Well...
Posted 10 years agoAll my classes are done. All I have left is my Showings (my exam) and then I...officially graduate. Not sure whether to be excited, or to be sad that this is already over, but one thing I do know. I am excited to start my career as fast as possible.
A Friend in Need
Posted 10 years agoMy friend
needs some extra cash. He's charging really good prices for art please please please go look!
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Save Me From Myself
Posted 10 years agoPlease pull me out of the darkness...I can't see.
READ/WATCH IF YOU LOVE ME! (RWBY fans will like)
Posted 10 years agoSo a friend of a friend cast me in this thing he's doing. He's doing a RWBY Abridged series, and he cast me for a guest role (for now main role next season) and I am playing the gay black snake XD Please watch! We all worked so hard on it and I'M IN IT! SO IF YOU'RE MY TRUE FRIEND AND SUPPORTER YOU'LL WATCH IT X3 Thank youuuu!!! ^w^
3rd College Acting Report Card (Read if you love me :P)
Posted 10 years agoProgram: ACTING FOR CAMERA AND VOICE
Broadening Your Acting Skills: C+
Finding Character Through Mask: A
Creating Demo Tapes: A
Accents and Dialects: B+
The Actor and Technology: A
GPA: 3.6
I just keep getting better and better! For the C+ remember the conference journal where I said my prof was like "It's too bad about your journals" ....yeaaa that's why it's a C+ journals were worth 20% ^^; so it means I did well in everything else. But I love this report card. It's my best one yet! True the grades mean nothing for my industry but to me it means that these professionals see something in me, and if they do hopefully the industry will too! ^w^ That's all for now Can't wait for my 4th and Final Term!
TTYL
Broadening Your Acting Skills: C+
Finding Character Through Mask: A
Creating Demo Tapes: A
Accents and Dialects: B+
The Actor and Technology: A
GPA: 3.6
I just keep getting better and better! For the C+ remember the conference journal where I said my prof was like "It's too bad about your journals" ....yeaaa that's why it's a C+ journals were worth 20% ^^; so it means I did well in everything else. But I love this report card. It's my best one yet! True the grades mean nothing for my industry but to me it means that these professionals see something in me, and if they do hopefully the industry will too! ^w^ That's all for now Can't wait for my 4th and Final Term!
TTYL
3rd Term as an actor over. (Read if you love me :P)
Posted 10 years agoSo my 3rd Term was my personal favourite. The classes were all so interesting. And my showings went good, got a lot of laughs for the scene, and the masks portion went well too. Now for what my profs said to me this semester.
First was my "Broadening Your Acting Skills" prof Mark, and he started with the usual of asking me how my semester was, and I replied to him what I just wrote above pretty much. Then he continued to say how: "You work so hard, so hard, and it really shows in your work, too bad about your journals though" And I was like >////< "I'm not a writer Mark Jesus, stop bullying me" to which we all laughed, and my profs just gave me amazing suggestions for next time. He then went on to say that he loves having me in his class, and told me a criticism about the showings where I wasn't fully in character until a certain part in the scene which I can admit I wasn't because of nerves X//3.
Then it moved on to my next prof because Mark lost his train of thought. (which I will get back to) My camera acting professor Julia was next and she started with a BUNCH of nice things to say "I just wanna say that I super loved having you in my class. Always a great energy, always so professional, I knew I could always count on you, great attendance, you always e-mailed me to let me know what's what and i really appreciated the professionalism. And I loved how you always want to do more, and I even got you another roll didn't I?" And yes she did. She rocked. Then she went on to say "You are so good at dropping in, you're really grounded in your body, you do some beautiful work you really do, and you're really good at finding swings and nuances. Like your Sheldon in Big Bang" she then leaned to Mark "He was fucking hilarious in that scene" and Mark said "I believe it" then she continued "My challenge for you would be dealing more with lover-lover relationships more like you showed good work in your Good Will Hunting scene but go deeper. And to go to your text, and I know you already do this, but I also challenge you to go to your text and find even more swings and nuances, and I'm so excited to have you for Voice-overs, so I suggest you read something out loud for 10 minutes everyday to prepare, you got 2 weeks over the break right? But that's all for me."
Last was my Masks professor Mario. He said "Yea Anthony, A+ for me really. Wonderful student I loved having you in my class. Your work was wonderful. Every mask you always found something new and it was beautiful. Today I wanted to to tell you that for the full mask where you did your text, that's where you need to go all the time. It was beautiful you were so focused and I didn't see you in there I just saw the character. i would suggest you start focusing on getting rid of your "shadow movements". Like for example how you talk with your hands, sometimes that slips in your work, and it doesn't work for every character, but that's it otherwise, great work, you have a great body to work with, you did wonderful today."
Then Mark ended it with his train of thought coming back and he said "Oh, also, last thing I want to say to you is...you need stop asking for praise." AND EEEVRRRY prof chipped in about how "Yes, you don't need to because in the industry directors will get annoyed not that we are, because we know it's school and this is expected, but we're just giving you a heads up" and then Mark ended it "Especially because...and I've been telling you since day 1 and I'll tell you again...you make great choices as an actor. You don't need my approval."
I just loved my conferences. Always great feedback, and I'm gonna be the best! ^w^ Next Journal will be the report card. TTYL
First was my "Broadening Your Acting Skills" prof Mark, and he started with the usual of asking me how my semester was, and I replied to him what I just wrote above pretty much. Then he continued to say how: "You work so hard, so hard, and it really shows in your work, too bad about your journals though" And I was like >////< "I'm not a writer Mark Jesus, stop bullying me" to which we all laughed, and my profs just gave me amazing suggestions for next time. He then went on to say that he loves having me in his class, and told me a criticism about the showings where I wasn't fully in character until a certain part in the scene which I can admit I wasn't because of nerves X//3.
