I'm still here. Sorry for lack of photos. Last year was garbage for me and I am having a rocky start for this year. I do have some pics but I need to find the energy and time to touch them up. I can't say for sure when I will get them up but I will for sure be looking at y'alls art. Hugs for y'all.

Has anyone been having trouble with DA especially on MAC computers?? I keep trying to log on and every time I do it says there is a problem loading and wants me to report Apple. Really annoying. I don't know if it is the site or that it just doesn't like this computer now. Any help is appreciated. Thanks friends.

I am so sick of my life. Not that I am not grateful for my life or want to die, heck no. I've worked too damn hard to survive. But I hate it because I feel like no mater how hard I work and try to be a good person I just can't get ahead. I survived cancer at a very young age only to get slapped in the face finding out that I have multiple things wrong with my body. I worked my ass off in high school and college only to never have a real job. I'm disabled, tired as hell all the time, hurt all the time, oh and guess what.... I'm only 38 going on 39 DAMNIT!!!!!!! What in the F*(& did I do to deserve this???? I would be really close to giving anything in the world to be a normal, healthy, working dude. I've always wanted to have the money and energy to work on vehicles and yet that will never happen. The damn government doesn't care about people that are truly unable to work a job. They hose people like me, and businesses don't want anything to do with me.



CRIES!!!!! I am so lonely. Sure I have my family but its not much. My sister isn't much of a people person, my niece is only 2, and my mom is getting older each year and can't do the things she used to.


Plus I have never had a girlfriend. I had a girlfriend for 2 days and we decided it wouldn't work. I WANT A GIRLFRIEND!!!!! But I'm not very trustworthy of people nor do I really know how to talk/tell if a girl is interested in me.


I'm truly sorry for ranting. I'm just at a loss for ideas and energy. I feel like I am going to be alone for the rest of my life. Never to be remembered.

Hugs to all my friends. Words can never express how grateful I am to have y'all. You were there for me when I needed you. When my mom went to the hospital, you took the time to be with me. THANK YOU SOOOOOOO MUCH!!!!!! I wish that I could be with you all and spend time getting to know you better. I love you all from the bottom of my heart. Have a MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A WONDERFUL NEW YEAR!!!!!! Lets continue to be there for one another. Bless y'all.

How are my friends? My mom is coming home but it is gonna be one hell of an uphill battle. That is all.

Mom is still in rehab but ok. I'm tired as hell. Had to get belts replaced on my Ford Ranger to the tune of $124 bucks that I'll have to repay mom. UGH!!!!

I don't mean crap to anyone on there.... I purposely hooked up my other Mac so I could go on there. I wrote a journal saying I was back and gonna load stuff eventually. And I haven't gotten a single response. Kinda makes me sad.

Mom is finally off the ventilator and has the tube removed. She is stable and recovering. Hugs for y'all.

Love all my watchers and friends. Also..... I am probably done for the year loading pics. Just too much going on right now and really tired. Once things settle down I will start again. Not leaving by any means and still faving/commenting on y'alls art.

Hey friends..... My mom has been awake since this morning. They are doing breathing exercises with her so they can take her off of the ventilator. The worst is behind her. It will be an uphill recovery but she hopefully will be coming home eventually. Bless you all for being there for me. I'm sorry it took so long for me to reply but I've been taking care of my niece, bills, and the house for a week now with little help and being alone. I'm still shaky as hell and will be until she is home safe.

My mom is on a ventilator as of today and doing better according to the doctors. Mostly just sleeping and getting over the virus.

Yeah, about 3 days ago around 3am my mom was taken to the Mercy Hospital in Arkansas. She has covid. First, she is ok. Second, she called the ambulance and wasn't in trouble. I have been talking to her and she is on medicine and slowly getting better. Sorry for not uploading more, this year has just been garbage for me..... plus I think there is a good chance I am battling covid or a bad virus too. Just barely have any energy and I'm in a lot of pain all over my body. Hugs for you all. I care about everyone of ya'll.



