Hello everyone!

I am getting married tomorrow sooo....

Just a heads up that, as you can imagine, I have a rather busy weekend this weekend so please forgive my lack of messages!

Will be back to it as soon as I can!

Pixie

Hey everyone,

I'm back from another of my anxiety driven hibernations. ^-^ I hope everyone is doing okay!

"So Pixie, why are you so anxious?" you might ask!

Because I am getting married to the wonderful in November and I only had 5 months to organise the wedding! It's almost here and not only am I super excited but everything is coming together really well so my stress is melting away.

In other more muscular news my three lifts currently have the following 1 rep maxes:

Bench Press: 65kg (143lbs, 10st 3lbs)
Deadlift: 105kg (231lbs, 16st 7lbs)
Squat: 90kg (198lbs, 14st 2lbs)

I hope you all have an awesome Halloween! ^-^

Pixie

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!

Being crazy as usual. Had a bit of a mental breakdown and had to disappear for a bit. I've managed to keep up with some of my fitness stuff though so for those interested I am now leg pressing around 100kg.

I have a few notes I need to respond to which I will be doing straight away. I am really sorry for forgetting to change my commission status. I hadn't even realised I had left it's status as opne. :S

I hope everyone is doing well and I love you all to bits.


Pixie

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hi guys!

Just posting up a journal to let you know I am open for commissions again!

I have just finished up some commissions and would love to take on some more so if you have ideas please get in touch by note! I'm not the fastest artist and the pictures usually take 1-4 weeks But I hope quality makes up for this!

Please see my spiffy commission page for prices next to examples of each level of commission!

Streaming now, come join me! NSFW!

https://picarto.tv/pixiekirin

Over now!

Hi guys, really sorry the stream is postponed, seems it does not like manga studio, probably derping everything, I will get it sorted at some point!

Just leaving a journal to let everyone know I will be streaming tomorrow at 4pm (UTC+1)

I will be working on the first page of The Dark Metropolis, the upcoming web comic featuring Indra and Inspector Moore!

See you then!

https://picarto.tv/pixiekirin

I figured out how to strem!

https://picarto.tv/pixiekirin

I still have no idea what I am doing...

Very NSFW!

Over now!

Hi guys!

Just posting up a journal to let you know I am open for commissions again!

I have just finished up some commissions and would love to take on some more so if you have ideas please get in touch by note! I'm not the fastest artist and the pictures usually take 1-4 weeks But I hope quality makes up for this!

Please see my spiffy commission page for prices next to examples of each level of commission!

Hey again guys!

Just posting up a journal to say thank you for all the support, watchers, favs and comments I've had recently, getting more confident with my art and your support really helps ^_^

I have just finished off a couple of commissions and would love to take on some more so if you have ideas please get in touch by note! I'm not the fastest artist and the pictures usually take 1-4 weeks But I hope quality makes up for this!

My spiffy new commission page shows my prices next to examples of each level of commission!

Hey guys!

Just posting up a reminder that I'm always open for more commissions! Always always! As said before I'm not the fastest artist and the pictures usually take 1-4 weeks But I hope quality makes up for this!

I will admit this is partly to pimp my spiffy new commission page where you will find prices next to examples of each level of commission!

Feel free to note me with your ideas and any other questions!! ^_^

As I'm almost clear with my current commishies I thought I'd just put a shout out to let everyone know I'm still open! ^-^ I could really do with some interest this month as I require new sports bras for doing P90X. I have found the perfect 2 bra combination but I need another set. So please help me and my puppies out by supporting my bewbs literally!

Single Character:

Sketches = $10
Lineart = $15
Flat Colour = $20
Shaded = $25

Extra character = +50% of base price

Prices are all in US dollars.

Feel free to note me with your ideas and any other questions!

Love you all!

