Been doing stuff and things. Painting IRL, picking at this digital flowery skull thing for literally ever, gardening (kinda), and playing a lot of videogames. Tears of the Kingdom was amazing. Persona 5 was (plz don't hurt me) a solid 7/10. Now we're getting into God of War Ragnarock. Our bro let us borrow his system cuz I don't have PS5 money. Hurt my hand cuz I guess I'm an old POS now. Good times all around. I want to learn how to build furniture, but I don't want to buy tools LOL. Rentals are shiiiity leme tell you. Those blades are not sharp. Hope everyone here is doing well.

I need help to verify my account on weasyl.com
https://www.weasyl.com/~plasticrabbits

Probably no one will read this but IDK anyone who has an account there cuz I'm a fucking turtle and don't have art friends. I emailed the support team but it's been radio silence??? HELP ME PLEASE, SOMEONE ;-;

Hey um, hello. I uh, don't draw anthro characters very much anymore. IDK why. But I HAVE been drawing and submitting things on DA. That said I will have stickers for sale soon. I hope. Feelin kinda lost but I'm not mad at it. Just ready to feel good about my work again... Although IDK if I'm ever happy with shit until I look back at it a year later and realize I'm doing OK. Sort of a stupid complex but what can ya do.

Started playing FFXIV again. Growing tomatoes and beans in the garden. Watched a cardinal take a bird bath yesterday and it was sooooooo cute. Just the little things that keep me goin. Wish I had the patience to read books again.

Anyone got any music suggestions plz share. Will listen to anything.
Been really into Qveen Herby recently. ♥

Not dead. Maybe art soon? I don't want to say stupid shit like, THIS IS THE YEAR I WILL -WHATEVER- Cuz lord knows if I say it, it will be a lie and we will just feel bad about it later on. So instead I will ramble about nothing important or interesting.

Ahem.
Been working on a DnD build. It is going to be a tree that is also a dungeon... Or more like a playing field I guess. Sure hope the foam clay sticks to the outside of the base or IDK how I'm going to give it that tree texture everyone is so hot for. Really can't wait to paint it but we are so very far from that step, send help. But also don't. I want to do everything myself. Forever. In other possibly more boring news: I have this idea in my head that some day soon I'll come up with a design that is universally appealing and or not 100% offensive to people, and that design will go on to be the first design I launch my street wear business idea with. Originally I wanted to do a satanic goat head, but then I considered how I may not want to put myself in that box immediately. Like yes, hail satan, by all means. But maybe not upfront for a launch. Eventually, absolutely. After we get funded? Maybe I'm just making excuses. But other ideas revolve around rabbit skulls (think a brand or two already uses that) An impossibly adorable obese bat design. Perhaps a bat-unicorn love child. My instincts tell me to go 100% monster face, but I'm not so sure other people are as hype about monster faces as I am. Again, universally appealing is what we're going for.

Um, we adopted a kitten. His name is Sol and he is the sickest cat I've ever owned. Was super sick when we got him, had a chin pimple issue, now has a swollen gums issue. He is very headstrong and 100% the opposite of my sweet moon princess Luna. But I mean, we named them Sol and Luna, what did we actually expect? Anyway, I have hopes that he will recover soon and quit being so damn sick all the time and MAYBE they will start to get along. Right now we are having to cat-swap who is where in the house and it is tiring. But I love them and SOMEDAY they will yin-yang and it will be the happiest day of my life.

IDK what "make this journal featured" means but we're going for it.
Stay safe! Don't give up!

I don't have much to say except. Fuck this. Fuck that. Fuck everything. OK.
LOL J/K, but Sheep on Drugs is great and everyone should listen to them.

Confession: I haven't drawn anything in months.
I was all doing stuff and then I lost my 18yr old cat to a freak accident and like.
She was part of my soul that is now entirely and completely crushed.
So like, I'm trying to rebuild. But anxiety got me like... ayyyeeee bby.
Depression is a son of a bitch, you know?

IDK suggest something for me to try and draw maybe.
Anyone play Final Fantasy XIV Online? Kinda wana do that, IDK.

Trying not to be negative, but my nature is negative so like WOW I hate my art. Right? Well OK, so shut up and do something about it. Hating it isn't going to make it better, and it sure doesn't help you see that actual good in it.

