There will be a lack of addition art to my gallery (not that anyone's too concerned); I need to take a break from commissioning.

6:27 AM - Mephy♪♫¦ Feeling stressed.: that was a hell of a nihjymare
6:29 AM - El Drakken: What happened in it?
6:35 AM - Mephy♪♫¦ Feeling stressed.: Californian locals who are accomplice serial killers, killing a small group of my good friends (all bullets and stabs caught on low quality cam), with the survivors being ones who didn't try to venture further into the abandoned, semi-finished tall (maybe) building. One of my old colleagues was also involved and apparently the motive was being the outcasts of society, Those who survived (people I totally do not know irl) end up in school (which I've never seen before) as...I guess, refugees after (and here's another sub plot) the killers murdered the ones who had above-average scores for an entrance exam into a college. Then I dunno what happened after but I was somehow in "Hong Kong" and the accomplice colleague was nearby and visibly scorned with stares. The killers are to be voted on whether to get life imprisonment (which hopefully is not reduced by some stupid law in the future if there happens to be one) or death by hanging.
6:36 AM - El Drakken: Woah
6:36 AM - Mephy♪♫¦ Feeling stressed.: so...lucid
6:36 AM - Mephy♪♫¦ Feeling stressed.: I woke up sweating
6:37 AM - El Drakken: Sounds like the synopsis to a thriller movie
6:38 AM - El Drakken: Pretty vivid for a dream
6:38 AM - El Drakken: I barley remember mines.
6:38 AM - El Drakken: *barely
6:46 AM - Mephy♪♫¦ Feeling stressed.: I remember more things
6:47 AM - Mephy♪♫¦ Feeling stressed.: cartoon sequences that aren't appropriate but I remember it involved doppengangers
6:47 AM - Mephy♪♫¦ Feeling stressed.: something about paper and the weather
6:47 AM - Mephy♪♫¦ Feeling stressed.: uhhh
6:47 AM - Mephy♪♫¦ Feeling stressed.: other things that would have made this grim dream rather...distorting
6:47 AM - Mephy♪♫¦ Feeling stressed.: hmmm
6:47 AM - Mephy♪♫¦ Feeling stressed.: egg.
6:48 AM - Mephy♪♫¦ Feeling stressed.: but yeah
6:48 AM - Mephy♪♫¦ Feeling stressed.: at least two of the faces in the footage of the struggle between two of them
6:48 AM - Mephy♪♫¦ Feeling stressed.: *between two of the killers
6:48 AM - Mephy♪♫¦ Feeling stressed.: (the friend was not present or something)
6:48 AM - Mephy♪♫¦ Feeling stressed.: wait...
6:49 AM - Mephy♪♫¦ Feeling stressed.: footage of the struggle between the killers (minus the friend)
6:49 AM - Mephy♪♫¦ Feeling stressed.: at least two of the faces killed were recognizable by name and face
6:49 AM - Mephy♪♫¦ Feeling stressed.: since I knew them.
6:49 AM - Mephy♪♫¦ Feeling stressed.: one shot
6:49 AM - Mephy♪♫¦ Feeling stressed.: another stabbed
6:50 AM - Mephy♪♫¦ Feeling stressed.: others were a combination
6:50 AM - Mephy♪♫¦ Feeling stressed.: but I think I remember that in the middle of the room was one blindfolded, tied up and has a bullet wound or more (and prob dead...really.)
6:50 AM - Mephy♪♫¦ Feeling stressed.: ...and now I just remembered another plot
6:50 AM - Mephy♪♫¦ Feeling stressed.: See, this is why you don't look up things before going ot bed, lol
6:51 AM - Mephy♪♫¦ Feeling stressed.: I was looking at Iraq hostage situations from the war (all beheaded)
6:51 AM - Mephy♪♫¦ Feeling stressed.: and a director from Hong Kong
6:51 AM - Mephy♪♫¦ Feeling stressed.: buuut...I think the last one is related to the other 'segment' of the dream that's not the murders
6:51 AM - Mephy♪♫¦ Feeling stressed.: I don't remember too well
6:55 AM - Mephy♪♫¦ Feeling stressed.: other than bird people taking over a place and some of us moving to a more remote corner of the floor (it looked like a ballroom...we simply went outside at the balcony with a little garden and made a 'home' there). Anyways, something happened and they spotted us trying to get away via flying transportations, one being...strangely a plush or paper white seagull(?) with the ability to shrink and enlarge, with wings that change according to the thing you set it to on the back (...it's just a bunch of cloth pieces on top of each other like a book and each having some sorta size and/speed term). Oh yeah, the "bird" had thrusters, lol...like an airplane? Then it was about mercenaries or something and ALIENS(...) and...chased by a...giant deformed head with a crazed grin?
6:55 AM - Mephy♪♫¦ Feeling stressed.: man, I wanna know how I dream all this
6:56 AM - Mephy♪♫¦ Feeling stressed.: I'd like to mention that part looked very Don Bluth or Disney (think Ducktales)
6:56 AM - Mephy♪♫¦ Feeling stressed.: the latter part there looks anime or CGI films
6:57 AM - Mephy♪♫¦ Feeling stressed.: I FORGOT TO MENTION there was also a part in that one about creating magic visual incantations from (suddenly, a game?) selection and positionings of raw materials (I saw coal) on a 3x3 grid
6:58 AM - Mephy♪♫¦ Feeling stressed.: ...okay, I'm done.
6:58 AM - El Drakken: Jeez....
6:58 AM - El Drakken: You could make a movie on all your dreams.
6:58 AM - Mephy♪♫¦ Feeling stressed.: ikr
6:58 AM - Mephy♪♫¦ Feeling stressed.: lol
6:58 AM - Mephy♪♫¦ Feeling stressed.: but...might have to make changes
6:59 AM - Mephy♪♫¦ Feeling stressed.: this is way too abstract
6:59 AM - Mephy♪♫¦ Feeling stressed.: morning exam today
6:59 AM - Mephy♪♫¦ Feeling stressed.: that's why I'm typing this out on here
6:59 AM - Mephy♪♫¦ Feeling stressed.: otherwise, I won't remember it

