Hey all!

Having a lovely quiet birthday with Si who is spoiling me to bits.

Still haven't been given an appointment to have my meds changed. It was very eye-opening to Si how little they care and how poorly I'm treated by my doctors etc. So I didn't get my birthday wish.

But it'll happen eventually and hopefully it will make all the difference. Yay!


Love you all so much!

Hey peeps,

Unfortunately it looks like I'll have to wait another couple of weeks till I get to see a psychiatrist to have my meds changed. I feel utterly crushed. My GP referred me as an urgent case and that was weeks ago. Fortunately I have Si who is always supportive and takes amazing care of me. I'm just struggling to get through each day at the moment and I really don't know what to do.

Anyway, enough emo. Si has put up the first chapter of Dark Metropolis which has our Detective and Strongwoman characters. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11788317/


Love you all to bits!

My Birthday!!!! Yayayayayayayayay!

It's so good to actually feel excited about my birthday again! I blame entirely for that. My one wish for this birthday is that they get my medication sorted by then. That would be super awesome!

In other news:

I'm still not great with using messengers atm, but that should change as soon as my meds are sorted. I miss chatting with everyone and I feel awful that I can't handle simple things like keeping up with messages etc.

I will be borrowing a friends laptop soon so that I can stream for a week or so (once my meds are fixed). It's going to be so much fun! XD My pc is now at the point where I can't use photoshop at all. So no http://www.furaffinity.net/full/10704489/ wiggly butt practice etc. And I can't finish my comic pages either. :( So streaming from here is completely out of the question.

Love all of you all over with extra flying tackle hugs!

So it was pointed out to me by Scarlet in one of Wynter's streams that I have been on FA for 3 years now. I have to say it's been awesome! I've met some amazing people and seen some breathtaking artwork. I have also encountered drama and some less then savoury peeps but the good definitely outweighs the bad.

FA is also the place that I met my wonderful boyfriend and that is just the most amazing thing that's ever happened to me.


Thank you again to all the people who've given me new faves and watches! I really, really appreciate it!

I have so many new watchers and favs on my art! Thank you all so much! It's a huge encouragement for me to draw more and work harder to improve my art. You're all awesome!

Hey all,

I am really sorry to have worried people. I really struggle with communication when I'm having mental health issues. It was getting to the point where I was having compulsions to cut of my left hand with a kitchen knife. Having those impulses stop is just such a relief.

I'm also having issues with my body disagreeing with exercise. It seems my medication has caused my liver function to drop. :(

Anyway, emoemoemoemo EMO! :P

I love you all and I really do miss you guys when I can't get online. All outstanding commishies will be refunded in full and I will be practising art every day until I can draw to a decent standard again.

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Wow! That was intense and wonderful and magical and lots of other words!

After a day spent panicking and getting ready we set off to a restaurant called The Grill, situated in the art deco white tower casino building in Blackpool. We decided to travel in by train and some harassment from a drunk man shocked Simon and started my evening off full of nerves. He yelled "I bet they aren't yours!" at me in the middle of the carriage, referring to my boobs. Normally this doesn't happen as much when I'm with someone but unfortunately being dressed for a ball made my cleavage extra obvious.

From the station we got a taxi and the driver was wonderful. He complemented us on our clothes and dropped us outside the restaurant. We were a good 15 minutes early and waiting for the rest of the party to arrive felt like forever. I was absolutely terrified. But Si, as always, held my hand and told me I would be fine and that I looked beautiful. Despite spending hours getting ready I still wasn't happy with how I looked. I am loosing weight but the extra I gained is still very noticeable to me. Mostly because I don't look or feel like myself. Hence me hating mirrors and photographs. I don't recognise myself in them. Anyway, The other 18 turned up for the dinner looking amazing in their finery. The ladies were beautiful and the men looked dapper. Si, of course, out shone them all in his tailcoat, looking every part the perfect Prince Charming.

Dinner was lovely and I sat next to a wonderful girl called Alice. One of the most naturally beautiful women I have ever seen, with an amazing smile and a wonderfully sweet personality. The conversation flowed really well and there were no awkward pauses.

