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General | Posted 4 years agoReally I check this site daily but don't really do much other than peer at things and then bloop off. I gotta change that again.
So I'll start uploading a few things I've done and maybe that'll jog me into being properly active. Yeeted whole gallery into scraps so I can kinda look at this fresh-faced.Still Here, Still Queer, Still a Furry
General | Posted 5 years agoNot that it's exactly -easy- to quit being a furry, lol.
But yeah. I am going to uphold one resolution I had this year even if it comes a month and a half away from the end of 2020 because this year has been an absolute tire fire disaster. At the very least there have been bright points, bright points that're getting brighter as we come to the end of the year, and maybe 2021 will lead off with some of these things being further taken care of. ;v;b
Also I DID find that full-time job elsewhere and I got furloughed but am BACK baybee so...
Life feels like it's comin' back.
We'll see if that means any activity from me tho lolBlow Off The Dust
General | Posted 6 years agoOooof, where to begin with all this...
Firstly, hi, I'm not dead, I forgot about making journals for awhile so I'm a dunce.
Secondly, I've had a lot of transitional shit going on, job-wise. Lost job at credit card company due the LOA fuckery, temp gig with scoring that I admit I wished was actually a permajob because that paid p nice, then came trying to work recruiting at a place that treated everything as sales, including recruiting (I didn't stay long there), and now I'm working at a funeral home and an animal shelter.
Hopefully will either segue into a proper full time position at either location or find a new full-time job but for right now, this suffices.
Thirdly, my art output has slowed down so much, and even then it's not much furry art... let alone finished art. I wanna get back into really working on badges and illustrations but my brain doesn't have the focus. It's been focusing primarily on DnD stuff. Lots of it.
Ffffinally, my mental state is kinda... here there and everywhere? On the end note of third point, just on one hand, I know I'm doing better than I was, I do, but on the other it isn't consistent, I'm still all over the place, and with Mother's Day coming up I'm kinda feeling the burning out intensifying.
But I guess this is my way of saying "hey I'm still here, I guess I'm still a furry? I think?"Tablet Fixed
General | Posted 8 years agoFor once a tablet issue that didn't end in me getting a new tablet! Feels good. -v-b
So now to get some overdue arts done!Maybe More Activity
General | Posted 8 years agoI mean, considering the fact I'm essentially jobless part 2 (because my LOA didn't in fact protect my job position, and right now I'm waiting on the email saying "yes come on and reapply we'll see about getting you back in!"). I'm traveling to Georgia for Thanksgiving to be with my sister and father... this is going to go very well. Actually no, probably not.
I'm having a great fucking year. :DSlowly Reviving
General | Posted 8 years agoOkay so I have officially cleared that hurdle of the class training, going out onto the floor soon and after this week, am officially off training for good. So that is better and further than I got last time. Also back to night shifts, which means more money in the pocket ;v;b Whoop!
I am still all over the place mentally and emotionally. Some days I'm almost normal, most days I'm definitely running below, but still functioning,
and others... well.... nope. It's still winding me that it's been six months since my mom died and it feels like it's only been half that time. And longer.
At the same time. It's fucking weird.
But I'm trying to basically figure out how to navigate no longer having someone in my life that understands me the way that she did, and to understand that nobody else is gonna get me. Hell, she got me more than I got me, and now I don't have that. It sucks. A lot.
But that's the way it is. And I am not the only one who's been shit on this year.
Hopefully come October, I'll be getting out of my reclusive shell a bit more with FurReality, and then start attending meets and being able to stomach going out in public for more than just work or necessities.
Sorry for how rambly this is and it probably isn't really even that important, but I'm trying to come back and be a consistent presence again. Social media, art stuff, actually doing things again rather than just kinda getting by day by day. I'm still probably going to be that way for awhile yet,
but I'll get myself back out there. I think. I hope.Trudging.
General | Posted 8 years agoSweet hell it's only been 4 months.
Well, hey y'all, still tryin' to get my shit together.
Restarting job in about 9 days and hopefully will have a more secure starting point there than I did.
Eugh.Recalibrating
General | Posted 9 years agoWe've taken care of a lot of shit this week and will have more to take care of.
Stand by.
Everything's moving so fast and yet feels like a lot of time has passed.scratch that
General | Posted 9 years agosorry guys
i just lost my mom
i'm not gonna be here for awhileNot Dead Yet
General | Posted 9 years agoJust managing to breathe finally and drag myself out.
