Slut squad ASSEMBLE!
So I wanna draw some lewd stuff to get my mind off the HORRIBLE CRUSHING DEPRESSION that's haunting me right now :^)
It's gonna feature my bunbun Daiquiri
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19782512/
getting...initiated by Slaan and another character I'm glad to announce with this~
But I need more, I kinda wanna wreck this bunny so I need all ya'll with sadistic, doms, demonic, all those that would engage in a bdsm event
Gender doesn't matter!
If they have anything specific kinks lemme know

My only rules are no watersports, no acat, and no cg/l, dd/lg, daddy doms, mommys, littles, none of that please.
I will NOT be drawing that stuff.

I don't know how far I'm gonna go with this but hey why not right? Good distraction..

Thanks, love ya'll

Heyo followers, sorry I keep spamming adopts and stuff! I'm really nervous about my surgery and stuff so I'm trying to build up a little extra funds for food money and stuff

Plus IDK making these are really fun and have been giving something to take my mind off things! They're oddly therapeutic!

I saw the suggestions on my other journal post and I hope to add some more QUALITY content just uh...bear with me!

My username. But I know you can't do that on FA without making a whole new account...which sucks cause most sites at least allow one name change >:T

I don't want to risk losing the already small following I have here by starting over but I really have NO use for two accounts unless I make them character specific?
But idk, it's redundant having stuff like that, to me at least.

Hrm...not sure!

Hey everyone who reads my journals, how ya'll doing?
I will eventually respond to the suggestions on my last journal but for now I'm just gonna let you guys know what's going on in °•☆○●my world~●○☆•°

Well I'm back to working 6 days a week and now because of money troubles I'm back to working 40 to 60 hours! So...yay money but...oh gosh am I tired!
Surviving so far tho!

Been trying to art as of late, not as much as I'd like to but hey! Maybe with the possible downtime I'll have...who knows?
Doubt I'll get any commissions or anything but that's fine~ I'll just have to become an artist worth hiring!

About that possible downtime....as some of you may know I have horrible teeth. Genetically I'm predispositioned for terrible teeth and after a childhood of not being taught how to care for them well, yeah my mouth is a horror show.
I need a full removal and dentures which comes to a WHOPPING 13,000. Even on a payment plan this is like...300 a month for the next 5 years? With interest adding up to 21,000 by the time I'm 28.
Yeah. Not fun. But I need it.
I have more on the whole situation as well as donations herevvvvvvv
https://www.gofundme.com/2fz42mtw

Good news is tho, my family has said they will try and help me all they can to pay for my surgery and help with my payment plan but this now leads to this week where I now have to figure out how to pay rent and other bills :^)
While I live with a partner and he works, we can not live alone on his paychecks.
So...yeah gonna have to figure that out but ya know, I'm trying to stay positive!

I've moped enough and I'll just have to figure something out!!

Thanks for reading thia, it feels good to just vent!

Don't you guys worry about me, I somehow always manage!

I'm trying to be more active and upload more, the only way to get people to notice your stuff is to keep producing content, but my trouble is I get art block WAY too easily or I draw the same thing over and over

What do you uys initially follow me for? What kind of comtent are you looking for? What do you hope to see more of?

I want to branch out on my subject matters and get better, plus beat that pesky art block, so who better to ask than my watchers?

Personal

Real first name: Caleb, Cale
Nickname/Username: Slaan, sometimes Persoq??
Location: Buttnutz Wisconsin
Age: 23 (cries cause I am getting old)
Gender: *non comittal hand wiggling* I use he/him or they them?
Zodiac sign: Taurus.
Chinese Zodiac: Cock
Briggs type: no fuckin clue
Pets: None anymore...I have a habenero plant...
Sexuality & Romance

Sexual orientation: PAN tastic
Romantic orientation: Pan sational...okay it doesn't fit but I'm still pan
Kinsey Scale: idk bruh
Relationship status: complicated?
Poly or Mono: Poly
Want to marry: neeeeeeeeeeeeeeh? I wanna have like...a party but not an actual official anything...Idk not really just gimme cake
Want kids: fuck nah

Silly Stuff

Hogwarts house: Hufflepuff!!
GoT house: Can I make my own? Um....House Slaanesh. Indulgence in everything!
Bending style: I actually don't know! :o maybe water? Or earth? I've never really watched Avatar
Pony Race: Okay so I /used/ to watch MLP before the cancer grew. I'd probs be
Pokemon type: Water or fairy!!
What are you reading: Harely Quinn new 52 volume 3
What's the last movie you watched: 13 Ghosts!
What are your greatest irrational fears: Being underwater. Playing video games with other people.