After dinner we caught taxis to Blackpool Tower, as the ball was being held in the Tower Ballroom. All of the advertising, the invitations and tickets had said that this was a black tie event. However, there were people in fancy dress and a couple in jeans and hoodies but the doormen didn't seem to care and let them all in. Inside the ballroom it was packed. There were hundreds of people and even the balconies were full. At this point I was clinging to Si for dear life as I have not been around so many people in so, so many years. I hadn't had a drink at this point and I decided it would be good idea to try and relax. After a few glasses of white wine and being seated in such a magical place with by far the most handsome man in the room it began to happen. Chatting with Si's friends and watching the people dance was wonderful. Unfortunately the first time we took to the floor my mew shoes were so slippery we couldn't do a foxtrot. I got so very angry with myself, feeling I was ruining Si's evening but after going outside for a cigarette and some calming words for my beloved I relaxed again and when we re-entered the ballroom the floor show had begun.

There was fan dancing, true burlesque (i.e. comedy), musical numbers and at one point naked men. Which was something I definitely hadn't expected. But it was done tastefully at least.

Towards the end of the night we join a 100 person line as the band played the conga. Afterwards we stayed on the dance floor and slow danced. I have never felt so much like a princess. Dancing with a handsome man in tails, wearing a gown with the lights playing off the beautiful Victorian décor. It was truly wonderful. All my fears just melted away and suddenly it was just Simon and I.

Other interesting happenings: A drag queen told me she was jealous of my rack. We taught another couple how to foxtrot. A drag king asked to be photographed with my cleavage and many other silly things.

Now, I don't what the quality of the photographs will be but believe me I will get some posted up as soon as I receive them.

I love you all.

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P.S. I am still feeling exhausted from being around so many people but it was worth it.

Tonight is the night of the vintage ball. I have collected my dress and had my hair pinned up. I am nervous as hell and hoping everything goes well. Simon is, as ever, the most wonderful gentleman a girl could ever wish for. I love him so very much.

Now I just need to fix my make-up (the 30's had weird eyebrows) and don my finery.

I love you all to pieces!

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So I have a big event coming up... Si is taking me to a spectacular 1930s ball at the Tower Ballroom in Blackpool. The only problem is the dress I bought turn out to have been mis-sold and didn't fit when it arrived. I don't have a huge amount of time left before the ball so I'm doing these commissions to cover the costs.

Livestream Pony Commissions

Sketches - $5 ($2 extra per character)
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9812846/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9825198/

Coloured with simple shading - $15 ($5 extra per character)
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9780459/

Coloured with shading and background - $20 ($7 extra per character)
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9813018/


Simple animation (sparkles etc) by negotiation.
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9837107/

If you'd like a pony commission on or off stream just send me a note! XD


Streams start around 10pm GMT and go on for as long as I can. XD

Do come and join the fun!

www.livestream.com/pixietriestoarts

So streaminess will resume tomorrow. XD

Working on Lazy and coto's pics tomorrow. And Var's if he has ref by then. XD

Otherwise it'll be playing at animating. YAY!

Hey everyone!

I've really woken up full of sunshine today! I love you all to bits!

My commissions are coming along a little slow this week because it's my birthday on Saturday and my younger sister's on Monday (my mother has lousy timing ). So I keep having people popping over and phoning me whilst I'm trying to arts! Don't worry I am still working and please refresh the dropbox links I give you for updates!

In other news... I have been swimming... :-O Maybe not so shocking for those of you who don't know me that well but for those of you who do... OMG YAY! And as I said it's my birthday Saturday! I haven't had a pleasant b'day in 10 years so I am really hoping that this will be the very best! I shall also be streaming on Saturday as most of my celebrations will be on Sunday and Monday, Even if I have to beat my pc into submission with a sledgehammer... IT WILL HAPPEN!

Hey all!

I've had a recent influx of watches which I think may have a little something to do with a certain sezzy bloo doggie... Thank you all!

I have a ton of art to upload, both my own and commissions my bf and I have bought. But I will warn before I art dump.

Thank you all so much again! And thank you you fabulous thing you!

