So Uhhh.... That was a Hiatus....
Posted 13 years agoWell, I had a weird.... Relationship interlude thing, that ended up ending like I thought it would from the beginning. :/ Don't know why I give people the benefit of the doubt at this point and stop listening to my gut because I want to see "the good in everyone". -_- SIGH.
Stuff with relationships wrecks me like nothing else does..... Being rejected/abandoned is the most triggering/upsetting/painful thing for me to experience, due to my past/ who I am/how I developed.... :( I've honestly come close to suicide- for many, many reasons. I wouldn't kill myself over someone as selfish and heartless as this person, but it's more that I feel I am doomed to be attracted to my opposite- a selfish, heartless, detached, emotionally repressive asshole who is only out for themselves and never thinks of the feelings of other people.... x.x and all that I want is to find someone- that's all I've wanted ever since like age 13.....
Basically tons of people- including friends- have been proving to me that they are superficial and selfish, and just.... Have no goals, or morals, or whatever- no I'm not talking about morals regarding sex, or drugs, or anything like that- I'm talking about having a heart and being a god damned good PERSON....
/endrant
SO, long story short, I'm kinda back... Going to start the ball rolling on
prowler7's commission... Which I feel horribly about...x.x
and get ready for an art dump of vent art lol....
Stuff with relationships wrecks me like nothing else does..... Being rejected/abandoned is the most triggering/upsetting/painful thing for me to experience, due to my past/ who I am/how I developed.... :( I've honestly come close to suicide- for many, many reasons. I wouldn't kill myself over someone as selfish and heartless as this person, but it's more that I feel I am doomed to be attracted to my opposite- a selfish, heartless, detached, emotionally repressive asshole who is only out for themselves and never thinks of the feelings of other people.... x.x and all that I want is to find someone- that's all I've wanted ever since like age 13.....
Basically tons of people- including friends- have been proving to me that they are superficial and selfish, and just.... Have no goals, or morals, or whatever- no I'm not talking about morals regarding sex, or drugs, or anything like that- I'm talking about having a heart and being a god damned good PERSON....
/endrant
SO, long story short, I'm kinda back... Going to start the ball rolling on

and get ready for an art dump of vent art lol....
Political Opinion (no, idgaf if you bitch me out or whatev)
Posted 13 years agoI'm normally not political, but I do believe Mitt Romney needs a swift kick in the teeth. Barack Obama has done SO much for this country in comparison to the Bush administration! We're still in debt because newsflash! Bush put us there!!!! and you can't just take out soldiers from a delapidated goverment!!! i.e. Iraq.... If you want perfection, why don't YOU fucking run for president, and see how it feels to get some of your decisions and stuff vetoed by THE OTHER BRANCHES OF GOVERNMENT. Yes, you ignorant fucks who are hating on Barack for "lying". HE didn't lie... It's just that he doesn't have control over EVERYTHING.
As for Mitt Romney???? He admitted he wants to turn us into a Mormon theocracy. His numbers are soooo off and his lies are sooooo bad, it's not even funny. If you've got an IQ over 100, hopefully you can see the flawed logic and inconsistencies in what he said. Oh and let's not forget that he's trying to control women and bring them back down to how things were when they were considered less than a man!!!! He doesn't think women should use tampons...REALLY????????? He's a delusional, batshit MORON.
Not that I'm all dick riding Obama over here, but I exaggerate in this journal because IT SHOULD BE OBVIOUS AS TO WHO THE LESSER OF TWO EVILS IS.... -_-
Sorry, but this is not a Christian nation, and Mitt Romney is trying to turn back time to how things were for Americans before they even CAME to America....
As for Mitt Romney???? He admitted he wants to turn us into a Mormon theocracy. His numbers are soooo off and his lies are sooooo bad, it's not even funny. If you've got an IQ over 100, hopefully you can see the flawed logic and inconsistencies in what he said. Oh and let's not forget that he's trying to control women and bring them back down to how things were when they were considered less than a man!!!! He doesn't think women should use tampons...REALLY????????? He's a delusional, batshit MORON.
Not that I'm all dick riding Obama over here, but I exaggerate in this journal because IT SHOULD BE OBVIOUS AS TO WHO THE LESSER OF TWO EVILS IS.... -_-
Sorry, but this is not a Christian nation, and Mitt Romney is trying to turn back time to how things were for Americans before they even CAME to America....