Then it moved on to my next prof because Mark lost his train of thought. (which I will get back to) My camera acting professor Julia was next and she started with a BUNCH of nice things to say "I just wanna say that I super loved having you in my class. Always a great energy, always so professional, I knew I could always count on you, great attendance, you always e-mailed me to let me know what's what and i really appreciated the professionalism. And I loved how you always want to do more, and I even got you another roll didn't I?" And yes she did. She rocked. Then she went on to say "You are so good at dropping in, you're really grounded in your body, you do some beautiful work you really do, and you're really good at finding swings and nuances. Like your Sheldon in Big Bang" she then leaned to Mark "He was fucking hilarious in that scene" and Mark said "I believe it" then she continued "My challenge for you would be dealing more with lover-lover relationships more like you showed good work in your Good Will Hunting scene but go deeper. And to go to your text, and I know you already do this, but I also challenge you to go to your text and find even more swings and nuances, and I'm so excited to have you for Voice-overs, so I suggest you read something out loud for 10 minutes everyday to prepare, you got 2 weeks over the break right? But that's all for me."
Last was my Masks professor Mario. He said "Yea Anthony, A+ for me really. Wonderful student I loved having you in my class. Your work was wonderful. Every mask you always found something new and it was beautiful. Today I wanted to to tell you that for the full mask where you did your text, that's where you need to go all the time. It was beautiful you were so focused and I didn't see you in there I just saw the character. i would suggest you start focusing on getting rid of your "shadow movements". Like for example how you talk with your hands, sometimes that slips in your work, and it doesn't work for every character, but that's it otherwise, great work, you have a great body to work with, you did wonderful today."
Then Mark ended it with his train of thought coming back and he said "Oh, also, last thing I want to say to you is...you need stop asking for praise." AND EEEVRRRY prof chipped in about how "Yes, you don't need to because in the industry directors will get annoyed not that we are, because we know it's school and this is expected, but we're just giving you a heads up" and then Mark ended it "Especially because...and I've been telling you since day 1 and I'll tell you again...you make great choices as an actor. You don't need my approval."
I just loved my conferences. Always great feedback, and I'm gonna be the best! ^w^ Next Journal will be the report card. TTYL
Tomorrow is my 3rd Term Shwoings
Posted 10 years agoA.K.A. my exam X3 I'm doing 2 scenes and a Masks thing. Scared but excited! wish me luck y'all
I START SCHOOL TOMORROW!
Posted 11 years agoSo excited for my 3rd semester. Wish me luck, and this goes without saying but time here will be scarce, but it's only til the end of April! TTYL everyone!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
Posted 11 years agoWell it's officially 2015.
What I wanna say is 2014...Had a bit of a...terrible start due to someone I thought I could love and trust with anything, left me for no good reason, betrayed me, spat on me and then left me in the dirt on a heavy rain day and laughed as it all occurred, while walking away giving me the middle finger. Not to mention I wasn't totally thrilled with what I was doing in College so needless to say bad fucking start furs. But after I grew balls and finally told my parents I really didn't want to do accounting and preferred acting and to my surprise they were real supportive considering the job. That's when things got...a little better. The audition went great, and I got a call 4 HOURS after it happened. So that was a real great boost. But this person that hurt me, yes of course, like most people blinded by love. I still loved them. And was troubled about it....for quite honestly most of this year. I know...a year...pathetic huh? Specially when they didn't give 2 shits about me. But if not for supportive friends and the fact that my acting program is filled with the best professors you can find, I wouldn't have gotten over it probably as fast as I would've. But at the same time I'm not...mad at myself like i used to be. Because yes...I'm an idiot. I loved someone who was Satan's child and I didn't get over it fast. But thanks to friends here, and learning lots about human beings and acting in my program...I realize...yes I may not have social masks that protect me from getting hurt from fuckwads like that. I'm to open. I'm to honest. I'm to vulnerable. But is that really a bad thing? I say no. Maybe in this world yes...but for my job I'm ahead of the game. I had a shit past, and I'm not afraid to bring it to my acting. What happened with that person, I'm not afraid to bring into my acting. I'm a boy and I cry so what? I'm open. Honest. Vulnerable. The way I see it is...if I can't be myself when I'm not onstage....who else am I supposed to be? Why behind a mask? After hearing the countless compliments from my professors who've only known me now for 8 months about what a wonderful person I am and a wonderful actor I'm already becoming. Those are the people that matter. My friends are the people that matter. To the some of you (you know who you are) who have helped me through that rough time...thank you...for your patience...love and everything. And another thanks to others who even if you knew nothing about this...thank you for just...caring and talking to me. Sometimes a simple hello can save a life. Lol I am getting way to deep. But regardless, all I say here is from my heart...see here I go again being all open and vulnerable to possibly some assholes that are gonna break my heart and leave me like that person did. But no matter what....I will be true to myself...I got a crazy family, but way more stable than some, and in their own way...I know they love me, and would die for me...hey they support me being gay and an actor. If that's not good parents, I don't know what it is. I got amazing friends that don't require an explanation to explain because how do you describe perfection? As for my professors...I couldn't ask for better idols. All of them are amazing individuals, and I say this with pride. I hope to surpass them in this career, only so in talkshows and everywhere I go, I will always bring up their names.
To sum this up. 2014 started bad, and when school started in May and on it just got better and better and better. And soon I get to go back! I never dread school I love and look forward to it. Like my high school it's like a second home. Lol sorry High school you've been demoted to 3rd home XD. (I actually have a 1, 2, 3, 4 rank and this isn't the order but y'all get the picture! XD) But now thankfully the worst is over. That person is gone and out of my life. I can finally say I have moved on and 2015, I look forward to whatever adventures and whatever emotional roller-coasters you may bring to me.
I love you all. Happy New Years! I hope you all had an awesome one! See you around!
