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Posted 2 months agohttps://bsky.app/profile/picaduck.b...../3lwhuho6on22b
I'm in too much debt for the costs I need now so I'm just going to have to live with just a smartphone until my affirm balance goes down enough to get a new psu.
If its long enough I'll need another 1300 for the "big 4" too. .
Expecting a year of downtime or more...
Please be patient with me T.T!
I'm in too much debt for the costs I need now so I'm just going to have to live with just a smartphone until my affirm balance goes down enough to get a new psu.
If its long enough I'll need another 1300 for the "big 4" too. .
Expecting a year of downtime or more...
Please be patient with me T.T!
update.
Posted 4 months agoFA NEEDS TO FIX WHERE YOU CREATE/UPDATE YOUR JOURNAL.
ITS IN A REALLY BAD PLACE buried like its "undesirable"...
I cancelled the Gofundme as I was able to get loans and private donations in late April for what I needed.
I snagged a factory overclocked RX 7600XT! Which is JUST enough for some casual 2k gaming (and to drive my nice monitor properly). Its pretty big but it should fit in my case. I also managed to snag some clothing sales so I have a few pairs of shorts and pants that fit me properly. I still need 2 more pants in "US 42x30" but they are not an "emergency" and I'm waiting for the colors I want to drop in price on amazon. (I HATE OLD NAVY and Amazon seems to be the cheapest)
I'm paying 250 a month in payments to affirm at the moment plus maintaining CCs but I still have enough for food and fixed bills. I am really struggling but I'm surviving and slowly paying things off. But it means nothing else but the ABSOLUTE essentials. No games, no eating out, no entertainment, zip. Everything I have is going to my PC.
I figured its not worthy of "GF[dot]me" and I'm not likely to get any money so I just said "screw it" and if i go bankrupt a 2nd time I go bankrupt. The only financial help available I dont qualify for and I can live in solitary confinement without a computer... So it is what it is.
Ill lose my "power of attorney" and have guardianship filed against me but I think i have a good legal defense to stop it.
I also started a small summer "self-employment" position where I am taking care of one of my parents' neighbours' yards every 2 weeks for a small fixed rate. Its helping with supplementing my ODSP at the moment.
I'm also doing occasional baking and getting a bit of cash from that.
Will see what happens.
I cancelled the Gofundme as I was able to get loans and private donations in late April for what I needed.
I snagged an RX 7600XT which is JUST enough for some casual 2k gaming (and to drive my nice monitor properly). Its pretty big. I also managed to snag some clothing sales so I have a few pairs of shorts and pants that fit me properly. I still need 2 more pants in "US 42x30" but they are not an "emergency" and I'm waiting for the colors I want to drop in price on amazon. (I HATE OLD NAVY and Amazon seems to be the cheapest)
I'm paying 250 a month in payments to affirm at the moment plus maintaining CCs but I still have enough for food and fixed bills. I am really struggling but I'm surviving and slowly paying things off. But it means nothing else but the ABSOLUTE essentials. No games, no eating out, no entertainment, zip. Everything I have is going to my PC.
I figured its not worthy of GF[dot]me and I'm not likely to get any money so I just said "screw it" and if i go bankrupt a 2nd time I go bankrupt. The only financial help available I dont qualify for and I can live in solitary confinement without a computer... So it is what it is.
Ill lose my "power of attorney" and have "guardianship" filed against me but I think i have a good legal defence to stop it -- at the risk of losing my family and psychiatrist but i think its inevitable with my history.
I also started a small summer "self-employment" position where I am taking care of one of my parent's yards every 2 weeks for a small fixed rate. Its helping with supplementing my ODSP at the moment.
I'm also doing occasional baking and getting a bit of cash from that.
Will see what happens.
ITS IN A REALLY BAD PLACE buried like its "undesirable"...
I cancelled the Gofundme as I was able to get loans and private donations in late April for what I needed.
I snagged a factory overclocked RX 7600XT! Which is JUST enough for some casual 2k gaming (and to drive my nice monitor properly). Its pretty big but it should fit in my case. I also managed to snag some clothing sales so I have a few pairs of shorts and pants that fit me properly. I still need 2 more pants in "US 42x30" but they are not an "emergency" and I'm waiting for the colors I want to drop in price on amazon. (I HATE OLD NAVY and Amazon seems to be the cheapest)
I'm paying 250 a month in payments to affirm at the moment plus maintaining CCs but I still have enough for food and fixed bills. I am really struggling but I'm surviving and slowly paying things off. But it means nothing else but the ABSOLUTE essentials. No games, no eating out, no entertainment, zip. Everything I have is going to my PC.
I figured its not worthy of "GF[dot]me" and I'm not likely to get any money so I just said "screw it" and if i go bankrupt a 2nd time I go bankrupt. The only financial help available I dont qualify for and I can live in solitary confinement without a computer... So it is what it is.
Ill lose my "power of attorney" and have guardianship filed against me but I think i have a good legal defense to stop it.
I also started a small summer "self-employment" position where I am taking care of one of my parents' neighbours' yards every 2 weeks for a small fixed rate. Its helping with supplementing my ODSP at the moment.
I'm also doing occasional baking and getting a bit of cash from that.
Will see what happens.