Political Opinion (no, idgaf if you bitch me out or whatev)
Posted 13 years agoI'm normally not political, but I do believe Mitt Romney needs a swift kick in the teeth. Barack Obama has done SO much for this country in comparison to the Bush administration! We're still in debt because newsflash! Bush put us there!!!! and you can't just take out soldiers from a delapidated goverment!!! i.e. Iraq.... If you want perfection, why don't YOU fucking run for president, and see how it feels to get some of your decisions and stuff vetoed by THE OTHER BRANCHES OF GOVERNMENT. Yes, you ignorant fucks who are hating on Barack for "lying". HE didn't lie... It's just that he doesn't have control over EVERYTHING.
As for Mitt Romney???? He admitted he wants to turn us into a Mormon theocracy. His numbers are soooo off and his lies are sooooo bad, it's not even funny. If you've got an IQ over 100, hopefully you can see the flawed logic and inconsistencies in what he said. Oh and let's not forget that he's trying to control women and bring them back down to how things were when they were considered less than a man!!!! He doesn't think women should use tampons...REALLY????????? He's a delusional, batshit MORON.
Not that I'm all dick riding Obama over here, but I exaggerate in this journal because IT SHOULD BE OBVIOUS AS TO WHO THE LESSER OF TWO EVILS IS.... -_-
Sorry, but this is not a Christian nation, and Mitt Romney is trying to turn back time to how things were for Americans before they even CAME to America....
As for Mitt Romney???? He admitted he wants to turn us into a Mormon theocracy. His numbers are soooo off and his lies are sooooo bad, it's not even funny. If you've got an IQ over 100, hopefully you can see the flawed logic and inconsistencies in what he said. Oh and let's not forget that he's trying to control women and bring them back down to how things were when they were considered less than a man!!!! He doesn't think women should use tampons...REALLY????????? He's a delusional, batshit MORON.
Not that I'm all dick riding Obama over here, but I exaggerate in this journal because IT SHOULD BE OBVIOUS AS TO WHO THE LESSER OF TWO EVILS IS.... -_-
Sorry, but this is not a Christian nation, and Mitt Romney is trying to turn back time to how things were for Americans before they even CAME to America....
Namesake
Posted 13 years agoATTN: Rodent!!!
Posted 13 years agoJust wanted to let you know another inked picture is coming your way!!! :) SO sorry this is taking me longer than usual... :( Still getting trained/doing homework for my new jobs!!! Thanks again so much for helping me out when I was jobless!!! <333 You're a sweety.
prowler7

Relevant
Posted 13 years ago“I was wearing an old Salvation Army shop boy’s suit. As I went to the bathroom I heard people saying, ‘Hey, faggot’. They slammed my head into a locker. I fell to the ground and they started to kick the shit out of me. I had to have stitches. The school kicked me out, not the bullies.
“Years later, I went to a coffee shop and I ran into one of the girls who’d kicked me, and she said, ‘Winona, Winona, can I have your autograph?’ And I said, ‘Do you remember me? Remember in seventh grade you beat up that kid?’ And she said, ‘Kind of’. And I said, ‘That was me. Go fuck yourself.’”
-Winona Ryder
Yep. You can't just be a fucking asshole and then get mad at someone for treating you like a fucking asshole. Maybe it was to illustrate a point, perhaps????
Also, can I just say that I find it hillarious that people often think I'm pissed off when I'm just mildly irritated??? I'm just a really intense person, what can I say??? Me pissed off: creepily emotionless-seeming, actually.... It's.... Horrific. You don't want that.
“Years later, I went to a coffee shop and I ran into one of the girls who’d kicked me, and she said, ‘Winona, Winona, can I have your autograph?’ And I said, ‘Do you remember me? Remember in seventh grade you beat up that kid?’ And she said, ‘Kind of’. And I said, ‘That was me. Go fuck yourself.’”
-Winona Ryder
Yep. You can't just be a fucking asshole and then get mad at someone for treating you like a fucking asshole. Maybe it was to illustrate a point, perhaps????
Also, can I just say that I find it hillarious that people often think I'm pissed off when I'm just mildly irritated??? I'm just a really intense person, what can I say??? Me pissed off: creepily emotionless-seeming, actually.... It's.... Horrific. You don't want that.