Pixie

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More sketch slots, priced at $5 to $7 depending on character complexity. Extra characters $3 to $4 each.

Also on offer are coloured sketches, colouring will be done by either myself or . Colouring costs $5 per sketch and extra characters are $3 each.

If interested please send me a note with a clear character reference.

Examples of a $5 sketch:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8887356/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8846432/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8767163/

Examples of a two character $8 sketch:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8908708/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8881692/

Example of a $10 coloured sketch:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8929025/

Example of a $16 two character coloured sketch:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8922807/

Slots:
1. Varien
2. Varien
3.
4.
5.

I will not draw (No judgement on others, they’re just not in my comfort zone!):
Cubs
Beast
Scat
Watersports
Babyfur
Diaperfur
Sexualised gore

I maintain the discretion to accept or decline other fetish works but please don’t hesitate to ask, usual caveat; I don’t bite! Much...

Please note these are sketch commissions and commissioners will therefore have one opportunity to critique and ask for changes.

I haven't posted one of these in a while and today has been an amazing day! This song perfectly describes the way my wonderful boyfriend makes me feel. Everything is new and being with him feel so very right. I love you mister.

"This Magic Moment"

This magic moment
So different and so new
Was like any other
Until I met you
And then it happened
It took me by suprise
I knew that you felt it too
I could see it by the look in your eyes

Sweeter than wine
Softer than a summer's night
Everything I want, I have
Whenever I hold you tight

This magic moment,
While your lips are close to mine,
Will last forever,
Forever, 'til the end of time

So why won't you dance with me?
Why won't you dance with me?

This magic moment
So different and so new
Was like any other
Until I met you

And then it happened
It took me by suprise
I knew that you felt it too
I could see it by the look in your eyes

Sweeter than wine
Softer than a summer's night
Everything I want, I have
Whenever I hold you tight




All lyrics, music etc copyright Lou Reed. No infringement intended.

I'm opening more slots, priced at $5 to $7 depending on character complexity.
If interested please send me a note with a clear character reference.

Here's an example of a $7 sketch... http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8720057/
and here... http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8846432/
also here... http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8767163/

Slots:
1. Simon
2. Varien
3. Tiger
4. Varien
5. Simon

I will not draw (No judgement on others, they’re just not in my comfort zone!):
Cubs
Beast
Scat
Watersports
Babyfur
Diaperfur
Sexualised gore

I maintain the discretion to accept or decline other fetish works but please don’t hesitate to ask, usual caveat; I don’t bite! Much...

Please note these are sketch commissions and commissioners will therefore have one opportunity to critique and ask for changes.

 witchiebunny could really use your help! And she is offering delicious art in exchange for your monies...

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3821167/

Hey Fuzzies!!!

I'm now officially open for sketch commissions, priced at $5 to $7 depending on character complexity.
If interested please send me a note with a clear character reference.

Here's an example of a $7 sketch... http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8720057/

Slots:
1. Varien
2. Varien
3. Tiger
4. Urtheart
5.

I will not draw (No judgement on others, they’re just not in my comfort zone!):
Cubs
Beast
Scat
Watersports
Babyfur
Diaperfur
Sexualised gore

I maintain the discretion to accept or decline other fetish works but please don’t hesitate to ask, usual caveat; I don’t bite! Much...

Please note these are sketch commissions and commissioners will therefore have one opportunity to critique and ask for changes.

When I've finished my dinner and start streaming for the evening I'd love to know what sort of things people would like to see me draw more of. XD

All ides appreciated but not necessarily done. LOL!

Half-inched from

HOW OLD DO YOU ACT?

[X] You know how to make a pot of coffee.
[] You keep track of dates using a calendar. I haven't kept track of anything in a long time.
[] You own a credit card. I'm bipolar... Why would I let myself near one of those things.
[X] You know how to change the oil in a car.
[X] You've done your own laundry.
[X] You can vote in an election.
[X] You can cook for yourself.
[X] You think politics are interesting.

