I'm making a new account.


You are not gonna find me unless I want you two.

Because to be frank.

I want to forget the past.

I'm sick of feel depress and shit over mistakes.

And I'm tried of chasing admiration and acceptance from people who don't even think I'm worth shit.


I've chased so many others, I lost myself.

And I am done with that.


So, to make a long story short.



PUCK OUT!

It is easy to assume many a thing,without knowing context.

Like you could assume someone not liking social justice is a raging bigot.

Or you could assume they had a bad run in with someone who decrees they are for social justice.

You could assume someone does not like their ex because they are a douche.

Or you could assume the Ex did something bad.

Most of this has to do with where we are raised and treated.

You could assume I have no life but this one

or you could assume I just spend a lot time on the computer because the time things open and close where I live are goofy as shit. (11:00 am to 10:00 pm)

I notice people who are raised in a middle class tend to be more focused on feelings and calling people out.

Where people on the poverty/ lower class line speak from personal knowledge. And really care little for things, like the names of mountains and all that jazz.


So remember, always try to understand why someone might feel the way they do. Because, the first to being actual open minded, is being able to understand where someone stands and why.

When you do anything you need to know where you stand.

If something offends you, you should clammy explain to your friend why. And not jump on their neck about It or call them out in front of a bunch of people. Some people do not understand what they said offended you or how.

At that same token, understand that some people do not understand what you are thinking. Most are more confused then anything. And you could offend them as well.

So once again clammy explain and do not go ape shit.

The more you do that (Go apeshit), the worse the impression It is gonna leave. And they are gonna assume people who share that trait with you are assholes.

Just remember. Other people have feelings as well. And they can be hurt. (everyone tends to forget It) and the normal human being is not going out of their way to hurt you. Douchebags yes, but they fuck with everyone.

...

I'm way too pissed off.

But, mostly hungry.

Not going back..It is done.

It is funny how you end up ending things sometimes. Friendships,projects, and what not. But really, when I take good long look at myself. I don't feel I have done enough yet I've alost have managed quite a few things. One thing being how things tend to threshold or roll over.

Like blogging something to get someone notice, only for a more popular blogger to do It. Overshadowing what you did. And when you really get down to It. Fame on the web is great. But, thou artist circles it is not as great as youtube fame. (Less stressful that being said)

I always stayed clear of fandoms, but yet have embrace my tickle fetish. I came to idea everyone likes what they like. And pervert or not, It is what It is. That and the fetish communities for all the shit said about them. Are WAY nicer when you want to leave them then fandoms. And everyone respects everyone else nopes that they will not do most of the time.

I've learned a lot of people who can handle me are. A.have a fetish themselves. B.Really, don't give a fuck. or C.Seem to be in a understanding of my mindset.

Really, when you get down to It. Everything I say that sounds like It could be a fetish (Oh,god there is a story for that) Does, not mean I am using It in fetish context. YOU DAMN FUCKING WEIRDOS. I mean Christ, If you really everything a person says who has a fetish is about fetishes. Get your fucking brain checked.

I found out I now hate five nights at Freddie's. It is more of a brony effect. You know a fandom keeps talking about how great they are that you just want to punch them. It is kind of like that.

Once again you can like what you like. But, understand others really don't want to hear about the deep plot of the murder of kids by a guy dress like Yogi fused with Chuck E Cheese. Specially when you cant check half your facts about the games they like.

I have learned what i want to avoid when I write. One person somehow managed to take everything I hate about character types and fused into some kind of. Would be hardass that I always look at that character and go "I will not go down that path." And proceed to be grateful I'm actually a better writer then people and I think.XD

I managed to rekindle a friendship at the end of last year that I thought was lost thou my own young dumbassry. People grow and change. They found peace and I found...something else. I grew a bit in soul. But, that left me with a bit of rage. I can keep under control. But, when I feel like not. Shit like this gets written. It clears my mind a tad you see. However, It is good to rekindle old things. I don't like leaving people off at me. Because, one thing I learned. Hardknocks is free, but what you learn. You keep.