Been really busy during November and December with the around 3-4 research papers, all of which seem to have come out alright (although it totally botched my appetite and mood). That was a close shave on the first half of second year of college; hopefully I'll make it past two more years.

Some of you probably already know the situation over here in Bangkok, with the protestors and the prime minister stepping down; things are just getting a little hectic around here with the bombs and roadblocks. In addition to all this commotion, my family has become rather...politically vocal about which side they're on with the feud. Personally, I really do not like talks of politics (No, I absolutely hate it; I'm grey, much like my fur color. :P), but I've been getting told to get involved with an affiliation against my will, of which I know won't even make things here any better after a year or so from now. ._.

The cycle of kicking out someone in power and replacing them with someone just as incompetent will repeat, that is predictable for over here and we'll leave it at that.


So I spent a pretty quiet Christmas and New Years with myself this year, locking myself in my own bedroom and wasting my hours away on Steam. On that note, I'm also looking for some more (never enough.) Steam friends currently; add me if you want.

Now...I've thought of commissioning again, but have tampered around with the thought of a group art commission. So far, no volunteers in my circle of friends yet (that's your cue.), but then there's issues about whether it's gonna be individual payments or one of us (probably me.) will need to reach deeper into his own wallet. And then there's the issue about finding an artist we'd all agree on; I'm not sure what people like, but neither do I know myself (I know the style in mind, not the artist names). Maybe you guys can help me figure out what I/we want.

Anyways, that's about it.