TOTAL SO FAR: 6

[] You show up late for work a lot. I absolutely loath being late for anything.
[] You always carry a pen/pencil in your bag/purse/pocket.
[] You've never gotten a detention.
[] You have forgotten your own birthday. I've forgotten my birth date never mind my birth day.
[X] You like to take walks by yourself.
[X] You know what credibility means, without looking it up.
[X] You drink caffeine at least once a week. MORE TEA VICAR?

TOTAL SO FAR: 9

[X] You know how to do the dishes.
[X] You can count to 10 in another language. I can also run away from ghosts in Japanese. Useful.
[X] When you say you're going to do something you USUALLY do it.
[X] You can mow the lawn. I could if I had one.
[X] You study even when you don't have to.
[X] You have hand washed a car before. In a bikini.

TOTAL SO FAR: 15

[X] You can spell experience, without looking it up.
[] The people at Starbucks know you by name. "Keep your sodding coffee in a proper copper coffee pot. And spot me lobbing teapots at your poncy rotten coffee shop." Professor Elemental
[] Your favorite kind of food is take out. How is this something that shows age? Surely take out is student fare.
[X] You can go to the store without getting something you don't need.
[X] You understand political jokes the first time they are said.
[X] You can type pretty quick. Wth alll teh sezzy typos.

TOTAL SO FAR: 20

[] Your only friends are from your place of employment.
[] You have been to a Tupperware party. No... But I've unfortunately been to an Ann Summers party... With both my sisters... and my mother. o.O
[X] You have realized that practically no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job dye your hair dark and hide your figure.
[] You have more bills than you can pay.
[X] You have been to the beach.
[X] You use the internet every day.
[X] You have been outside of your home country 3 or more times.
[] You make your bed in the morning.

TOTAL SO FAR: 24

[X] You have filed a tax return.
[X] You have used a pay phone. Both King's and Queen's crown red boxes near me. XD
[X] You have been served alcohol without being ID'd.
[X] You have purchased stamps at the grocery store. I translated this as postage stamps at the local shop.
[] You have purchased a lottery ticket.
[X] You still have and use a VCR. Pffffffft! I have an SVHS broadcast quality recorder. Fuck your modern technology. XD

TOTAL AGE: 29

REAL AGE: 30

Been busy making a site...

It's not finished yet but it's getting there: www.darkmetropolis.co.uk

EPIC GIF IS EPIC


Slightly inspired by my favourite Hammer stars... London in the fog indeed!

I've always had an interest in psychiatry, even more so since I was diagnosed with bipolar and some other things. I've watched a lot of documentaries on different areas of psychology, psychiatry and neuroscience and this morning I watched one that touched on NPD or Narcissistic Personality Disorder. As some people know my ex-boyfriend has severe NPD and I have experienced the some of the worst parts of what can happen in that situation. Recently I have also come across another person with this condition and thought I'd post up a journal explaining what NPD is, how it is most often caused and how it effects the sufferer and the people around them.

AND ALSO SO PEOPLE CAN PLAY SELF-DIAGNOSIS FUN TIME!!!! LOL! (although that is highly unlikely if they actually have the condition)

Firstly, it does not mean someone who truly loves themselves. If anything they spend the majority of their time avoiding acknowledging who they are and promoting a fantasy version. When you think of the myth of Narcissus you imagine a person who spends all their time staring at their own reflection. However, unless their physical appearance is attractive enough to match up to their fantasy of themselves, they will actively avoid looking at themselves so they aren't reminded of their own failings.

In the DSM-IV NPD is one of the four cluster B or "dramatic" personality disorders along with Anti-Social Personality Disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder and Histrionic Personality Disorder.

Symptoms:

Although many of the symptoms of NPD can mimic those of people with a high level of self-esteem the difference lies in the underlying causes and effects and the pathological nature of these characteristics.

The following are the nine dominating characteristics used by clinicians to diagnose NPD.

1) A grandiose sense of self-importance.

They will exaggerate their achievements and talents and expect to be acknowledged as superior without the equivalent achievements. This may include considering themselves to be the best in their area of interest despite lacking technique, qualifications, skills or understanding. This means that they will react to even the most constructive criticism with disproportionate levels of rage, shame or humiliation. They may also exaggerate traumas, abuse and other incidents in their lives.