Sleep

Early Bird or Night Owl: Night owl.
What time do you go to bed: Anywhere between 12 to 4 am
What time do you get up: 8 to 11
What do you sleep in:.... nekkid >////>
Do you dream frequently: I think so
What position do you sleep in: I kinda flop. Usually on my side, I can't sleep on my stomach cause it gives me weird dreams
What was the last dream you remember: Literally I met Beyonce. She touched my hand and I cried. Then I woke up.

Work & Education

High School: Technically graduated high school.
College: None
Occupation: Baker/ assistant manager
Where do you see yourself in 5 years: Probably relatively the same?
What's your dream job: Baker <3

Favorite Stuff

Foods: Lemon meringue pie! And sesame balls!!
Carbonated drinks: Mountain Dew or Jaritos Sodas!!
Non-carbonated drinks: Lemonade, daiquiris, raspberry tea, starbucks frappuccinos!
Ice cream flavor: Birthday cake or caramel turtle cheesecake!
Season: Autumn.
Animals: Deer, foxes, bears <3
Colors: WAY too many.
Music: Uh....Panic at the Disco is my fave band, I also like Marina and the Diamonds, Melanie Martinez, Five Finger Death Punch, Fall Out Boy, Simon Curtis...Placebo...Lot's of stuff really.
TV shows: In The Flesh, Steven Universe, uh...Idk fuckin Ouran??
Video games: Silent Hill!! Outlast!! Harvest Moon~ Happy Home Designer~

Hey so I need 20 bucks today, not gonna lie what it's for it so I can commission on of my fave artists.
They reduced their prices like 60% today and it's so hard to get pieces from them
Stupid I know but I think everyone deserves a treat every now and then!!

So for today I got unlimited sketches for $5 dollars or I can do a full Ref sheet with all the bells and whistles for $20

Hmu if interested!!

So I followed this bab  PaceVanRign and they are having a raffle so you should go follow them for a chance to get yourself somethin good!~!

Hey ya'll! You should go check out  honesty. she is a total sweetheart and doss some amazing work!
She's in a bit of a pinch so if you can help her out you'd be total rockstars!

She also has this collaboration ych that I wish I could afford but I am also poor

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/20357130/

Go buy it. DO IT NOW

I ut in my "bid" and I have my fingers crossed so tight!

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/20226316/

You should try and get a slot cause gosh their art is so good I could cry! QuQ

I mentioned it in the other journal but I don't know I also felt like I needed to get this out here too just in case anyone was...worried or curious I guess?

Let me get this out of the way now. I'm ultimately fine. I am not going to hurt myself or try to make any attempts on my life.
May 1st to the 23rd is a very rough time for me. Bad things happen, either family death, fights, injuries, people getting mad, people calling me bad things, people making me feel like garbage and it has all lumped into one big ball of self hate.

Depression and suicidal tendencies run thru my family.
I also had a very emotionally abusive relationship that lasted for years. The scars from that have done some pretty bad damage. I punish myself and I really don't believe I deserve kindness or praise of any kind.

Birthdays have been rough for me since I was a kid. There would be so many promises, so many grand things held in front of me only to be pulled away.
Drunk relatives, people forgetting, people getting into very loud...very angry fights...
I stopped expecting anything fun or good to happen.
Not to say I haven't had one or two okay ones but, I'm sick of getting hurt.

This isn't just "oh waaaah I didn't get what I WANT this year!"
It's more so "The last time I saw my father around my bday he almost fell into a fire pit and I'm still not over the time my ex called me a selfish bitch and refused to come to my 'celebration' which wound up being me crying and taking a nap on my mom's couch"

This year once again has been very VERY painful. I've had to give up a lot fo things I hoped to achieve because I'm saving up for dental surgery. My dad sent me over 8 text messages calling me an ungrateful child and how I shouldn't even bother talking to him and that I'll regret being such a HORRIBLE CHILD after he dies.
My dad is an emotional suicidal drunk who has often told me about his frequent suicide attempts. The reason he's calling me this is because with my depression and anxiety I'm afraid to talk to him because he's often hammered and says horrible things about my mom (like wanting to see her dead etc) and how he's become racist over the years.

I'm so exhausted. I've tried not to break down over the the last few weeks and I have failed miserably...I hate May.
I don't want to.
I want to have fun.
I WANT to be like normal people and enjoy my bday.
I can't.
I'm too tried from trying.
Every year I try, every year I get slapped in the face.
I'm giving up. I no longer have a birthday.

I'm gonna probably spend all day in bed, cause it where I do the least amount of damage. I can't hurt anyone just hiding under blankets.

