these headshots are going to take longer than i thought! i unfortunately have work tomorrow, but i will be streaming tomorrow as well.

thanks to those who came!

come on in and i'll draw you a headshot!

https://picarto.tv/Okamichan16
https://picarto.tv/Okamichan16
https://picarto.tv/Okamichan16

mutuals~
I'mma stream tonight and do painterly headshots

respond to this journal if you'd like one!

yeet bois, yeet

normally i don't care who sees my faves, but ive found some artists who do stuff that might be considered 'cringey'** by others

i will hide my faves for now because while the pictures remind me of childhood, my anxiety is screaming, "people are gonna judge you for this stuff" and "they're gonna call you a weirdo"

how fun ;w;

anywho, I'm interested, if you do show your faves, do you ever get self-conscious about the things you like? if so, does it ever get too much for you? if you don't care, why?

**NOTE: this does not apply to anyone who is currently following me! if you see this journal in your notifications, i don't think your art is 'cringey'. hell, i personally don't think the art I'm faving is cringey! but i have had some bad people judge me before for my favorite stuff so im naturally nervous

pete is character damon and i created together while we were dating long distance

he's very special to us for multiple reasons and we ask that he be respected as real person because he is very real extension of ourselves

thank you

just go to my Twitter to see my thoughts i got a lot of odd streams of consciousness that are not quite cohesive! such as:

my dreams are showing me im holding in some aggression!

Or

i miss my Colorado friends!!

or

i really regret dropping out of my first college!!!

if you still watch me thnx

Just wanted to let y'all know I am still open for commissions! If you want to check out the prices and everything and my TOS, here are the links.

https://docs.google.com/document/d/.....t?usp=drivesdk

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24536751/

Times are wee bit hard for me and Damon since he doesn't have a job yet, so anything will help! Even $5!

Go ahead and ask me anything and if you wanna ask me something NSFW...well you can you just gotta have a Twitter and know my AD Twitter too!

(With the NSFW question I may decline if it's too much, sorry!)

Not from me, but my fiance!

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8585846/

i'm tired
i'm not in the mood to draw much
hypersomina
the end

so i wanna be an art teacher when i grow up

something about watching people's skills grow with my help makes me happy

so if you ever need help with art, im only a note away. just saying.

tell me your favorite weird ships (obviously nothing underage or incestuous)

i like shenzi x timon from the lion king

Hey all. While it is great that I have a job and all, I still haven't been paid the amount that I need to pay for utilties and I am in the red in my bank account. I need at least $40 to $50 to pay these people and keep my account afloat until I am paid so my credit doesn't sink. So at least one or two painting commissions would be a life saver. My fall prices are listed here and it would be a great help to have a big signal boost.

Thank you.

https://twitter.com/okamichan16/sta.....14760365871104

See y'all in about 2 weeks or so.

Heya guys. My mutual friend  Adryx is making commissions and they are awesome! Check them out here!

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24575045/

im thinking about coming back, but this will just be a commission page???

i wanna start fresh with a new approach. make things that are more in tune with my personal aesthetic. i dunno.

had to drop out of school (again) cause money got tight, but im not super sad. just kinda lost. mentally i think im okay. just really need a job to keep myself afloat. luckily my fiancee's a big help as always. has been a big help too.

if i do move, ill let yall know.

So. I can't believe this day is finally approaching. And fast.

I am going back to school to finish my degree and I'm doing it with the person I love.
It's been a hell of a year.
Honestly, these last 3 years have been hell if I am completely honest.
Part of that has lot to do with me.
Perhaps 90% has to do with me.

Lemme explain.

When I first came to FA, I came in 2014 to post my art. I love making art and drawing and animals have always been the most fun for me to draw. It only made sense. However, less than 10 days later after joining FA, I had to leave my dream school. I had been used by one of my friends and I was bled dry. Long story short, I am still being bled dry by her and many other people. Some of which are even in the art community itself. But, I didn't (and still don't) know how to say NO. NO is the hardest thing for me to do. So, like I said, 90% of the issues that I have and the situations I put myself in has been my own doing because I'm a pussy. However, the other 10%, people have knowing me smiled and slapped the shit out of me.

And thus, anxiety and depression have come up and gotten stronger since I have left school.

I have always had anxiety since I was young child, but it's been fucking up my adult life left and right these last 3 years. It's gotten to the point that I have to take medication. My family and doctors even think that I maybe bipolar.

It's pretty scary to be truthful.

Of course, not all of my life has been bad. In fact, I have made strides to putting myself in junior standing. I will be getting married soon. I have no problem attaining a job. Very few people know what it has been like to be in my head and assume I had a little bump on the road.

It cannot be further from the truth.

So, these feelings are part of the reason I wanna leave here for now. I wanna finish school and not have my mental illnesses mess me up.

However, this isn't the only reason I want to leave FA.
I could go on and on how this place pisses me off. But I will narrow it down to 3 things:

1. Entitlement
Too many people here feel that they have an obligation to receive art and have it be free. Like I said, I wanna rant, but I will leave it at that because y'all have seen that here and know what I am talking about. People have done this to me too without caring about me and it took my family and fiance pointing this out. I was blinded to this and it fucking hurt when I understood this. I hate being used, but I set myself up for it.

