says even If I’m on the same side. Its funny how easy that was.
People will destroy everyone around them so their video games aren’t woke. That’s the insanity of it all. Wokeness, a term I thought I got but now i don’t anymore. If you ask any of the people shouting to the rooftops about woke this or that, you’ll get a myriad of answers. I’ve gotten both reasonable and unreasonable answers. Like did you know, wokeness has been a problem sense the 90s because something something civil rights, something something affirmative action?
And you notice, the grifters, the ones who make a assload of videos about what is and isn’t woke? Oh man, there’s a lot of infighting about that. I personally don’t care anymore about it.
But you know, even if I did in my own way of what I thought it meant, doesn’t mean the conclusion is that certain groups of people must be stripped of their rights. I just hated bad writing. I just never liked bad writing or bad art in general. Not because there’s diversity of any kind, forced or otherwise. Actually it’s a good thing there’s POC and LGBT people in media. We live in a time that we can have that and there’s no executive being all antsy about it’s inclusion. Maybe that game is bad because it’s bad art and not because the main character is trans.
I don’t know where I’m going with this anymore. I have a adhd brain and it’s all over the place as I process the trajectory of my own country. To wrap around to my point, its not a difference of opinion if you have to debate your living existence. People aren’t angry because they have to debate whatever color of car they like. They’re watching their rights in real time be stripped away and asshats are saying “why are you mad at a disagreement? You should debate me why your rights shouldn't be stripped away”.
We’ve had this asshat in office and every person who voted for him tries to convince me it’s a good thing he’s there and not the other asshat. Honestly, it frustrates me that people will vote blue/red no matter who instead of collectively going “Hey, maybe we should stop voting asshats into office”. Yeah, I’m centrist on this specific point because it floors me how the right wing will mock those saying “Vote blue no matter who” when they do the same but red. So much hypocrisy.
In any case, I wonder how that Trump presidency has been doing. Seems like its been doing pretty fucking shitty. I can’t wait for my medical benefits to be pulled because I’m not working the proper kind of job.
I really don’t know where this journal is going. The right now says they’re going to be in office forever. I can’t wait because I’m going to be resisting till I’m jailed. I guess this is the world some people want because they hate me and people like me. But they are the victims and I’m wrong if I don’t want to be on the fascist side.
“Christians don’t hate gays, they love all sinners”Kamen Rider Zeztz Watch Together Starts Next Week
Posted a week agoLikely I'll stream it during art streams.
The time will possibly be during the weekday in the afternoon.
I may also do repeat streaming through out the week of each episode.
Here's the trailer.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lyQrLTVGKfU
If you want to watch this feel free to join!
The time will possibly be during the weekday in the afternoon.
I may also do repeat streaming through out the week of each episode.
Here's the trailer.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lyQrLTVGKfU
If you want to watch this feel free to join!
I'm out of food.
Posted a week agoKind of. All I got left is some rice.
I already paid rent, but I haven't made enough for groceries.
If anyone can help me out that be much appreciated.
You can do so in either two ways.
Buy a commission
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51283801/
Donate to My Ko-fi!
https://ko-fi.com/A4152L60
Or just spread the word.
I still want to thank those who helped with my rent already and sorry if I been asking a lot.
For clarity, i need to survive about 10 days until my ebt refills on the 10th.
I'm writing again!
Posted a week ago16 pages of a script!? Holy shit. I'm having it proof read by a few mutuals, but I think allowing my brain to relax really helps. Here's hoping this become a future comic I can share with you all!
Not Enough For Rent Yet
Posted a week agoI want to start by thanking those who've donated already to help me.
Even if it's not quite enough, you've been forever helpful and I don't take that for granted.
As we approach the end of the month, I'm still short on rent (I also need help with groceries)
If anyone wants to help they can either donate to my ko-fi or buy a commission!
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51283801/
Ko-Fi
https://ko-fi.com/A4152L60
Goals:
I need about $50 extra for rent.