I cancelled the Gofundme as I was able to get loans and private donations in late April for what I needed.
I snagged an RX 7600XT which is JUST enough for some casual 2k gaming (and to drive my nice monitor properly). Its pretty big. I also managed to snag some clothing sales so I have a few pairs of shorts and pants that fit me properly. I still need 2 more pants in "US 42x30" but they are not an "emergency" and I'm waiting for the colors I want to drop in price on amazon. (I HATE OLD NAVY and Amazon seems to be the cheapest)
I'm paying 250 a month in payments to affirm at the moment plus maintaining CCs but I still have enough for food and fixed bills. I am really struggling but I'm surviving and slowly paying things off. But it means nothing else but the ABSOLUTE essentials. No games, no eating out, no entertainment, zip. Everything I have is going to my PC.
I figured its not worthy of GF[dot]me and I'm not likely to get any money so I just said "screw it" and if i go bankrupt a 2nd time I go bankrupt. The only financial help available I dont qualify for and I can live in solitary confinement without a computer... So it is what it is.
Ill lose my "power of attorney" and have "guardianship" filed against me but I think i have a good legal defence to stop it -- at the risk of losing my family and psychiatrist but i think its inevitable with my history.
I also started a small summer "self-employment" position where I am taking care of one of my parent's yards every 2 weeks for a small fixed rate. Its helping with supplementing my ODSP at the moment.
I'm also doing occasional baking and getting a bit of cash from that.
Will see what happens.
Go fund me started
Posted 9 months agoKoios, my 16 year old pc needs an upgrade
Zues will be my new machine.
He needs an upgrade from a 1060 GTX to something more modern...
I cant afford it but can still use the other parts I have.
Assistance needed though I dont expect success..
Please spread if you can't donate.
https://gofund.me/b970d80f
I really could use the help...
Thanks folks
Zues will be my new machine.
He needs an upgrade from a 1060 GTX to something more modern...
I cant afford it but can still use the other parts I have.
Assistance needed though I dont expect success..
Please spread if you can't donate.
https://gofund.me/b970d80f
I really could use the help...
Thanks folks
Back on FA!! / New year updates
Posted 9 months agoI've been back hanging on FA daily now for a while--thanks to the change of policy. Though I haven't said anything, you may have noticed some more activity here on my page since the big "exodus."I'm now managing 5 "daily drivers" instead of just 2... Plus discord and telegram.
MY FRONT PAGE PROFILE WILL BE ALTERED TO SHOW THIS.
I am not reposing images at the moment because I still dont trust things but I am actively 'faving' and interacting with people who still post here.
I've largely moved my political rants and postings to X or bluesky (whichever is more tolerant of the content) and interact more on bluesky than here ( because that where the "mass" of the community is.
I also nominally post art more to Bluesky. Though I dont have much new stuff within the past 18 months or so--that is appropriate to post anywhere--sadly. I mainly just political / disability / life stuff there and interact with people.
Twitter is my political potty though so only go there if you wanna deal with that. I've said before that because I'm on ODSP, permanently unemployable' and have pretty much exhausted ALL MEANS OF LEGAL POLITICAL ADVOCACY IN CANADA for my issues: I'm left to dump on the internet for the moment. Until the authorities cart me away to a forensic facility, or nursing home [whom will ban me from using computers for social media] at least
...Until then Ill just survive and try to improve on things~
Like building "Zeus", the 2015 era replacement to "Koios" (my current 2011 era rig); and / or a new (less than 3 years old) machine with TPM 2.0 capability and an ability to play some games and movies at 2k resolution (my new MSI G272QPF E2 27" LCD monitor and upgraded peripherals). I may also want Win 11 capability though I may also say fuck it and try a full-time Linux flavour as my need for "professionally standard" programs is waning now. I'm not doing any work or training currently (sans maybe a government-required accounting program for potential self-employment considerations); so it may be better than breaking M$'s EULA to be "secure".
...IDK yet
I also have 5 sets of mini blinds in my apartment to replace. I'm looking at close to $500 CAD to fix this "wear and tear" maintenance issue.
I'm down to a size 42 US now waist... YAY!!!. (More money to spend getting 4 new pairs of 42x30 pants~.~). Still a 2x / 3x top though-- go figure. Would like to be 40 US by this time next year as Ill be closer to my"ideal weight and size". (close to 240lb now need to below 220lb)
I'm looking forward to the new year. Let us hope the current political climate (The most unstable since the Cuban Missile Crisis)
doesn't lead to everything being blown up again....
...Though I dont have much hope; being a Nihilist who likes to cope by spouting off Machiavellian Philosophy from time to time.Birthday Milestone!!
Posted 11 months agoToday is my 40th (months lol) birthday
A real milestone!
I kinda feel meh about it to be honest. No one in my circle or online is making a big deal about the age and I'm not doing anything to "mark" the milestone so its just like any other birthday now; quiet and reflective.
Ill eat a couple of good meals and enjoy some nice wine, have a small cake with close friends and family and get a bunch of happy wishes from around of course. And maybe a few nice things to enjoy beyond just food -- but not much else. I really dont need it at this point in my life heh...