I need to iron out my process again. Been flying by the seat of my pants, with little structure, and not taking enough breaks. As much fun as it is to sit and draw on the same thing for 5+ hours at a time, your brain needs a healthy break so it can come back with a fresh perspective. AT the same time, not drawing anything for weeks and expecting your style to improve isn't fair or sane either. -looks at self in mirror-

ALSO as much as I am inspired by other peoples style I find myself often suppressing a boiling envy because why am I not on par with these people who I deem good enough? Me problems Am I right? I've been addicted to visuals for my entire life and taking a break from the community seems terrifying. But I keep coming back to the idea that if I want to really focus on what I want, and to really give my style a chance to develop the way it should, I think I need to disconnect for a time. I need to force myself to stop comparing my work to others and the only way I can see myself doing that is to unplug, literally and stop consuming it. That and my fear of being forgotten is sort of stupid because A. I don't post enough to be remembered, let alone forgotten & B. My illustrations don't contain enough "story" for people to even want to see more to begin with between my massive absences. MAYBE I'M PROJECTING but it is the conclusion I've arrived at.

At the same time I need to give myself some small credit where it is due. I've been putting more thought and care into the atmosphere instead of just the focal point (usually a character) But I've not done any daily studies and I am very thirsty for those. Beyond that I've learned a new vector program and it is making my logo design process 50X easier. As intimidating and frustrating as it was to learn, there really is no downside to it.

For a while I've been saying that some time soon I would have more time for art. I believe, if everything goes well, that in January of 2020 I'll be able to comfortably reduce my days at the shop to 3 days a week... Maybe 4. Freeing up my me time and me time = art time. My idea is to have a schedule that includes some exercise (not just activity) eating more regularly, and committing a number of hours to being creative. Creativity keeps me alive, I really should honor it more.

Thank you for coming to my redundant rambling session. Hope you are all doing well and feeding your own creativity monsters as much as they can possibly eat. ♥

I managed to snag an invite code and ermergerd I'm super happy to have a place to organize all my stupid brain babies. Although I will say, the coding on the site irks me. Not the general layout, but the things I am able to do with my dumb limited knowledge of HTML and stuff. Like specifically the line spacing. But it's OK I'll figure it out or just shut up and buy a template.

Anyone else have a toyhouse? I wana creep on your layouts o3o

Opening some YCH and Custom commission options. Will see if there is any interest.
Need to work on a regular commission price guide too.
I haven't really offered many commissions in the past, mostly because of lack of interest
makes me feel like a piece of shit. But hey, I'm sure EVERYONE feels that way amiright?


MUSIC I've been really into // Share something you have been listening to!

1. Gorillaz, Andromeda - https://youtu.be/9W44NWYwa1g
2. Scissor Sisters, Filthy and Gorgeous - https://youtu.be/kU1xQGRPg64
3. Little Dragon, Lover Chanting - https://youtu.be/yiSTcdi82S0
4. Grimes, We Appreciate Power (some flashing lights warning) - https://youtu.be/gYG_4vJ4qNA
5. Icona Pop, Emergency (some flashing lights warning) - https://youtu.be/9EnSqnccMyY
6. Bellyfeel, Worthless - https://youtu.be/HzdzDi3Dx-U
You can't find this band anywhere, it is a real gem and I'm legit offended there isn't more. The ENTIRE album is tits.
7. Dorian Electra, Career Boy (blood warning) - https://youtu.be/MDDukLyXY-M


GOALS for this year are to make MORE art. I want to get a tattoo, resin a pour painting, finish Sailor P's staff, find a decent place to print some of my too complicated art on t-shirts, and maybe dye my hair a color I've not done before... So basically yellow and green are my options.

Ya'll got goals in mind?

Getting sort of deconstructive with my drawing style. Think I'm like borderline ready to let go and grow some more. Super ready. Think I may even start messing with storyboard concepts. Just to see what it do. Although most of my characters are transitioning away from the anthro style. I've used it as a crutch to avoid learning the things that scare me the most.

I'm also learning how to write positive relationships into my narrative. Like, lol WHAT? Not that I've ever really talked about it much so I'm sure no one cares at all. But it is mostly about abusive relationships and how people mistreat themselves and the people they love/who love them by proximity. So now it is fun to explore areas I know nothing about XD Guess I'm lucky to have found an RP partner who is patient with me.