For groceries, I need about $200
Even if it's not quite enough, you've been forever helpful and I don't take that for granted.
As we approach the end of the month, I'm still short on rent (I also need help with groceries)
If anyone wants to help they can either donate to my ko-fi or buy a commission!
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51283801/
Ko-Fi
https://ko-fi.com/A4152L60
Goals:
I need about $50 extra for rent.
For groceries, I need about $200
I don't like asking for help.
Posted 2 weeks agoI hope this journal doesn't upset anyone, I'm just venting out my frustrations here.
I've gotten one very cheap commission in these last few weeks.
I can't much afford many things on that budget, to be honest. It's not enough.
The end of the month is coming, rent is coming and I may also be dealing with food shortage too.
Is it going to be the norm that I'll have to beg for help at the last minute?
I'm doing my best to get the work done, and it's all I been focused on, but it's getting a bit frustrating.
I don't want to be ungrateful to the help I am given or anything or force people to have to pay for my work.
But, it feels like nothing I do is helpful. I've even tried things like adding new tiers and adjusting my prices.
Fun Fact: I have much fewer commissions for lower tiers than I do for higher tiers. I think some people think the higher tiers are too expensive and despite that don't bother get any of the lower tiers they could afford. No clue why other than maybe it's a quality thing. It seems they rather get a fully colored and clean piece than a sketch, so don't bother at all. But I'm only adjusting the prices based on my own labor. I don't want to work at a lost.
I been told my commission reminder journals are annoying, but I'm only spamming them because A) I urgently need money for rent (and probably groceries) and B) usually I'm only spamming these at times I don't get any commissions at all. I'm on a timer and the journals will just gradually get more annoyingly desperate.
I don't know what to do but keep shilling until I guess I have to be that desperate again.
I despise asking for help. I really do. I don't enjoy this at all. I rather things run smoothly and I get things done.
How many emergencies do I have to go through? Am I just really bad at this?
I want to be clear if you can't afford anything or you can't help, I'm not trying to force you to do so.
Maybe I'm just really unlucky right now.
In any case, I am open for commissions:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51283801/
You can also donate to my ko-fi if you just want to help out.
https://ko-fi.com/A4152L60
I always say any amount is fine. Not because it's enough, but because It can add up.
So seriously, don't feel bad if you can only throw like $3 at me. I don't see that as a negative.
The reality is it may not be enough to help me, but It's not like I'm going to be upset.
I just really hope I can make it towards the end of the month. I just wish I didn't have to make journals like this.
I've gotten one very cheap commission in these last few weeks.
I can't much afford many things on that budget, to be honest. It's not enough.
The end of the month is coming, rent is coming and I may also be dealing with food shortage too.
Is it going to be the norm that I'll have to beg for help at the last minute?
I'm doing my best to get the work done, and it's all I been focused on, but it's getting a bit frustrating.
I don't want to be ungrateful to the help I am given or anything or force people to have to pay for my work.
But, it feels like nothing I do is helpful. I've even tried things like adding new tiers and adjusting my prices.
Fun Fact: I have much fewer commissions for lower tiers than I do for higher tiers. I think some people think the higher tiers are too expensive and despite that don't bother get any of the lower tiers they could afford. No clue why other than maybe it's a quality thing. It seems they rather get a fully colored and clean piece than a sketch, so don't bother at all. But I'm only adjusting the prices based on my own labor. I don't want to work at a lost.
I been told my commission reminder journals are annoying, but I'm only spamming them because A) I urgently need money for rent (and probably groceries) and B) usually I'm only spamming these at times I don't get any commissions at all. I'm on a timer and the journals will just gradually get more annoyingly desperate.
I don't know what to do but keep shilling until I guess I have to be that desperate again.
I despise asking for help. I really do. I don't enjoy this at all. I rather things run smoothly and I get things done.