N̶e̶e̶d̶ ̶H̶e̶l̶p̶ ̶(̶a̶c̶a̶d̶e̶m̶i̶c̶-̶r̶e̶l̶a̶t̶e̶d̶)̶

S̶o̶.̶.̶.̶I̶ ̶g̶o̶t̶ ̶t̶h̶r̶e̶e̶ ̶r̶e̶s̶e̶a̶r̶c̶h̶ ̶e̶s̶s̶a̶y̶s̶ ̶t̶o̶ ̶w̶o̶r̶k̶ ̶w̶i̶t̶h̶ ̶a̶n̶d̶ ̶t̶h̶e̶y̶'̶r̶e̶ ̶d̶u̶e̶ ̶w̶i̶t̶h̶i̶n̶ ̶2̶-̶3̶ ̶w̶e̶e̶k̶s̶.̶ ̶I̶ ̶n̶e̶e̶d̶ ̶a̶n̶y̶ ̶o̶f̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶ ̶f̶o̶l̶k̶s̶ ̶o̶u̶t̶ ̶t̶h̶e̶r̶e̶ ̶s̶t̶u̶d̶y̶i̶n̶g̶ ̶t̶h̶e̶ ̶f̶o̶l̶l̶o̶w̶i̶n̶g̶ ̶t̶o̶ ̶h̶e̶l̶p̶ ̶m̶e̶ ̶b̶y̶ ̶a̶n̶y̶ ̶m̶e̶a̶n̶s̶ ̶(̶m̶a̶i̶n̶l̶y̶ ̶c̶i̶t̶a̶t̶i̶o̶n̶s̶ ̶a̶n̶d̶ ̶o̶u̶t̶l̶i̶n̶i̶n̶g̶)̶.̶
I̶ ̶n̶e̶e̶d̶:̶

1̶)̶ ̶A̶n̶y̶o̶n̶e̶ ̶w̶h̶o̶ ̶c̶a̶n̶ ̶h̶e̶l̶p̶ ̶m̶e̶ ̶w̶i̶t̶h̶ ̶B̶u̶d̶d̶h̶i̶s̶m̶ ̶o̶r̶ ̶s̶p̶e̶c̶i̶f̶i̶c̶a̶l̶l̶y̶,̶ ̶t̶h̶e̶ ̶D̶a̶l̶a̶i̶ ̶L̶a̶m̶a̶'̶s̶ ̶r̶e̶a̶c̶t̶i̶o̶n̶/̶r̶e̶s̶p̶o̶n̶s̶e̶ ̶t̶o̶ ̶t̶h̶e̶ ̶v̶i̶o̶l̶e̶n̶c̶e̶ ̶s̶e̶e̶n̶ ̶w̶i̶t̶h̶ ̶T̶i̶b̶e̶t̶ ̶a̶n̶d̶ ̶C̶h̶i̶n̶a̶ ̶(̶2̶5̶0̶0̶ ̶w̶o̶r̶d̶s̶ ̶m̶i̶n̶i̶m̶u̶m̶)̶

(̶I̶ ̶d̶i̶d̶ ̶t̶h̶i̶s̶ ̶t̶o̶ ̶k̶i̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶w̶o̶ ̶b̶i̶r̶d̶s̶ ̶w̶i̶t̶h̶ ̶o̶n̶e̶ ̶s̶t̶o̶n̶e̶)̶
2̶)̶ ̶A̶n̶y̶o̶n̶e̶ ̶d̶o̶i̶n̶g̶ ̶f̶i̶l̶m̶ ̶s̶t̶u̶d̶i̶e̶s̶ ̶a̶n̶d̶ ̶c̶a̶n̶ ̶h̶e̶l̶p̶ ̶m̶e̶ ̶o̶u̶t̶ ̶o̶n̶ ̶t̶o̶p̶i̶c̶s̶ ̶l̶i̶k̶e̶ ̶s̶o̶u̶n̶d̶ ̶u̶s̶a̶g̶e̶ ̶a̶n̶d̶ ̶t̶e̶c̶h̶n̶i̶q̶u̶e̶s̶ ̶-̶ ̶t̶h̶e̶ ̶f̶i̶l̶m̶ ̶I̶'̶m̶ ̶u̶s̶i̶n̶g̶ ̶i̶s̶ ̶"̶E̶t̶e̶r̶n̶a̶l̶ ̶S̶u̶n̶s̶h̶i̶n̶e̶ ̶o̶f̶ ̶t̶h̶e̶ ̶S̶p̶o̶t̶l̶e̶s̶s̶ ̶M̶i̶n̶d̶"̶ ̶(̶2̶0̶0̶4̶)̶ ̶(̶2̶5̶0̶0̶ ̶w̶o̶r̶d̶s̶ ̶m̶i̶n̶i̶m̶u̶m̶)̶

