I've been getting help.
Because recently, I havent been happy. I've had a severe mental brake down and it was all in my head. It lasted for 8 months.

I stopped posting art here, and now I post on my twitter account. I'm gonna make a art personal account soon.

For awhile I was trying to find away to be happy, still haven't truly found it yet, but I'm still chugging.

I've lost someone very important to me last year.


And I've had 3 scares throughout.


Just know when I'm ready, I might come back. I might do a total rehaul or just make a new account.

Look out.

Okay,
First off, I haven't been drawing like I would have liked too. This year Im gonna draw what I want, NSFW or not.
Secondly, I went to school to learn how to animated and I'm going to get back into that. ( and maybe learn how to do nsfw animation) but don't hope to high...

Third, I'm tired of feeling sad, I'm gonna focus on being happy.

It's been so long since I updated anything here. But more importantly, I had a scare. That's all you really need to know.

Finally I can get the holes in my damn teeth filled.

This year is only getting worse :3

But I'm trying to be chipper about this. I really am. But life is harder then it needed to be.

You know, till this day I dont know what or who u am. But I do know this, last year, i think was trying to "impress" someone, and i wasnt being me honestly. This time, i wanna be me this year. And to start off, I'm going to post whatever i want! I still wont post NSFW stuff, unless I deem it "good" in my eyes. (Which 99% of the time isnt) if I do make it, I'll most likely dm you to give you the picture. I dont want to be known as NSFW artist.

As for the December smut, I'll try and find time to post the rest of it. I wont make any promises because this free art, and I'm not getting paid for it. :)

This year, I would like to focus on refs for my characters, like Patches, and update Sids ref or something.

That's about it. Peace.

So, December is the a month that everyone year around looks forward too. For me it's the one and ONLY month where I will draw porn. The theme of it pokemon, but it's called back stage. I will post a cover soon explaining more and how you can get your oc( pokemon) in on this. Anyways, back to preparation.

So let me start off by saying, yes. I have been MIA for a hot minute.
I haven't really produced any art I feel is worthy of posting, ( I may post it a year from know)
Ive been doing well, mostly focusing on my job and friends.

Im 27 now.

So... here we are again.

Im opening up 10$ commission.

this means Im doing detailed art and what-not.

I want clarify I WONT be doing NSFW art, I can make a kinky scene, but no penetration, No dicks, No balls, No vaginas.
Breast are okay, ( because if a dude can be topless so can a chick...)

Also, if you want another character in the scene, its 5$ extra.

Many people my not no this, but I love Godzilla.
Ive always loved him when I was a child.
So, when I saw that Godzilla, king of monsters, I was losing my mind.
Mothra is my favorite, Godzilla will always have a place i my heart, Ghidorah can go to hell( i still like him), and Rodan is a weak ass bitch( i still like him).

Lately i've been thinking about stuff. like hat I truely want in life, and who i really am?
I honestly don't know.... I've been floating on the surface of life and yet....im unsure.

I've thought about my art and what I can do to improve it.

idk im confused.

OOOH BOY! I hope y'all are having a good one! Celebrating it with someone you love or just Celebrating it alone! In any case, Please be safe and protect yourselves!

Okay so, ive been avoid AF for awhile now and im just tired of it.
I can't draw NSFW art like I used too. Its not in me anymore and the more I try to force myself to do it, the more exhausted I become and, im not having fun. NSFW art doesn't give me that joy I had when I was younger ( 17-20) now I just feel super gross about it. Sure some might slip under the raider for a bit but it wont to graphic. Im done with the hardcore sex scene's, Im done with sex its self. I will however do sexy pictures ( some boobs and butts clothed) but thats as far as im welling to go. I wont draw junk unless its covered up. I'm tired of forcing myself to do something that makes me uncomfortable.

just like a well, I've dried up. idk, So i have to put commissions on hold.
I will come back to it, but for now I need to find my groove.
I hate art block....

So, ive thought about this for awhile and, I am opening up my commissions.
Im trying to get a new tablet that's going to be like 600$ with the shipping.
So if anyone is interested here are my prices- http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8384447/
Anyways, i hope i can reach this goal. Thanks guys.

My buddy's uncle has stage 4 lung cancer and im helping to spread the word.

https://www.gofundme.com/team-up-for-tony

Happy birthday to me and happy 4th guys.

Well, um...I feel like i need to share this.
The reason why i ever give my sona boobs, because i don't want any focus on the chest.
if anything, i want focus on the butt. nothing more.

So like, im in a bad place atm,
mostly because, i got in a wreck recently and lost my car...
it was totaled and there is nothing i can do.
because i fucked up so bad, i can't plead and give them the real reason
so i have to pay a fine, No biggy, but if i could, i would tell them EXACT truth.
I wish i wasn't in a state of shock, he was the one that ran the yellow light...

Happy new years guys!
I am so ready to change my life around! i am goning to start eating right, trying to save money and be a better person!
its going to long and hard, but I am ready.
I am gonna stop worrying what others think of me and just do it.

I've made a point on my tumblr about this, even tho its about someone... Look, im okay with whatever, but I hate the feeling of "love" i don't mean like, friendship love, or family love, i mean love love. Why do people fall in love? I don't get it...If you're with someone, thats great! but for me...meh. I fell in love....I think? with someone. but never told them i love them....and i never will.

If i told them i loved them, there 100% they will reject me, and honestly, im not ready to here them tell me "no" yet. I hate this puppy love feeling i have for them. its a fucking month...I just want it to end. like now. but my subconscious wont let me tell them how i feel, because of the hole thing i stated before. I am in a rut at this point. I can't go forward and I can't go back.... Im stuck in the middle of a hallway with 2 doors.
http://black-cat-purrs.tumblr.com/p.....6568/i-hate-it <--- WARNING THERE IS MUSIC ON MY BLOG

You all know how I like my girls....
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OPSCjnwD3gc

I bet none you knew I was an animator. I animated stuff when I find that window of free time open~ so I'm currently working group on something with Alma. You guys won't see it for a long long time unfortunately, like I said, window of time. School comes first~ anyways, because Im not that great of an artist, and I've been saying, hey, I need money to pay for bills, and so far nothing, I just won't open commissions ever again.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8384447/

I seriously need 250 dollars, or im getting kicked from my house.
so commissions are open!

I forgot I had bills, so...I'm opening up commissions, please guy, all I need is 250$ not that much right? You can have as many as you want! There is no limit. Please help me out, commision info here :http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8384447/