What I wanna say is 2014...Had a bit of a...terrible start due to someone I thought I could love and trust with anything, left me for no good reason, betrayed me, spat on me and then left me in the dirt on a heavy rain day and laughed as it all occurred, while walking away giving me the middle finger. Not to mention I wasn't totally thrilled with what I was doing in College so needless to say bad fucking start furs. But after I grew balls and finally told my parents I really didn't want to do accounting and preferred acting and to my surprise they were real supportive considering the job. That's when things got...a little better. The audition went great, and I got a call 4 HOURS after it happened. So that was a real great boost. But this person that hurt me, yes of course, like most people blinded by love. I still loved them. And was troubled about it....for quite honestly most of this year. I know...a year...pathetic huh? Specially when they didn't give 2 shits about me. But if not for supportive friends and the fact that my acting program is filled with the best professors you can find, I wouldn't have gotten over it probably as fast as I would've. But at the same time I'm not...mad at myself like i used to be. Because yes...I'm an idiot. I loved someone who was Satan's child and I didn't get over it fast. But thanks to friends here, and learning lots about human beings and acting in my program...I realize...yes I may not have social masks that protect me from getting hurt from fuckwads like that. I'm to open. I'm to honest. I'm to vulnerable. But is that really a bad thing? I say no. Maybe in this world yes...but for my job I'm ahead of the game. I had a shit past, and I'm not afraid to bring it to my acting. What happened with that person, I'm not afraid to bring into my acting. I'm a boy and I cry so what? I'm open. Honest. Vulnerable. The way I see it is...if I can't be myself when I'm not onstage....who else am I supposed to be? Why behind a mask? After hearing the countless compliments from my professors who've only known me now for 8 months about what a wonderful person I am and a wonderful actor I'm already becoming. Those are the people that matter. My friends are the people that matter. To the some of you (you know who you are) who have helped me through that rough time...thank you...for your patience...love and everything. And another thanks to others who even if you knew nothing about this...thank you for just...caring and talking to me. Sometimes a simple hello can save a life. Lol I am getting way to deep. But regardless, all I say here is from my heart...see here I go again being all open and vulnerable to possibly some assholes that are gonna break my heart and leave me like that person did. But no matter what....I will be true to myself...I got a crazy family, but way more stable than some, and in their own way...I know they love me, and would die for me...hey they support me being gay and an actor. If that's not good parents, I don't know what it is. I got amazing friends that don't require an explanation to explain because how do you describe perfection? As for my professors...I couldn't ask for better idols. All of them are amazing individuals, and I say this with pride. I hope to surpass them in this career, only so in talkshows and everywhere I go, I will always bring up their names.
To sum this up. 2014 started bad, and when school started in May and on it just got better and better and better. And soon I get to go back! I never dread school I love and look forward to it. Like my high school it's like a second home. Lol sorry High school you've been demoted to 3rd home XD. (I actually have a 1, 2, 3, 4 rank and this isn't the order but y'all get the picture! XD) But now thankfully the worst is over. That person is gone and out of my life. I can finally say I have moved on and 2015, I look forward to whatever adventures and whatever emotional roller-coasters you may bring to me.
I love you all. Happy New Years! I hope you all had an awesome one! See you around!
It's Christmas and...
Posted 11 years agoI wish you all a very Merry Christmas! <3 And I hope you all have a wonderful one with your families/friends or however you spend this loving holiday.
It's Christmas Eve...
Posted 11 years agoand I wanna wish everyone a Happy Christmas Eve!
2nd College Acting Report Card (Read if you love me!)
Posted 11 years agoProgram Courses
Extending the Actor's Voice: B+
Dance Basics: B+
Deepening Your On-Camera Work: B+
Introduction to Script Writing: B+
Acting on Impulses: B+
Periods and Styles: B
Physical Acting/Fight: A
Elective
The Structure and Art of Film: D
GPA: 3.20
I LOVE THIS REPORT CARD DON'T GET ME WRONG...would've liked one more A though X//D and about my elective...we do not speak of such evils on this journal O_O
Otherwise I'm so happy, and stoked for next semester, I worked really hard, and I'm glad it shows (cept for that DAMN elective) and like I'm so happy, so happy, and I really hope although these grades may seem to mean nothing, that they actually do for me in this industry wish me luck!
Extending the Actor's Voice: B+
Dance Basics: B+
Deepening Your On-Camera Work: B+
Introduction to Script Writing: B+
Acting on Impulses: B+
Periods and Styles: B
Physical Acting/Fight: A
Elective
The Structure and Art of Film: D
GPA: 3.20
I LOVE THIS REPORT CARD DON'T GET ME WRONG...would've liked one more A though X//D and about my elective...we do not speak of such evils on this journal O_O
Otherwise I'm so happy, and stoked for next semester, I worked really hard, and I'm glad it shows (cept for that DAMN elective) and like I'm so happy, so happy, and I really hope although these grades may seem to mean nothing, that they actually do for me in this industry wish me luck!
2nd Term as an Actor over. (READ IF YOU LOVE ME!)