How many emergencies do I have to go through? Am I just really bad at this?
I want to be clear if you can't afford anything or you can't help, I'm not trying to force you to do so.
Maybe I'm just really unlucky right now.
In any case, I am open for commissions:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51283801/
You can also donate to my ko-fi if you just want to help out.
https://ko-fi.com/A4152L60
I always say any amount is fine. Not because it's enough, but because It can add up.
So seriously, don't feel bad if you can only throw like $3 at me. I don't see that as a negative.
The reality is it may not be enough to help me, but It's not like I'm going to be upset.
I just really hope I can make it towards the end of the month. I just wish I didn't have to make journals like this.
Rent Reminder
Posted 2 weeks agoReminder I'm open for commissions
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/11203238/
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/11203238/
Commissions Reminder - Rent and other stuff
Posted 2 weeks agoRent is coming up soonish so I guess it's time for a reminder.
I am open for commissions. Always open really.
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51283801/
You can also help me out by donating to my ko-fi if you want to.
https://ko-fi.com/A4152L60
My gnat problem is being solved as we speak, so I'll focus on this other stuff.
I'm currently trying to get work dones and will be trying to stream more too!Discord Server Reboot - Art and Sharing
Posted 3 weeks agoI just recently did a reboot for my discord server.
I reduced the channels to most used (which are the art and sharing channels)
If you ever wanted to be apart of a community to share fun stuff or to share your work, feel free to join it.
https://discord.gg/MdAaScnZuU
Fair Warning that their currently no discussion channels. You can comment on posts shared but keep general discussion to a minimum. MUST BE 18 YEARS OR OLDER TO JOIN!
I reduced the channels to most used (which are the art and sharing channels)
If you ever wanted to be apart of a community to share fun stuff or to share your work, feel free to join it.
https://discord.gg/MdAaScnZuU
Fair Warning that their currently no discussion channels. You can comment on posts shared but keep general discussion to a minimum. MUST BE 18 YEARS OR OLDER TO JOIN!
Need Help With Service Fee for Groceries
Posted a month agoI normally get my groceries delivered.
I can't drive, don't have a car and I live far away from a grocery store.
My ebt has filled today, but they often charge a service fee based on the amount of groceries you buy.
I estimate it being about $20 but could be more.
If anyone is willing to help you can do so by either donating to my ko-fi
https://ko-fi.com/A4152L60
Or purchasing a commission!
[hugethumb]3236353[/hugethumb]About The Kamen Rider Watch Together
Posted a month agoSeptember 7th is when the show airs.
I don't know if I'll stream when episodes air or if I'll do it later in the week.
Its heavily dependent on where the episodes are streaming.
If its youtube, I'll be doing it through cytube. Any other places, I'll do it through discord.
If you miss a episode, you have to play catch-up on your own.
I want people to seek out the streaming sites to watch the episodes for themselves if they want.
I wont have a set group of people joining in this way and instead it'll be anyone can join and leave any time they want. Think of it like my typical art streams.
My goal is that I'll stream each episode all day on that day and let people come to watch for repeat viewings. You can come hang out, laugh, cry and enjoy the stream.
How you guys feel about that?
I'll be watching the episodes before I stream them so you guys will have my attention.
I don't know if I'll stream when episodes air or if I'll do it later in the week.
Its heavily dependent on where the episodes are streaming.
If its youtube, I'll be doing it through cytube. Any other places, I'll do it through discord.
If you miss a episode, you have to play catch-up on your own.
I want people to seek out the streaming sites to watch the episodes for themselves if they want.
I wont have a set group of people joining in this way and instead it'll be anyone can join and leave any time they want. Think of it like my typical art streams.
My goal is that I'll stream each episode all day on that day and let people come to watch for repeat viewings. You can come hang out, laugh, cry and enjoy the stream.
How you guys feel about that?
I'll be watching the episodes before I stream them so you guys will have my attention.