I'm working on it, sorry about the disappearance, but new job's training kinda pulled me under. And I'm only halfway through training. @-@Pardon the Uploads
General | Posted 9 years agoThey old.
So a bit of backlog.Signal Booster
General | Posted 9 years agoSo some financial stuff came up for some friends of mine and they really need some help so they can move and keep their work studio going!
https://www.gofundme.com/cfstudios-relocation-fund
Help them reach their goal! :>Rough Seas Since
General | Posted 9 years agoHey everyone.
Sorry I've been so quiet.
I've barely been able to function properly with overnight shifts, so I haven't really gotten far on due art.
Good news is I landed a new full-time job that'll hopefully lend itself to me functioning like a human again and also being able to do art and fun things.
Bad news is that I've basically been having a nasty streak with driving this past week and ended up with not one, but two tickets. First was for speeding, I deserved it and I paid it off. This morning I ended up getting sucked in by slush and spun out on the overpass on the freeway, ended up with a ticket of "failure to control vehicle", even though you kinda... can't control ice stuff. Welp, that ticket's pending.
Not asking for donations or anything, I'm still working overnights and makin' monies.
But yeah I mean I've basically been on the barest of functioning levels during the day to work at night, and this week has kinda slammed me into the wall repeatedly.
So sorry for silence, sorry for disappearing, but I figure at least let me get this out here.Am In Atlanta!
General | Posted 9 years agoI think I'm a bit too early for FWA D:
But actually, just hanging with sister and brother-in-law. I brought my art stuff down with me so I should be working on arty things while here! :>Not Fully Awake Yet
General | Posted 9 years agoGot home from FurReality yesterday, eyes were crossing most of the way home and yet managed to make it back alright. I'm not looking forward to a 5 AM shift tomorrow buuuut what can ya do?
In any case: FurReality this year was pretty good, still solidly one of my fave cons. It was a bit more mellow this year for me, but then again I decided to suit a lot less to kinda mind my body. x-x (The past few meets I've done I've near gotten sick from overexertion of some sort, so just played it by ear). I managed to wear Aki for a bit, Pepper for more, but most of my time I was playing tabletop because heck, there wasn't much I wanted to really do and I liked the peeps who were at tabletop.
Also huge shoutouts and thanks to 
for letting me stay in his room Thursday, 
for putting up with me for the weekend, and to 
and 
for buying art from me during the con! ;v;
Overall, it wasn't as big to me as it had been in the past, but I never felt unwelcome or down for a second there, and I think that's what keeps it one I go back to.
Doin' More Dollups
General | Posted 9 years agohttp://www.furaffinity.net/view/21148254/
I've been having a fuckload of fun with these, so I am still open to take more, they're only 5$.
I have an army that I'm willing to keep growing:
https://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100013227547063&sk=photos&collection_token=100013227547063%3A2305272732%3A69&set=a.159461391171445.1073741831.100013227547063&type=3
Now, heads up: if you give me a p complex character, I might have to cut a few corners, considering A) there aren't really arms on the dollup, so anything below shoulder is kinda moot and B) look at the size and shape of the dollup compared to a regular character.
I do try to remain loyal to the markings, but have had a few where I couldn't get everything without it overlapping terribly or becoming genuinely cluttered.
However, I have yet to find a species that I cannot do :DGotdammit.
General | Posted 9 years agoOr my work has basically asked me if I was ready to come back now even tho I said I was ready well over a month ago. BV
Well I might have a little source of income again soon, even if it's not a lot it's consistent and better than nothin'.Guess I'm Unemployed?
General | Posted 9 years agoStill not all-right in the head, but I haven't exactly had any money coming in, so just told them to have me on-call, since I remember people calling non-friggin' stop for this place.
Nothin' doin'.
Been applying to places too, but it feels like my shit is getting sucked into the void or places just don't think I'm qualified, so it's just a bit disheartening. But no stoppin' that, gonna and gotta keep applying.
I dunno.
I'm bummed as hell.Travel Plans.
General | Posted 9 years agoSo after getting destroyed by sinus infection for over a week, gonna say I'll be out of state and hanging with family. Will tote along things to work on commissions, since I do have all the info and such saved, printed, and primed up, Hell, might have connection for a little bit up there.
But yeah, no Anthrocon, only family again. Whoomp.