I do feel the age though. I'm not as athletic nor have as much endurance and I am still fighting weight and diabetes issues, though both are controlled or reducing. I am calmer and friendlier too but still dealing with a lifetime of disability and poverty issues due to being on the ODSP. I still somehow manage though with minimal help (thankful to those who do help). I just don't have any desire to protest or advocate like I used to though as I guess what has happened to me just burnt me out.
Maybe its because of the medication too... Something I've been taking for close to 8 years now!
Things certainly have changed around here though--Since I first came into the "online world" in 2003.
~They have never been better though and I can certainly say I do have my happy moments.
I guess Ill toast this Cobalt Blue Crystal Goblet, full of an Argentinian Malbec (Toro 2023;) to a continued stable and reasonable many years to come~
And to good friends who keep it that way!
Thanks for the birthday wishes (o^_^o)
A real milestone!
I kinda feel meh about it to be honest. No one in my circle or online is making a big deal about the age and I'm not doing anything to "mark" the milestone so its just like any other birthday now; quiet and reflective.
Ill eat a couple of good meals and enjoy some nice wine, have a small cake with close friends and family and get a bunch of happy wishes from around of course. And maybe a few nice things to enjoy beyond just food -- but not much else. I really dont need it at this point in my life heh...
I do feel the age though. I'm not as athletic nor have as much endurance and I am still fighting weight and diabetes issues, though both are controlled or reducing. I am calmer and friendlier too but still dealing with a lifetime of disability and poverty issues due to being on the ODSP. I still somehow manage though with minimal help (thankful to those who do help). I just don't have any desire to protest or advocate like I used to though as I guess what has happened to me just burnt me out.
Maybe its because of the medication too... Something I've been taking for close to 8 years now!
Things certainly have changed around here though--Since I first came into the "online world" in 2003.
~They have never been better though and I can certainly say I do have my happy moments.
I guess Ill toast this Cobalt Blue Crystal Goblet, full of an Argentinian Malbec (Toro 2023;) to a continued stable and reasonable many years to come~
And to good friends who keep it that way!
Thanks for the birthday wishes (o^_^o)
I'm on bluesky as well.
Posted a year agoInkbunny is my new base of operations.
Posted a year ago...Even though Ill probably be killed and (blacklisted by more people) for it.
Just tag search my fursona over there if you don't do X or soon-to-be Bluesky (after the US election in November). I wont link it publicly
Ill leave the 2 placeholder images up here and maintain some link to this site (for possible comms and interaction with any stand-out/alone artists) until site admin deem my participation (or content) in/for this site no longer wanted. Upon suspension I will blank my account and leave a link to my other platforms never to return to this place again (per my policy).
Thanks for all the Fish FA but you have definitely messed-up and dog gone done some serious damage to the infantilism/babyfur community.
Its been a lovely 18 years!!!
Just tag search my fursona over there if you don't do X or soon-to-be Bluesky (after the US election in November). I wont link it publicly
Ill leave the 2 placeholder images up here and maintain some link to this site (for possible comms and interaction with any stand-out/alone artists) until site admin deem my participation (or content) in/for this site no longer wanted. Upon suspension I will blank my account and leave a link to my other platforms never to return to this place again (per my policy).
Thanks for all the Fish FA but you have definitely messed-up and dog gone done some serious damage to the infantilism/babyfur community.
Its been a lovely 18 years!!!
I has an X
Posted a year agowww.x.com/sazerchu
It's not a babyfur-focused place (I wish I had the resources to do more lifestyle stuffl) but it is babyfur friendly. Its ranty and political about the life of a autistic, disabled infantilist with the IQ of 120+. And who is half-institutionalized and 'stuck.'
This is just a notice so ppl know who I am on there and to find me if needed or wanted.
I'll be getting a bluesky too eventually but until I get more resources to actually express my little side: CubHub is out of the question.
And given previous negative interactions with the owner of the new bf.me: that is a no go.
[b] Like I say in my profile tho I have telegram and discord too. Contact me in private if you want to talk real-time on them[/u]
It's not a babyfur-focused place (I wish I had the resources to do more lifestyle stuffl) but it is babyfur friendly. Its ranty and political about the life of a autistic, disabled infantilist with the IQ of 120+. And who is half-institutionalized and 'stuck.'
This is just a notice so ppl know who I am on there and to find me if needed or wanted.
I'll be getting a bluesky too eventually but until I get more resources to actually express my little side: CubHub is out of the question.
And given previous negative interactions with the owner of the new bf.me: that is a no go.
[b] Like I say in my profile tho I have telegram and discord too. Contact me in private if you want to talk real-time on them[/u]
Removed what I could
Posted a year agoWill see if FA is Gunna ban babyfur outright or just sanitize it to nothingness.
Will see if I get suspended with what I have now or not.
I'm risking my safety by doing it; but I am on inkbunny with proper babyfur stuff (and the cub porn pedos). At least till they ban Canadians like they are going to for the UK.
Stay together folks... The sites don't matter!
Will see if I get suspended with what I have now or not.
I'm risking my safety by doing it; but I am on inkbunny with proper babyfur stuff (and the cub porn pedos). At least till they ban Canadians like they are going to for the UK.
Stay together folks... The sites don't matter!
Verification.