Want to get into Kamen Rider?
Posted a month agoThe new season will air in September and it's also simoulcasting.
I've tried watch togethers in the past to no avail, but i want to do one that is successful.
So how do you guys feel about me hosting a public watch together anyone can join?
Here's the new trailer!
I've tried watch togethers in the past to no avail, but i want to do one that is successful.
So how do you guys feel about me hosting a public watch together anyone can join?
Here's the new trailer!
Benefits of a Public Discord Server?
Posted a month agoI'm asking how you guys feel about a public discord server.
I have one but it's long sense been dead and so I just decided to remove links to it.
I debated on a bunch of things including a reboot of a server, but I don't know.
I feel like it has to be something my audience would want to have.
How do you guys feel about public servers and artist servers in general?
Do you think maybe i should base it on a specific theme or do you prefer a server that is just a general community server for my audience in particular?
I have one but it's long sense been dead and so I just decided to remove links to it.
I debated on a bunch of things including a reboot of a server, but I don't know.
I feel like it has to be something my audience would want to have.
How do you guys feel about public servers and artist servers in general?
Do you think maybe i should base it on a specific theme or do you prefer a server that is just a general community server for my audience in particular?
Commissions Reminder!
Posted a month agoHey guys. Just a reminder, I am open for commissions.
Currently trying to survive the week until next week (the tenth), but it would be nice to have a buffer.
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51283801/Reminder - Still need grocery help!
Posted a month agoI managed to get a few, but not sure how long they'll last for the next 2 weeks.
If anyone wants a commission or just want to help out, commission sheet and ko-fi below.
Ko-Fi - https://ko-fi.com/A4152L60
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51283801/Ask Questions for my AMA!
Posted a month agoI've recently created a character lore AMA for people who want to ask questions about my OCs!
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/11186066/
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/11186066/
Commissions Reminder +Thank you for the help!
Posted a month agoI'm not entirely out of the frying pan, but i want to thank you guys for helping me out so far.
I just want to remind peeps comms are open. If you want one now is the time.
I'm currently going through the queue as we speak. I have rent now. I just need a little extra for groceries.
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51283801/Character Lore AMA Part 1
Posted a month agoI figure I try a more focused Ask Me Anythings on my OCs as opposed to myself.
If you ever wanted to know a bit more about my main characters, now's the opportunity.
I may do multiples of these on different characters.
Here is some Information on Each Character.
Note that I'm intentionally leaving stuff out for your questions.
Panty Bunsel
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Age: 19
Character Overview:
A rambunctious rabbit with a passion for adventure, Panty can at best be described as the type of character who's always curious of the world around him and allows that to drive his actions. He can be anywhere and everywhere at once, popping up in the strangest places. This is afforded to him by his job as a Star Surveyor. A gig economy style occupation involving space travel and planet discovery. Its this job that allows him to earn a living which he uses most of the time to buy all manner of anime and tokusatsu hero show dvds and the merchandise there of. He's bit of avid geeky collector of the sort of stuff and seems to be driven by it.
He also has a insatiable sexual appetite. It's best to assume Panty is pansexual as he tend to get around ALOT with all manner of species. This can be a detriment to his priorities and goals as he can get very easily swept up in his own perversions. In this way, he's not so much a flirt as he's not very good at the art of seduction, instead he's a bit blunt about his feelings. This is the norm for him as he wears his feelings on his chest and is always out and open about them.
Despite his lack of seduction, funny enough, he's amassed quite a large amount of sexual partners.
Jasper Ozzy Olivers Felidae'
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Age: 23
Character Overview:
Ozzy is a space pirate with some pretty unforgivable qualities. He's insanely selfish, aggressively vain and quite the cheat. In Fact, cheating and deception seems to be his main quality as he's quite the pragmatic and will take in advantage he's given regardless of the circumstances. For better or worse, he's quite good at it as well, but despite that it's often a crutch to mask his short comings which he's quick to be in denial about.