Posted 11 years agoWow I'm already halfway done. These showings were much more fun, as I got to do Improv and Dance in front of an AUDIENCE :D ....ok yes it was just the program kids, but Term 4s get to invite family and friends. So as last time, after the showings, we all had a conference with our profs. And here's what mine had to say:
Mark my voice prof/Physical Acting prof/program co-ordinator started with "How was your semester?" and I replied in one breath because I was a little nervous going into the conference like last time. "Oh it was awesome, a little stressful, but more because my gen. ed was causing the stress if it wasn't for that I would've been fine." Then to make me laugh he was like "ok...now can you say that sentence again, but with breathing?" and I just blushed and said "Whatever Mark!" then he asked "So what do you feel you need to improve on?" and I said "Being more subtle on camera. Practicing more of the vocal exercises so I can be more familiar with them, and not beat myself up so much on the ones I can't do right away-" then he cut me off and was like "Ok, I'm gonna stop you there" and I was like T_T "OH NO!" in my head. He then continued with a bit of a tone "Yea you need to stop beating yourself up. You are an amazing actor and I can't understand why you wanna sit on middle to bottom and not sit on top of the class. I think you figure "Oh I'm young so I'm not good enough" but you are good enough, you have the skill set and you work so hard. So hard. And you've earned your place to be here, so you don't have to prove anything to anyone anymore, and just ignore the negative shit from them because who cares? I love having you in my class you're great! Also you need to stop asking me so many questions because you know the answers and from now on I'm gonna deflect some, and I'll only answer if you really did try to answer them yourself and trust that you know them yourself." As he was saying his speech like every other prof was goin all "mm-hm" T_T
Next was Conrad my Camera Acting Teacher. He said "Can you feel the love in this room? Like are you aware that we all love you?" and I again was blushing and I was like "yeeees" then he continued "Good, because you are loved, and I feel the way you are is because you don't get love somewhere in your life....am I wrong?" honestly he wasn't and I said "kind of" but those thinking it's my family...that's not what part of my life it's missing from. So Conrad nodded and continued "Yea you really are an amazing human being, and this place is our sanctuary." he also told me a story..but i dont remember the point of it T//T "You are passion. And I wanna tell you something, you know that expression "We don't choose the theatre it chooses us"? Well my friend, I believe it chose you. You work really hard, and it shows. Like I could have another 2 semesters with you, I'd love that." So because like...the hottest professor said all that I was like "omg I can die happy now" X//D
Next was my Script-writing professor David, and he said "Yea so Anthony, I'd like to start with your script. You were terrified of writing weren't you?" and I replied "Mortified" and then he continued "Well listen, I read it, and i loved it, and you got a B, but even if I wrote a lot of notes here, it's still a good B, because I wanna tell you something. Your script had the most heart." Then CONRAD BUTTS IN A QUICK "Big fucking surprise eh?" and I was like T//_//T and David continued "and it really says a lot about you" and then he handed it to me and said "It's a good first draft!" Then after Conrad asked me if I could send it to him because he really wanted to read it. T////T
Next was Christopher my Improv prof and he said "Yea Anthony I agree with everyone like A+ for me, you're awesome and you're a really nice guy. Now what I wanna say for you, is your so funny, because you were terrified of improv and you really embraced that fear and went into every scene LITERALLY yelling "I'M TERRIFIED AND I HATE DOING THIS, BUT HERE I GO!" X///D BECAUSE I ACTUALLY DID X'//D and then he continued "And as funny as it was, it's also good you do that, because this is the place to do it, because when you go out there after this program, you shouldn't be. But in here it's required. I also want to tell you, you're Plane scene in the showings today wasn't as good as it was in rehearsal and do you know why?" and I did "Because I was terrified of doing this in front of the audience" and he replied "RIGHT! because in rehearsal, it was groovin. You also need to remember and learn that the audience wants you to succeed, so don't let them scare you."
Last but not least was my Dance/Periods and Styles prof Nicky. She said "I concur with everything that has been said. You really are amazing Anthony, you're SO talented, I still remember your scene from last semester and how fucking awesome it was. May I ask something, is the reason you feel you have to keep proving yourself or whatever is because you feel you wanna be great but are afraid you're not great?" I honestly answered her "That's one" and she then read me a quote that I...don't remember T///T I might just ask her for it. "Like you really are so sweet, and you deal with areas i come short in-" Mark then interrupted her and said "shortcomings?" and she said "OH YES! YES that's it my shortcomings, you deal with them so well, I like forget to do something, and you don't tell me or remind me nastily, you remind me so gently just like "hey Nicky you forgot to do this" and I'm like "oh my God he's so forgiving, I like having him around." like trust yourself, and I know you hate hearing this but this is gonna come with time, and really haha I know you hate hearing it's gonna take time which is the irony of it but it is true. Lastly wow you did some beautiful periods pieces, I loved your Commedia D'ell Arte when you straddled that table SO FUNNY. Which was funny despite how nervous you were doing it at first. Oh and for dance, I wasn't sure about you doing a solo but after i saw how adamant you were and I was like "oohh confidence" and when I saw you do it, I was so proud Robin Hood came through! HAHA" XD BITCH SAID THAT BECAUSE I WAS DRESSED LIKE LINK, BECAUSE I WANTED TO BE A WARRIOR, BUT I HAD NO OTHER COSTUME SO THE WEEK BEFORE SHOWINGS SHE CALLED ME ROBIN HOOD XD SO SHE KNEW I WAS LINK- KIND OF, BUT SHE WAS BEIN A BITCH XD. THEN OMG, CHRISTOPHER WAS LIKE "OH that wasn't Robin Hood, that was Peter Pan right?" AND I WAS LIKE "NOOOOOO!!!" and we all started laughing and I was like "YOU CAN ALL GO TO HELL X'D" and that was it.
Overall...holy shit, the love and faith, they have in me. I'm really lucky to have such awesome people teach me. And I can't wait for Term 3!!!!