Examples:

"I am a martial arts expert!"
They took a few years of judo classes in childhood.

"This person bullied me!"
They were given genuinely constructive criticism.

"I'm a professional wine taster."
They have drunk more than one type of wine.

"I am an amazing boyfriend/girlfriend!"
They've left a path of destruction in their wake.

This does not mean that someone with NPD has no talent. They may be very talented but they will have a disproportionate view of their abilities. It may be that they will avoid or put down others who are more talented than them unless these people have extremely high levels of fame or recognition in which case they will behave in an obsequious manner (see symptom 3).

2) Preoccupied with fantasies of success, power, genius, beauty or "perfect" love.

This is a large part of their fantasy self. It will consume a huge amount of their time. Dreams of fame, infamy and recognition are a form of escapism for them. To me the most destructive of these preoccupations is "perfect" love because it completely removes their partners feelings, unique characteristics and ambitions from the equation.

They will also have unrealistic ambitions and plans. They will desire to be the absolute best in their field without putting in the required amount of practise or training. Any person who tries to bring them down to earth, even if the NPD sufferer is planning something which may put them in harms way, will be treated like an enemy or an idiot.

3) Belief that they are uniquely special.

The super-special-snowflake... They consider themselves above the general populace and believe that they should only associate with other special or high-status people as they will be the only ones capable of understanding them. They should only be seen by the best doctors, taught by the best teachers etc.

When they do encounter someone who embodies their idea of a higher status you will see a sudden and extreme change in behaviour. They will treat these people with excessive reverence and behave in an almost slavish way. In some cases they may change their interests or opinions to match those of these successful individuals.

4) Need for excessive admiration and attention.

They require near constant ego-stroking. Attention is necessary for maintaining their fantasy self and the people they keep close to them will lavish them with praise even when it is not deserved. They will lose interest in and sometimes completely ignore people who do not do this. They may even start to desire infamy if they lack anyone to fulfill their need for praise.

They also thrive on certain kinds of negative attention as long as it fits with their fantasy world. If they have decided another person is a cruel monster then they may try to incite aggressive or cruel responses from that person in order to prove their world view.

Basically, they thrive on drama and extreme emotions. Being non-reactive is the fastest way to infuriate an NPD sufferer.

5) Is extremely entitled.

They believe that they should be treated in a particularly favourable way just for being themselves, expecting people to be instantly compliant with their expectations or commands. They consider themselves to have a right to whatever they want and this includes relationships, employment, money and material goods.

They will announce rather than discuss and tell rather than ask.

6) Interpersonally exploitative.

They will often take advantage of or manipulate friends, family and associates to meet their own ends. This makes them highly unreliable and irresponsible. It will be noticeable in the way they treat other peoples possessions, money and feelings. If they are lent items or money they may treat it as a gift (after all they are entitled). They may borrow or expect money from friends despite knowing that person may not be able to afford to be so generous. As NPD sufferers are extremely emotionally manipulative they will lie and exaggerate problems or issues in order to convince people to help them.

Helping other people is not high on their priority list. If they do help someone they will demand a hugely disproportionate amount of recognition and praise for their act of "generosity". You will see them repeatedly bringing up their rare "charitable" deeds as a means to fish for compliments. Their mood will quickly sour if such responses are not immediately forthcoming.

This characteristic may not be evident when you first encounter an NPD. They can be extremely charming, kind and enthusiastic. This will last as long as they are getting what they want from you be it money, praise or material items. When it comes to partners it lasts until they have them "locked" into a committed relationship. They may promote a facade of being caring and understanding but this is used to manipulate people around them and will jar with how they actually treat people on a day to day basis.

7) Lacking empathy.

Does not take into consideration or acknowledge other peoples feelings or emotional needs. Although they have extremely high expectations of preferential treatment for themselves they will rarely give any consideration for those around them. Their view is very black and white. If they expect something from a person then they will have little tolerance for it not being met. This is only ever apologised for when they are at risk of losing something they want from that individual.