Posted a year agoFA is being hijacked - per an official twitter post they put up at 3am this morning (I had to get through back channels to verify but it was true).
Use the site at your own risk at the moment I guess...
Just be careful.
Use the site at your own risk at the moment I guess...
Just be careful.
I think Facebook is gunna ban canada...
Posted a year agohttps://toronto.citynews.ca/2024/08.....ts-more-proof/
Facebook has already blocked news and people are getting around it through various means. Facebook says this makes it exempt from "canadian market participation fees"
People are doing it anyways without links.
Goverment says facebook still has to pay and is waiting for the CRTC to rule if they have "shared" enough to fall under our laws.
https://laws-lois.justice.gc.ca/eng/acts/O-9.3/
Facebook took down links to Canadian news to avoid paying into our system (one that supports unprofitable and "non viable" local news to any city outside of Toronto, Montreal, Vancouver, Ottawa, Calgary, or Edmonton. It also supports the production of CanCon / Canadian Propoganda - a fundamental part of canadian exeptionalism as well as its inferiority complex).
They may just ban Canadians outright to avoid paying the fees it says it does not have to.
....Fees that may violate the regulations of USMCTA and the WTO...
Will other social media sites follow like the Porn sites are threatening to do??
People are gonna riot if they lose facebook... and the US is gunna possibly sanction--then bomb us like they do everyone else they cant culturally dominate
Facebook has already blocked news and people are getting around it through various means. Facebook says this makes it exempt from "canadian market participation fees"
People are doing it anyways without links.
Goverment says facebook still has to pay and is waiting for the CRTC to rule if they have "shared" enough to fall under our laws.
https://laws-lois.justice.gc.ca/eng/acts/O-9.3/
Facebook took down links to Canadian news to avoid paying into our system (one that supports unprofitable and "non viable" local news to any city outside of Toronto, Montreal, Vancouver, Ottawa, Calgary, or Edmonton. It also supports the production of CanCon / Canadian Propoganda - a fundamental part of canadian exeptionalism as well as its inferiority complex).
They may just ban Canadians outright to avoid paying the fees it says it does not have to.
....Fees that may violate the regulations of USMCTA and the WTO...
Will other social media sites follow like the Porn sites are threatening to do??
People are gonna riot if they lose facebook... and the US is gunna possibly sanction--then bomb us like they do everyone else they cant culturally dominate
still thinking of isolating, just no use being crazy.
Posted a year agoThere is no point in complaining.
not when mysterious energy surrounds you to keep you warm and comfy to sleep peacefully.
IDK what to do now as like I said.
If i left or "broke away" I'll have NOTHING but isolation.
even for a short break...
not when mysterious energy surrounds you to keep you warm and comfy to sleep peacefully.
IDK what to do now as like I said.
If i left or "broke away" I'll have NOTHING but isolation.
even for a short break...
Apparently wet, non leaking diapers on cubs is verboten n...
Posted a year agoSomeone big just got "final warning suspended" for such a thing. Likely on a very popular comic too...
There are alot of wet diaper pics on FA of cubs.
That's alot of suspensions and bans.
Like I said before THERE IS GUNNA BE NO BABYFUR WORK LEFT ON FA eventually as everyone refuses to use the site if this continues. Then it can become another fchan that died.
This isnt suprising though as the anti-babyfur trolls have sort of won a long time ago and forced us back into our own playpen.
(Canada is gonna ban us from going online anyways soon as it is so this may be moot.)
I removed a 'wet' pic to stop any collateral damage.
Looks like I am going to need to find another site besides inkbunny. Though like i said before I'm banned from talking about local politics pretty much everywhere due to social issues and court orders, I dont have the rep or life to really go on Mastodon's CubHub or bluesky. Twitter costs money to post for new accounts and I'm shadow banned from Babyfur.me's owners communities for talking about "MAID" on one of their channels.
My family chased me off facebook because they dont wanna know about my daily drama or my infantilism...
I am fucked...
There are alot of wet diaper pics on FA of cubs.
That's alot of suspensions and bans.
Like I said before THERE IS GUNNA BE NO BABYFUR WORK LEFT ON FA eventually as everyone refuses to use the site if this continues. Then it can become another fchan that died.
This isnt suprising though as the anti-babyfur trolls have sort of won a long time ago and forced us back into our own playpen.
(Canada is gonna ban us from going online anyways soon as it is so this may be moot.)
I removed a 'wet' pic to stop any collateral damage.
Looks like I am going to need to find another site besides inkbunny. Though like i said before I'm banned from talking about local politics pretty much everywhere due to social issues and court orders, I dont have the rep or life to really go on Mastodon's CubHub or bluesky. Twitter costs money to post for new accounts and I'm shadow banned from Babyfur.me's owners communities for talking about "MAID" on one of their channels.
My family chased me off facebook because they dont wanna know about my daily drama or my infantilism...
I am fucked...
I shouldn't complain...
Posted a year agoAbout things I can do nothing about...
Still sad about them though...
...To the point I've been practically cuddled up with "Will the 2nd" most of the past 3 days in bed...
Still sad about them though...
...To the point I've been practically cuddled up with "Will the 2nd" most of the past 3 days in bed...
Sailor outfit...