Please be careful and safe.

I'm just so tired of this year. I haven't felt well the whole year, constantly hurting and having various problems with my body. Depression has been an ahole to me (due to various things like covid, politics, family related, etc) Also got a chunk of my nose bit off by my now ex dog Chica. Not to worry animal lovers, she has a new home. I just feel lost like many people and worry what I'm gonna do later in my life cause I have never had a job do to being disabled and it really scares me. Plus I'm still single and have been for over 20 years.

Not saying whole year was horrible but just not as good as previous years. IDK anymore.....

Yeah, I'm still here. Just been busy with life. My little 2 year old niece takes up a lot of my time and haven't had much time or energy to load pics right now. I still love ya'll and I'll try to load some bug pics and toy pics I have soon. Just gotta get in the mood to do so.



How are my friends doing?????

Well I turned 38 on the 5th of this month. Yay.... No party, no gifts, just blah sadly. Though I did have sushi for dinner. I really don't like getting older. It depresses me.

I deleted some of the dog pics cause they are dogs I no longer own due to problems they had that I could not fix. Mostly separation anxiety or medical. I did love them but just wasn't able to care for them. They all went to rescue groups and are doing fine now. I just don't feel right having the pics up if they are gone. Thanks for understanding.

Hey friends. I'm still around. Just been busy with my niece and other stuff. Today sucked though.... had bad problems with my stomach enough to really make me sad. I have new pics, just haven't had the time or energy to load them. Mostly nature related. Hope you are well friends.

The author of Magic School Bus Joanna Cole passed away.

Hey friends. Are you ok? Anything new? I'm going to Tulsa this Saturday 7/25/20 for a Hot Wheels and toy car show. I would appreciate any love and prayers for my safe travel and safety. Hugs.

I'm about to get sign off for tonight, but if you wanna say something or let steam off, I wanna hear about it. I'll check in the morning.

I am very saddened and disappointed at the way people are acting right now in the USA. It really hurts me to see and hear the garbage that is going on right now. I consider myself a loving, understanding, and somewhat Christian person. But what I see right now is far from any of that. Please people stop this insanity before it tears everything apart. Stop with the marches, labeling, hate, and lack of reasoning.



WE ARE ALL HUMAN AND ALL OUR LIVES MATTER NO MATTER THE COLOR, RACE, BELIEFS, BACKGROUNDS, ANYTHING!!!!!


PLEASE STAY SAFE FRIENDS!!!!

Well I guess I won't be using DA for a while. As most people know, DA got rid of their normal classic mode in favor of Eclipse style display. Great except that for whatever reason it doesn't want to let me post any journals, or comment on anything on the older IMac I use. Just says there is an error and come back later. This irritates me since I've been a user for 15 years. So now I need to try my Mac mini to see if I can at least comment, delete, etc. I am really tired of people changing crap so basically I have to go and buy a new computer. Just stop damn it!!!!!!

I am having a tough time right now friends. I need some love and reassurance right now. I am having a lot of depression and anger right now. Mainly just due to the way people are acting, being stressed, feeling worthless, being in constant pain, and feeling unloved or unappreciated. Plus I am very lonely. I want to have a girlfriend in the worst way. Just someone to be with me and care about me.



I appreciate everyone of you for even being with me or responding. You have my prayers and love. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Same old song and dance Deviant. I made a journal saying I would stay on Deviant regardless of them using Eclipse. So I did only to realize that now for whatever reason I now can't respond or delete any notifications or pictures from the computer I am using. Just great move idiots!!!! So now I am going to have to buy a wireless keyboard and mouse so I can use my Imac Mini to see if DA will work properly on it. I'm telling ya..... This is becoming BS!!!!! I've been a loyal user of DA for 15 years and this is how they treat me. GRRRRRRR!!!!!

I finally got tires on the "Wolverine" Dodge Ram. Off road for only $706. Also, if you watch me on Deviantart, I put up some flower pics so please check them out. I will try and load them here soon. HUGS!!!!!!!