OK I seriously need to set some boundries!

I've had numerous cases of furs I've never talked to either randomly friend requesting me on Discord, or sending me random 'hi' messages. Please don't do this. I don't know who you are and I get paranoid you might be a bot. If you want to talk to me about something, please start by saying what it is. Even if it's something like "Hi! I really like your sona and would like to get to know you more." https://nohello.net/

Please don't seek out or immediately ask me for all my other socials. Trying to open up as many means of contacting me as possible really puts me off, and makes me feel like I'm being stalked, as well as the whole bot thing. Start on whatever site you find me so I have some chance of knowing where you found me. I get it, FA notes suck, but my Telegram/Discord is a lot more personal for me. I might make some exceptions, like if a site doesn't support DMs at all (like Bluesky), or if it just didn't work for whatever reason.

Don't ask me to commission art from you. I've noticed it's a trend for artists to randomly contact and put furs on the spot in DMs. I'd rather you not, and will most likely ignore if you do. One particularly disturbing instance of this happening to me at the end of this journal.

Don't assume I'm your best friend, or brother, or soulmate, just because I've been nice to you. I try to be nice to everyone. It doesn't mean anything special. It's just me being courteous. If I'm getting less enthusiastic interacting with you, please take the hint.

Don't randomly insist that I'm suicidal and pressure me into joining your "support group". Whether I am or am not, I get extremely strong cult recruiter/leader vibes from anyone that does that. And for those I've just now made curious, don't worry. I'm not suicidal. I've just had furs obsessively insisting I am so they can constantly 'check up on me', all while being extremely demanding.

And for the love of the gods, DO NOT send me pictures of your irl pets asking if my sona can be yiffed/vored by them! That is extremely fucked up! (yes that happened, an artist wanted me to comm this from them)

I have posted bdsm and tickle fetish art on this account for the most part and wanted to give a heads up so I don't shock any watchers who are not into it.

I have also privated my Twitter and have been inactive there for a while (you can guess why).

I am on both popular alternatives. Here're are their links:

Bluesky:
Main: https://bsky.app/profile/paradoxchi.....ra.bsky.social
AD: https://bsky.app/profile/afterparadark.bsky.social

Mastodon:
Main: https://meow.social/@ParadoxChimera
AD: https://yiff.life/@AfterParadark

Ukraine has a hotline called ХОЧУ ЖИТЬ (I want to live). It was set up for low morale Russian troops but is now also being geared towards those being drafted and forced into the war against their will.

They will provide you with instructions on safely surrendering and will provide safe passage away from the front line, into their custody where they should keep you safe.

Their telegram channel which contains the phone numbers can be found at https://t.me/s/hochu_zhyt.

I advise anyone else reading this to share this link, especially with anyone you know who is Russian. No citizen of either side deserves to die over P*tin's power gamble.

Dia duit,

Just making a quick Journal to talk about how I'm getting on. First of all, I'm returning to college. With that going on, I've been doing a lot of last minute reorganising, both for college as well as for my personal life. I'm also going to be doing some reorganising for my furry life also. One thing I'm thinking of doing is redoing my user profile as I feel I could've done a better job of it. I've actually been recently learning about designing accessible documents and would like to apply some of that knowledge. I'm also looking to use my Twitter accounts more. I'll have them linked in the new user profile.

I'd also like to point out a huge point of anxiety I've been having over the past few weeks with regards to commissioning art. I've been hearing some very worrying news about PayPal. I think it's best described in these following threads on Twitter:
https://twitter.com/sunscones/statu.....69394871910401
https://twitter.com/Tolnga_/status/.....34257818161165

It seems to be a case of: if you're an NSFW artist, you may want to avoid linking PayPal on your site or your socials as they consider NSFW to be a TOS violation and will try to detect it using webcrawlers. Sorry if I'm being alarmist about this. I've just been very anxious about it for a while and have been wanting to communicate my feelings about it, but I'll try not to let it hold me back.

That seems to be all I have for now. Thanks all.
Paradox

Hi everyone,

It's been a while. I've been hoping to get more active here for quite a while now, albeit with anxiety still somewhat holding me back. But it'll still be a little while longer as I'm going through an immensely difficult time in my life.

After a long battle with dementia and more recent breathing difficulties, my granddad has just recently passed away. Thankfully, it was not a death of tragedy or pain. He had lived a full and happy life, the hospital kept him as comfortable as possible, he was surrounded by family, his favourite music was playing, he had his rosary beads and the hospital Chaplin was there for him, and while I wasn't there the moment he passed, I was told that his last breath was followed by a smile. He's all back together now, in a better place. That along with the fact I was able to visit a couple days before, and give him my best memories and my promises, has me a lot more at peace.

I really am going to miss him. We were really close. I loved every moment we spent together. Writing this now, I'm once again tearing up. But if there was one thing Granddad always wanted from us, it was for us all to be happy, so that's what I'm going to do my best to be, as difficult as it is right now.

Thank you so much to all those that have supported me so far. It means the world to me. Like I said in the start of this journal, I'm hoping to be more active, but for now, time is needed for healing. I'll also be returning to college in a couple months. I'll be working on my time management with regards to that.

Once again, thank you all.