Posted a year ago I've been inspired x3
I would love to pad / crinkle around a con space irl with a cubby sailor outfit on - - with pants or shorts and a slight bulge to my undies area. No public paci tho...
I'd be carrying around my Pikachu plush too x3!
Hopefully this would not be too much public expression... ^^;
I would love to pad / crinkle around a con space irl with a cubby sailor outfit on - - with pants or shorts and a slight bulge to my undies area. No public paci tho...
I'd be carrying around my Pikachu plush too x3!
Hopefully this would not be too much public expression... ^^;
Journal(s) removed due to advice delivered by dream....
Posted a year agoYeah...
Its not worth going that far when I do have some support and places to be...
Just wish I had more places and ppl to "mosh" with
I want to go to a con again some day, but i dont know enough people to make it a reasonable experience...
(and people dont know me enough...)
My dreams are telling me I should be a "quiet inspiration" and not cry / whine all the time.
I wont totally stop but I should do better...
Its not worth going that far when I do have some support and places to be...
Just wish I had more places and ppl to "mosh" with
I want to go to a con again some day, but i dont know enough people to make it a reasonable experience...
(and people dont know me enough...)
My dreams are telling me I should be a "quiet inspiration" and not cry / whine all the time.
I wont totally stop but I should do better...
So much for the Canada Disability Benefit...
Posted a year agohttps://www.cbc.ca/news/politics/na.....dget-1.7175828
Only $200 a month for those that qualify for the CDTC at the worst level of impairment.
https://www.msn.com/en-ca/money/oth.....1878&ei=15
Only 600,000 are going to be eligible and its not significant at all. This is less than 14% of the population that lives on government disability benefits of less than 1300 a month. (poverty line is ~2500CAD a month.)
What a waste of money for such a small group... You are better off adding it to the CDTC grant than another lie item.
I of course will not be getting it as I said it would be. But at least in Ontario tax credits are exempt assets from deductible assets for those who can get it.
Its also meant to "supplement" and not replace the disability benefits given by the provincial social assistance / welfare systems. (This could anger some provinces; like Ontario: who have claimed in the past that they cant afford to properly feed their disabled--without federal "uploading" ...and not just kids.)
There is enough votes now to defeat the current minority government--if the Liberals choose to make this budget a non-confidence motion
If there is a government change, the autism policy mandate and 'CDB' are likely to go away. But so will the 'babyfur' ban and a few other things.
At this point I think it would be of more benefit tbh. Even with a 'trump wannabe' in Polivere crossed with Singh / Trudeau.
...If only for a few months before another election again! ...Lol!
Only $200 a month for those that qualify for the CDTC at the worst level of impairment.
https://www.msn.com/en-ca/money/oth.....1878&ei=15
Only 600,000 are going to be eligible and its not significant at all. This is less than 14% of the population that lives on government disability benefits of less than 1300 a month. (poverty line is ~2500CAD a month.)
What a waste of money for such a small group... You are better off adding it to the CDTC grant than another lie item.
I of course will not be getting it as I said it would be. But at least in Ontario tax credits are exempt assets from deductible assets for those who can get it.
Its also meant to "supplement" and not replace the disability benefits given by the provincial social assistance / welfare systems. (This could anger some provinces; like Ontario: who have claimed in the past that they cant afford to properly feed their disabled--without federal "uploading" ...and not just kids.)
There is enough votes now to defeat the current minority government--if the Liberals choose to make this budget a non-confidence motion
If there is a government change, the autism policy mandate and 'CDB' are likely to go away. But so will the 'babyfur' ban and a few other things.
At this point I think it would be of more benefit tbh. Even with a 'trump wannabe' in Polivere crossed with Singh / Trudeau.
...If only for a few months before another election again! ...Lol!
My IRL BBEG is dead...
Posted a year agoNOTE: "BBEG" means "Big Bad Evil Guy." Its from Dungeons and Dragons and its a term for the "final" or "any major" boss in a campaign
https://windsornewstoday.ca/windsor.....now-a-homicide
Chatham-Kent police are now calling a suspicious death in Erie Beach a murder.
Police have also identified the victim as Michael Allard, 40, of Windsor.
"After thorough examination, the suspicious death investigation is now being treated as a homicide," said police in a statement issued on Thursday afternoon.
On Wednesday morning, police reported they were called to an address on Towanda Boulevard at 12:42 a.m. on Tuesday for a report of someone needing emergency services.
The initial report to police indicated that the individual had been shot by a gun and officers secured the scene to ensure there was no threat to public safety.
Police emphasized again on Thursday that this is considered an isolated incident with no concern for public safety, adding that no arrests have been made.
The investigation continues.
Someone finally took this guy out... (Though I can forgive and forget now that he is gone. And know he is not in pain anymore.)
...Though it wasn't me. Thankfully. I was asleep till 13:00H and went to Canadian tire around 1500H to pick up a baking pan for a party on Sunday.
I thought they'd never let him out but they did...
Now I can move on with my life and not be always looking behind my back!
(Or having to obtain a licence to 'use and possess body armour' again... [and something else that would violate Part V of Canada's National Defence Act]--if I made it known publicly.)
This guy has been trying to kill me (every time we accidentally met) since I was 7 years old.
