So, it's been awhile since I've even been on FA. I figure as I open this new chapter in my life I need to make some changes. First off, I am single, and will be until that special someone walks into my life. I think my perfect match would have to be smart, a snowboarder, and in no way into horses. I went down that road last time and I would rather date someone who has murder as a hobby.

Secondly, I am going to spend more time communicating with the fandom. That means more FA stuff, more AF stuff, and getting myself out there more. Has a bit to do with the first point as I can't meet any women by sitting around. More local events are in order. Will definitely see everyone at Fur Eh.

Third and final point. The eradication of all drama in my life. There are certain people out there that I just can't have in my life anymore. After months of leading me on with lies and deception, I am making it my main priority to eliminate them from my everyday life. I have no room in my life for liars anymore.

So that seems like all of it. I look forward to being a part of the future of this fandom. Hope to see you all soon

A few weeks ago I had to make a choice. For background, I was unhappy. I felt alone, as if the one who would normally be by my side had abandoned me for something more interesting. We all have a limit, and I was well past my own. Because of this I began lashing out at the person I cared most about. I hurt them. I caused pain and grief in order to get some kind of attention from them. But in hurting them, I was hurting myself. I made the choice because I did not want to cause anymore pain to them. I still love them with all my heart, but going back would not change anything. The cycle would start again, my pleading to be with me, even if only for an hour. My cries for any sort of affection would once again go unanswered, muffled by the hands of things more interesting and easy. So I hurt them for the last time, to save them from the things I hadn't yet said, and the things I hadn't yet done. If you read this one day, know that I didn't mean any of the things I had said, and just know that I tried my best to save us together, even if it meant we wouldn't be together ever again. I'm sorry you fell in love with me. It was my fault.

Sincerely,
D.M.W.

So, it's been awhile since I actually posted a journal, so here goes nothing. After Furnal Equinox I can officially say that will be a con I will go to every year I can. I had a absolute blast. So many people to thank for the fun times I had I don't know where to start. Had a blast with all my friends and made a whole bunch more in the process, even met people who I haven't seen in years. Can't wait to see all of you again in the future.

So, today I walk to regimental only to find the leave I needed for Rainfurrest has been canceled. I am course loaded all the way until March of next year, then I will hopefully be posted to CFB Edmonton. I am broke, living paycheck to paycheck, but I'm fine. Picked up smoking, and am currently on a drivers course. So far, things are pretty much normal.

I figure it's about time for me to update the journal for the few people who do read it. Things are currently going good for this militarized Fox. Finished my boot camp, and just finished the first of many courses, and about to start another tomorrow(yay for learning how to use a hammer lol). Haven't done anything furry related since New Years, mainly because I don't know any local furs, and Toronto is a bit far to drive for just a dinner.

It is so boring here, nothing to do. I would go to AC, but I have a driving course scheduled for that time, so I'm angry. Played a few games on my new ASUS G73 laptop, it's so awesome. Portal 2, awesome, Homefront, pretty good, Crysis 2, not actually done the singleplayer yet, but damn good so far. Can't wait to get Duke Nukem and Battlefield 3. Wish I had real internet, just tethering off my phone for now. Way too much down time. My roommate smells, and doesn't shower. Eeeeewwww!! He also insists on getting texts at 5:45 am, when we wake up at 6 am. I'm going crazy, I have too much down time. I'm actually going to try and learn to speak German this summer. I am drinking way too much pepsi, I think I'll just shut my eyes for a momennnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn nnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn nnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn wtf

So it's about that time again to post in the journal thingy again. So i'm almost done bmq (yaaaay!), just 3 more weeks. I booked a hotel for Anthrocon, and I am looking forward to hanging with the furs here in Ontario. Thats all I really have to say, can't wait to start me vehicle technican training, hopefully after AC lol. Peace


Phreddy Fox

Wow 3 weeks goes by fast. So much to do, so little time. Oh well, did what I could. But now it's time to go back to base and finish what I started. Once again another techno blackout for the next 3 weeks, but then we get our phones back and I'll have my precious music so long as the batteries hold out.

So now, as I sit in this hotel, and I look back on this past year, I think of what I could have done, and what I should have done. The good and the bad, friends lost, friends gained. Most of all I have to think about what was most iconic this year, possibly even my entire life up to this point. The one thing that changed me, made me feel better and become true to myself. The Furry Fandom. I thank you all for pulling me out of this rut I was in, for showing me a side of humanity I never knew existed. Thank you all so much, I definitely look forward to the coming year. Watch out 2011, Phreddy's coming in!!


Phreddy Fox

The staff at the base gave all the recruits 3 weeks off for Christmas. time to sleep in yay!!!

Starting basic training for the canadian forces on monday. Shit. 13 weeks of hell. 4 years of sevice. No furry porn. Dammit. No chance of going to any cons in the next year at least. Oh well. At least I'm gonna get christmas off. That's basicly all I gots to say for now. will try to do more of these journal things as time permits. Catch you on da flip side. :)