2. Lack of Respect
This is something I actually do want to go into detail with. I am someone that does not appreciate creepy people. I don't mean socially awkward people, but people who like to RP sensually with me and ask me pervasive questions over and over again. I'm not here for the sexual scene or even the kink scene. For me to even remotely discuss this stuff, I have to have known you for a while. For me to RP with you in a touchy feely manner? You guys should know that consent extends into the realm of roleplay as well. It gives me a fucking panic attack when people try that shit with me because my imagination is very strong. I've been fiddled with in ways that are non-consensual in real life and it brings back flashbacks.

So for future reference: Don't. Do. That. Sensual. Crap. With. Me.

3. Community Members Getting Away with Horrible things
I have watched my friends and loved ones messed over by a lot of people, both mutual and distant. It's sad and last year it was something that happened on a constant basis. A number of times, I nearly left for this reason alone. Pedophilia (yes, amongst us in a mutual circle, this is DEFINITELY a thing), rude words, straight up blasting of smaller community members for menial things, racism, bestiality, etc. I know that furries aren't the only ones with this problem, but I have never had to deal with so much crap like this in such a close proximity. It is draining.

TLDR; Kami is saying farewell because she needs to finish school and has issues. She also can't handle FA's shit anymore.

Thank you to the people who did make FA a worthwhile experience. You know who you are and you have my sympathy. I love you. <3

Ira: Hey. My girlfriend told me  Zenion-Infinitium is doing story commissions. I've read some of them. He could use help and he's a god or something. So he's got some skill. Here are the ones I like:

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22881966/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22856273/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22505906/

So...be nice??? Give him a look. Or I'll judge

So I had to shell out over $1700 to my college for an unexpected expense this week. I try to save a lot of money with the idea that I need it for the future. And considering that I will soon be paying rent on an apartment in Oklahoma, $1700 is more than 2 months of rent down the toilet. My dad and I fought the school hard on this little thing, but they wanted the cash. So I gave it to them.

I know it's nearly impossible to recoup all that money back, but I would like to try and save up some money again. I'm gonna temporarily drop all my prices down to $10. That's right, paintings and ref sheets are only $10. And sketches and icons will still only be $5 and $1. I don't have a job at the current moment so I can take 3 or 4 commissions at once.

Please, please signal boost this if you can. I could really use your help.

Thank you.

P.S. Tonight I having another free request stream and if you come and promise to promote me, I will draw you a free request of anything you like!

Edit: 4 Commission Slots have been taken! Thank you so much guys!

Slot 1:  Zenion-Infinitium Comic Commission of Fauve and Jamal
Slot 2:  Trevor-Fox TF Commission Kami >> Trevor and Trevor>>Kami
Slot 3:  Trevor-Fox : Scarf Trevor
Slot 4:  Trevor-Fox : Trevor between...mystery paws!
Slot 5:  DaylightHeartstring : Painting of Friend, Boyfriend, and Theirself

Hello guys!

I'm here to signal boost one of my friends emergency commissions!  Trevor-Fox is selling TF icons for only $10! That's a pretty good deal!
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8182886/


Here is the link!

If this caught your eye, I will be doing a free art stream tonight, but on one condition: everyone who comes to this stream and wants art has to help promote my commissions. I am having trouble getting the slightest nibble on my art so some positive exposure would be greatly appreciated. I do full color requests and all! Below are some examples:

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21772102/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21698081/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21772084/

The stream will be at 8pm CST and there will be another one tomorrow here: https://picarto.tv/Okamichan16

Thanks!

Just to drop a note here, commissions are open! Please help me become an  OklahomaFurs.

TOS: https://docs.google.com/document/d/.....7GYAXpJ_Y/edit
Current Price Guide: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/23121386/

Edit: I disabled comments like an idiot, so if you wanna hit me up, do it via notes.

Hello Guys!

I wanna give a shout out to all my new watchers! I'm sorry I don't interact much, but it's just cause I'm shy. I really appreciate your support to me. If I can though, I really wanna signal boost some Patreons of my far more experienced friends!

First and foremost is my friend  Trevor-Fox. He is making a webcomic that I found in 2014 called Nakuro. If you like slice of life comedy comics with adorable (but very distinct) characters (similar to Housepets) this comic is for you. Trevor has come a long way in these three years so please check him out. His work will be sure to make you laugh.

I would also like to signal boost my friend  Zenion-Infinitium. He is creating stories that will bring you back to those days where you were reading the Hobbit or watching Dragon Ball Z ALL AT ONCE. It's hard to explain what I mean unless you check him out because he has very unique stories.

I don't recommend people lightly, but these guys have some great work. Even a dollar a month from you guys would help them. So give them a check!

Trevor's Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/TrevorSellers

Zenion Infinitium's Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/DHVinci

Not my stream, but my fiance's!

https://www.twitch.tv/organicgamer
https://www.twitch.tv/organicgamer
https://www.twitch.tv/organicgamer