I have finally after attempting to save up for two times i have ordered a 3ds xl . Soon i shall have something that is so awesome i will melt :D . Next on my to do list is to save up for one of those draw pad thingies for the laptop. That shouldn't take as long to save up for that so yesshhh! Then of course something else on the extra side that could be naughty so I shan't be telling what that is :> . You have no idea how exciting its going to be having a 3ds again!. my old one had an accident water death. I am going to get it protective stuff so I don't kill it with water again, i mean give it a accident death. Hmm i should probably do this as well for my draw thing for the laptop because I am accident prone. I am counting down the days :)

it be awesome to have me as one. http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4797495/

It was a harsh month, and i drew on paper so maybe you will like it. I was rather bored so I missed all the naughty, and good on here :D.

I have run into some bad times, for whatever reason the government has decided to give my money to an old payee, and I am unsure of when I will get this money. So if any of you could be so kind to donate to me until I can get this situated that would be great. You as yourself what would this donation go for. Basically paying bills, going toward my kids. I will even draw you something if you wish. I will even give a huge thanks for your donation, and I shall keep you posted on when I no longer require donations (but you can still if you feel like it) Thank you for your time.


if you wish to donate please do so by pressing here click here to donate just let me know who donated so I know who to thank.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4285458/

its really fun check it out

Quite surprising I have been at home, I haven't been on because well I have one of the best things ever a tv. I have realized this could be a issue for me drawing. I haven't had tv forever it seems. I think this phase will end i plan on drawing something random tonight maybe? Maybe another comic we love comics <3 anyways I am fine I'm sure you where all so worried. Anyways hopefully things will be epic.

I have no clue how to feel about friends with benefits. It makes me feel wanted yet not wanted in a since. Also so dirty because i wont be with that person, I stick with one person at a time so multiple people with a person i want is like errm no. Even if its just me i still dont know if i want to be considered just as a friend when we are totally doing non friend activity's! I don't know how many people stay friends and do things like that, but to me if your doing sexy things with a person it deems them as your partner. Its to confusing and heart wrenching for me. I just want a loving mate who expresses themselves for me, is that to much to ask for? So much Derp.

So everyones doing this, and I want to see how many wonderful questions I can get so don't be shy.

Ever since i logged onto my account a weird smiley thing has been on the top of my thing. Do they do this for birthdays or something? Well its just siting there smiling at me just a 411 and excetera, so tomorrow i will be turning 24 god what if my profile says im 25 because it already says im 24 oh well i will see tomorrow :D.

OK now that I have your attention, because gum drops are quite yummy. I am doing free art well I always do, but like any struggling artist who wants to have more things to draw. Lets say I want to draw you, yes you! I will do my very best to draw what you want, I have many art form's that I use, and I will take my time to draw them. Practice makes perfect! I am willing to do trades as well. So if you will please put down below something if you want me to do art of you. Thanks :D

Soon my birthday will come even though it says i am 24 i wont be until Aug 6 so hurray! So just remember to wish me a happy birthday :D or something.

You like my drawings? Good then put your Profile on here of your choice. If you dont have a drawing of yourself then just give me a description of what you want. There will be three winners or more it depends on how many people want me to draw them. So lets get this party started :3

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3664414/ i know you love pizza

Well I learned of a great paint program little did I know that you can not publish it on FA, i tried to change the file type, and it damaged the image i once had :( from now on I know not to do that so frowny face dubbled.

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3629333

I post this for there for I am, so hopefully I shall exist with in that realm.

I have had a fairly scary day so I figure it might be best if i put this on here just in case i died or something. If i am dead the police might read this? It could help solve the case, anyways I doubt that it could happen, but just in case id rather be safe then sorry. If I am dead it is probably because my first husband has killed me, he is very crafty to get out of trouble. He was very abusive to me while we where together, and almost killed me already a few times. I should have reported him when he did these things, but I was to afraid, because he was in National Guard. He has been in jail before, and has gotten out in no time at all. He was dishonorably discharged, I don't know if i can release his name on this chat. At least you will know where to start the investigation. This is all, I hope to god no one has to use this note I posted.

I am starting to run out of yellow :( I might have to start coloring myself a different color until I buy more colored pencils. All though I am quite sure most of you wont care that I am a different color oh well at least you know now :)

Ok good news I am done moving, well as you could tell by my last submission so duhh <._.> anyways could I get any slower? sadly the answer to that is yes. anyways, i have bought the perisous coloring pencils i have been eying for awhile, and a really decent drawing paper the kind i like that has the binding and the pretty shinny things. anyways its my persious, because i hate markers, and paint. im not sure why, but when i use it just looks wrong to me. anyways i hope you enjoy the new art work, and throwing up random things i desisted to draw when i wasnt online, it will be very crappy, and i hate them all! anyways enjoy :D

Soon I will be moving, well actually I will be starting tomorrow, and I have tired my best at hiding all of my private things, i just hope they don't get found out x_x . so I probably wont be on for a few days or so, I might be on who knows? Anyways, me, and my favorite plush rainbow are chilling out on my bed as i wonder what to eat for lunch. Trying to stuff myself of a lot of food so there is less to move :D isn't that so great? So I haven't been working on drawings for a bit or at least its stopped for now, i have a few drawings that will probably end up in the scrap area because i dislike them very much >:l at least you can look. I have been looking on how the best way to draw my character is, so you can look with awe, and favorite it with hearts content! Any ways keep drawing or whatever it is that you post, I will stalk you from afar :] .