In other news I've spent a huge part of my life up until this point putting things off. Saying "It can wait." or "I don't need it now." or having the idea in my head that I shouldn't spend money on things for myself for... reasons? My parents always talked about how we didn't have money. So I got stuck in the "I'm poor, I can't afford it." mentality. Well fuck that noise. I'm finished waiting. Now it is time for me to enter Liana's selfish time where I take care of me first. ME FIRST. Do what I want and make myself happy. If that means spending 100 dollars on paint and dumping it all over a canvas, so be it. If that means drawing the gayest shit I've ever drawn and cutting all my hair off just because I can, so be it. I'm not going to hide myself from the world anymore. So like, get ready. Here we come.

this is rambly and my head hurts, I think I'm sick... But just some thoughts from my desk. lol love you if you read any of this ♥

Um, Alex's mom found a kitten in her car. Like by the engine trying to keep warm. So like obviously it is now my kitten... She went to the vet today and got all checked out. FIV free thank god cuz I have another cat (who will not be pleased once the meet) But leme just tell you about this bean. She smol, she black, and her eyes are a camel color. She makes these little chirping cat sounds that make my heart hurt. About 8 weeks old is the guess.

After her first bath, that she took very well! we were drying her off and we let Eddward come into the room. When baby saw her she started meowing a bunch and tried to go over. But Eddward is a grumpy girl (yes a girl) and is not super friendly with other cats so we kept em apart. Only it is sad to know how much this baby misses her cat family! I really am keeping my fingers crossed that this kid is good for my old lady. IDK this is going to be good for everyone. I'm determined. Just happy we are in a place where we can take her in. She loves to play and uses the litter box like a champion. A little weird about pettins, but I think it is cuz she has been shuffled around so much these past few days. Before we could get her into the vet to see about FIV, we couldn't have her at home. So she stayed with our friends family. Then got all man handled by the vet, and then had a bath, so people reaching for her is still scary. But I got her to warm up enough to let me pet her a bit tonight and so I've got nothing but good feels about this.

In other news I have a cold, and haven't drawn in DAYS. 8D

So I have a problem with food. Have for a long time. I'm realizing now in addition to all the other issues, when I am feeling anxious, even if I am not consciously aware, my body is VERY aware. Everything sounds disgusting and if I do convince myself to pick something, after three bites I feel totally full. My stomach does this really cool delayed digestion thing where I feel full even when I haven't had anything in hours. So I'm alive, sure, but in survival and starvation mode pretty much always. My brain is tired, my body is tired, and after going to work and dealing with people I am utterly exhausted.

Things I am doing to improve. Drinking water first thing in the morning, before coffee. Drinking more water throughout the day, slowly, to help the digestion. Also a lot of mint tea. Trying my best to avoid cheep fast food. Reducing my soda intake. Reminding myself that it isn't going to get better overnight, but that thinking about it and taking small steps is the only way to actually get better. Trying not to think of everything as gross... Man that part is hard. Fruit is cool. Thank you fruit, you keep me alive.

Shit is tough out there, but only one person can actively decide to make your life better, and that person is you. If I can stop eating my fingernails and stop sucking my thumb I sure as shit can figure out ways to improve my dietary needs. -slams fists on table-

Anyway, super personal hour no one asked for or ever wanted is over for today. ♥

Apparently I had the SFW button clicked and it was counting the submissions in my inbox but not showing them. Oopsie. ~ Listening to the new Perfect Circle album. I appreciate So Long, and Thanks for All the Fish quite a lot. Uh... Yeah, guess that's about it. *peace signs / falls backward into the void*

Forgot how much I like the Faint? OK so no, I didn't forget, I just have been being some kind of jerk, not listening to them for like IDK man, YEARS? WTF is my actual problem?? Like, I'm talking the first four albums. UHHG my childhood, the best part of my childhood. Teenagerhood? IDK I'm old now and if your 16 your a baby I don't care what you say.

Also I eat a sad amount of salads from chick fil a and feel guilty about giving them my money every time. But my dudes. Best. Salad. Ever. Bread co. salads can get fucked.

OK so, like I said in my recent post. My computer sort of gave up on life. But! I am a Dr. so we rushed into surgery and five hours later, my boy, he lives. It was however a blow to my savings, as in I have no more savings. COMMISSION ME PLEASE. I WANT TO DRAW FOR YOU. also want to feel like the money I spent was justified in some way -sob-

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/26923180/

In addition I am also offering $10.00 monochrome paint sketch like this:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/26928889/

Payments are made via paypal, and payment is due in full after the sketch is approved.