In the same process I pissed of armies off people on tumblr. But, now I feel no need to be sorry anymore for It. Because, somehow everyone tumblr can't take a actual joke (Even If it is spelled out in there face) and take themselves why too seriously. (Looks to Would be hardass character). So, I decided to really, not give a fuck and post what I want. Shame debating is over. All the people I watched who gave me all this fun debate stuff. I had to unwatch.XD

So, now I am left with picture of dongers,cats,some art, And stuff that i dont feel like mocking because It actually, seem well written and makes sense. Damn....


I think the new year is gonna be fun. Gonna commission more people. (New year, new artist) Gonna try and have  cannedtalent finish the 2nd comic. (Gotta pay the deer everyone.XD)

Gonna, try and see If I can find my shadow (Troppa-D I will get ahold of you! And when I do. I'll ask how you been.)

See, If others I know can give me some advice and help me out a tad.

Try and actually, get all Gervon acts finished this year.

And somewhere down the line, commission a oversized tickled portrait...Or atleast, a pariod of the last supper.XD

Overall, I'm looking at what has, and what could.

Goals for self. Not so much. Other, then. Grow a lil smarter, a lil wiser, and a lil crazier. (which ever comes first)

So, good year everyone..Good year.

It's my birthday!

So, last night It seems I was a lil smashed and posted some "work". Put, It in scarpes.

They always get ya folks.

I had my comment on DA hidden by a admin!

Best, part..It was none political,religious, or super controversial thing.XD

FUCK FREEDOM! WE WOULD RATHER HATE SHIT AND BAN IT THEN HAVE FREEDOM!

FREEDOM IS OVERATTED,It is not like anyone died for freedom. But, people died for Bieber.


*I hope the Chinese do invaded as everyone fears*

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZK5j8x-pXnw

So,I'm guessin you all are wondering why I have not post in a while...

I could go on about how no looks at my work and blah,blah,blah but the real reason is...I lost my eraser.

Yeah,(First world problems for the lose)

So,I am gonna have to find It. Otherwise all ym work comes out looking like more of a monkies ass then normal.

So,until then..here have a spam of unfinished works.

http://leagueoflegends.wikia.com/wiki/Ionia

Wow...just wow,every hero I hate from the same place.XD

I have been playing DC Universe for sometime now and all I gotta say is this.

Heroes are assholes.

Ok,let me explain.

PvP is a thing but here is what happens.


I wanted to play a PvP,Mainly because I usually play heroes.

I get thou the BS and go to my first mission.Get It done with a few problems because AI spams you you but get it done.

Then,I go to my second mission. A lvl 30 guy who is a "hero" is beating my ass so I can't do It. Til,a group of Villains come in and body slam his ass.

Then 2 lvl 8 Heroes are bullying people in the same area.

This goes one for a while then.

Well..

I get cased by some fucker who looks like some cliche Anime hero.

Get ganag raped by a pack of lvl 30's

Have lvl 19 when I was 21 try to attack me. Then he runs off when he starts losing only for me to get jumped by 2 lvl 27 heroes.

Have a lvl 27 hero go invis just to attack me in a villains missions area.



And then the icecream on top of It. Have a flying bitch with fireballs chase me to hell and back. Only,for a group of villians in a middle of a mission come to my aid to pimp hand her.

This also not including the roaming packs of d-bags who go to low lvl missions and jump newbies.

The assholes who jumped me and 2 other when I was lvl 11.

And all the other fun stuff.


.......


Man for a bunch of heroes. They sure act like bigger villains.

I lack in a skill so I make up for It in oversize backgrounds to fool you into thinking It is better then what It is.

A game I liked had update during the Halloween event after so many people managed to get the gear. The update boosted enemy power normal became advance,Advance became hard and hard...well..


The game has wen thou many changes..yet this one pissed me off for some reason.