Pixie

I wanted to let everyone know that I'm still taking commissions. I've just finished up the last picture I had on my list so I thought now was a good time for another journal. Hopefully there should be a lot more art this month as March was particularly difficult. On the upside I've now gone through a huge medication reduction (which should have been grained down under supervision) and I'm through the physical withdrawl symptoms and out the other side. It's a huge deal for me as I'm actually intolerant to my meds, venlafaxine (Effexor) specifically. They were making me break out in hives whenever I got too stressed, hot or tired... I am super happy to say that I haven't had any hives since the reduction! *dances around in circles*

Single Character:

Sketches = $10
Lineart = $15
Flat Colour = $20
Shaded = $25

Extra character = +50% of base price

Feel free to note me with your ideas and any other questions!

Love you all!

Pixie

I've had quite a few questions about the workouts I'm doing etc so I thought I'd put it all in a journal for anyone interested. *bounces around in circles*

When it comes to weight I try not to get too obsessed about the numbers. I weigh myself about 3 times a week and I always do it wearing pretty much the same thing (undies, socks, yoga pants & top) and at the same time of day (4 - 4:30pm). A person's weight can vary as much as 10lbs throughout the day so you can go completely loopy if you pick random times to weigh in. I don't have my own scales as I know I'd weigh myself too often so I use the scales at the gym... Well I did until this week when it went out of order so I've had to switch to one of the same brand in my local chemist. I like it because I get a printout for when I'm loopy and forget what the readout said. *derps hard* http://i.imgur.com/4SODKRk.jpg

I also don't really diet. I monitor my calories and I do have some "diet snacks" but those were mostly to cope with the excessive snacking caused by quitting smoking (1 year & 13 days ^-^.) As both of my sisters have very poor relationships with food I try not to label anything as particularly bad or good. My diet tend to be reasonably low in fat and sodium but quite high in sugar because I love sweet things. I do eat a protein bar after I workout and otherwise have a multi-vit a day.<3 My daily caloric goal on My Fitness Pal is 1220 calories + any calories I burn doing exercise and it's set for me to lose 2lb a week. However, I'm not super strict with this as I don't want to lose weight too fast and my calorie allowance varies depending on what exercise I've done. As long as it evens out well I'm a happy lady. http://i.imgur.com/WVVD0Wg.png

I'm really not sure what my ideal weight is because I'm also going to be building muscle. At the moment I'm still losing fat to bring myself down to a healthy body fat percentage but I imagine it might start going up again later this year as I get "swole". ^-^ I've set a tentative goal for somewhere around 11st 7lb or 73kg but I have no idea if that's where I'll end up. My boobs also make my ideal weight heavier than average as they weigh about 28lb in breast tissue. o.0 My current workout routine is as follows:

Day 1: Gym Upper Body
Day 2: 1 hour swimming & Squats
Day 3: 1 hour swimming & Press-ups
Day 4: Gym Lower Body
Day 5: 1 hour swimming & Press-ups
Day 6: 1 hour swimming & Squats

I'm adding in yoga in the morning when I feel up to it but I try to pace myself as I can get a bit overly enthusiastic with the exercising. <.< >.>

I intend on get as muscular as I can without taking any testosterone or oestrogen blockers. I'm going to be having kidlets in a couple of years so I don't want to mess up my fertility. Other than that I have no particular upper limit on how ripped I intend on getting.

The other thing I really want to do later this year is get breast implants. "But Pixie!" I hear you cry. "Your bewbies are already as big as your own head!" It's something I've thought long and hard about. I lost a lot of years in a horrendously abusive relationship and now I feel good about myself again (super thanks to ) I want to be able to have fun and wear/do whatever I like. I have issues with finding clothes that fit, bras being uncomfortable etc but the option of having a breast reduction is just horrifying to me. It's super invasive and they have to detach and relocate your nipples so it makes you incapable of breast feeding and that's essential to me. Implants are considerably less invasive would help support my boobs and allow me to wear strapless/backless dresses etc and feel confident. My boobs would still be 85 - 90% natural (jiggly & bouncy) but they'd be perkier and I wouldn't be as reliant on evil wired bras. ^-^ Also giant boobs are awesome... Just saying...

