Well, someone of you already know i feel better! Not like walking dead more, huh. And have some activity in my discord... I apologise for just vanished into thin air again


I feel myself pathetic about this, but i have no courage and strength even to check my overfilled mail. Only sometimes I open a couple of messages, reply and feel terrible for a few days - keeping you waiting so long is terrible, but I can't destroy my cowardice... I apologise for it to you all, friends,who wrote me and had no response for weeks and even months. I am not worth it I know
I take commissions, but since I haven't fully came back to normal existance yet, it may take longer than usual. If that doesn't bother you, you can try! If I don't answer, please don't get upset, it just means that I'm low on energy again. You can write to me every day if you think it makes sense, I will not consider it annoying.


This is where the important information ends, then just yelping about problems, which I did not intend to post, but I just can't stand it sometimes. I'm not asking for anything and I'm not calling to do something for me, I just want to speak out at least in the void and I won't mind if no one ever reads this. Just writing this made me feel a little better, that's all.





Life still sometimes turns off my strength and well-being, I can cry all day or withdraw into myself for a few days, existing like the machine. But I moved from a toxic place and I have a wonderful person who is able to help me when I'm really bad. I can already do some things and draw.


Now I have other problems... Like the fact that I spent all my savings on moving and the most necessary things, my beloved has not received a salary for THREE months, working almost without days off, and I am not always able to work and even when I work, I don't do enough even just to provide for myself... However, there are people who support me more than I deserve. Thank you Q_Q
My friend from ukraine only has electricity for a couple of hours a day, and it's terrible, I'm less and less able to contact him...

I'm worthless even as an artist, and I can't do anything other than that. It’s terrible to realize that I can’t achieve absolutely anything on my own, no matter how hard I try, and I wouldn’t even be able to escape from a toxic family alone. As a paltry person, I don't deserve your support and I'm crying from how good you are to me...

I'm sorry you had to read this even though it was a warning... However, you've already done a lot for me with this. Thank you for your concern and I'm sorry if it upset or pissed you off. I hope at least you're doing well. I hope that everything will work out for me sooner or later, and if you ever feel bad like this or another way, then I wish you an improvement to your situation! ☆

Time to take stock of the past decade, analyze your mistakes, your victories and set yourself a new goal, make new promises.


Taking the moment, I promise to try my best for the sake of each of you, and by all means strive to develop your skills so that it would be more pleasant for you to follow my work! We are clinking glasses with champagne or juice (who likes more) and boldly step forward towards the new decade! Hurrah!


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And I also have a thematic comic, created with the great Her3Aft3r! You can take a look (･ ω <)~☆
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/34420892/

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