Maybe because,It enforces the Pay to win aspect since even advance foes can kill you If you don't have a party, even then It works like Borderlands where enemy become harder to kill the more people you have.

And heath rebirths can only be bought via buyable money. So,you are boned unless you grind forever or puke up about $10.


Also chests keys cost money.

You use the coins to get the buyable money but the rate is 7,650 to 100. And getting the coins is not as easy as It sounds since foes only drop 3 to 50 coins and only when they feel like It. Otherwise they drop weapon exp which is useless unless you get the gems to upgrade which gain cost money because will rarely If ever find any.

Also you get a pet now, and If you are a older player you are in for a bad time because the game has more focus on the pets and even If you are high levleed, you get a low level pet. And leveling them up is a bitch. So you have to be lower level to get usage of them to get high enough to help you later.

Which leads to my bitching.

To get a set armor I really want, I need black key, I can only get black keys money..No joke..You need to A.Get it out of a chest (Which chest keys cost money) or buy It for twice the amount.


I managed to get a black key.

I set It normal,because even If I do not get the exp. I just want to forge the armor.

And low and behold..I get cock blocked,by units I have never faced who come in droves. Bullshit lvl design that take half your hp in one shot.
and a tasty lag to top It off.

I muck thou the first part..getting pissed and flustered.

Only to met the second part, which is "Hurdur..collect stuff and bring It mid."

So..I'm getting bombed by foes who make no sense on how they work. Who litterly can only be attacked on way who are basically wall sitting. I'm dying all over the place..When I thought about something...

It is not worth It.

It stop being fun..


It was draining me dry of my joy.

I was getting pissed,flusted, and enraged..

If I want that I will play fucking Dota or Damn LOL.

All this because I wanted to make a set of armor...Why could I not just get there..Why do I have to go thou all this just to get what..Armor that more then likely would do nothing because the meta rubs it's dick to Wulfer armor and ez spam weapons?

Fuck that.


When a game stops being fun and just becomes worse then a corth..it is not worth playing.

I have a problem who name off heroes. Mainly when they are not plotting to play them.

Because this is usually what happens.

They name off supports that they think are overpowered or are meta-turds that not everyone will play.

And then they will name off the hero they want..which is not a support but a carry.

However, they go so fast with their yapping that you can't figure out who wants what.

They do this on purpose so you will get pressed for time. Then they will name off a carry as soon as they please It.

Or wait til someone else names off a carry and grab It up forcing someone else to be the butt-monkey.

Then when the person gets pissed they pulled that shit. The shithead acts like a smug bitch, laughing and giggling and acting like they just coned you.

Which is part of the problem.

I'm sure If you wanted to be carry, just named off the carry other then naming of supports then butt-monkeying someone. And the person you butt-monkied can't do anything about It because "teamgame lulz" And they look bad for getting pissed.

However, crippling the team because you think you know best is fucking dumb.

what If the person was better with another healer then the one you forced on them.

Then you hear the "you should know more then one type of hero." crap, even when you just this guys most played and he has nothing but carries and easy pleasy characters.

It also pisses you off when you are the guy who normally goes support, and you get stuck with one you really hate because they play like a gimped monkey running thou piss...

But hay that is just me.

1. Why did you join FurAffinity?
because about 75% of the people know came here. One asked me to come..so I came...yay!

2. What does your username have to do with you?
Well Jackie shuffle Deck is the character everyone thinks I am (Or people think is my persona) So, I just rolled with it.
Ask for PatientZero,It is a running gag about Not having having any Patients...But I do...Yeah, or maybe something else..Like a character..

3. What is your current avatar of?
Jackie Shuffle looking at's the peoples.

4. How many watchers do you have, and how many do you watch?
hahahah watching 22

Heheh 15 watch me...hahahahaha

I'm closed of most of the time so no biggy.


5. Do you have more than one account?
Here..or everywhere?

cause  jackshow Who is this shithead?