Hope you enjoyed reading this! ^^ next journal will be my report card when it comes <3
Mark my voice prof/Physical Acting prof/program co-ordinator started with "How was your semester?" and I replied in one breath because I was a little nervous going into the conference like last time. "Oh it was awesome, a little stressful, but more because my gen. ed was causing the stress if it wasn't for that I would've been fine." Then to make me laugh he was like "ok...now can you say that sentence again, but with breathing?" and I just blushed and said "Whatever Mark!" then he asked "So what do you feel you need to improve on?" and I said "Being more subtle on camera. Practicing more of the vocal exercises so I can be more familiar with them, and not beat myself up so much on the ones I can't do right away-" then he cut me off and was like "Ok, I'm gonna stop you there" and I was like T_T "OH NO!" in my head. He then continued with a bit of a tone "Yea you need to stop beating yourself up. You are an amazing actor and I can't understand why you wanna sit on middle to bottom and not sit on top of the class. I think you figure "Oh I'm young so I'm not good enough" but you are good enough, you have the skill set and you work so hard. So hard. And you've earned your place to be here, so you don't have to prove anything to anyone anymore, and just ignore the negative shit from them because who cares? I love having you in my class you're great! Also you need to stop asking me so many questions because you know the answers and from now on I'm gonna deflect some, and I'll only answer if you really did try to answer them yourself and trust that you know them yourself." As he was saying his speech like every other prof was goin all "mm-hm" T_T
Next was Conrad my Camera Acting Teacher. He said "Can you feel the love in this room? Like are you aware that we all love you?" and I again was blushing and I was like "yeeees" then he continued "Good, because you are loved, and I feel the way you are is because you don't get love somewhere in your life....am I wrong?" honestly he wasn't and I said "kind of" but those thinking it's my family...that's not what part of my life it's missing from. So Conrad nodded and continued "Yea you really are an amazing human being, and this place is our sanctuary." he also told me a story..but i dont remember the point of it T//T "You are passion. And I wanna tell you something, you know that expression "We don't choose the theatre it chooses us"? Well my friend, I believe it chose you. You work really hard, and it shows. Like I could have another 2 semesters with you, I'd love that." So because like...the hottest professor said all that I was like "omg I can die happy now" X//D
Next was my Script-writing professor David, and he said "Yea so Anthony, I'd like to start with your script. You were terrified of writing weren't you?" and I replied "Mortified" and then he continued "Well listen, I read it, and i loved it, and you got a B, but even if I wrote a lot of notes here, it's still a good B, because I wanna tell you something. Your script had the most heart." Then CONRAD BUTTS IN A QUICK "Big fucking surprise eh?" and I was like T//_//T and David continued "and it really says a lot about you" and then he handed it to me and said "It's a good first draft!" Then after Conrad asked me if I could send it to him because he really wanted to read it. T////T
Next was Christopher my Improv prof and he said "Yea Anthony I agree with everyone like A+ for me, you're awesome and you're a really nice guy. Now what I wanna say for you, is your so funny, because you were terrified of improv and you really embraced that fear and went into every scene LITERALLY yelling "I'M TERRIFIED AND I HATE DOING THIS, BUT HERE I GO!" X///D BECAUSE I ACTUALLY DID X'//D and then he continued "And as funny as it was, it's also good you do that, because this is the place to do it, because when you go out there after this program, you shouldn't be. But in here it's required. I also want to tell you, you're Plane scene in the showings today wasn't as good as it was in rehearsal and do you know why?" and I did "Because I was terrified of doing this in front of the audience" and he replied "RIGHT! because in rehearsal, it was groovin. You also need to remember and learn that the audience wants you to succeed, so don't let them scare you."
Last but not least was my Dance/Periods and Styles prof Nicky. She said "I concur with everything that has been said. You really are amazing Anthony, you're SO talented, I still remember your scene from last semester and how fucking awesome it was. May I ask something, is the reason you feel you have to keep proving yourself or whatever is because you feel you wanna be great but are afraid you're not great?" I honestly answered her "That's one" and she then read me a quote that I...don't remember T///T I might just ask her for it. "Like you really are so sweet, and you deal with areas i come short in-" Mark then interrupted her and said "shortcomings?" and she said "OH YES! YES that's it my shortcomings, you deal with them so well, I like forget to do something, and you don't tell me or remind me nastily, you remind me so gently just like "hey Nicky you forgot to do this" and I'm like "oh my God he's so forgiving, I like having him around." like trust yourself, and I know you hate hearing this but this is gonna come with time, and really haha I know you hate hearing it's gonna take time which is the irony of it but it is true. Lastly wow you did some beautiful periods pieces, I loved your Commedia D'ell Arte when you straddled that table SO FUNNY. Which was funny despite how nervous you were doing it at first. Oh and for dance, I wasn't sure about you doing a solo but after i saw how adamant you were and I was like "oohh confidence" and when I saw you do it, I was so proud Robin Hood came through! HAHA" XD BITCH SAID THAT BECAUSE I WAS DRESSED LIKE LINK, BECAUSE I WANTED TO BE A WARRIOR, BUT I HAD NO OTHER COSTUME SO THE WEEK BEFORE SHOWINGS SHE CALLED ME ROBIN HOOD XD SO SHE KNEW I WAS LINK- KIND OF, BUT SHE WAS BEIN A BITCH XD. THEN OMG, CHRISTOPHER WAS LIKE "OH that wasn't Robin Hood, that was Peter Pan right?" AND I WAS LIKE "NOOOOOO!!!" and we all started laughing and I was like "YOU CAN ALL GO TO HELL X'D" and that was it.
Overall...holy shit, the love and faith, they have in me. I'm really lucky to have such awesome people teach me. And I can't wait for Term 3!!!!
Hope you enjoyed reading this! ^^ next journal will be my report card when it comes <3
Last Week of Classes
Posted 11 years agoTuesday: Final Exam for my General Education Course Elective, that will make or break me passing or failing the course.
Wednesday: Rehearsal for the Improv part of my showings
Thursday: My Shortfilm Script is Due
Friday: Rehearsal for the Dance part of the showings which includes a group dance my prof choreographed, and a dance I made up. And an exam for Periods & Styles (a.k.a. Acting History)
WISH ME LUCK! T_T
*CUE EPIC MUSIC*
Wednesday: Rehearsal for the Improv part of my showings
Thursday: My Shortfilm Script is Due
Friday: Rehearsal for the Dance part of the showings which includes a group dance my prof choreographed, and a dance I made up. And an exam for Periods & Styles (a.k.a. Acting History)
WISH ME LUCK! T_T
*CUE EPIC MUSIC*
Happy Halloween Everybody!
Posted 11 years agoHave a Happy fun-filled but maybe a little scary Halloween! ^w^ Trick-or Treat?
Happy (Canadian) Thanksgiving!