Paradox

Hi all,

Haven't posted here in a while so I wanted to give a personal update. But first of all, I want to address this tragic ongoing event.

Content warning: War, nuclear threat. Skip 2 paragraphs for the personal update.

I am absolutely heartbroken by what's going on in Ukraine. I'm also in absolute awe at what lengths one man is willing to go to deny another country's sovereignty including threatening nuclear annihilation. All for a little more meaningless power over others. I get that he's most likely bluffing about the nukes part, but it's still something that eats into my mind on occasion. Thankfully I have friends both online and offline that are assuring me everything will be fine. Realistically it's still a very low probability. And I've been hearing the full invasion itself has little to no chance of success. How long, how far will it escalate, and how many more will die are still questions I worry about.

I hope for us to eventually live in a world where war and dictators are a thing of the past. Solidarity with the citizens of both Ukraine and Russia, especially those Russians risking imprisonment to protest this horrific invasion! And fuck P*tin! May this war be the end of him!


As for what's going on personally:

I've had my Telegram set up for a while now (Discord's also fixed). Telegram's been my primary way of engaging with the fandom as of recent. I also (sort of) have my next commission planned, and I've started a part time job, so everything should be more affordable soon enough. However, since my commission is more... fetishy, I feel the confidence hurdle is way higher than last time.

That's all I have for now. Very pleased with all the friends I've made so far. Thanks all ^,,^

Paradox

Hi everyone!

I wanted to give an update as well as follow up on my previous journal with some good news and some very minor bad news. The good news is my first commission is currently on the way. I'm starting off with a simple idea but am really looking forward to it. I won't say too much about what it is and leave it as a surprise. It will be SFW though, nothing too spicy yet. Might get something more BDSM-ey later on afterwards. Of course I don't want to get carried away with commissioning. As a college student, I'm definitely not made of money.

The minor bad news is that tech platforms aren't taking too kindly to my newfound furry identity. I can't make a telegram account for my sona (at least not yet) as I'm already using my number for contacting my family and friends in real life™. Discord also demanded my number, then locked me out for a fortnight because I did it wrong. Full twitter rant here. 2nd phone number services haven't worked for me either and now I'm considering buying a 2nd physical sim just for my sona, lmao. Many people already do this to separate work and personal life so I think it might actually be reasonable.

The reason I'm doing all this compartmentalising is like I described in my previous journal. I don't want my human and furry self publicly linked because I'm afraid of what might happen if people I know find out, and I often catastrophise about it. I get that many people who are open about their furry lives say that nobody cares, but in my case, I'm certain that eventually, someone will, and I'm too emotionally fragile for that kind of drama, as petty as it may be.

That being said, thanks to those who've talked with me and helped me with my confidence, and thanks to these platforms for actually accepting me: Furaffinity, VRChat, and of all places, Twitter Dot Com. Although twitter did do a discord when I registered my AD, but soon backed off.

Speaking of my AD. It's @AfterParadark. I'm starting to feel lonely on there so follows from anyone interested are greatly appreciated. I don't have much posted so far, but I'm thinking of sharing small kinky ideas I have.

Update: Just got a email from discord welcoming me to my new locked account. Insult to injury I guess.

Hi everyone! It's been a few months since I've set up this account and I feel it's long overdue that I finally start commissioning art of my sona. One thing I'm concerned about is potentially de-anonymising myself. For example, PayPal (common choice for artists) seems to require sending legal name and address to whoever is providing the service. I'm sure there's good reason for this but I worry about that info getting leaked and made public. I'm keeping my human and furry identity as separate as possible for now, as I'm paranoid as to what could happen if someone finds out, be it someone I know or some weirdo stalker on the internet.

So my question is this: Can I trust artists to keep my personal information safe? Have there been any cases of artists abusing info sent to them?

At the end of the day, I'm just asking for reassurance. I've been a privacy nut my whole life, fearing what others could do knowing everything about me. Discrediting, humiliation, harassment doxxing, etc. But I feel I can't keep living like that, and I really do want to come out of my shell.

As for what to expect. I'll start out SFW, just to ease myself in, but I do promise fetish content sooner or later.

I'd like to begin by saying hello to Furaffinity, and to the fandom in general. I've been a lurker for quite a while, and with not much going on in my life besides college, I've decided to finally join the community.

I went with the name I have because of the difficulty of what I want to be. I feel it describes me vaguely enough that it won't bother me as I change with time, since FA doesn't seem to allow changing usernames.

As for my fursona. He will be as the name suggests, a chimera, a fusion of multiple species. I've spent a long time trying to decide what species I will primarily use, but have since discovered the spidox hybrid species of which I've since fell in love with. I'll likely add on aspects of other species on as well, since being a chimera kind of makes the possibilities endless. I'm currently working on a reference sheet with lineart freely provided by  zhivagod, many thanks to her.

That's just about all. Further information about myself, I'll likely update my profile with later on. I look forward to interacting with this community and becoming more confident with myself. Of course, like most other users I definitely plan on being open with my kinks. As a spidox, it should be of no surprise that bondage is one of them.

If you've managed to find this page and you have any tips on getting started. Feel free to share them in the comments.

Paradox

Edit: Hooray, editing journals is a thing! That'll make me far less anxious with my writing!