6. Name 3 of your favorite artists on FA.
Hmm...

 cannedtalent
 ThatWickedSmile
 Kyan0

Each have a different style I really like..and hope to avoid doing.

7. What artist do you admire because of their personality?

Most of them here that I watch. On the otherlands a person named Troppa-D...Something odd about that one that I like.

8. Do you comment, fave, or both?
Derp..Derpity Derp.

9. What do you typically post on FA?
Shitty writings,,shitty drawings, Tickle art....

10.What's your favorite submission in your gallery?
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9608732/

11. What are the things you wish you could draw better?
EVERYTHING!

12. How many hours a day do you spend on FA?
2?

13. Are you a fast, slow, or medium typer?
Welp..

Laaaadeeeeeeedaaaaaaa

14. What is the most annoying thing people ask you?
Nothing!

15. What is the most annoying/offending comment you've received?
Can a lack of comments and the bitching of other getting too many comments be annoying?

16. What/who inspires you?
O_o

o_O

O_O

Ok..lets see. Welp, maybe my love animations. Maybe my love of one story that stuck with me. It could be anything..really, I'm not sure. Over the years I thought It was to impress others but as time went on it was just because I enjoy seeing things I create drawn in other styles.

17. Everyone has considered leaving FA once or twice. Have you? Why?

It is kind of the same reason I think about leaving DA. My lack of posting, and my lack of being noticed,
But one hand washes the other sometimes and others It tends to happen to really good artist who get over shadow by pop culture debates.

Honestly,fuck nerd culture sometimes.

You can think thecrazydragon..for this spamXD


1. What is your character's name?
Jackie Shuffle Deck

2. What is your character's name in another language?
Du Lormaz (Shade speak for that lizard..I'm aloud to cheat right?)

ok fine,,,
Jackie aleatoria Cubierta

3. How old is he/she?
He actually ages in the story so It would be hard to say.

4. What is your character's race/species?
Dreamous (dream being)Ladarian (Lizardfolk) Yet raised by Wovous (Woven in houses..who are wolves)

5. Do they have a crush?
he likes quite a few people he mets. Yet crushes to him are "People who you can talk to about anything."

6. Do they have many friends?
Quite a few.

7. What planet is your character from?
The Torney

8. Does your character like to eat?
I don't think will find him not shoving food in his mouth,unless fighting.

9. What's his/her favorite food?
Melons,berries, frozen milk, He is a odd fellow all things considered.

10. What's his/her favorite drink?
milk.....Just milk....and maybe water.

11. Is your character annoying?
That depends on how you feel about pink lizard who sometimes do odd things when no one is looking.

13. Is your character loved?
I think he might just be.

14. Is your character hated?
Well, busting up slave caravans will not get you loved by the guys running them.

15. Is he/she emo/goth?
Crazydragon:Le Nope

Jack:What she said

16. Is he/she a virgin?
He can't really have sex, so there a reason to call him that?

18. Name 3 hobbies
Singing,collecting brightly colored rocks, and cross dressing!

19. Is your character normal?
No-one is normal!

20. Is your character attractive?
Are you asking me If I think a large pink dragon is sexy.....Hm....maybe?

21. How does your character handle emotions?
He does not understand what he is feeling 30% of the time and has to ask someone.

22. Does your character have other forms?
No,not really. Other versions of him but he is as he is now.

23. Does your character overreact?
When under heavy emotional stress yes.

24. Is your character a criminal?
Yes...but that happens when you are friends with some colorful folks.

25. Does your character go to school?
He would more then likely ask you what a school is.

26. What's his/her IQ?
Derp?

27. Does your character have a disease/curse?
Not to my knowledge...let me ask him. Hay Jack you have any diseases?

Jack:Huh?