Other such unsavory qualities he possess is his foul mouth, almost a uncontrolled habit he has where he can't construct sentences without adding some colorful language in between them. Also having a rich and pampered upbringing has made him classist almost to a racist degree. He's often the type to look down on the downtrodden and poor almost as if he's making up for some insecurities about himself. He also happens to be insanely misogynistic to an absurd degree.
It almost seems like he's a character full of terrible qualities, but despite it all, he's got a high intellect, though not as high as he believes he is, especially in comparison to other geniuses. He's a skilled tinkerer and mechanic though he has a strong habit for modification, often adding strange and unnecessary features to the tech he uses. And despite being borderline abusive to his crew mates, he's amassed a loyalty that couldn't be commodified and strangely not through fear or in a coercive sort of way. His crew genuinely loves him. Possibly due to some hidden kindness and generosity he hides deep under the surface.
As far as sexual qualities go, Ozzy is quite seductive and flirty though he's majorly picky about his sexual partners and tries to carry himself with a bit of class and dignity.
If you ever wanted to know a bit more about my main characters, now's the opportunity.
I may do multiples of these on different characters.
Here is some Information on Each Character.
Note that I'm intentionally leaving stuff out for your questions.
Panty Bunsel
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Age: 19
Character Overview:
A rambunctious rabbit with a passion for adventure, Panty can at best be described as the type of character who's always curious of the world around him and allows that to drive his actions. He can be anywhere and everywhere at once, popping up in the strangest places. This is afforded to him by his job as a Star Surveyor. A gig economy style occupation involving space travel and planet discovery. Its this job that allows him to earn a living which he uses most of the time to buy all manner of anime and tokusatsu hero show dvds and the merchandise there of. He's bit of avid geeky collector of the sort of stuff and seems to be driven by it.
He also has a insatiable sexual appetite. It's best to assume Panty is pansexual as he tend to get around ALOT with all manner of species. This can be a detriment to his priorities and goals as he can get very easily swept up in his own perversions. In this way, he's not so much a flirt as he's not very good at the art of seduction, instead he's a bit blunt about his feelings. This is the norm for him as he wears his feelings on his chest and is always out and open about them.
Despite his lack of seduction, funny enough, he's amassed quite a large amount of sexual partners.
Jasper Ozzy Olivers Felidae'
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Age: 23
Character Overview:
Ozzy is a space pirate with some pretty unforgivable qualities. He's insanely selfish, aggressively vain and quite the cheat. In Fact, cheating and deception seems to be his main quality as he's quite the pragmatic and will take in advantage he's given regardless of the circumstances. For better or worse, he's quite good at it as well, but despite that it's often a crutch to mask his short comings which he's quick to be in denial about.
Other such unsavory qualities he possess is his foul mouth, almost a uncontrolled habit he has where he can't construct sentences without adding some colorful language in between them. Also having a rich and pampered upbringing has made him classist almost to a racist degree. He's often the type to look down on the downtrodden and poor almost as if he's making up for some insecurities about himself. He also happens to be insanely misogynistic to an absurd degree.
It almost seems like he's a character full of terrible qualities, but despite it all, he's got a high intellect, though not as high as he believes he is, especially in comparison to other geniuses. He's a skilled tinkerer and mechanic though he has a strong habit for modification, often adding strange and unnecessary features to the tech he uses. And despite being borderline abusive to his crew mates, he's amassed a loyalty that couldn't be commodified and strangely not through fear or in a coercive sort of way. His crew genuinely loves him. Possibly due to some hidden kindness and generosity he hides deep under the surface.
As far as sexual qualities go, Ozzy is quite seductive and flirty though he's majorly picky about his sexual partners and tries to carry himself with a bit of class and dignity.
Okay, Urgently Need Grocery/Rent Help!
Posted a month agoRent isn't as urgent as groceries, but food is dwindling or expired.