Any apology from an NPD sufferer will be qualified. They will list excuses and mitigating circumstances to show a person why they can not be blamed for their actions. A complete inability to accept responsibility for anything is one of the most pervasive characteristics of NPD. They will project their faults on to others.

8) Envious of others or believes others to be envious of them.

Often showing jealousy for others achievements or talents and accuses others of being envious with no factual basis. NPD sufferers are extremely shallow and, particularly if their appearance does not match up to that of their fantasy self, they will also be extremely jealous and possessive in relationships. Partners of someone with NPD will experience jealousy in a variety of ways. Often they will sabotage any attempts at success their partner may have. If their partner does become very successful this is likely to incite emotionally or physically abusive behaviour.

Example:

Their partner has to spend time studying for their degree. The NPD reaction to this may be to suddenly have a life drama or some reason for demanding excessive amounts of their partners time and attention.

To an NPD sufferer a partner is there to shower them with love or as arm candy. Unfortunately, due to the emotionally and physically abusive nature of these relationships, the partner may no longer match up to their unrealistic expectations.

9) Arrogant behaviour or attitude.

They will be overbearing, prideful and behave in a superior or condescending manner towards people they consider to be inferior (almost everybody).

To be considered to have NPD a person must have at least five of these as dominant characteristics of their personality.

Having a couple of these might make someone an arsehole but it does not make them a clinical narcissist.

People with NPD are often hypomanic which can be misdiagnosed as ADD or ADHD.

Some may also display symptoms of other cluster b personality disorders.

Causes:

There is no one specific cause for NPD but most psychiatrists agree that extremes of parenting are generally at the route of the disorder. Researchers have identified several possible factors:

- Being born with an overly sensitive temperament.

- Excessive admiration with no constructive criticism. As much as some people may try to please an NPD sufferer by being a "yes man" they are causing the condition to worsen and allowing them to perpetuate their fantasy self.

- Excessive praise for good behaviors or excessive criticism for bad behaviors in childhood. This can deeply effect the child's sense of self.

- Overindulgence and overvaluation by parents. They are the very definition of spoilt. They have learned to expect only the very best of everything and this continues on into adult life.

- Being praised for perceived exceptional looks or abilities by adults during childhood. In general, all parents think their child is the most beautiful and talented creature on earth but they usually have a sense of perspective and understand that their opinion is coloured by the love they feel for their child.

- Severe emotional abuse in childhood. One example of this might be extreme humiliation such as still being physically dressed and bathed by a parent into their teenage years.

- Unpredictable or unreliable care-giving from parents. Neglect is often overlooked as a form of abuse but most psychiatrists and psychologists will tell you that it causes as much if not more damage than direct abuse.

- Valued by parents as a means to regulate their own self-esteem. Living vicariously through their child prevents them from developing a strong sense of self. It also puts a huge amount of pressure on the child to succeed for their parent as well as themselves.

There are many theories of what creates NPD but basically narcissism is a defence mechanism brought on by either severe neglectful or extremely overbearing parents during childhood. The child's sense of "actual self" is replaced with a grandiose fantasy to protect them from feelings of inadequacy, shame and humilation.

How it effects their lives:

This entirely depends on the severity of the condition and the intelligence of the sufferer.

In general they will be unable to sustain long term interpersonal relationships particularly in real life. The internet can allow a person to maintain a facade much longer as it is extremely difficult to verify their grandiose claims. The more real life contact a person has with an NPD sufferer the more likely they are to see their flaws and question their demands.

Their lack of respect for other people's property and emotional health can often cause huge rifts in friendships. These are unlikely to ever be properly resolved as the person with NPD will never accept that they are at fault. This can be so extreme as to deny damaging someone's property despite being the only person in the location. They also bare grudges and are extremely slow to forgive others for transgressions whether actual or imagined.

Romantic and sexual relationships are very dangerous where NPD is concerned. Despite their initial charm, being so intimate with another person for prolonged periods of time is going to expose their true selfish and manipulative personality. They also constantly compare the achievements and talents they possess to those of their partner and become destructive if they consider their significant other to be more successful than themselves. Extremely possessive in nature they are rarely supportive of their partners outside interests and hobbies. Only they can make their partner happy and they actively sabotage other acquaintances and activities.