3̶)̶ ̶S̶a̶m̶e̶ ̶f̶i̶l̶m̶,̶ ̶b̶u̶t̶ ̶d̶i̶s̶c̶u̶s̶s̶i̶n̶g̶ ̶t̶h̶e̶ ̶p̶h̶i̶l̶o̶s̶o̶p̶h̶y̶ ̶o̶f̶ ̶p̶e̶r̶s̶o̶n̶a̶l̶-̶i̶d̶e̶n̶t̶i̶t̶y̶ ̶(̶a̶n̶d̶ ̶r̶e̶l̶a̶t̶i̶n̶g̶ ̶t̶h̶a̶t̶ ̶w̶i̶t̶h̶ ̶m̶e̶m̶o̶r̶y̶)̶:̶ ̶S̶o̶ ̶f̶a̶r̶,̶ ̶I̶'̶m̶ ̶p̶r̶o̶b̶a̶b̶l̶y̶ ̶g̶o̶i̶n̶g̶ ̶t̶o̶ ̶u̶s̶e̶ ̶J̶o̶h̶n̶ ̶L̶o̶c̶k̶e̶,̶ ̶R̶e̶n̶é̶ ̶D̶e̶s̶c̶a̶r̶t̶e̶s̶ ̶a̶n̶d̶ ̶D̶e̶r̶e̶k̶ ̶P̶a̶r̶f̶i̶t̶ ̶t̶o̶ ̶d̶i̶s̶c̶u̶s̶s̶ ̶t̶w̶o̶ ̶o̶r̶ ̶t̶h̶r̶e̶e̶ ̶s̶c̶e̶n̶e̶s̶ ̶f̶r̶o̶m̶ ̶t̶h̶e̶ ̶m̶o̶v̶i̶e̶.̶ ̶(̶1̶0̶0̶0̶ ̶w̶o̶r̶d̶s̶ ̶m̶a̶x̶i̶m̶u̶m̶)̶

Forget it; I never asked.

It started off as meeting an old friend whom I had a fallout with ages ago. He was pretty neutral to me. Anyways, I ended up in this big classroom full of older faces - old classmates from a previous school I was in up until 6th grade. We ended up preparing for class (what class?) and for some reason, the video game on the screen looked something would if someone took Mount n' Blade and made a muay thai (or kickboxing) mod. Suddenly fast-forwarded, we were about to seek a restaurant in a mall to eat in, but then I snapped out of it

I ended up in this skyscraper's top floor. A few rooms separated by glass walls (some with doorways). Within the rooms were these wormholes of black and white spirals. It was something I dubbed the 'madness realm'; I sensed the wormholes took you to a place where your frustrations and anger manifested. There was another glass room that I couldn't access: Within the room were a group of people with static in their eyes (complete with sounds), open-mouthed. Almost tempted myself to enter and face my inner demons the others are facing, one of them appears back from the portal, yelling to the "mindless" group to "pick floor 32" (I guess there was a puzzle to it too).

Everyone came back after. One of them actually managed to end up on another building's rooftop outside (yes, just like a skyscraper; you could see other buildings). Then they somehow ended up over there too and helped the person up (they were clinging to the edge). One of them was apparently a photographer/journalist (he didn't teleport with the rest, astounded by what he's witnessing, mumbling in awe and took a photo of the scenery from within the building we're in before suddenly one of them slipped and a domino effect occurred - all of the almost fell off the building, but managed to hold onto the ledge and climb back up. Then they teleported back here. And I was about to move on with the others to the next "realm" of mind games (it appears we're just a bunch of people being tested for some purpose...), one of my dogs in real life barks, wanting to get out...I woke up.

Can't draw, no inspiration, college and a ghost town for an FA.






What to do?

We booked those tickets 2 days ago; I can't wait since this will also be my first concert experience! (yeah...I don't get out much :/)

http://www.newscontent.thaivisa.com.....19/poster.jpeg

http://www.youtube.com/watch?featur.....;v=r0-XdFjmKDU

And this is apparently their last world tour?

I got accepted into college!

It's been a bad month of falling out with a few friends and it's gotten me a bit depressed as well, but I'm not one who forgets things like this easily. I do not like holding grudges for so long. I need to apologize to people who had to put up with my self-centered affection and my rather sensitive ear for being easily offended by everything people say.