Posted 11 years agoIn Canada it's Thanksgiving, so to all my fellow Canadian furs, HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!! Enjoy the turkey gobble gobble ^w^
A Little Update to the friends I talk to here
Posted 11 years agoI've started my second semester in my Acting Program at College...and it's HELLA busy! XD I am enjoying myself don't get me wrong, but I went from 5 subjects last semester....to 8 XD so it's VERY busy! Like here is my subject list:
Deepening Your On-Camera Work (aka a continuation from my 1st semester camera acting class)
Extending the Actor's Voice (aka continuation from my 1st semester voice class)
The Structure of Art and Film (this is my general education course, so it's outside my program...and it's work X3)
Acting On Impulses (improv is probably my EASIEST LEAST AMOUNT OF HOMEWORK CLASS XD)
Introduction to Script-Writing (writing course...lotsa homework the end)
Physical Acting/Fight (this is an easy course and it's a half semester)
Dance Basics (this be what fills the other half after Physical Acting/Fight)
Periods and Styles (basically my acting history course...so once again, LOTSA HOMEWORK! XD)
Yea this is probably the busiest semester according to the curriculum, so I may not be here as much...I apologize to some of you, but it's til December! so just bare with me! love you guys!
Deepening Your On-Camera Work (aka a continuation from my 1st semester camera acting class)
Extending the Actor's Voice (aka continuation from my 1st semester voice class)
The Structure of Art and Film (this is my general education course, so it's outside my program...and it's work X3)
Acting On Impulses (improv is probably my EASIEST LEAST AMOUNT OF HOMEWORK CLASS XD)
Introduction to Script-Writing (writing course...lotsa homework the end)
Physical Acting/Fight (this is an easy course and it's a half semester)
Dance Basics (this be what fills the other half after Physical Acting/Fight)
Periods and Styles (basically my acting history course...so once again, LOTSA HOMEWORK! XD)
Yea this is probably the busiest semester according to the curriculum, so I may not be here as much...I apologize to some of you, but it's til December! so just bare with me! love you guys!
It's My Birthday!
Posted 11 years agolol Birthday Wishes start from...NOW! XD you have ALL day people XD I also accept gifts :P
So yea I'm 19 now...finally legal to drink, I don't know about any other perks XD
So yea I'm 19 now...finally legal to drink, I don't know about any other perks XD
1st College Acting Report Card (Read if you love me)
Posted 11 years agoProgram: ACTING FOR CAMERA AND VOICE
BASIC ACTING SKILLS: A
THE VOCAL INSTRUMENT: B
THE ACTOR'S BODY: B
ACTING INSIDE THE FRAME: B+
COLLEGE ENGLISH: B
GPA: 3.30
So...all I'm saying is, I'm very proud of myself, and very happy with these marks. Once again, I cannot wait for next semester! :)
BASIC ACTING SKILLS: A
THE VOCAL INSTRUMENT: B
THE ACTOR'S BODY: B
ACTING INSIDE THE FRAME: B+
COLLEGE ENGLISH: B
GPA: 3.30
So...all I'm saying is, I'm very proud of myself, and very happy with these marks. Once again, I cannot wait for next semester! :)
So...my first semester as an actor has ended
Posted 11 years agoFirst of all...this semester was...everything I expected and more somehow...I was taught by professionals. True professionals, some have been in Hollywood, and sci-fi fans may know my a few of my teachers, if they were into Star Trek stuff. It was such a honor to be taught by all of them. It was the most exciting experience I ever had. And ugh you know what? I wanna go back already, I'm not dreading September 3rd I look forward to it. Hell I can't wait for it.
So...my acting exam is what I wish to share. For my program the exam entails students performing something from one of our classes (profs decide) and they watch us. After our performance, there is a conference where all our professors talk to us about our progress, if they feel we should continue, give constructive criticisms etc. Now naturally for the conference I was mortified. Especially after some people came out crying and on probation. So when it was finally my turn...I took a deep breath and got ready for whatever they had to say. I just kept telling myself "Remember, even if it's hurtful, they're just telling you for your benefit as an actor and so you know if yes or no this is a career for you." So I sat down in that chair with a tissue box to my left, as all my professors and program coordinator were there staring at me. And the first to talk was my "The Actor's Body" Professor Nicky. Now I was this close to tears about her going first because according to literally everyone before me...SHE HAD NOTHING NICE TO SAY. Here is what she said to me:
So big shocker, she had...very little "mean" (criticisms to say, some people just find it hard to take, which I personally feel maybe they should leave...because it's only gonna get worse) to say to me. I was blushing red by this point. Next was my Voice professor Michael. He said:
It was nice to hear all compliments from him. next was my "Basic Acting" professor David. His class is the scene we had to do our exam on. So he saw me in rehearsal, he gave me direction etc. and he had this to say:
I came so close to crying won't even lie. Last but certainly not least was my favorite professor, my "Acting Inside the frame" professor Anita. I was most worried about what she was gonna say because lol I WANTED HER TO STAY THE FAVORITE XD. luckily she did because she had this to say:
So after all that...wonderful praise and things to work on I thanked all my professors, and gave a special one to Anita as I may not be seeing her again. But after I left...I just felt amazing...I mean true, just because I get A's in College and because my professors say I'm such a joy and they see so much promise doesn't mean I'll get any work or make it to Hollywood. BUT it does mean, that there is hope...and potential...for me...because I'm gonna work so hard to do this...i want this more than anything in the world. The fact I blew these professionals away made me feel so confident and excited and ready for what may come for me, because some of the people who went before me and got more harsh criticisms, and SOME OF THEM HAVE AGENTS, AND HAVE BEEN IN AUDITIONS AND ETC. and then there's FRESH OUT OF HIGH SCHOOL ME, AND EVEN THE "MEAN TEACHER" had very little BAD to say about me in my conference! I'm just so happy this all happened. I really hope I can grow and become something in this business...not even for money and fame...but because...heh heh...actually I won't share why. That's personal. I'll only tell ya if I love ya, and haven't told you already.