Abuse in an NPD relationship covers emotional, psychological and physical abuse. Most often they will rely on emotional manipulation such as guilt tripping or psychological abuse such as gaslighting.

When relationships or friendships end, as per usual, the NPD sufferer will never admit to any responsibility. If you discuss their exes they will paint each and every one of them as a monster and themselves as a victim no matter what the circumstances.

In rare extreme cases this can even lead to abuse so severe in endangers their partners life or out right murder. As long as they perceive their material gain to be worth the risk. A warning from personal experience, never take out a life insurance policy naming an NPD sufferer as the beneficiary no matter how much you love them.

In the long term they also rarely succeed in business as their plans and ideas are extremely unrealistic. They are also extremely unreliable with money and can blow huge amounts of business cash on living the lifestyle they think they should have.

Treatment:

There is no particularly effective treatment. Medication has no effect and therapy sessions have very mixed results. Often the sufferer will refuse to admit they have any form of problem and will become disruptive during therapy sessions.



TL;DR

People with NPD are incurable and sometimes dangerous bastards. Avoid where possible.

Okies so I took people's advice and made myself a separate account for more porny things. I still need to fill in all the profile bits and add more piccies but here it is...

 pixieistrouble


I am going to be putting up some pre-posed "Your Character Here" commissiony thingies later tonight to raise monies for new lingerie. Bras for me a horrendously expensive and they do tend to die quickly due to the weight they carry around.


SUPPORT PIXIE'S BOOBS!!!

We've all seen what you can do, now lets see what makes you tick :) Answer the following questions (honestly!) and share with the world who you really are. Ready? Go!

1. We all know what we call you, what about the folks at home? Whats your name?
Lucy

2. How tall are you?
5'6" or 6'2" in my highest heels. XP

3. Natural hair color? (if you can remember it)
Mousey blonde... But I'm happy being Auburn.

3. What about eye color?
Blue but can look more grey and even sometimes a bit purple.

4. What orientation are you?
Bismexual.

5. Are you single, taken, or undecided?
Taken, sometimes nauseatingly so.

6. What do you do in your spare time?
Artsing, walking, causing trouble, dancing, reading, watching films and planning world domination.

7. What's your job?
Professional lunatic.

8. What's one thing you like about yourself?
Everything. If it wasn't for my modesty I'd be perfect.

9. Alright, now what about something you dislike about yourself?
I put up with far more shit than I should.

10. What's some things your friends noticed about you when they first met you?
"OMG what is she wearing!"
"Booooooooooooooooooobs!"
"Please don't start singing in the middle of the street... It's embarrassing."


Good! Hold on, yer coming up on some deeper questions now... ready?
Always.

11. Of what faith/religion are you(if any)?
Raised atheist and I'm now a kind of agnosticish type thing.

12. Do you drink?
Yes but only in company and never to the point where I fall over/pass out/throw up.

13. Do you smoke?
Yes but I have cut down massively and I'm working towards completely quitting.

14. What are your fears?
That I'll wake up and this is all a dream and I'm still trapped. I have issues in crowds etc but that's because of stuff what happened and I'm so, so much better now.

15. What are your dreams/goals?
ADVENTURES! Oh and get married, have kids and do my best to raise them to be decent human beings, we need more of those.

16.Ever had any crushes/ex's in the past/present?
This question is strange... Yes... Duh.

Almost done!!! Time for some lighter topics now :D

17. Who's your best bud?
who is also THE BEST DAD EVAR!

18. Alright, you got the cravin' for munchies, what'cha reachin' for?
All the deliciouses... Lemon drizzle cake or prawn dipping thingies or millionaire shortbread or fruit salad... So many choices... I can not eat them all... :(

19. Favorite drink?
Darjeeling tea and champagne but not in the same glass.

20. Favorite color?
British Racing Green! Closely followed by royal purple.

21. If you had any super power, what would it be?
Being able to take away other peoples pain and heal them.

22. Favorite movie?
Depends on what day you ask me... I love them all! But the most common answers would be Alien, Jacob's Ladder, Westworld and Susperia.