Sense my last journal on this I haven't gotten any new commissions
and admittedly donations haven't been enough to help.
I been trying to refrain from saying this as I don't want to sound ungrateful by the help given.
But that is currently the honest situation.
I need help, badly. I don't know how to express this enough.
Things aren't looking good for the next few days.
I know I may have exhausted a lot of help already, but things don't seem to be easily fixed.
I want to do the best I can within my power, but I do need a bit more help.
As such, I have two methods you can help me.
You can buy a commission!
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51283801/
Or you can donate just a bit through my ko-fi @ https://ko-fi.com/A4152L60
Note: While I appreciate people who want to commission me in the future, please refrain from contacting me only to tell me you'll commission me much later. I've gotten a few of these and it often gets kind of frustrating. I don't want to sound ungrateful, but if you're contacting me for a commission, do so when you're actually going to do it then and there. I hope this doesn't upset some people. I want to point out that very very often a person will just forget about wanting to commission me, that's partially the issue why it's frustrating.Grocery Help!
Posted a month agoI guess I didn't calculate for things going bad and it's time to replenish groceries!
If anyone is willing to help you can do so through these usual 2 methods
Either buy a commission
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51283801/
Or donate to my Ko-Fi!
https://ko-fi.com/A4152L60Patreon Exclusives? Probably.
Posted 2 months agoI seriously need a second revenue stream, so in the coming weeks, I'll be focused on patreon exclusive content. I think comics are a uphill battle I'm not prepared to make so instead, I'll be focusing on pin-ups and pornographic content.
I'll update you guys in a few weeks once I got things prepared, but that is my current direction.
As usual, if you would like to support me, feel free to do so through my patreon.
https://www.patreon.com/c/pantyranger
I'll update you guys in a few weeks once I got things prepared, but that is my current direction.
As usual, if you would like to support me, feel free to do so through my patreon.
https://www.patreon.com/c/pantyranger
Need House Stuff!
Posted 2 months agoI need garbage bags and toilet paper (before I run out!)
If you want a commission now's the time!
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51283801/
You can also donate to my ko-fi if you just want to support me.
Sorry for all the random emergencies, just one of those few months.
https://ko-fi.com/A4152L60
I tended to buy this stuff in bulk so this is the first time I'm running out!Reminder - Commissions!
Posted 2 months agoI need a bit to last me until the 10th, (I been living off mostly sandwiches)
If anyone wants a commission, now is the time. Currently working through the queue as we speak!
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51283801/About Patreon (And SubscribeStar)
Posted 2 months agoI been struggling for a while trying to figure out what I want to do with these sites.
Given my money issues, it's something I have to seriously think about.
But, I don't know if people will be willing to support me with either of these things.
I actually want to use both sites to promote original work. I don't want to tie them to commissions because I rant into issues doing that before.
I'm considering trying to do more exclusive art to these sites, especially of the nsfw variety with a time exclusive format where the work will be released a month or two after it's been posted to the site.
I also really want to do comics I can monetize to the sites as well. Though that is easier said than done, tbf. Comics have been a struggle for me to do for years.
What you guys think?
Right now, they are just a tipjar. You can support them through these links.
https://subscribestar.adult/pantygremlin
https://www.patreon.com/c/pantyranger
Given my money issues, it's something I have to seriously think about.
But, I don't know if people will be willing to support me with either of these things.
I actually want to use both sites to promote original work. I don't want to tie them to commissions because I rant into issues doing that before.
I'm considering trying to do more exclusive art to these sites, especially of the nsfw variety with a time exclusive format where the work will be released a month or two after it's been posted to the site.
I also really want to do comics I can monetize to the sites as well. Though that is easier said than done, tbf. Comics have been a struggle for me to do for years.
What you guys think?
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Art and Purpose
Posted 3 months agoI never know how many people will read journals like this,
but I been wanting to talk about this publicly for a while.