This includes shootings (once with a .50 cal. Desert Eaglehe bought through a loan with a Mexican cartel) stabbings, intimidation, group and individual assaults, threats to myself and my family, conspiracy to commit drug trafficing, and what would now be called "aiding a terrorist group". This latter action led to use of a specific UN Treaty that is not public information.
Last time he showed up was during my trial in 2014 in "full chains" as a means of "character assassination" by the police and "diversion provider" during that mess of my life.
(he was marked as a dangerous offender [https://laws-lois.justice.gc.ca/eng.....tion-753.html] after I got hit with the .50 [while wearing a chunk of Jeep armour issued to me by DND so I could survive] and I thought he was gone prior to my trial. This was during that "blank space" in my life between 2007 and 2010)
He blamed me for "taking his mother away" when I was 13 --after His mom gave him up to the province's care permanently (something that had nearly happened to me 5 years before it happened to him.) I guess his mom sued me because my mom "complained too much" about my "socially inappropriate behaviour" (like that whole parents group did in my "second" treatment home) and for not sending me to London to be cared for by the province forever. He said "his mom told him to 'take me out'" and she admitted that during testimony of this suit. I won of course and walked off with a $15,000 settlement thanks to the help of my "advocacy team"--and she 'gave him up to the province' blaming me.
He never forgave me...
Though I can forgive and forget now that he is gone. And know he is not in pain anymore.
His behaviour and the staff's reaction to our conflicts at the "homes" I lived in made me who I am. It set me up for the conflicts I have even to this day. It is one of the sources of my HF-PTSD
Closure is not possible anymore... And therapy will never be either!
https://windsornewstoday.ca/windsor.....now-a-homicide
Chatham-Kent police are now calling a suspicious death in Erie Beach a murder.
Police have also identified the victim as Michael Allard, 40, of Windsor.
"After thorough examination, the suspicious death investigation is now being treated as a homicide," said police in a statement issued on Thursday afternoon.
On Wednesday morning, police reported they were called to an address on Towanda Boulevard at 12:42 a.m. on Tuesday for a report of someone needing emergency services.
The initial report to police indicated that the individual had been shot by a gun and officers secured the scene to ensure there was no threat to public safety.
Police emphasized again on Thursday that this is considered an isolated incident with no concern for public safety, adding that no arrests have been made.
The investigation continues.
Someone finally took this guy out... (Though I can forgive and forget now that he is gone. And know he is not in pain anymore.)
...Though it wasn't me. Thankfully. I was asleep till 13:00H and went to Canadian tire around 1500H to pick up a baking pan for a party on Sunday.
I thought they'd never let him out but they did...
Now I can move on with my life and not be always looking behind my back!
(Or having to obtain a licence to 'use and possess body armour' again... [and something else that would violate Part V of Canada's National Defence Act]--if I made it known publicly.)
This guy has been trying to kill me (every time we accidentally met) since I was 7 years old.
This includes shootings (once with a .50 cal. Desert Eagle
Last time he showed up was during my trial in 2014 in "full chains" as a means of "character assassination" by the police and "diversion provider" during that mess of my life.
(he was marked as a dangerous offender [https://laws-lois.justice.gc.ca/eng.....tion-753.html] after I got hit with the .50 [while wearing a chunk of Jeep armour issued to me by DND so I could survive] and I thought he was gone prior to my trial. This was during that "blank space" in my life between 2007 and 2010)
He blamed me for "taking his mother away" when I was 13 --after His mom gave him up to the province's care permanently (something that had nearly happened to me 5 years before it happened to him.) I guess his mom sued me because my mom "complained too much" about my "socially inappropriate behaviour" (like that whole parents group did in my "second" treatment home) and for not sending me to London to be cared for by the province forever. He said "his mom told him to 'take me out'" and she admitted that during testimony of this suit. I won of course and walked off with a $15,000 settlement thanks to the help of my "advocacy team"--and she 'gave him up to the province' blaming me.
He never forgave me...
Though I can forgive and forget now that he is gone. And know he is not in pain anymore.
His behaviour and the staff's reaction to our conflicts at the "homes" I lived in made me who I am. It set me up for the conflicts I have even to this day. It is one of the sources of my HF-PTSD
Closure is not possible anymore... And therapy will never be either!
Canada to ban babyfur...?!
Posted a year agoIt just got worse....
https://www.cbc.ca/news/politics/li.....tion-1.7126080
The Liberal government is proposing heavier sentences, new regulatory bodies and changes to a number of laws in new legislation to tackle online abuse.
The Online Harms Act, tabled Monday, proposes to police seven categories of harmful content online. Those categories include content used to bully a child and content that encourages a child to harm themselves.
They also include hate speech, content that incites violence or terrorism, content that sexualizes children or victims of sexual violence, and sexual content that is posted without consent.
In before the arguments that Patreon used to ban its stuff becomes canadian law...
...I think that includes Rape and non-con stuff like forced diapering too...
Less we have to break national security law to proxy into fa (without membership to FA...) to Veiw what little work we can...
...Fa isn't gonna deal with this...
They'll either drop ALL "babyfur" art or just kick out the Canadians to stay legal with the LOWEST COMMON DENOMINATOR.