Filler
Posted 13 years agoPeople are dumb. I have two non-degrading jobs with tons of benefits, I'm smokin' hot, and I live in one of the best cities in the US. So why should I be mad about someone getting bent out of shape because I don't want to have a "civil" talk with them when they can't even realize when THEY are starting things OFF by being emotional and rude about something???? HAH. Hypocrites.
Now I'm feeling bitchy EDIT
Posted 13 years agoJust to be fucking annoying to prudes with sticks up their asses, I kind of want to make a picture with my character that involves MOST of my fetishes- MWUAHAHAHAHAHHAHA
Edit:
lol, wow, ok, so the person these have been about is calling me out and bitching about me when they totally brought this on themselves by being a cunt, and basically are now acting the same way that they are accusing me of acting, even though my actions were a response to their piss poor/poorly thought out actions. I'm not a coward- I actually really enjoy fighting! I just don't have time for it because I have a real life and I'm not as petty and immature as someone who wants to continue a conversation and hurl insults at each other after finding out they've fucked up and there's no way to make me like them- ever. They only reason I went back to their page was to find out that someone who I THOUGHT was my friend, who isn't, was trashing me- AND THEY WERE!
Yeahhhh, fuck you, buddy- I always thought you were a dick rider- the only reason people like you is because you're an ass kisser!
Also I find it funny that this person was telling me to get off the internet or whatever or getting ALL bent out of shape at me because OMG I'm a human being with feelings! and they were being a dick! GOD FORBID I get upset- GOD FORBID. When they're the ones getting just as pissed off as I am, clearly! AND IT'S ALL BECAUSE THEY WERE BITCHING ABOUT PEOPLE SHARING THEIR FETISHES. ON A FURRY WEBSITE. CLEARLY NOT A NORMAL THING. EVER. NOPE. NO WAY.
UGH. Sorry. Just. Calling an Aries a coward= INSTANTANEOUS RAGE button. -__- GOD FORBID I don't want to waste my time on someone who is too dumb and tactless to understand!
Edit:
lol, wow, ok, so the person these have been about is calling me out and bitching about me when they totally brought this on themselves by being a cunt, and basically are now acting the same way that they are accusing me of acting, even though my actions were a response to their piss poor/poorly thought out actions. I'm not a coward- I actually really enjoy fighting! I just don't have time for it because I have a real life and I'm not as petty and immature as someone who wants to continue a conversation and hurl insults at each other after finding out they've fucked up and there's no way to make me like them- ever. They only reason I went back to their page was to find out that someone who I THOUGHT was my friend, who isn't, was trashing me- AND THEY WERE!
Yeahhhh, fuck you, buddy- I always thought you were a dick rider- the only reason people like you is because you're an ass kisser!
Also I find it funny that this person was telling me to get off the internet or whatever or getting ALL bent out of shape at me because OMG I'm a human being with feelings! and they were being a dick! GOD FORBID I get upset- GOD FORBID. When they're the ones getting just as pissed off as I am, clearly! AND IT'S ALL BECAUSE THEY WERE BITCHING ABOUT PEOPLE SHARING THEIR FETISHES. ON A FURRY WEBSITE. CLEARLY NOT A NORMAL THING. EVER. NOPE. NO WAY.
UGH. Sorry. Just. Calling an Aries a coward= INSTANTANEOUS RAGE button. -__- GOD FORBID I don't want to waste my time on someone who is too dumb and tactless to understand!
whiney little bitches complaining about too much information
Posted 13 years agoI've got nothing to hide, because I like myself. *shrugs* If you don't like it, guess what??? YOU DON'T HAVE TO READ IT! :D Don't be a fucking immature child. I don't confront people with my fetishes- I'm not a creeper. I just really don't care if people know about my sex life. Newsflash! Exhibitionism is a fetish, too. Just because it gets me off doesn't mean it's bad- I would never do anything in front of anyone without their consent. Also, I don't really care about what people think. People need to stop being prudes- it's more acceptable in America to see someone shoot someone else than to see two people in public making love. Sex is natural- get over it. If you have a problem with people voicing their opinions, you can go fuck yourself. Suck on THAT!
Coming Out....
Posted 13 years ago.....As a vore-o-phile. :P
Okay, I'm not that hard core at all, but ever since I've become obsessed with Hannibal Lecter, I.....