And to top off all this greatness, my professor actually posted our final marks for our scene....and i got an A+ :') which is a 90% - 100% in my College's eyes. I just never felt better, things could not be going better for me, and i can't wait for next semester!!!
Thank you all for reading this *bows* and to certain people reading this, who are my true friends, you know who you are. Thank you for your support. Without some of you I may not have done this. this is Azuri ending this journal...and here's hoping one day, you all get to see me on your T.V. or in a movie theatre or hey maybe even hear my voice on your T.V. possibilites are endless ^w^
So...my acting exam is what I wish to share. For my program the exam entails students performing something from one of our classes (profs decide) and they watch us. After our performance, there is a conference where all our professors talk to us about our progress, if they feel we should continue, give constructive criticisms etc. Now naturally for the conference I was mortified. Especially after some people came out crying and on probation. So when it was finally my turn...I took a deep breath and got ready for whatever they had to say. I just kept telling myself "Remember, even if it's hurtful, they're just telling you for your benefit as an actor and so you know if yes or no this is a career for you." So I sat down in that chair with a tissue box to my left, as all my professors and program coordinator were there staring at me. And the first to talk was my "The Actor's Body" Professor Nicky. Now I was this close to tears about her going first because according to literally everyone before me...SHE HAD NOTHING NICE TO SAY. Here is what she said to me:
"Ok first of all Anthony, you fucking blew me away with your scene today. Like it wasn't flicky, it was very not you, and your did your character so well. Like just....WOW I'm so impressed from how much you've grown. And I'm so proud to see what you can become, with all your potential right now. Your always such a joy to have in my class, your energy is so appreciated. Your movements are so beautiful, and I can tell you work hard. Now what I wanna say to you is, please take yoga, to calm down, and not because I want you to lose your energy, but because I want you to be able to play other characters, by finding your centre. Also your young...your the baby of the class, but that doesn't mean be afraid of being the man you know? and also, lastly, you need to be more self reliant, because you always ask "is it right? is it right?" while that's ok to ask, you also need to know that yourself, because we won't always be there to do that for you. But that's all, otherwise, I look forward to next semester with you."
So big shocker, she had...very little "mean" (criticisms to say, some people just find it hard to take, which I personally feel maybe they should leave...because it's only gonna get worse) to say to me. I was blushing red by this point. Next was my Voice professor Michael. He said:
"Yes your scene was uh very impressive I agree. And your Sonnet for my class, was beautiful, after you did the work and translated it and understood it, it was beautiful, because at first when you didn't understand it, which was interesting, it was hard, but once you saw how "that's my life" did it show through your performance, and it was beautiful, and as well you're always a joy to have in the class too."
It was nice to hear all compliments from him. next was my "Basic Acting" professor David. His class is the scene we had to do our exam on. So he saw me in rehearsal, he gave me direction etc. and he had this to say:
"Yea Anthony, I mean truly you took such a big leap today. Because I saw you through rehearsal, I saw how well of a place this was in, in the first place. Because I saw you play with your partner, I saw you know your lines, I saw all the work you put into it, I had expected today to see what I saw in rehearsal. BUT I DIDN'T which is what IMPRESSED me so much! You took such a leap, you were so in the character, you really connected with him, you didnt anticipate anything, you took my direction, and took out the things you didnt like, cuz you don't have to take it all which is fine, and it all worked, like you GREW from such an amazing rehearsal, and it was just so impressive to see that."
I came so close to crying won't even lie. Last but certainly not least was my favorite professor, my "Acting Inside the frame" professor Anita. I was most worried about what she was gonna say because lol I WANTED HER TO STAY THE FAVORITE XD. luckily she did because she had this to say:
"Yea Anthony...I mean like, your scene was really impressive, and what REALLY impressed me, was that I saw you do that scene WITHOUT PUSHING! So I know you can do it! and that was just so great to see you do! you were really dropped in, and etc. and also, I wanna say, it's wonderful to have you in my class, you have so much energy, and I see you hunger for knowledge, you ask all the right questions, it's so refreshing to have you as a student, because me as a teacher having that is nice knowing a student works that hard and really wants to learn from me. Plus you work hard, I see you work so hard which is great! You also have great access to your emotions, which is very beneficial to you because you're male. Now for you I want you to work on, not always worrying about being right, because as an actor it's gonna limit you. Because when you focus about being right as actors we tend to push to get that "right emotion" out, and we keep ourselves in this little box. And for scenes you need to prepare less, not NEVER prepare, but like don't over do it, because once you rehearse it in one way, you know and then your partner doesn't give you the reaction you want, and then you STAY in the reaction you over re-hearsed it's not gonna look good right? but overall that's all I feel you really need to work on."
So after all that...wonderful praise and things to work on I thanked all my professors, and gave a special one to Anita as I may not be seeing her again. But after I left...I just felt amazing...I mean true, just because I get A's in College and because my professors say I'm such a joy and they see so much promise doesn't mean I'll get any work or make it to Hollywood. BUT it does mean, that there is hope...and potential...for me...because I'm gonna work so hard to do this...i want this more than anything in the world. The fact I blew these professionals away made me feel so confident and excited and ready for what may come for me, because some of the people who went before me and got more harsh criticisms, and SOME OF THEM HAVE AGENTS, AND HAVE BEEN IN AUDITIONS AND ETC. and then there's FRESH OUT OF HIGH SCHOOL ME, AND EVEN THE "MEAN TEACHER" had very little BAD to say about me in my conference! I'm just so happy this all happened. I really hope I can grow and become something in this business...not even for money and fame...but because...heh heh...actually I won't share why. That's personal. I'll only tell ya if I love ya, and haven't told you already.
And to top off all this greatness, my professor actually posted our final marks for our scene....and i got an A+ :') which is a 90% - 100% in my College's eyes. I just never felt better, things could not be going better for me, and i can't wait for next semester!!!