Lately I been thinking about both what the purpose of my art will be and my future.
For the longest I been living sporadically off commissions. It's my main source of income after all.
But for years outside of that, I been trying to give a hook for my art, a purpose to it.
. . . and failing at that. I mean how long has it been I've wanted to make comics after all?
In the latter years of my time online I started to slowly give up on the goal only to crawl right back to it.
It's a goal I feel some people in my life that known me for a long time have lost faith in me achieving.
But, I always felt my work aimless and without anything to draw people in.
Hence the need to make comics. To be fair, comics weren't the only thing I was trying to do.
Game Development? Animation? Anything I can do with my art other than provide pretty pictures, and in some ways failing at that. After all, I been known for drawing a lot of "standing around". Something I'm painfully aware of. I been trying to burst out that bubble for the longest, but I often always get stuck on stuff.
Stuck on the "whats" and the "whys" and the "is's". It must be nerve wracking to deal with a person like me who can't just achieve the goals I set in place. I hope that people have patience in me but i never know how far that will go, right?
Often maybe it's pressure I create myself. The performance anxiety I have developed over time.
In any case, I need to do more. Do better. And in many cases, I probably need to do it now and soon rather than later.
I think I have a lot of issues I need to iron out with art. I'm slow for starters. A lot of that has to do with the fact that I often stop in the middle of work than continue because I'll draw an idea I have and suddenly want to change it in the middle of drawing or in general, something distracts me. ADHD is a bitch.
I think in the past, a lot of the reasons i gotten things done or been most creative was when i was around other creative people and that encouragement. But lately, I been alone. Very alone.
I live alone. I'm even alone online. Lately, I just haven't had anyone to really bounce off and talk to about this stuff. I feel like my social life online was alot more . . . frugal than it is now. Is it just me or is it that everyone just found their own things to do and got much more busy and I'm just not keeping up with them.
Who knows. All I know is that I need to do something instead of doing the same things.
but I been wanting to talk about this publicly for a while.
Lately I been thinking about both what the purpose of my art will be and my future.
For the longest I been living sporadically off commissions. It's my main source of income after all.
But for years outside of that, I been trying to give a hook for my art, a purpose to it.
. . . and failing at that. I mean how long has it been I've wanted to make comics after all?
In the latter years of my time online I started to slowly give up on the goal only to crawl right back to it.
It's a goal I feel some people in my life that known me for a long time have lost faith in me achieving.
But, I always felt my work aimless and without anything to draw people in.
Hence the need to make comics. To be fair, comics weren't the only thing I was trying to do.
Game Development? Animation? Anything I can do with my art other than provide pretty pictures, and in some ways failing at that. After all, I been known for drawing a lot of "standing around". Something I'm painfully aware of. I been trying to burst out that bubble for the longest, but I often always get stuck on stuff.
Stuck on the "whats" and the "whys" and the "is's". It must be nerve wracking to deal with a person like me who can't just achieve the goals I set in place. I hope that people have patience in me but i never know how far that will go, right?
Often maybe it's pressure I create myself. The performance anxiety I have developed over time.
In any case, I need to do more. Do better. And in many cases, I probably need to do it now and soon rather than later.
I think I have a lot of issues I need to iron out with art. I'm slow for starters. A lot of that has to do with the fact that I often stop in the middle of work than continue because I'll draw an idea I have and suddenly want to change it in the middle of drawing or in general, something distracts me. ADHD is a bitch.
I think in the past, a lot of the reasons i gotten things done or been most creative was when i was around other creative people and that encouragement. But lately, I been alone. Very alone.
I live alone. I'm even alone online. Lately, I just haven't had anyone to really bounce off and talk to about this stuff. I feel like my social life online was alot more . . . frugal than it is now. Is it just me or is it that everyone just found their own things to do and got much more busy and I'm just not keeping up with them.
Who knows. All I know is that I need to do something instead of doing the same things.