Will draw humans, anthros, regular animals, inanimate objects, aliens, PLANTS, etc... Ultra complicated armor or mecs are welcome as well but will have additional charges to make up for the complexity. Anyone with a glamfur character gets an automatic $5.00 discount on the Fancy Heads because I enjoy working with them so much. :heart: Totally understand not being able to support financially but any boost in advertising this is just as appreciated.

I just had a sort of startling realization. I've made three logo designs for local glass artists here recently, and each one I've charged a flat $50.00. Arguably on the lower end of what most designers would charge. It is sort of disturbing to think, that people in the art community often consider 35 or 45 dollars is too expensive for a digital painting that takes 45+ hours of work. Like what? Gotta take a step back form all that shit guys. Like whoa.

But only a little bit c: Been doin a daily draw and postin em on my DA and tumblr. I even got a twitter, but idk how much I'm really guna end up using it. I just can't stop with the animal biz. Guess I've been doing it so long idk how to not. What I need to do is life studies but gert-damn I don't wana.

Never thought this would be the case, but I'm slowly stepping away from character illustrations. They are fun and I enjoy doing them, but they aren't something I can successfully apply to my life outside of the internet. I'm moving more toward painting sculptures. Painting on canvas and logo design, stuff like that. At this point I've got to take the opportunity and run with it. I know I need to do something creative. It is where my heart is and always has been. Eventually I want to be able to help other emerging artists. Because if we don't stand together we're guna get run over. It is what it is. If this sort of thing could subsidies my living I would accept it in a heartbeat, but the fact of the matter is that I don't have the time or energy to sell one thing to only one sort of interested party. I need to open myself to more than one niche market. I've gotta grow myself and my brand.

I'm going to leave my gallery up. Mostly for my own reference. If I ever doddle things, mostly sketches cuz we know I have't finished a thing in a while, I'll post em. But this is just me waving a fond farewell to my old idea that I could make a living off of character art. As much as I love it and as big a part of my childhood as it was. It needs to be a building block for the rest of my journey. Cheers to never giving up on yourself!

Myself and a friend are interested in having logo stickers made.
Just curious if anyone has any experience ordering online.
Any suggestions would be most helpful ♥

So one of my life long dreams came true recently. I got to see the Gorillaz in concert. I can't really express all the feels it gave me. But I somehow managed not to cry. Thank you Damon Albarn for being alive at the same time as me, and coming to a place where I could see you. Totally awesome to be in the same building for a few hours. Not sorry to the old lady sitting in front of me who had to cover her ears from all the screaming. XD

Dreams do come true. Next time I'll get to actually say hi.
Eye contact would probably kill me. But in the best way?

Any assistance is much appreciated.
Trying to visit the eye Dr. before October starts.
( high-five if you get the title reference XD )

I accept payment through paypal ♥

Head Icon:
+) per head $1
icon ex

Standard Commission:
(per character)
+) Sketch: $15
+) Ink: +15
+) Flat Color: +10
+) Shade: +10

sketch style
ink style
flat color
full package

Digital painting:
(limited availability)
Beginning at $75
Includes a background

ex: X / X2 / X3

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+) I'm 100% OK with gore, drug use, and mild nudity.
NOT OK with insects, super complicated armor / robots or graphic nudity
( simply because it is a little too time consuming for me )
If you are unsure, just ask! We can work something out.

+) Standard commissions will be completed first come first served. Maximum two characters per customer. Anyone who opts for the full package (sketch, ink, shaded & colored) will be gifted a minimal background as a thank you.

+) I can accept one digital painting slot, at this time. Again, first come first served. These take a while longer than a standard commission to complete. But I will update you as I go.

+) Any changes must be made during the sketching stage. So if you see something wrong, tell me and I'll be happy to adjust. Any corrections after the sketch has been approved may cost extra.

+) Turn around time for a standard commission is anywhere from 1-7 days. Digital paintings can take up to a month depending on complexity and desired content. Let me know if you need them done by a specific date!

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Fill me out:
type: sketch, ink etc...
reference:
mood: grumpy, silly, sleepy etc...
character backstory: or any additional information you wish to include
paypal:

Comment here or shoot me a note.
I appreciate you all so much!

So Alex's time at the theater is coming to an end. Think dude has worked for them for like, IDK almost ten years? He is going to start Student Instructing when he goes back to school, and also has some sort of robotics internship thing to work on as well. But beyond this next semester it is sort of up in the air what he is going to be doing for money afterwards. Hopefully, if everything goes well he will be able to get another paid internship. But my job alone is not going to pay rent and all our other bills. I expect he will take care of his moms yard for money, like we're 15 again XD. But that ain't no bill payin money. More like a days worth of meals.