We have 2 Human rights cases that give some "expression protection" to us one from the OHRT and one from the ABHT.
I wonder how the Digital Safety Commission is gonna deal with this type of content...
https://www.cbc.ca/news/politics/li.....tion-1.7126080
The Liberal government is proposing heavier sentences, new regulatory bodies and changes to a number of laws in new legislation to tackle online abuse.
The Online Harms Act, tabled Monday, proposes to police seven categories of harmful content online. Those categories include content used to bully a child and content that encourages a child to harm themselves.
They also include hate speech, content that incites violence or terrorism, content that sexualizes children or victims of sexual violence, and sexual content that is posted without consent.
In before the arguments that Patreon used to ban its stuff becomes canadian law...
...I think that includes Rape and non-con stuff like forced diapering too...
Less we have to break national security law to proxy into fa (without membership to FA...) to Veiw what little work we can...
...Fa isn't gonna deal with this...
They'll either drop ALL "babyfur" art or just kick out the Canadians to stay legal with the LOWEST COMMON DENOMINATOR.
We have 2 Human rights cases that give some "expression protection" to us one from the OHRT and one from the ABHT.
I wonder how the Digital Safety Commission is gonna deal with this type of content...
FA to ban Canadians??
Posted a year agoLike pornhub is threatening to?
https://globalnews.ca/news/10303521.....a-senate-bill/
https://globalnews.ca/news/10305540.....bill-concerns/
A controversial bill proposing that porn sites should have an age verification requirement is coming up for study from the House of Commons amid concerns about its effectiveness in protecting minors and other privacy concerns.
The owners of Pornhub, one of the largest porn sites on the internet, have opposed the bill, calling it the “wrong legislation,” and say they’re considering blocking access to Canadians.
Bill S-210, An Act to restrict young persons’ online access to sexually explicit material, is a Senate bill currently making its way in reverse through the parliamentary process. That means it started in the Senate, passed that chamber in April 2023 and is now in the House of Commons for consideration.
It passed second reading in the House of Commons in December 2023 and is set to be studied by the standing committee of public safety and national security this spring.
It was brought forward by Independent Sen. Julie Miville-Dechêne in 2021.
Bill here:
https://www.parl.ca/DocumentViewer/...../third-reading
I could see FA and IB banning Canadians if they are required to comply with holding government ID for EVERY canadian on the site. Especially with quarter of a million dollar fines for not doing so.
Fa just doesn't have the budget to deal with this...
Same with the rest of the furry fandom..
Its into second reading now too. Which means its going to pass Royal Ascent by the summer.
Is this Goodbye soon?
[Using proxies is considered Espinonage in Canada too -- so none of that will be tolerated... (even then you couldn't make memberships to see wet diapers on FA) And even individuals who transfer it via IM are in danger of fines too..]
https://globalnews.ca/news/10303521.....a-senate-bill/
https://globalnews.ca/news/10305540.....bill-concerns/
A controversial bill proposing that porn sites should have an age verification requirement is coming up for study from the House of Commons amid concerns about its effectiveness in protecting minors and other privacy concerns.
The owners of Pornhub, one of the largest porn sites on the internet, have opposed the bill, calling it the “wrong legislation,” and say they’re considering blocking access to Canadians.
Bill S-210, An Act to restrict young persons’ online access to sexually explicit material, is a Senate bill currently making its way in reverse through the parliamentary process. That means it started in the Senate, passed that chamber in April 2023 and is now in the House of Commons for consideration.
It passed second reading in the House of Commons in December 2023 and is set to be studied by the standing committee of public safety and national security this spring.
It was brought forward by Independent Sen. Julie Miville-Dechêne in 2021.
Bill here:
https://www.parl.ca/DocumentViewer/...../third-reading
I could see FA and IB banning Canadians if they are required to comply with holding government ID for EVERY canadian on the site. Especially with quarter of a million dollar fines for not doing so.
Fa just doesn't have the budget to deal with this...
Same with the rest of the furry fandom..
Its into second reading now too. Which means its going to pass Royal Ascent by the summer.
Is this Goodbye soon?
[Using proxies is considered Espinonage in Canada too -- so none of that will be tolerated... (even then you couldn't make memberships to see wet diapers on FA) And even individuals who transfer it via IM are in danger of fines too..]
Problem Solved.
Posted a year agoShould be ok now thanks
Late, but better than never (Happy New Year)
Posted 2 years agoI'm gonna have a tough... And boring month financially, but hope this year brings better fortunes for me. I hope I am better this year both financially and personal progress wise as I have many goals and projects to work on.
(And maybe more time in padding--with cubby clothes overtop~ Hehe. And more art! Priorities Though~)
I've started on a good trend this year with a happy summer last year and I had a good Christmas putting up 2 sets of decorations and trees. I am also enjoying the time with my parents before they well; become to old for anything and I've made some in roads on things.
...It is frustrating to deal with them though--at times--as I am there MULTIPLE times a month helping out. Things are not getting easier for them--as my dad retires and loses 60% of his income. But they are appreciative of me--and have pretty much stopped bothering me about my "situation".
Time with other family progresses on though (like watching my nephew and niece grow up)--without much difficulty.
Maybe I can start learning French too... Both of them are in French Immersion.)