Honestly think cannabalism is kind of hot. What turns me on so much is that it's SUCH a no-no. It's so taboo- yet it's talked about and actually can occur in real life, unlike cock vore, etc (which is personally why I'm not into it-fine, if you're into that, it's all good! But it's not my thing because it's not realistic...)
It goes without saying that I do NOT want to eat anyone IRL, and I don't want to be eaten... But the thought of someone eating me is kinda hot. ;3
Cannabalism is actually a sexual disease- most people cannabalize because of control issues- they want control over the other person/that person to be with them forever, and ever, and ever... heh. So yeah, it is a sexual thing, according to psychologists... But it's more than that. It's definitely a type of psychosis...
AnYWAY! So... Yeah. Bring on the vore art, I guess! xP
Okay, I'm not that hard core at all, but ever since I've become obsessed with Hannibal Lecter, I.....
Honestly think cannabalism is kind of hot. What turns me on so much is that it's SUCH a no-no. It's so taboo- yet it's talked about and actually can occur in real life, unlike cock vore, etc (which is personally why I'm not into it-fine, if you're into that, it's all good! But it's not my thing because it's not realistic...)
It goes without saying that I do NOT want to eat anyone IRL, and I don't want to be eaten... But the thought of someone eating me is kinda hot. ;3
Cannabalism is actually a sexual disease- most people cannabalize because of control issues- they want control over the other person/that person to be with them forever, and ever, and ever... heh. So yeah, it is a sexual thing, according to psychologists... But it's more than that. It's definitely a type of psychosis...
AnYWAY! So... Yeah. Bring on the vore art, I guess! xP
What Are You Being for Halloween???
Posted 13 years agoWelp, I'm going to be a female version of Freddy Kreuger, HAHA! Pics or it didn't happen! :P
What about you guys???
What about you guys???
Appreciation for a FA member
Posted 13 years agoSo, I just wanted to take a moment to thank
prowler7 for commissioning me. <3 Not only has he really, really helped me out in a time of need (in between jobs! D: ), but he's also given me a really cool/creative idea to draw, AND he's been really nice and super supportive- you don't even know how much the validation that you like my art means to me. :') Thank you so much, rat duder!!!! :3

Alt. Sona + news
Posted 13 years agoBad news: Someone I used to be friends with is now making it seem like this whole thing is my fault. :') and my computer is almost dead... and my health has been terrible. :( Some of you may not know, but I have fibromyalgia, and with all this emotional stress and the stress of needing to do exposure therapy and PUSH myself to be uncomfortable, it's really, really been acting up and I'm basically constantly in pain unless I'm medicating with marijuana.
Good news: Someone was kind enough to post info about me on Lendahand, and I think it was
skylorforscythe , who is a really, really nice, and helpful person. :) I haven't met a lot of people online who actually truly enjoy helping others. So...Thank you for restoring my faith in humanity, somewhat. :D and so another kind individual, Rodent (omg I'm forgetting the numbers at the end of your name! ;_; ), is going to commission me! :D It's helpful because I've been in an art block, aside from drawing pics of Hannibal Lecter... >_> Why yes, I'm creepy like most furries, just in a different way! mwuahah. xD I like making fun of myself. Also, I may be interviewed soon for a job at my fav store! :D Let's hope I get it!!!! ^_^ Then I can stay in SF but if not, and if I know I'm not getting a job by mid November, I'm going to see if a friend is still looking for a roomie! x3;; and I just started seeing a guy who I'm pretty sure there was an immediate connection with, which hasn't happened in a while. :) But we will see, since he's a certain zodiac sign I tend not to get along with... >_> But a cusp, so it's a little different. :P and I'm talking to another guy who is also a cusp, like me, :D Who I think I will like when we meet in person! Soooo at least I'm not putting all my eggs in one basket anymore... :x Needless to say, I am still going to be monogamous- I'm just going to have to choose if there is a mutual thing with both....D:
So...All in all, it should be somewhat ok....
ALSO, I am thinking of making an alternate Ram-Bull hybrid fursona, or something like that- maybe a Chimera, with bull features also, since I'm an Aries (ram) Taurus (bull) Cancer-Leo moon (lion...and crab, but idk how I can incorporate that in LOL maybe an arachnid type thing....) and year of the snake. >:3
Good news: Someone was kind enough to post info about me on Lendahand, and I think it was

So...All in all, it should be somewhat ok....
