so i started out my 2011 with a list of things i wanted to complete by the end of the year. One of the things on that list was play a live show. As of June 4th, 2011 the band that i co found played a show at a very very popular venue in my city called The Milwaukee Rave. even tho it was a battle of the bands and we have never played a show before i was willing to take any show, especially when the show is at a major place for famous people to play. we sold about 53 tickets to some very supportive people. most didnt have time to show but i would love to thank them for there purchase of a ticket, it was much appreciated. out off 11 bands we ended up playing 3rd from last witch was an amazing spot to be in for our first show. Most of us were nervous before getting up on stage but it came naturally for me to feel very comfortable up there in front of around 80 people. we played through our set list with the crowd cheering us for our performance and stage presence. i threw high fives across the stage to people as we walked off and talked to other bands who complemented us on our music. at the end of the night we ended up getting 4th place, the band who brought the biggest crowd won this event. Still was a memorable night and i am proud of myself for going through with it.

one day you are walking along and then you fall on your face and say "woah i cant go walking there again"? yeah... it sucks. to simply put it, i need to start putting in more hours at work. which means less of a social life for me due to second shift work schedule. Do i sacrifice my social life for work or vice versa

getting pay check :3

batte of the bands ^O^

Awesome =.=

lately i have had the opportunity to talk to a friend i haven't talked to in 5 months, maybe even more. catching up i heard his painful story which i believe was the result of his disappearance. living in a home that with people that don't help you up when you are falling, just giving a glance as they see a friend in trouble. struggling to keep happiness at his own home where his fur friends that live with him neglect him. leaching of his assets. Why are we fighting each other in what I thought was our own community?

my friend here is opening up commissions. he does an amazing job, cause he knows what he is doing ! go check his page out and send him a note card if you are interested

I sitting in the wash bay that I work at, a ton of radios said do not go outside due to high winds and tornado sightings. Neglecting there warning I still went outside, taking a vehicle with me. While I was in the middle of the storm, the enviroment was completely wiped out. I was in the phone with some one but I would talk but they wouldn't answer back. I came to a T intersection to the left was pitch black and dangerous, in the distance down the road I can clearly see funnel clouds reaching down, eagerly wanting to touch the ground. To the right was grey skies with some sun, down the ways was a gas station. I decided to take the right, moving down the road I get hit from the side by a twister but, I do t stop the car, I am eager to push through the storm. I push my vehicle so far into the twisted the windshield shatters and blinds me, as the wind whirled around the car, stabbing at my skin like little knives. Instantly I stop my car and shield my eyes with a price of cloth I had nearby, keeping them from more harm from the storm. From there I black out and wake up.

after a long long talk with my friend, one of my best friends that i will see in my future forever as the man giving a speech at my funeral. After tonight i can see my future, bright and happy. To bad he isn't a fur, kinda thinks i am weird for it but he accepts me as who i am and who i want to be in the future. Thank You~

LIFE SUCKS DX

went to band pratice and i let my friend carry my 5 string bass and he ended up dropping it on the cement. i got a piece of paint missing and a crack in the head now.... :c

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Winner will be chosen next Sat, Feb 5

Well i guess i haven't been posting in here for some time. How bout an update to my few but loved followers. recently i have been in some economic distress, not only me but my family as well. which will cost us. for me it cost me a semester at school. then we might be having trouble keeping a hold of our belongings sue to some troubles with my parents financial issue. Not only that i am going through some financial issues, i am also going through some acceptance ones as well. one of my family members might not like the fact that i am a homosexual. this is causing me a lot a trouble because of how close this person is to me.

Well with all this trouble in life, you have to think more positive. i find my self torn between being happy with it or depressed. and i have been down this rode before and come out a survivor. I am more than sure that i can get out of this one too because this time i know i have people behind me, to help and support.

One major update that happened to me this teusday, that i am very proud to say that i have done. on Teusday i came out to my mother, she then called father and told him. the way that i approached this is through good ol text messaging. i sent my mother a very lengthy message about how i felt about certian things and such. then the following text was the Gig three words " I Am Gay". Beleive me this was no easy task for me to do. during the whole waiting period for her to actually call me, i had my head buried in my pillow just wanting some kind of sign. She did end up calling me right after she told my dad. when she did end up calling me she told me that she did mind, she still loved me for who i was and what ever i did, even if that was being gay. she even went into the whole wear a condom talk that i have already recived back when i was little. There is one thing i can say that stood out about this whole conversation. She told me "make sure you wear a condom or in other cases make sure the other person wears one aswell. we have had some talks and she has told me that my dad is in denial that i am actually a homosexual, then my mother does not know how to fully grasp this concept either. so she want to take the three of us to go see some Phsiciatrists, for dad's sake.

I decide to come to this conclusion because i didn't feel happy being the only person to know with a select few people. so i decided that my mother at least deserves to know that about her son.

I beleive it is about time for me to start visiting my LGBT resource center and talk to some people there. so i can see what i should do about my parents reactions and how to ease the idea that they have a Gay son in the house hold.

In the house nothing has really changed, i told them about my sexual oreintation on teusday and it feel like the same old house in the ghetto. not exactly sure if this is a sign of acceptance or denial from both parents but, i know it will be a better future for me because i can actully be myself in my own house and not feel like i have to be scared of people knowing what used to be a secret.

I am afraid to get hypnotized agian...