I'm sorry this is very depressing and all over the place, I'm kind of...depressed and all over the place...

I love you guys, have a great day for me <3

So yeah I didn't get a chance to write down ANY of the names in my giveaway, I lost all the followers I had gained and it deleted everything that I had uploaded recently


Depressing rant starts here

I hate May so much. I was supposed to pick the winners today as a distraction. I guess I should come clean. It's my birthday. I /hate/ my birthday. It's generally a day where my self loathing wins over and I spend the whole day punishing myself.
So I was hoping to have something to distract me from wanting to cry and make myself as miserable as possible and to try and NOT disappoint everyone I know who actually remembers my bday and tries to be nice only to be annoyed with how hardcore pathetic and ungrateful I act every 19th.

Depressing rant ends here
I'm probably going to redo the give away later today and draw the winners later. I don't have the energy right now.

Thank you for everyone who joined in! I'm sorry it all got fuckered up

Wow I'm at 57 watchers? When the heck did that happen? What's wrong with all a ya'll???
It means a lot to me that you've decided to add lil ol me to your watch lists, seriously it means a boat load!
I'm wondering I I should do a raffle thing that I've seen other folks do? I don't even know if anyone would be interested? o3o

I'll try and make a pretty thing for one and give it a shot, if nothin else it means I'll prolly end up drawing something for one of my buddies so yeah!

Again, it seriously does mean a lot!
It's not a lot of watchers I know but I didn't expect anyone to really follow my "work"

Hey hey! My buddy  viruhk is the...leader...big cheese person (I think he's guild leader o3o) over at  Orderoftheclaws
I guess at one point it was the BIGGEST Furry guild in the entire game! Wowza! That'sa lotta furries.
He often likes to tell me how great it used to be and he wants to get it back up and running so even if you dabble you should go give it a look!
He made a journal about it here vvvvvvv
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7544534/
Explaining it a little better.

My buddy is one of the coolest people you'll ever meet and if I can vouch one thing it's that normally I HATE playing games with other people (hate hate HAAAAAATE like I will kick and scream and don't even want to play with my partners HAAATE)
but I LOVE playing WoW with this huge nerd, he took one of my worst fears and made it fun. Hence why you should join his guild and do whatever it is you actually do in that game...
I would know cause I spend most of my time screaming and chasing after animals/starting cults for crabs...and ask to attack every over level NPC we meet.

I don't get to play as much I'd like to anymore what with my current medical bill drama but hopefully I can get back on sometime soon!
So if you DO join, lemme know and I'll try and hop on.
I can't guarantee I'll say hi but I /will/ hide behind something, hiss, and go find more crabs!

Remember: HAAAAAAAATUH!

Hi again, I'm still doing emergency commissions and such but now it's even more desperate.
I am going to need major dental surgery and it's going to cost me at base 14,000 dollars
even paying the minimum plan it's going to take me five years to finish paying and the total price of THAT is 21,000 dollars.
I don't want to be in debt till I'm almost 30.

If you want more full details I have a gofundme here:
https://www.gofundme.com/2fz42mtw

If you wish to donate but ya'll know I don't like to just do stuff for free so if you do donate let me know and I will give you a gift!

I know I say it every time but I am seriously begging this time, if you can please signal boost this. I often fly under the radar since I'm not a well known artist so any little bit of help I can get means the WORLD to me

I love you all and thank you!

Hi anyone reading this
I'm gonna try and be as active as I can (tho how active am I ever hehe)
Things have been kind of...insane as of late.
I don't want to go into too much detail cause I don't want anyone to worry, (family stuff and it being busier than HELL at work is always fun right?) it's nothing serious but it's been enough to really slow down anything I've wanted to stay on top of and for the sake of not having a complete break down I'm stepping away for a bit

To the few commissions I have in am trying to finish them in the quickest fashion I can (and I'll try and add an extra doodle for the wait) and I am so so sorry it's taking a while!
I try to stay on top of things but it has just gotten really weird and crazy here
I'm even having someone else post this for me cause I don't have the time to type it up and work at the same time
I appreciate the understanding
I love ya all
Stay wonderful and I'll try and get back to it soon

Has anyone ever made something and then find someone else made something very similar first?
I always feel like I'm accidentally copying people's work and it starts to make me nervous to post my characters

Cause I never try to copy stuff and they're never exact but it always feel like someone is going to point a finger at me and be like "Thief! Thief!"
Bluh idk i'm prolly being dumb

I’ve never done an art stream cause I’m so like unrefined at art…Idk if I should do one??
I have a picarto, but I don't really...Idk i feel like how I draw would just aggravate people?