Love & kisses

Pixie

So I shall start with my current stats:

Weight: 13st 1lbs
Height: 5' 6"
Chest: 47.5" (depending on the bra worn can be up to 49")
Waist: 34"
Hips: 42"
Neck: 13.5"
Bicep: 12.5"
Forearm: 10.3"
Thighs: 24"
Calves: 15"

I've lost more weight and the definition is starting to show in places. Only a little bit but I'm using it as inspiration.

I also went to  siman-clifton's mother's wedding and photographs were taken... o.0 It was super scary. I'd spent ages trying to put together something cute to wear but I still wasn't happy with my dress. It had been bought to fit my chest and then altered to fit the rest of me. However, the waist still hung out from me and I felt like I was wearing a sack. A very pretty pink sack.

Si and me in my pink sack dress: http://i.imgur.com/Nt3R9XS.jpg

Daft couple selfie where I'm not pulling a silly face: http://i.imgur.com/gABZcWQ.jpg

There will be before and after pics going up at the end of this month... There should be quite the difference. o.0

Love & kisses,

Pixie

Hello all you amazing fluffy people!

First things first, today is birthday! Yay! Happy Birthday darling! I love you more each day! I am super lucky to have met Si and he is absolutely wonderful to me.

Second. Thank you so very much to everyone who has encouraged me and supported me over the last year. As of last night I haven't had a cigarette in a year. I haven't relapsed once. I can't express how amazing it is to be smoke free and to be regain my fitness in huge strides. It did mean that I had to be a bit quiet for a while and couldn't art as much but I did it! Yaaaaaaaaaaaay!

I love you all to pieces,

Pixie

Apparently the site I'm using doesn't really share much of my information for people to look at. So I've decided to post my current stats here so that anyone is interested in my quest to become the bustiest of muscle ladies can keep track. Of course it's super embarrassing and I'm not at all happy with where I am right now but I'm looking towards the future and where I'll be by Summer.


Stats as of 11/03/2015

Weight: 13st 4lbs
Height: 5' 6"
Chest: 47.5" (depending on the bra worn can be up to 49")
Waist: 35"
Hips: 43"
Neck: 14"
Bicep: 12.5"
Forearm: 10.5"
Thighs: 23.5"
Calves: 15"

I weigh myself a couple of times a week but I only measure every 3 weeks as I want to avoid disappointing myself with a lack of change. It takes about 7lbs lost ish to lose an inch from your waist so measuring too frequently can make you feel like there's no progress, I'll be measuring again on the 1st of April.

Thank you for all the lovely support and I hope I'll make everyone proud.

Hello all!

As some of you already know I am currently on the road back to full fitness and I am also starting to work out at the gym with the intention of buffing up. A future aim is to get into female strength athletics and, hopefully back into modelling! For anyone interested I am posting up my progress here;http://www.myfitnesspal.com/pixiekirin

On another topic of progress I am still open for commissions to help fund a new PC which I have needed for some time. Thank you so much to those who have already commissioned me, your support is really appreciated!


Single Character:
Sketches = $10
Lineart = $15
Flat Colour = $20
Shaded = $25

Extra character = +50% of base price

Feel free to note me with your ideas and any other questions. Hopefully I'll be able to get that PC!

Love you all!

Pixie

Hello all!

I just wanted to update and let everyone know that I'll be doing commissions to raise money to replace my dying PC. :happybounce: I've needed a new one for quite some time but I haven't felt up to doing art work without overwhelming cravings for a cigarette until now.

Single Character:

Sketches = $10
Lineart = $15
Flat Colour = $20
Shaded = $25

Extra character = +50% of base price

Feel free to note me with your ideas and any other questions. Hopefully I'll be able to get that PC! :fingerscrossed:

Love you all!

Pixie

Hi everyone,

I've missed you all so much! Things are finally settling down here. I'm now 11 months a non-smoker which has been one hell of a crazy ride. I've also lost a bunch of weight and massively improved my fitness. The difference that the right medication made is amazing. I'm so lucky to have  Siman-Clifton as my partner. He's had my back through every battle and advocated for me when the NHS wouldn't listen to me. I love him so much! I'm now at a point where I can start to focus my exercise on lifting again! I'm so happy!