After quite some time now, with lots of writers block, i finally got a story written and done. well not exactly. right now i need to work on some revisions on the story and i would also like to have another pair of eyes look over my work. if things turn out as i am planning i will be making this into a larger series of stories. the story should hopefully be relevant to most of the people out there and i do believe it is quite unique, but i guess that inst for me to label my own work. i will let the readers do that when i get it out there. it will be a clean story for the first chapter, i didn't really want to put any yiffy scenes in there until later on in the series when you start to understand the characters personalities. i am really excited to see how this is going to go but, if it inst a "great" story i will still put out more chapters of it.
on top of finishing my first story i am going to be posting i also lead a discussion in my rhetorical English class and i made me wonder if anyone out there has taken a foreign language class, and if soo are you fluent in the language? then another question was "who says you are fluent in that language?"

so i ordered feet and paws to be made by pjc0304 on Thursday. he said i will be working on them right away and have my feet done by tomorrow morning. sure enough they were done and let me tell you they look amazing. it was a very reasonable price for the quality as well. if anyone is going to buy a fur-suit or anything relating to it i suggest him.

here are the feet he did for me ---- http://www.furaffinity.net/view/4528486

Here is his page ---- http://www.furaffinity.net/user/pjc0304/

I love it when a phone call can make the day so much better. yesterday at work my mate decided to call me and i was sitting there in the back of the building for about 30 mins. it really made my day go so much smother and most importantly i was able to put up with my co-workers crap. short and simple, love my hun <3

Feeling so great that i got done what i thought would be impossible to accomplish. so yesterday i was preparing for my class discussion that i am suppose to lead on the future of global English. i was reading through a text that directly tells me what i should cover in my discussion, so i am taking well thought out notes and reading carefully. by the time work ends i get through about 1/2 of the reading( the reading is about 50 pgs long) and i start to close down the wash bay. rinsing out the chamois, dumping out the buckets of chemicals and then finally get out of my work uniform. i get everything all packet up and head on home with my backpack and uniform in hand. i take about a 20 min drive to get home and as soon as i get back i usually take a shower to wash the chemicals off myself. so i do that and was going to finish on planning out my discussion for today. it was then i realized i left all my notes at work which is all locked up. so i sit there spiraling into a panic and decide i should get up at 6 in the morning and leave by 7. my classes don't start till 11 so i had some time to get to work and go to school while doing my planning.
So i wake up at 7 and get to work at 8ish. my notes were completely drenched including the reading i was doing. i just thought whatever, ill dry them off whit the windows down going down the highway. the thing is how did my notes get completely wet and the radio is dry... well some how it happened. well getting to my park n ride i jump on the buss and start reading and taking notes on the way to campus. instantly as i got off the bus i start on finishing my homework. i end up finishing the other half of my discussion reading and planning in a very shocking time. i took me around 3 hrs to plan and read everything. so some how in the mist of the mayhem things worked out but, now my hair is messy from the worrying.

Yesterday was a horrible day weather wise but it was an inspiring scene of countless amounts of people walking in the pouring rain looking for a cure to the horrible AIDS disease. I went with the Alverno circle k group(which is an all girl college) to the event. while i was there i seen a couple of furries as well. most of them were dressed in fur suits. the two i really got to see was a blue wolf and a brown bunny. i enjoined seeing them in the walk and wanted to kinda get to know them. along the AIDS walk trail there were a group of Free Hugs people who i gladly took them up on their offer for one. It was a very inspirational day and had me thinking about some things in my life. i am going to keep them private and i will be planning on how to manage how i am going to accomplish what i want to do.

I have been up since early this morning (1 am) walking around a track all night. there was an event held at a college and i promised someone i would go. i didn't know the event was going to last through-out the night. when i get there and they start telling me that i immediately start pounding coffee down.then by around 4 am i found myself in someones sleeping bag passed out. it wasn't too long before i was waken up tho. while i was sleeping a storm rolled in and the party i was with was collection everything and started to put their stuff into there cars. this was around 5'oclock. when we were up there as no going back to sleep because the people holding the event decided to hold the closing ceremony at 6am... and they made us sing that early in the morning. Still tho i enjoined the experience and would probably do it again.

so at work i have been working alone and would have to speed up my cleaning on cars. so in order for me to speed up i need to move my arm faster to clean them. today my whole shoulder locked up on with shooting pains. not exactly sure what i just did to my body there but i know it probably is not something good. well i have a 2 day break to let that heal up a bit so hopefully it will be better by Monday morning. damn you lazy people...

so at work i have been working alone and would have to speed up my cleaning on cars. so in order for me to speed up i need to move my arm faster to clean them. today my whole shoulder locked up on with shooting pains. not exactly sure what i just did to my body there but i know it probably is not something good. well i have a 2 day break to let that heal up a bit so hopefully it will be better by Monday morning. damn you lazy people...

Didn't really forget nothing this morning, so it is a positive type of day. early lunch, coffee, and 4 hour break between class. not exactly sure if it was today or tomorrow that will have off of work. if it is today this title will be changing i promise you that.

Work wouldn't be as bad if the 'shift leader' didn't suck ass at his job. so i work at a dealership where I porter cars(Cleaning cars). we clean the cars of people who buy a new/used car, people who come in for oil changes, people who come in for body work, and rental vehicles. well i work 2nd shift along with 2 other people. one is the 'shift leader' and the other likes to smoke pot on the shift at times. well let me get a scenario from yesterday. so all three of us were in the wash bay waiting for cars to come in. two service cars come in for a wash and then a used car spot comes in. well one person disappears to grab lunch for the near future and then the 'shift leader' leaves. it leaves me stuck there with 2 service vehicles and a used car spot that all say 'ASAP'. well as more cars come in more about 1 and a half hours pass before the 'shift leader' returns from where ever he was at. just in time to help me do nothing. keeping what happened on the optimistic side, i had the opportunity to plug in my i pod into the radio and blast my music. Still tho, i can't clean most of the cars myself but, i do get a lot of respect from my shift team and the rest of the co workers from what I put up with and the quality of work i do... maybe i could be the first person to get a raise in 5 years :3