Would anyone wanna do a request stream later after I make dinner?

So the wonderful  poprockGrey is going thru some troubles and needs our help! Go see their journal here!
If you can help please do! If not you can still signal boost!!
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7398469/

If I started making sticker packs for telegram would anyone be interested? How would I even price them since I'm not really a hot button artist?
I see most people offering them up for like 10 bucks a pop so should I like do...Half that? Like five bucks a sticker?
I was thinking of doing that, 5 bucks a sticker and then like a special deal of like 10 for $40 or something?

Everyone always says "NEVER UNDER CHARGE YOUR ART!!!" Cause it makes it harder for other artists but...I'm at risk of not being able to pay rent soon and I sure as heck can't buy groceries so I'm kinda at the "screw it" point and ready to sell my art dirt cheap just to try and help make ends meet.

I don't know, any advice would be great! I'm not good at the whole selling game yet

• What is the name of your fursona?
Slaan

• Where did the name of your Fursona come from?
The chaos god of indulgence, Slaanesh from Warhammer (specifically 40k)

• What species is your fursona and why did you choose that species?
Slaan is an amalgamate fox, which is a combination of every breed of fox...mainly because I made Slaan around the time when I was trying to pin down my sexual as well and my gender identity. It was a really confusing time for me since I felt like I had to pick /something/ but not knowing I was gender queer and pan I felt like I was everything yet nothing...
So suddenly I had this fox who wasn't stuck as one thing like me So that is my very dumb explanation!

• What color is your fursona and why? Hair/fur/eye/ect
Purple fur with purple accents and hair, bright blue eyes

• What is your fursona's personality and how does this compare to your RL personality?
Slaan is very bouncy, sociable, flirty, and perverted. I am certainly perverted but I am terrible with people! Haha! I usually go days without talking to more than one person TOTAL so I guess I'm almost a total 180 from my character. I wish I was more like them!

• What is one item your fursona owns that is significant to you in RL?
Glasses? first thing that came to mind

• What is one thing you think you would say to your fursona if you could meet?
"Look at this gay slutty fox wowza"

• What is one thing your fursona would say to you if you could meet?
"Why are you almost 6 ft tall but /I/ am like knee high to a bee??"

• How has your fursona changed over the years?
Oh god I have only just now nailed down their final design and that is only because my more experienced furry friend is better at details than I am.
Slaan has been pink to purple to pink again, various hair floofs, etc.

• How long have you had this fursona?
Uhhh...couple years?

• Would you like to be more like your fursona?
Confidence wise, yes I would. And plus Slaan is super adorable and I wish I was adorable and likable QuQ

Hey guys, I know I probably make these posts all the time but this time around its a little more desperate
I'm officially down to 6 to 7 hours a week TOTAL, unemployment has been running me around in circles trying to apply, we can't afford food or our car payment because we are barely making rent and to top it all off (the cherry on the sundae if you will...) my boyfriend got pulled over for running a stop sign and now we're slapped with a $98 ticket...
So yeah that's all happening and I don't feel like lying down and giving up just yet so I really want to put all these days I have not working to actual good use and take as many commissions as I can.

I'll do chibis, sketches, couple art, badge design (and for a little more I can see about getting it laminated and mailed out!)
I'm also still doing ref sheets but since those take a lot more time ad work they have a fixed price but I have info here
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18950650/

Just note me or leave a comment on what you want, refs, and your pay price (minimum 3 dollars tho just to try and make this worth it)

If you don't want anything/ can't afford it yourself I humbly ask for a signal boost? The more people that see this I'm hoping the more commissions I'll get!

Thank you so much for taking the time to read this, I'm sorry if it's a total bummer, I just don't know what else to do at this point...

You're all wonderful! <3
Slaan, out!

So yeah I'm finally home
The weekend was amazing actually I feel like a total weenie being so nervous and scared!
I wound up not wanting to come home haha!
This was incredible I'll never forget this amazing experience and the amazing people I met! <3

I can't believe I'm actually going to MFF it's gonna be so WEIRD!
Luckily I'm playing spotter so I can just hide behind the big dumb blue dog when I start feeling too awkward! I'm kind of excited this is my first con and at the same time it's seriously really weird!
Like I said I'm spotting so I'm like support class, so I hope I do a good job?? It'll be a good distraction I guess cause I am so damn awkward in social settings! I don't know how to people and there is gonna be so MANY people

hoo boy! Thank god I'm not going alone! I think if Vinny weren't going I'd end up crying in a corner!

Got a new tablet!
*victory music*