ALSO, I am thinking of making an alternate Ram-Bull hybrid fursona, or something like that- maybe a Chimera, with bull features also, since I'm an Aries (ram) Taurus (bull) Cancer-Leo moon (lion...and crab, but idk how I can incorporate that in LOL maybe an arachnid type thing....) and year of the snake. >:3
Not to complain, but to complain....
Posted 13 years agoOkay....
It really pisses me off that I can't seem to get commissions, even though I've been advertising....
Not that I think my art is god's gift to man or anything, but I feel like it's just as good, if not better in some cases than some of the art that I see being sold.... :/
I mean...
Really??? Also, my prices are DIRT CHEAP compared to some of what I see for comparable work....
and I could actually use the money... x_x
Ugh....
It really pisses me off that I can't seem to get commissions, even though I've been advertising....
Not that I think my art is god's gift to man or anything, but I feel like it's just as good, if not better in some cases than some of the art that I see being sold.... :/
I mean...
Really??? Also, my prices are DIRT CHEAP compared to some of what I see for comparable work....
and I could actually use the money... x_x
Ugh....
Please...I really need your help.... :(
Posted 13 years agoSo I just got off the phone with my mom...
It was horrible..... I hate how with her, she always tries to out-manipulate me emotionally....
I just found out that in December, my funds get cut off for my amenities, and things like my MEDICAL MARIJUANA WHICH HAS IMPROVED MY LIFE AND OUTLOOK AND SUCCESS BY ABOUT 50%.... and when my lease is up, I need to leave the apartment....
I found this out asking for a little more money because my dad gave me less than normal, even for 5 days, and I am almost out of food, and out of nicotine, which I'm addicted to soooooo.... Working on it though. :(
All of these things I'm working on, but my mom is always so negative and pessimistic about them, but then she believes in like...My artwork, or my singing...
I just feel like I suck at everything, and every time I try to get a job, or be part of a group, or something, it's never good enough, and I fail horribly.....
I don't know what to do- I'm sitting here, bawling my eyes out, because I'm going to have to live on ramen for the next couple of days, and spend all my money next week on deodorant, tampons, paper towels, and other things, and then have to eat ramen all week next week, and if I can't find a job, which seems hopeless, I'm going to have to leave the one place I feel safe in, and where my best friends/the only people I can trust are...
I might as well kill myself if that happens. Without the city to distract me, and no one to trust, and not being able to see the people I hold most dear, aside from my family, who tends to do their own thing and ignore me.... I would be nothing....
I'd rather take care of this on my own, so I'm begging you-pleading with you.... Any little bit helps, and I'm willing to do art for it. I'm willing to pour my heart and soul and blood onto paper for you, and you could help save me and help me take my life back/find a job, but at my own pace.... I'm trying- I really, really am...But I have a lot of problems I need to work on... The biggest one being how I let people and my interpersonal relationships with people drag me down/get me riled up....
My prices for art are not expensive- 10$ for a sketch, 15$ for flat colors, 20$ for shading and a small background- as many characters as you want, digital or traditional...
Please.....
I'm so desperate here....
and I know people are probably enjoying reading this because they think I deserve it, but I personally know that this isn't karma- it's been a long time coming, but my parents have a bad habit of springing things on me at the last minute....
Edit: I bet this makes me come off like a spoilt brat, but listen.... I'm used to being somewhat comfortable, and I've never really had to live my life being dirt poor, except at conventions... But I have nothing to distract me here and even then, usually my friends would hook me up with food or other.... I'm weak. I'm fragile. I suffer from chronic pain, and I don't know how to care for myself, but I'm really trying to fix that......
Commissions Open!
Posted 13 years agoHey guys! So, you can either commission me if you'd like, OR you can bid on the auctions I have up on furbuy!
General Audience:
http://www.furbuy.com/auctions/1034641.html
Adult:
http://www.furbuy.com/auctions/1034640.html
It'd be really appreciado while I'm looking for a job!!!! ;0;
Commission prices are listed in the auctions, but basically, a sketch with one character and some accessories and clothing = flat rate 10$. Add a character, 3$. Add some color, 5$. (so an inked and colored one character piece= 15$ flat rate) and so on and so on...