I'm getting ready to start taking commissions soon. This will mean lots of regular updates on both this account and my new account for clean art http://www.furaffinity.net/user/lulustrations/ I am super excited but also really nervous. I hope I can keep improving my artwork as I go along.

I love you all!

Pixie

Some clean things I drew:

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15829460/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15810838/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15810748/

Sooooooooo... I didn't have to have my operation today... YAY!


But..... it was postponed because there are more complications with my tooth root. It's really long and hooked into the jaw bone... So I have to go and see a super specialist...


Thank you for all the lovely well wishes. If I'm slow to respond it is because typing with my left hand is super slow.

So I'm typing one handed with my left hand... My right is in a cast and I'm also limping. I tripped on some uneven floor near road works. Tomorrow is my dental operation as well.... :(

I am not a happy Pixie... :(

I last had a cigarette!!!!

Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!

It's been ridiculously hard but totally worth it. I gave myself two weeks to prepare and then quit cold turkey. No vaping, no patches.

It's getting a lot easier now but I wanted to explain my most recent absence.





P.S. is an absolute trooper for supporting me and putting up with my withdrawliness. I adore his sexy face.

DO IT!


BOOBHAT!!!

Pinched from

As Valentine's Day ends I thought I'd have a go of this meme.

1: Do you have a crush at the moment?

Yes! Mah boyfriend

2: Have you ever been deeply in love?

Yes! I am utterly besotted with Si. I have thought I was in love before but being with Si has shown me what true love is. :D

3: Longest relationship you've ever been in?

Almost 10 years of not very niceness.

4: Have you ever changed for someone?

I tried for a very long time and then realised that, if they wanted to change my personality, they weren't in love with me anyway.

5: How is your relationship with your ex?

That particular ex... The only reason he isn't in jail is because I was too traumatised to pursue legal proceedings. But I am way better now.

6: Have you ever been cheated on?

Yes.

7: Have you ever cheated?

Nope. Not unless it counts when you have broken up with someone but they just refuse the breakup.

8: Would you date someone who's well known for cheating?

No. People don't change. If they are impulsive and can't maintain relationships then they'll cheat on you too.

9: What's the most important part of a relationship?

Trust. You have to be able to trust someone to really be yourself around them.

10: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings?

Serious relationships. Although sex with friends when you're single is fun too.

11: When you are dating someone do you believe in going on "breaks"?

No, that's a retarded idea.

12: How many people have you ever hooked up with?

Men = 8

Women = 23

13: What's one thing you regret saying/doing in a previous relationship?

Not punching him in the face and telling him to get out of my house.

14: What age do you think is appropriate for kids to start having sex?

If you're a kid you're not ready. Daft question.

15: Do you believe in the phrase "age is just a number"?

I think age can be a sexy number... I'm 33 and Si is 23.

16: Do you believe in "love at first sight"?

No. I believe in lust at first sight.

17: Do you believe it's possible to fall in love on the internet?

Nope. Too many people lie, exaggerate or bend the truth.

18: What do you consider a deal breaker?

Infidelity.

19: How do you know it's time to end a relationship?

Odd question. I guess if you aren't happy.

20: Are you currently in a relationship?

Ooooooh yes!

21: Do you think people who have dated can stay friends?

Yes but it's often uncomfortable. Usually someone didn't want to end the relationship.

22: Do you think people should date their friends?

Most of my partners were my friends first.

23: How many relationships have you had?

Not counting silly high school stuff... 6

24: Do you think love can last forever?

It can last as long as you take care of it.

25: Do you believe love can conquer all things?

Yes but it shouldn't be a crutch and you should always appreciate the support you get.

26: Would you break up with someone your parents didn't approve of?

Ha! Like my parents are a good example of relationshipness.