(I need to resolve some burning questions though about 2016 and prior. Some how some way... Without losing the only Psychiatrist in the city still willing to see me!)
As for everyone though:
Let this year bring you progress, peace, and love. And may you achieve your goals.
And let things calm down in the world. Id hate this to be the year when WW3 starts.
...and the nukes go up ending it all for us.
(And maybe more time in padding--with cubby clothes overtop~ Hehe. And more art! Priorities Though~)
I've started on a good trend this year with a happy summer last year and I had a good Christmas putting up 2 sets of decorations and trees. I am also enjoying the time with my parents before they well; become to old for anything and I've made some in roads on things.
...It is frustrating to deal with them though--at times--as I am there MULTIPLE times a month helping out. Things are not getting easier for them--as my dad retires and loses 60% of his income. But they are appreciative of me--and have pretty much stopped bothering me about my "situation".
Time with other family progresses on though (like watching my nephew and niece grow up)--without much difficulty.
Maybe I can start learning French too... Both of them are in French Immersion.)
(I need to resolve some burning questions though about 2016 and prior. Some how some way... Without losing the only Psychiatrist in the city still willing to see me!)
As for everyone though:
Let this year bring you progress, peace, and love. And may you achieve your goals.
And let things calm down in the world. Id hate this to be the year when WW3 starts.
...and the nukes go up ending it all for us.
Merry Christmas Everyone!
Posted 2 years agoI hope you all have have a happy time with friends and family, eat some yummy food and maybe share some gifts with your loved ones.
If not--well.--have a quiet and peaceful time while you enjoy the new cycle--or whatever holiday you may celebrate at this time (as there are several.)
It is a good time to reflect as well--and take a break from whatever droll you have in your daily life.
If not--well.--have a quiet and peaceful time while you enjoy the new cycle--or whatever holiday you may celebrate at this time (as there are several.)
It is a good time to reflect as well--and take a break from whatever droll you have in your daily life.
I think...
Posted 2 years agoABDL art is going back to the early 90's where you have to be a computer genius and have a server in your basement under an unnamed numbered company that takes funds through Western Union snail-mailed envelopes like you do to third world countries.
(or un-labled private "interac etransfers" in Canada where push-comes-to-shove we have some rights for this)
To get paid for your work.
Everything and anyone seems to want to eliminate us these days...
Hell Even PayPal bans payments and accounts regularly over "digitally delivered art featuring the recreational / non-medical use of diapers on anyone but babies or older incapacitated adults".
And several credit cards (like one of mine) bans it too.... (also American Express lol)
We are not at the point yet of having to cut onions to exchange work yet; but The darknet does--afterall--include locally hosted servers for single sites inaccessible by google; or only through word of mouth....
Everywhere else just deletes and bans us eventually....
(or un-labled private "interac etransfers" in Canada where push-comes-to-shove we have some rights for this)
To get paid for your work.
Everything and anyone seems to want to eliminate us these days...
Hell Even PayPal bans payments and accounts regularly over "digitally delivered art featuring the recreational / non-medical use of diapers on anyone but babies or older incapacitated adults".
And several credit cards (like one of mine) bans it too.... (also American Express lol)
We are not at the point yet of having to cut onions to exchange work yet; but The darknet does--afterall--include locally hosted servers for single sites inaccessible by google; or only through word of mouth....
Everywhere else just deletes and bans us eventually....
Got approved for the (ODSP's) 'SDA'.
Posted 2 years agoTo the tune of an extra 81 CAD a month to assist in the purchase of more veggies, fruit and "low-glycemic" grains!
I'll be reviewed next November to see if i need it again. (Diabetes is Permanent but a "BMI" of 45--hopefully--will not be.)
At least for the next year I won't have to worry too much about running out of money for groceries in the middle of the month (and for the last 2 weeks) as I can reserve some money to use after the 14th of every month.
I can now run my veggies over 2 weeks instead of 4 which gives me more freedom to choose things and reduce wastage.
Plus I may be able to afford a gym membership now too.
...I won't do that though till i know my budget better in the new year.
I see my first payment on the 30th.
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I've wrote about applying for it before to help with diet and money issues so it finally came to pass this week. My Dr signed it on my birthday and I turned it in on the 17th. I just read the confirmation message from my worker today--on the "online self service module" ODSP has for us.
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Wish me luck on getting to under 220 ^^; I'm at 278 now...
I'll be reviewed next November to see if i need it again. (Diabetes is Permanent but a "BMI" of 45--hopefully--will not be.)
At least for the next year I won't have to worry too much about running out of money for groceries in the middle of the month (and for the last 2 weeks) as I can reserve some money to use after the 14th of every month.
I can now run my veggies over 2 weeks instead of 4 which gives me more freedom to choose things and reduce wastage.
Plus I may be able to afford a gym membership now too.
...I won't do that though till i know my budget better in the new year.
I see my first payment on the 30th.
--
.
I've wrote about applying for it before to help with diet and money issues so it finally came to pass this week. My Dr signed it on my birthday and I turned it in on the 17th. I just read the confirmation message from my worker today--on the "online self service module" ODSP has for us.
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Wish me luck on getting to under 220 ^^; I'm at 278 now...