General Audience:
http://www.furbuy.com/auctions/1034641.html
Adult:
http://www.furbuy.com/auctions/1034640.html
It'd be really appreciado while I'm looking for a job!!!! ;0;
Commission prices are listed in the auctions, but basically, a sketch with one character and some accessories and clothing = flat rate 10$. Add a character, 3$. Add some color, 5$. (so an inked and colored one character piece= 15$ flat rate) and so on and so on...
Submissions Nuked
Posted 13 years agoSorry, you guys!!! I've been super busy with IRL stuff.... x.x Lame stuff, none the less... and I came back to over 1,000 submissions!!!! >< So I'm sorry if I missed anything important. :c
Old Friends and Updates soon
Posted 13 years agoI will say that since I haven't been that active in the fandom or anything recently, I HAVE accumulated a lot of distance between me and some of the people I used to hang out with or at least see occassionally. I don't know.... It really sucks because I'm a very warm, genuine person, and I strive to form real friendships with ALL of my friends and I know part of it is my own damn fault for getting anxious so easily and being too much of a pussy to even talk on the phone, which makes me feel even worse about it. It's lame. :( Just wanted to say that I really do miss you guys and I have always cared, even though I might not know some of you all that well. There are a few people I haven't seen around the internet or anything or been able to get ahold of, too, and I'm worried... :( I've been overwhelmed by things, including dealing with my birth family (long story but I was adopted....). So yeah. x.x I'm not dead! and I miss people. :C
also, I have drawn some things! :P There will be some art to be seen soon.
also, I have drawn some things! :P There will be some art to be seen soon.
I had to nuke all submissions...
Posted 13 years ago...Cause I was gone for a week or so and I just had....Way way too many.. x.x Soo....
If there's anything anyone wants me to see, please! Point me in that direction. :P
If there's anything anyone wants me to see, please! Point me in that direction. :P
A funny video + Art que and information!
Posted 13 years agoOkay. so.... Watch this. Just... Please. I promise you won't be disappointed. Old people rapping. That is all.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ItMJ.....ure=plpp_video
Here's the que! :3
Also about those character sheet commissions- they're not just for flat color- I can do some shading and stuff- I just got lazy with mine. >_>;;
Trade Que:
spyn0ff
Theirs Mine
thewizard897
Theirs Mine
****One more trade spot available for now!!!
Also, commissions are open! Pretty decent prices too. (:
NO REQUESTS unless you're a close friend please! <3
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ItMJ.....ure=plpp_video
Here's the que! :3
Also about those character sheet commissions- they're not just for flat color- I can do some shading and stuff- I just got lazy with mine. >_>;;
Trade Que:
spyn0ff
Theirs Mine
thewizard897
Theirs Mine
****One more trade spot available for now!!!
Also, commissions are open! Pretty decent prices too. (:
NO REQUESTS unless you're a close friend please! <3
No Subject
Posted 13 years agoI just marked all my new comments read before I read them and deleted them. .____. DAMNIT.
Art Trades EDIT: + que!
Posted 13 years agoWho wants to do one??
Trade Que:
plasticrabbits
Theirs Mine
spyn0ff
Theirs Mine
Thewizard897
Theirs Mine
****One more trade spot available for now!!!
Also, commissions are open! Pretty decent prices too. (:
Trade Que:

Theirs Mine

Theirs Mine

Theirs Mine
****One more trade spot available for now!!!
Also, commissions are open! Pretty decent prices too. (:
Updates Soon
Posted 13 years agoHey guys!
Sorry that it's taken me so long to get back to some of you, and so long to post some stuff. o.o I've been going through an emotionally tumultuous time, and trying desperately to find a job! :c Although I realized I may be able to get some commissions if I post some stuff so... Expect some stuff, and some replies, soon! :)
Sorry that it's taken me so long to get back to some of you, and so long to post some stuff. o.o I've been going through an emotionally tumultuous time, and trying desperately to find a job! :c Although I realized I may be able to get some commissions if I post some stuff so... Expect some stuff, and some replies, soon! :)
>:C
Posted 13 years agoDamnit! My icon isn't showing up.... Hopefully some time in the near future...It -is- in the icon cache, and everything.... o.o
25 journals skipped