In other news I want to start paint pouring canvas work. Although beyond the internet I'm not sure where I could sell them. If I went through my job, odds are, they would low-ball me and I would end up with "exposure" but not a really much of a profit. Though I can't say for sure. We are sort of like a weird gallery. We do have expensive art pieces, but they aren't paintings, they are glass and have function. Not that I shouldn't try. Gotta make a few before I can say they are sell-worthy. Abstract stuff is so spiritually freeing. No worrying about proportions or even a subject. Just pigments crashing together and spreading over a surface. SO FUN TO MAKE!! Paint is so fun you guys, totally try it. 10/10

I have also been seriously considering putting together a youtube channel. I enjoy the content I've found so far, and I like having a glimpse into other peoples lives without the awkwardness of RL conversations. What it comes down to is acquiring a decent camera and purchasing / learning an editing software. I work on windows and most people use a mac program... But we guna figure it out. Alex even has a few good ideas for his own videos. So like, maybe that will be a thing in the future as well. -shrug- I've been very crafty this year, despite the lack of digital art I've been producing. Kinda having fun with it. n.n

AND today is a hair day. I get to see the second love of my life who I miss and haven't seen FOREVER. Unacceptable! lol but it's OK, she graduated nursing school like a fucking champ and has been workin a bunch ever since. Mad props, so proud!!

Love you guys, thanks for listenin to my ramble. ♥

Just when you forget it happens, you paint for 5.5 hours non-stop and a few days later your arm wants a divorce.
SORRY ELBOW, you guna have to DEAL WITH IT. Looked up some exercises that are supposed to help.
Also the ice on / ice off technique. But damn man. Ouch.

I don't even like tennis wtf.

Next year we will have been together for HALF MY LIFE.
That is pretty wild to think about. Considering we aren't that old.
Alls I gotta say is I am extraordinarily lucky to have found a person
who is willing to put up with all my massive amounts of shit.
Cuz like damn.

Dude even listens to k-pop and plays pokemon go with me.
WTF did I ever do to deserve this? ♥

In other news I'm being commissioned to paint a mural of Harambe.
Life is hilarious ATM.

Time to step into some new territory. I always get too hung up on the details and ignore the bigger picture. Ears and tails are cool, but who cares if your angles are all fucked up all the time. So if I stop focusing on what I'm so obsessed with, maybe I can actually get better. Gotta re-focus. Gotta push for improvements. Sick of not living up to my full potential. Tired of feeling so incredibly inadequate. This isn't a resolution. Its a revolution. Going to war with myself and taking no prisoners. -.-

Prior art obligations will be completed so no worries there. Just an FYI for the future of this page.

So I would like to practice more of the “painterly” style, and I’m thinkin doing some trades is the best way to be “experimental” and not charge people. Lookin like this one: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21961230/

But just to be clear, I’m not going to deliver my half until I receive yours.

I typed out all the reasons why and it was way too long so suffice to say, I said it. If that doesn’t appeal to you then this just isn’t for you. Check out my gallery, I make good on delivering. Because my half is experimental, I’m like encouraging you to also try something new. Don’t stress perfection fam. Keep it loose, let it flow. -other hippy nonsense-

Shoot me a note or comment here and I’ll pick a few peeps.

I prefer to work with mammals, but you know if you gotta dope-ass fish or bird monster I’ll maybe give it a try. Lol. Please don’t start anything until I agree to it. Guna offer this on all the places I post art stuff and things.

Here is who you would be choosing from:
Rain: (snarky troublemaker)
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15203883/ -/-/- http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19050291/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19252702/ -/-/- http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19501110/

Liana: (small sleepy thing)
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19205696/ -/-/- http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15098558/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19203529/

Bio: (huge douche)
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19263601/

Cin: (drug dealer party monster)
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21050611/

Or Chimera if you are feeling strange...
(Sorry I don’t have a ref sheet for this one.
They are fluid and their design is open for artistic interpretation.
They exist in dreamspace where nothing is ever quite the same.
These are some of my turnouts~)
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9303552/ -/-/- http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18790641/
(on the left) http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19015061/ -/-/- http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19650398/
On DA: http://plasticrabbits.deviantart.co.....eams-313687483