27: If you could go back in time and give yourself one piece of advice about dating what would it be?

Judge people by their actions and not their words. Anyone can say "I love you". Look at how they treat their family and friends for an example of how you will end up being treated.

28: Do you think long distance relationships can work?

It depends on the individual situation and if there is a mutual goal of being together.

29: What do you notice first about another person?

Notice first or am attracted to first? Unless you meet online then you will always notice their appearance first but what matters most to me is that we click.

30: Are you straight, bi, gay or pansexual?

Bi but for all intents and purposes straight now.

31: Would it bother you if your partner suffered from any mental illness?

Nope. I'd be a raving hypocrite if it did.

32: Have you ever been in an abusive relationship?

Yes.

33: Do you want to get married one day?

Absolutely.

34: What do you think about getting your partner's name tattooed?

I think it's tempting fate.

35: Could you be in a relationship without sex?

I'm hypersexual so NO. lol

36: Are you still a virgin?

Good god no.

37: What's more important: Looks or personality?

Personality. It doesn't matter how photogenic you are if you aren't a nice person.

38: Do you enjoy love films?

I like horrors, thrillers and films where stuff blows up... a lot. But I do adore the 80's romantic fantasies.

39: Have you ever given anyone/received roses?

Both. :D

40: Have you ever had a valentine?

Yush.

41: What's your imagination of a "perfect date"?

Walking through the lakes in winter, eating dinner in front of a roaring fire, champagne and lots of nekkid time.

42: Have you ever read "Romeo & Juliet"?

Yes, it's ridiculous.

43: What's more important: Your partner or your friends?

He is my best friend. My friends are super important too me although I tend to hide when my crazy gets on top of me.

44: Would you consider yourself "romantic"?

Extremely.

45: Could you imagine to date one of your current friends?

Nope. Apart from Si obviously.

46: Have you ever been "friendzoned"?

I do not understand what this is.

47: Which "famous couple" is your favorite?

Stephenson Brunel = Greatest bromance of all time!

Also, Queen Victoria and Albert.

48: What's your favorite love song?

We're in this together now.

49: Have you ever broken someone's heart?

Yes.

50: If you're single, why do you think you are?

I'm not.

51: Would you rather date someone who's rich but a douchebag or someone who's poor but a nice guy/girl?

I like the two examples. I don't care about money if they're a dick. I had a multi-millionaire hit on me who was very nice but there was no chemistry and I wasn't tempted.

52: Are you good at giving other people advice regarding dating/ relationships?

I can only give the same advice as I would give myself. Anyone can say they are a "nice person" but look at what they do, how they do it and the way they treat others in their lives.

53: Are you jealous of couples when you're single?

Nope, it's cute.

54: How important is it to make a relationship official (p.e. on facebook)?

Not very. Unless there are people who wont listen when you tell them you're not single.

55: Would you consider yourself "clingy", "overly attached" or "jealous"?

Nope but I do get a bit paranoid a few days before that time of the month. But I can tell it's happening so I don't let it control me.

56: Have you ever "destroyed" a relationship?

Nope, I ended them.

57: Do you think it's silly to consider suicide because of a broken heart?

I think it's a very selfish thing to do.

58: Are you the "dominant" or the "submissive" part in a relationship?

Switch. Used to be fully sub but got more Domme as I aged. :P

59: Have you ever forgotten important dates like your partner's birthday or your anniversary?

I'm more likely to forget my own.

60: What's your opinion on open relationships?

Not for me but each to their own.

61: Who's more important: Your partner or your family?

He is family. And he's the man I want to build a bigger family with.

62: How do you define "cheating"?

Behaving in an inappropriately intimate way with someone who isn't my partner.

63: Is watching porn while being in a relationship inappropriate?

Not really. It's generally a good idea to be careful if your partner has low self-esteem though.

64: Do you think Valentine's Day is overrated?

It is exactly what you make it.

65: Would you consider yourself a "cuddler"?

Hugs are my currency and cuddles make me crazy happy.


P.S. I adore you