Have you ever woke up, and realized that your most highlight of the day is going onto the computer everyday? That your entire day is revolved around people who are littler, and need your constant care. Have you ever felt so trapped you want to just burst out your guts out onto the floor? Have you ever cried yourself to sleep because you feel so alone, and empty inside. Dose your heartache when you remember something that you wish you could get rid of ? Have you ever loved someone so deep that you could feel the tears rolling down your face to deal with the fact you could never be with them? Did your childhood ever scar you so deep, that no matter how much you try you just can't forget? Do you ever feel isolated, and alone you just don't feel like you fit anywhere? Have you ever thought that this body didn't feel like it was your own, and it should of been something else? Could you almost feel the pain burn inside you, knowing the truth could hurt so bad, and you hold it in because you knew it could possibly be insane? Would you even tell someone that you just want to be held close so you didn't have to feel like its just an abyss that you live in? Have you ever had to squint your eyes to see something in the mirror because nothing is there to you? Do you know how it feels to feel cold, and lifeless inside? Have you questioned if tomorrow will be better, well will it be better tomorrow, where are you tomorrow that I wish that would happen? When will my tomorrow come where I don't have to feel sad anymore, and I could feel happy again? Tomorrow is there a tomorrow for me, tomorrow where are you, are you even going to come at all tomorrow? Yesterday is missing you tomorrow, I am missing you too. Tomorrow is never coming.

If you want to be my best friend in the world give me chocolate. I especially like chocolate covered ice cream. The ice cream can't be chocolate with covered in chocolate, that would just be sort of weird yet tasty, I wouldn't be sure what chocolate to eat the most. I don't know whats the best part of chocolate is that makes it addicting. I am fairly sure it is the caffeine that is stuffed in there or the cream smoothness of the texture of chocolate? I like to stick it in my mouth and let it melt slowly, that way I can savor the flavor. I mean I could in-hail it, but what fun is it to do that? I am sure there are other favorite things that someone has that's supper yummyness. I think I should stop talking about chocolate because its making me so hungry. I think I'm going to find some *drule*

So I couldn't go online today, and I couldn't figure out why. So I called my internet provider, because I did everything to trouble shoot it. They told me that I didn't make a payment. I know I did in fact because I always pay it early. So I payed another $40.00 only to have it activated to go to my other mobile device I had before. I didn't anymore because it broke. It was an accident that I payed on that. So hopefully they will fix this problem, and if not I will be fairly angry. I will change providers if I can. Or just send lots of spam if I can. Something remotely evil of some sort. I also get irritated because there accents are hard to understand. You ask a question, then, and it basically sounds like gibberish. You spend most of the time trying to understand what the person is trying to say. The other most favorite of mine is when it sounds like your over a sea. Well all though I'm very sure you are talking to someone from another country. Not that it would really bother me, but when I want help or need assistance, I would like to have someone I can understand, I can hear well, and can fill all of my needs on that very moment of time. Just one of the things that aggravate me.

Oh, what to say about spam there are different types of it. One goes comes out of a can, its okay if your really hungry, and starving. The other is the one that comes in the email, of course the mail box itself. I have noticed every time i shut down my computer then turn it on. My own internet provider is spamming me with its web page. I don't know if its broken, and is accidentally opens that many web browsers. I always have to wait though no matter what time, and its like hurry up so I can be a pervert already! I don't count how many windows pop up or else my head would start throbbing from being dizzy/mad. I can ignore spam no problem, but this sort of spam is insane! It makes me wish I could leave on my computer with out accidentally frying it. I can eat spam out of a can with out barfing, but to as the web browsers it makes me ill every time.

Stalking is fun you can watch art pop up, flirt with them. You can stay on there page forever, and they wont know the difference of you visiting there webpage multiple times. When you click the watch button its like a little saying of "Hey now I am stalking you" I think the button should be called the Stalk button, but hey what do I know about website making? Well I'm sure if it was the stalk button people would get freaked out. As for me I would lol, and think it was the best button invented, well except the easy button because its just that easy. So who ever is stalking me I will wave, and say "Hello" . Lets just face it we all need a stalker in our daily life's because lets face it with out them life would be dramatically dull. Well ok some stalkers are a bit over bored, but safe stalkers are ok. Just remember I am stalking you safely from a distance at this very moment of time, yes even now.