I'm sorry.

Are y'all alive out there? I often wonder if I write journals for nothing. X3

Not that I'm self-centered or anything, I just wanna know if sharing ideas with anyone at all. :3

But if you -are- reading, I feel the need to chat and get to know more about people.

Give me a reply once in awhile, why not send a note? Maybe exchange e-mails?

Especially if we're gonna talk about music and movies!

...I'm so lonely. ;____;

Hey guys,

Happy (late) Halloween, Thanksgiving, Black Friday, AND early Christmas and New Years

As some of you may/may not have heard, we had a flood problem here (we still do, it's just calming now) in Thailand/Siam, so we've been on our feet about whether or not we were gonna get floods coming in on our area. Fortunately, nature changed its mind and spared our area, but the waters in other areas were around 2-3 metres (1st and second floors of houses were sleeping with the fishes). It's been affecting school as well; originally, we were suppose to get a one-week holiday after the report cards were out, but then the floods came and we got four more weeks out of it...not too boring, but now everyone feels like they've just come out of a long break and don't feel like doing much.

Unfortunately, my PC also broke its own operating system and I'm left with a new Dell laptop (the old Acer laptop also broke with the same reason...after it "jumped" off the desk and bluescreened D:). I haven't gotten much inspiration to write lately, and I'm sort of browsing around old movies and music. I've yet to get to teaching myself how to draw. *facepalms* I've been mostly chatting and socializing with friends...ones on the internet. A certain girl has been attracted by my skunky charm (she's a non-furry), but I'm not quite certain of myself; do I love a man's redwood or do I love a woman's punani? That's been bothering me as well: Am I bi or gay? In the end, I'd have to pick a side and stick with it. It's probably a phase you go through at this certain age and part of being a young adult. My pensive mind has been an issue as well; I just start to sit there and stare blankly at whatever I was working with and ponder to myself about the past, present, and the near future. It always worries me whether or not I'd end up unknown, unloved, and unsung'.

'til we meet again,
-Mephy

Aside from the usual dreams that usually make no sense...a Halloween sleepover at my own school with classmates? Seriously? With an addition of a teacher coming up to the auditorium (which strangely looks like a giant living room from the inside) and telling me and a few classmates (yes, I wasn't alone in the dream...) that we had a late assignment we were suppose to make up at room H150 (The auditorium's number was that AND some other room I didn't get to see). Another being something to do with being a hotel and some small talks here and there...I can't remember much.

The most disturbing of the other 2 was this particular one...I dreamt I was a rape victim. I awoke at a hospital, with bruises (and apparently rectal injuries); they tell me I was raped (at that moment, the dream gave me 'flashbacks' of the mysterious on-the-run rapist. He was a man in his 40s and somehow got a hold of me on the streets and did his thing...I was disturbed very much by this dream sequence. I was also slightly traumatized after realizing the rapist TOOK my damn virginity with him...that bastard. I'm all (if not most) expect to lose our's to someone dear, not a stranger with sexual frustrations and an appetite...I woke up and was not feeling myself afterwards, so I had to write this down. This is my weirdest dream yet and I don't want it to repeat, honestly.

Yes, I never told you guys my actual age...well now you know.