Thank you all for reading this *bows* and to certain people reading this, who are my true friends, you know who you are. Thank you for your support. Without some of you I may not have done this. this is Azuri ending this journal...and here's hoping one day, you all get to see me on your T.V. or in a movie theatre or hey maybe even hear my voice on your T.V. possibilites are endless ^w^
Yours Truly,
- Azuri Foxcoon
To Robin Williams...
Posted 11 years agoRobin...you always knew how to make us smile, laugh and cry. You were a wonderful talented man. My childhood, although crappy from all the severe bullying...it was ok, because I could always rely on Mrs. Doubtfire, or Genie, or any of your crazy hilarious roles to make me smile...you will always be an inspiration to me. You are one of my roll models on why I became an actor. It's a real loss that you've passed away. No matter what, you'll live on, I hope that after I show my children Mrs. Doubtfire, Aladdin, Jack, RV, Hook and more, they pass it on to their kids, so a true talent like yours...well not just your acting talent...some of the magic you added to your fantasy films to make them as unforgetable and meaningful as they did...never truly die. Robin Williams...wherever you may be now, keep entertaining. For whatever reason you felt like you had to take your life...I just hope that now...you are at peace.
Robin Williams...Rest In Peace...and know we'll never forget you and all the joy, magic and laughs in your performances.
"But if there's love, dear... those are the ties that bind, and you'll have a family in your heart, forever. All my love to you, poppet, you're going to be all right... bye-bye." -Robin Williams
Robin Williams...Rest In Peace...and know we'll never forget you and all the joy, magic and laughs in your performances.
"But if there's love, dear... those are the ties that bind, and you'll have a family in your heart, forever. All my love to you, poppet, you're going to be all right... bye-bye." -Robin Williams
Life Update (READ IF YOU CARE)
Posted 11 years agoIt's been a LONG time, since I made a journal about what's what...and do forgive me for the friends on here who really do care, because sometimes I just tell people, that like, making a journal to those I don't talk to as often, isn't the first thing on my mind. But basically...I have been...like outstanding...beyond outstanding...things couldn't be better for me honestly ^^ I finally left Accounting, and am now pursuing my real dream ACTING! When I did my audition (caution some bragging ahead) after everyone went, they were all like
"Please keep in mind ladies and gentlemen, we have to go through several auditions from overseas and here, and September applicants such as yourselves, are the hardest to choose from, as we also have most high school students applying, so you won't get a call from us knowing if you're in or not for...weeks, maybe even a month, we only have 20 spots a class, and we have thousands to start from, then hundreds to choose from, thanks for coming and hopefully we see some of you again"
So I go home, feeling pretty proud of my audition...5 hours AFTER my audition...I get a call them saying this "Your audition was so good, we don't wanna jeopardize you for September, how is May for you?" I legit jumped, and now I'm in school! (which is why to people I write notes for...please excuse some taking me a while to get back to you)
I get to work with actors and actresses as my professors, and I know they're in the biz, because I google them, and google knows who they are, they ain't Hollywood famous, but like, 1 was on an old television show. All the professors, are so nice, and I'm learning so much, BUT NOT JUST ABOUT ACTING, I'm learning about human nature, the body and more! I mean after all, as an actor, knowing things about your body, and the nature of people and more is essential to play a convincing character. And learning the things...they teach, also put a lot of things in perspective for me...about my life and people in general.
Also we got a few grades back and I'm already getting A's and I HOPE TO CONTINUE WITH THESE A's, and omg the people in my class, are all so nice, and supportive, and we really opened up to each other on an assignment, to put our "masks" away, and that really brought us close together since we all know back stories...like...I've never been better honestly...I LOVE this program...and hopefully when I graduate, y'all will see me on T.V.! ^^
Finally to wrap this up, the campus I'm at, is also where some of my old high school friends are, so it's GREAT to see them too, PLUS, *blushy giggles* I've been getting checked out >///////< like...weekly >//////< I guess I have to admit it now...I am hot >//////<
-Yours truly
Azuri Foxcoon <3
"Please keep in mind ladies and gentlemen, we have to go through several auditions from overseas and here, and September applicants such as yourselves, are the hardest to choose from, as we also have most high school students applying, so you won't get a call from us knowing if you're in or not for...weeks, maybe even a month, we only have 20 spots a class, and we have thousands to start from, then hundreds to choose from, thanks for coming and hopefully we see some of you again"
So I go home, feeling pretty proud of my audition...5 hours AFTER my audition...I get a call them saying this "Your audition was so good, we don't wanna jeopardize you for September, how is May for you?" I legit jumped, and now I'm in school! (which is why to people I write notes for...please excuse some taking me a while to get back to you)
I get to work with actors and actresses as my professors, and I know they're in the biz, because I google them, and google knows who they are, they ain't Hollywood famous, but like, 1 was on an old television show. All the professors, are so nice, and I'm learning so much, BUT NOT JUST ABOUT ACTING, I'm learning about human nature, the body and more! I mean after all, as an actor, knowing things about your body, and the nature of people and more is essential to play a convincing character. And learning the things...they teach, also put a lot of things in perspective for me...about my life and people in general.
Also we got a few grades back and I'm already getting A's and I HOPE TO CONTINUE WITH THESE A's, and omg the people in my class, are all so nice, and supportive, and we really opened up to each other on an assignment, to put our "masks" away, and that really brought us close together since we all know back stories...like...I've never been better honestly...I LOVE this program...and hopefully when I graduate, y'all will see me on T.V.! ^^
Finally to wrap this up, the campus I'm at, is also where some of my old high school friends are, so it's GREAT to see them too, PLUS, *blushy giggles* I've been getting checked out >///////< like...weekly >//////< I guess I have to admit it now...I am hot >//////<
-Yours truly
Azuri Foxcoon <3
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Happy Victoria Day Canadians!
Posted 11 years agolol fireworks and love the queen or something XD
Happy Mother's Day!
Posted 11 years agoHappy Mother's day to all Mothers and all FA Mothers ^^ and I hope you all have a nice day with your mommies like I will ^w^