23. Least favorite food?
Hmmmmmm. Things that are badly cooked. I am not a fussy eater.

24. Quick! You have only one meal left before you die!!! What is it?
First Delicious! Seriously, roast lamb shank with roasted new potatos and a variety of delicious veggies and mint sauce with sticky toffee pudding covered in custard for dessert.

25. What do you drive/wish you drove?
A Mark V Golf GTI or a Landrover Defender.

Last 5 questions. You're in the homestretch, come on, you can make it! Lets see what gets under your skin.

26. Most disliked bug?
Wasps... They're evil little fuckers.

27. Most hated pet peeves?
Passive aggressive people, Chavs, Pikeys, mobile phones... actually all phones, misery poker and drawing hair.

28. Dislike in life?
People who are bastards in disguise.

29. Most annoying sound?
My neighbours dubstep coming through my wall at 3am on a weekday.

30. Most disliked TV show?
All soap operas and dramas pretty much. They make people over dramatise their own lives.


I stole this from ... AGAIN!

01) [x] You own tools that you use regularly
02) [ ] You carry a wallet Fuck that I just use pockets.
03) [x] You prefer movies or shows where there is more action than romance
04) [ ] You spit on the ground when not in a building. Unless long distance running. Which I don't do, for obvious reasons.
05) [x] You scratch where it itches when it itches
06) [x] Your idea of good footwear is boots or tough tennis.
07) [x] Your wardrobe only changes if you gain weight or the clothes fall apart.
08) [x] You don't count calories when eating. CAKE!
09) [x] You have deodorant strong enough to make you socially acceptable, but not strong enough to make you smell like it.
10) [x] You tend to wipe your hands on your clothes instead of a napkin.

Total So Far: 8

Do you love:
11) [x] Video games
12) [x] Working on mechanical items.
13) [x] Building things.
14) [x] Working out on gym machines
15) [x] Getting in and out of stores as quickly as possible
16) [ ] Football (Real football. None of that American crap.)
17) [ ] Baseball
18) [ ] Wrestling
19) [ ] Boxing/ MMA
20) [x] Hunting and/or fishing
Excuse me... I can't find cricket on this list

Total So Far: 14

Do you shop at:
21) [x] Home Depot
22) [ ] Lowe's I don't even know what this is.
23) [ ] Big and Tall men's stores Does Pepperberry count?
24) [x] Hunting and Fishing supply shops
25) [x] Auto supply stores or other mechanic shops
26) [x] Hobby shops
27) [x] Comic book stores
28) [x] Sports supply stores
29) [x] Video game stores
30) [x] Electronic supply stores

Total So Far: 22

Do you say:
31) [x] Son
32) [x] I can fix it.
33) [x] Man-up
34) [x] When I was your age
35) [x] Don't be a wuss.
36) [x] It's just a scratch
37) [x] Take it like a man.
38) [x] That's not how you do it.
39) [x] Shit
40) [x] Here's your
WALK IT OFF!

Total So Far: 32

Do you read:
41) [ ] Playboy I prefer my lesbians actually touching each other.
42) [ ] Sports Illustrated
43) [x] Comic books
44) [ ] Men's Health, Fitness, and/or Journal
My magazines of choice are National Geographic, New Scientist and Fortean Times. How girly of me. XD

Total So Far: 33

Have you:
45) [ ] NEVER crossdressed for any reason
46) [ ] NEVER cried during or after a film/television show. Have you watched Watership Down?
47) [x] NEVER chose wine over beer/liquor at a party.
48) [x] NEVER attended a baby shower.
49) [ ] NEVER said no to going to a strip club when you could afford it. The strip clubs here are not nice... I have hired several female strippers and burlesque performers for friends parties. XD
50) [ ] NEVER shaved/removed your body hair.

Total So Far: 35

Multiply your total by 2 and then you have your percent: 70%

*FLEXES*

So I want to draw some more smutty type smutt... Should I get a separate account for my smuttiness?


I will be doing all kinds of different things so I'm not sure if they'd suit being on my personal FA.