18:32 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: o.o
18:32 - Applemint: o.o
18:37 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: hell
18:37 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: what a dream
18:37 - Applemint: :O
18:40 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: falling in love with someone i never met in a dream O-o
18:40 - Applemint: aww :<
18:51 - Applemint: what was it like?
18:58 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: well
19:06 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: it started off with me waking up in our car (i was sleeping in the car when that dream occured)
19:06 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: apparently there was something to this
19:07 - Applemint: hmm
19:07 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: if i'm right
19:07 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: it wasn't the chaffeur or my mother in the car
19:07 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: it was some people whom i acknowledge as friends
19:07 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: i woke up to find the car had run out of gas
19:08 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: we were headed for my home
19:08 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: i got out of the car
19:08 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: not a car or people in sight
19:08 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: it was a dark street
19:08 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: it felt like movie set for some reason
19:09 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: like the sky was just concrete walls painted on
19:09 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: well
19:10 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: i entered the small little lane that leaded to the neighborhood
19:10 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: it was still dark
19:10 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: but then i ran into some dogs
19:10 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: they were running around and stuff
19:10 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: then i saw vehicles
19:10 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: rushing towards me
19:11 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: i barked to ensure i wasn't gonna be run over 'cuz they'd at least "hear" me O-o
19:11 - Applemint: xD
19:11 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: the vehicles went past me
19:11 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: they weren't thai or anything
19:11 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: they were caucasian
19:12 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: i headed down the lane until...
19:12 - Applemint: hmm
19:12 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: the place was changed
19:13 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: before me
19:13 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: was this
19:13 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: almost post-apocalyptic building structure
19:13 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: groups of people
19:13 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: living in there
19:13 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: like something out of Mad Max
19:13 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: i walked toward that 'city'
19:13 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: but then
19:13 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: i saw myself in third person
19:13 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: i was a BLU demoman O-o
19:14 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: with a green blanket with me
19:14 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: the place suddenly turned into a TF2 battlefield
19:14 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: the round was coming to an end
19:14 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: when it did
19:14 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: i tried to fake death and "sleep" with that blanket over myself
19:14 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: unsuccessfully getting killed by a soldier or spy
19:15 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: when i respawned
19:15 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: i asked them
19:15 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: 'how do i disconnect from this match?'
19:15 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: one replied
19:15 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: 'if you want to stay in this town, you'll have to play along with us'
19:15 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: i walked on
19:16 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: farther into the place
19:16 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: the place changed again
19:16 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: now i was in some sorta place filled with people with a superhero motive sorta
19:16 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: there were people with costumes for it too
19:16 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: they had some sorta mission
19:16 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: and i happen to stumble upon this
19:16 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: uhhh
19:17 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: you could say they were like Justice Friends or Teen Titans
19:17 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: they were young adults
19:17 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: so i agreed to help out this chick
19:17 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: now...
19:17 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: she looked like hawkgirl or raven
19:17 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: i can't really tell
19:17 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: with the costume
19:18 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: now note this
19:18 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: this was one sequence
19:18 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: after getting in some sorta hovercar
19:18 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: the damn place changed again
19:18 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: i was back in their HQ
19:18 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: the girl changed
19:18 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: she recognizes me
19:18 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: but she now had an emo-ish look to her
19:19 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: (actually, just black hair that covers the eyes, but the clothes are a bit more colorful)
19:19 - Applemint: hmm...
19:19 - Applemint: and that was who you fell in love with?
19:19 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: oh yeah... >.>
19:19 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: now that i think of it
19:20 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: she sorta reminds me of someone i do know on steam
19:20 - Applemint: interesting. :3
19:20 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: but not exactly
19:20 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: just the way she dresses
19:20 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: again
19:20 - Applemint: oh
19:21 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: we got into this vehicle
19:21 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: drove
19:21 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: (i was one driver)
19:21 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: *driving
19:21 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: uhhh
19:21 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: our travel ended at some this area
19:21 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: which is actually a hospital that our family usually goes to since it's nearby
19:22 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: the parking lot looked more street like
19:22 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: as in
19:22 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: it had that street lamp that glowed orange
19:22 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: and what used ot be bushes and dsuch
19:22 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: *such
19:22 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: weren't there
19:22 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: we suddenly noticed this
19:23 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: guy in a car
19:23 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: with a megaphone
19:23 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: apparently some sorta coup or martial law has been established
19:23 - Applemint: mrf. brb x.x;
19:23 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: the road was blocked by cars parked against each other
19:23 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: of course
19:23 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: we had no choice but to take another route
19:24 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: for some reason
19:24 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: we mentioned a relative (who lived a few blocks from us; she's an old woman around the same age as my grandmother)
19:24 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: what was strange was
19:24 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: she never had children
19:25 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: but we said we'll have to call her 'daughter' (wtf)
19:25 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: to pick her up from her home and live at her daughter's
19:25 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: there was something along the line of
19:25 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: 'epidemic outbreak'
19:26 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: the scene changed...
19:26 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: it was now second life
19:26 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: the girl was gone
19:26 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: i was now with some friend whom i've never seen before in my life
19:26 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: we were in this building
19:27 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: that looked like a biodome
19:27 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: in front of us was like ea garden
19:27 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: *like a
19:28 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: (we were still standing on sidewalk tiles)
19:28 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: a piano was to the left
19:28 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: i approached it
19:28 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: played the repeating notes from the Dead Island trailer
19:28 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: the scene changed again
19:28 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: it was real now
19:29 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: she was back
19:29 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: i was in some room (presumably where she lived)
19:29 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: we were uhhh
19:29 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: wait, lemme think
19:30 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: i dunno how
19:30 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: we just fell for each other
19:30 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: of course i was being charming and rather flirty
19:31 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: kissed her :|
19:31 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: tried to slip her the tongue O-o;
19:32 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: she draw back in surprise but then sorta grinned at a 'camera' (i'm looking at the scene from a third person view)
19:32 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: she returned the kiss, of course
19:32 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: it got a bit weird after that
19:33 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: we were at this place that seemed to be some sorta
19:33 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: well, it looked like a room replicated to make it look like you're aboard a plane
19:33 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: what i didn't get was
19:35 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: why the hell did i want her to poke me with a small needle pin to my bare ass (i was hanging naked, my lower forelegs hanging through this hole, a calender over my own genitalia, i looked fitter than what i was in reality)
19:35 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: it felt like bondage...
19:35 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: but that was about it
19:35 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: i hang from the spot
19:35 - Applemint: whoa.
19:35 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: she poked me with the needle on my ass (pin the tail on the ass donkey(ass)?)
19:35 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: the scene changed
19:35 - Applemint: xD
19:36 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: i was now fully clothed
19:36 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: outside
19:36 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: with her
19:36 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: apparently she had a little encounter with an old classmate i recognized O-o
19:36 - Applemint: wait, you dreamt all of this?
19:36 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: oh ya...
19:36 - Applemint: wow. o_o;
19:36 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: apparently he didn't know what the hell was this 'airplane room'
19:37 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: he stepped into the portal leading to it
19:37 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: of course, she saw him (he was clothed though)
19:37 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: poked him with the needle and of course he jumped and yelped from the little pain
19:37 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: this turned out to be a flashback of a photo taken (how the hell?)
19:38 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: and then i woke up...
19:38 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: :/
19:38 - Applemint: wow...
19:38 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: whoop-a-fuckin'-y
19:38 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: surreal
19:38 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: yet so real
19:39 - Applemint: that's a crazy dream though o_o
19:39 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: i wonder what it means
19:39 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: i really do
19:40 - Applemint: there's so much to it xD
19:40 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: so much symbols
19:40 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: imma journal this on FA
19:40 - ♪ Feli' ♫ -Laying in bed is fun: lol