28. Is your character dead?
He is techially a zombie, yet more Frankenstein monsterish.

29. Does your character have a family?
Quite a few no less.

30. Has he/she encountered any tragic times in life?
He life is full of depressing ass shit, What do you think?

31. What's the best time in your character's life?
Being free and eatting ze barries.

32. If you could name 1 friend, which would you relate to your character?
Sorry,nope.

33. Is your character single?
Yes/yet no,

34. Has he/she developed any relationships?
He has many friends/alllies. So yeah.

35. Does she/he have an element?
Less element and more byproduct of dreams.

36. Do you role-play your character?
Pathfinder will make you do weird things.


37. Do you write about your character?
Well,yes. He is made to be a story book character.


38. Does your character have a bad temper at times?
Sometimes..

39. Does your character get depressed?
Sometimes..

40. What's your characters favorite animal?
He like.....little chubby two leg creatures with large teeth. He saids yet look like mini wheels with legs.



41. Does your character have any fears?
Slowly going astray and losing his mind.

more so, the fear of losing the power of choice.

42. Does your character have any weaknesses?
Technically Anything anti-undead can hurt him. Also stabbing him in the gut. Also he is ticklish.

43. Does your character look up to anyone?
Quite a few people.

Cass:Close friend, almost a sister. Died defending their home. Was the kindest person to him.

Aunt Mil:Brave even when scared shitless.

and there are a few more. But don't want to spam people.

44. Does your character like music?
He loves him some old lute music.

45. What's your character's favorite type of music?
Just playing for playing sake,no ballads or tales. Just music for It sake.

46. Is he/she impatient?
Depending on the thing he is waiting for.

47. What's something funny about your character?
His habbits.

48. Name 5 nicknames
Jack,Jackie,Pinkie,Spazz, and THAT FUCKING PINK SHITHEAD!

49. Does your character curse?
Oh...yeeeessss.

50. This test is over, what does your character have to say?

"What did I miss?"

What do artist I like always disappear?



http://mrshuffledeck.deviantart.com.....t-me-360169967

I mean really. For every Tom,Device, or whatever flavor is on DA, there is at-least one guy who actually deserves to be noticed.

Why, what does Tom have that this guy does not. What does any of the front page bottom feeders have that this guys does not. Drawing fucking fanart.

You go ways on DA to get love, or any sight.

Be a cynical cockmeat, who is 2edgy4everyone.

Or

Some fan art yipping fool.


I sware, I just..I just want one person who has actually talent to keep going and become something..But I guess that will never happen, because everyone wants dicks or lip service over actual story telling or character.


Fucking Hypocrites, how much they say "Way isn't real art on the front." Then faving some dumbass 2deep4u stamp...

I really feel like I want to die right now.

stole from :kyan0: HAHAHA,NO TAG BACKS.

MY CHARACTER (Sofie's) WEAPONS OF CHOICE: "OH,bot I'm in a me-me.Wow, Lets see!"

"Rubble-tummble" (A old rat with a massive metal plate forged to It's back)


"Shambles" (Her grandfathers own bones forged with rope and metal.)


"Sir-slaperton" (A knight who was raised to cook food, can slap you with food related objects)


"Frankie" (A large Ant giant with four arms and horse legs)

"Sir-handle p. Wellington" (The corpse of a man who was caught on fire, can actually spit fire)



"Trappy" (A Rat with metal teeth and clawes was made to cut tree and dig up shooms)


"Fudgy" (A black slime golem who eats metal and everything else)


and

My plasma blast and stick I call, "SMACKY"

It feels good to be love.

-Sofie

I just finished 2 picture..powered only by rage and cannine!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SFgBISYwdzI

I summon this

I'm going to do one final thing.....One single thing...I want to test something...It is not gonna be one picture, or a story...It is gonna be something actually very big

And time consuming and It will help me come to a conclusion.


If, I get result I'll do something..

If get result other then what I think I'll get I'll do something else...

I'm saying what or when, but It will be done.and It will be my choice after It to see what I do next...


It is more or less, my last massive project, before..what happens happens.

Edot:If you have things to ask...go ahead and do so..