https://www.furaffinity.net/view/62571098/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/62571098/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/62571098/

Now I'm going to die in poverty twice as fast, wow!

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/62442477/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/62442477/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/62442477/

I remember a few commissions in Discord.
But due to the severity of my situation, I need a couple more slots to break out of the vicious circle for a short time.

so....................

It's probably no surprise that I don't have a job and a popular blog. I feel disgusting.
I want to stop existing, I'm so tired.....................................

Nothing special, just a year older.
Just living as best I can.

All I ask is to subscribe to my channel on Telegram https://t.me/papugartist

There is also a profile here https://bsky.app/profile/oksanapapug.bsky.social

(And of course, a place for tips hipolink.net/papug_art/tips )

I should think that I don't draw well enough. I can't do better.
I can't do anything else. And the worst thing is that I don't have the strength to change anything
. I don't have the strength to do anything differently.
I don't have social networks. I spent many years there and found nothing but a shadow ban.
All my attempts to somehow maintain my profile failed. Few people saw me.
This site somehow saved me for some time. Often due to the lack of any promotion algorithms.
Yes, the "smart feed" is actually a curse on most of the sites I've been to.
And I'm also sociopathic to some extent. I'm weird. I never learned to work with people.
And besides, in addition to clinical depression, there are many things mixed up in me that do not contribute to good work.
I can't complain about the lack of clients, since I haven't done work for months...
I can't explain it and I'm ashamed of it.

I thought that I could do a lot.
But it turns out I can't.
I've already given up.
I don't want support. I want to disappear. I'm tired of living.

Unemployment will kill me sooner before me.
I have no way to pay off the loan, or live a day, and even less can I support a seriously ill cat.

I'm very tired.

I spent several months in a kind of incoherent apathy, but I survived. I don't have the opportunity to seek qualified help about this, my financial condition is even worse than my head lol.
I'm living now, trying to remember who I owe here......

I REALLY DON'T REMEMBER WHO ORDERED THE ART FROM ME

SORRY PLEASE

He's not coming back anymore. I will miss him.

I have no more strength. I can no longer correct my difficult financial situation. I don't know what to do anymore, for many years
I no longer have the strength to live

I was left alone
I am open to inexpensive trad-ink commissions T_T please

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53743330/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53743330/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53743330/

I have prepared a couple of ideas:
NSFW YCH - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53635145/
Epic YCH - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53625965/

I am also open to commissions and may soon open inexpensive trad-ink commissions T_T

I'm probably incredibly mediocre, but I'm really trying. I can't survive without work and creativity here...

I have prepared a couple of ideas:
NSFW YCH - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53635145/
Epic YCH - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53625965/

I am also open to commissions and may soon open inexpensive trad-ink commissions T_T

Military planes are humming in the sky again. There are a lot of them.
They are buzzing and not shutting up, as in the early days of the war. I know where they are going.
I can't sleep, I can't eat, I can't work. I'm scared, hurt and lonely.