So I couldn't be bothered posting some sorta "alert" about how a-ha disbanded on December 4 back in 2010 X_X

I regret the fact I couldn't attend the farewell tour, since I'm a fan in an unlikely location in terms of fanbase. I'm sure I'm not the only fan here who couldn't afford the tickets. Meh, here's a clip of them performing "The Sun Always Shines on TV", one of my favorite songs by them, taken by someone who managed to see it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DNOScsqmI_w

I must say, Morten looks quite gorgeous in this clip.

Well I've written enough, that now I think I should be posting them somewhere, but not as a submission. So here it goes:


As our lips touched
Our woes in the world, all gone
The sweet, sweet aroma of ecstasy and desire
For the first time in all my life, I finally knew what I have been seeking
Those gentle lips that o’ so gentle as they touch and we embraced
For a moment, we were one
Like yin yang, like darkness and light, like black and white
Through the cold nights and harsh moments, I have always been there for you
And there you were, seeking warmth and the compassionate comforts of my arms
And now, it seems that you desire more than my calm and gentle words

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Those arms that send me into a feeling of secure and comfort
That warm feeling I get from embracing
Heart to heart, we were
Inseparable, it seems
Slowly, I lean my head against your shoulder, holding you tighter as I do
You muttered those words, which sent tingling down my spine
As my body let its guard down, I felt your warmth from your embrace

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Life, isn’t it a wonderful thing to be able to witness?
To feel such liveliness in every sense of the body.
To go out there and do wondrous things, just to make people proud of you


But I sit day by day, thinking of it; I can never escape the reality of it
I see what others might not, what people would label as lies
They only matter if I wrote them onto a piece of paper, and told people who go through the same feelings as me
We all mess up; we all face the consequences for it
No matter how bad it could be
I see these machines, interacting amongst each other
No sense in what they do, no emotion to keep inside oneself
Have any of you ever considered yourself a worthy person?
Does it ever hit your mind like a bullet to the head that if someday…someday
If we all could see these things, society would not suffer that much
That we could all find a better solution to such problems
Why are we victims to such minor conflicts?
Is violence really the way to go?
Wisdom in the few individuals that we know in our life, they are valuable
Such things are to be passed on to the next of kinds
Treasure them like a lesson learnt from someone with experience
But then, even age could deceive us with such ignorant thoughts and conscience
We judge too early upon people
Too young; and the words would not matter
Too old; and the young pay no attention to
We cannot hide ourselves behind a mask, with smiles and the little things that make us feel so happy
But you should ask yourself, are you truly happy with what you have in possession?
Are your friends really someone who cares, or are they really just living off of you?
Questions like these only bring vague answers from many voices we hear
No one is truly right either, because no one really knows the answer to what life is

And that, my friend, is reality and it’s deception it brings us so

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My heart is left with despair of seeking any other love after that fateful day
We have parted, yet you still want the last word to shower me with you lies towards what has become a big mess of our finest hours
I could not care less, for I have been hurt in many ways and many nights, I still weep in tears, thinking about the pain and heartache you left me with.
You could not care less, for you have never revealed how you really felt all this time and prevent the moment from turning into a very grief and grim image of my mind
You have failed to understand the real meaning of acceptance and have caused me withered emotions
You have prove yourself to be not more than a mere mortal who forces himself to achieve everything but gain nothing
And yet you expect me to talk to you?

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I lay in my bed, I cried tears of pain
I’d never thought I’d see the world as such a horrible place
I’d never thought life would feel so hopeless after all I’ve been through
In times of happiness, and in times of hopelessness
I fear for the worst, I fear an early death from my own actions
Suicide is not an option, but life is full of so much suffer and despair to me
I can’t put my life together for all the reasons
I can think of, I feel so weak, so futile
Reasons to go on seem so painstakingly difficult
I feel forsaken, spat in the face, verbally and emotionally stoned by an unexplained force of depression
I feel like I’ve seen Neverland and had left it permanently
Not even the comforts of a stranger’s arm seem to work, nothing does
It all seems so pointless, so…so empty
My mind cannot think anymore, the blankness in my face is all I see in myself
“What has come upon me?” I asked myself
Is this really how things will be from now on?

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And I find today’s youth to be the downfall of society
The end of years to come, the devolution of man.
Now I’ll shield myself against these ignorance and show of stupidity, and call to arms, verbally with these damned souls.
For where they are going, there is no hell or heaven, but their bodies decomposed of flesh and bones.
They won’t live long without going through their own childish naïve ways first.
And if I am to see them, whilst I sit down with a cane in hand, if they were still the same feeble-minded generation of tomorrow, then this world has no future to it.
My home, my nation; already crumpled down by the media’s depiction of society…

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In the eyes of many, I am but a fool, an imbecile if you may
I find their opinions to be flawed and deceiving
For the ones who were convinced, their souls not be saved, and their minds washed of purity
Lacking thoughtfulness towards people, no interest in inner beauty of man
And shun, they had
Many victims to this human instinct in which we make others miserable and ourselves complete
From the dawn of mankind until today
Innovation stunned the world, but we’ve never changed

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This flower held in my palm
As fragile as my heart is
As delicate as my promises are
It's stem as thin as my self-esteem
A very dear thing to hold to one's heart
Someone to comfort it...
A passive grace within itself
Yet so much beauty in weakness
And if one should care for it, it may perhaps grow stronger as days passed
It will have a purpose to bloom and show it's true colors
And may the scent it brings onto you, be a pleasant one; you have earned it
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I know, I know; I write a lot of moody stuff, but that's cuz I can write when I'm overwhelmed with emotion. Ok, that's all the complete/good ones...*hides in his closet*