Howdy!
Hey y'all. As some of you may know, I've started a Patreon!

Tiers are affordable, and benefits are plenty!

Even just the $1 tier would help me significantly, as I still struggle with part-time work (I live in a very small town, so I'm lucky to even have the job I have now), and part-time hours. I make $12 an hour, and checks disappear in a snap. I eventually would like to do some traveling, see friends around the country, and eventually, the world. I would also like to help support my folks any way I can, as they continue looking for a place to settle and live comfortably in. Love my roommates to death, but they rely mostly on me to pay for a lot of recreational stuff (video games, dining out, vapes, weed, etc) My wallet practically creaks and coughs up dust and cobwebs when I open it these days.

If you're unable to support, then could you maybe spread the word, with the link to the page I have below? Anything helps.

https://www.patreon.com/GhostDireWolf

https://www.patreon.com/posts/rip-a.....tent=join_link

If you would like, I would greatly appreciate any and all support you can. My Patreon Tiers are pretty affordable, starting as little as $1, and only as high as $15.

I am in dire need of help, as I try to pay bills with just a minimum wage part time job. Anything helps!

Hey y'all, I figured I would try my hand again at Patreon. I'm using it as a means to help me pay the bills. I currently work a mostly part time job in my small town, only making about twelve bucks an hour. It makes it hard to earn enough to pay bills and save. Any support would mean a lot to me. Link here: patreon.com/GhostDireWolf This is a copy/paste from a journal I posted on my alt:   GhostDireWolf18

Tiers go from $1 up to $15. Two tiers get access to a Discord Server, The Wolf Den, where I post updates to art and new content after a set amount of time.

Top Dog: $15, Early access before I post it to my other media Access to all finished products Access to Discord server Shoutouts upon every follow Free sketches! General Support, Commissions (digital), Early access, Exclusive content, Member shout-out, Fan requests
Work-in-progress updates (digital), Discord Access. Exclusive content includes high qual art, finished chapters of writing projects, and early access to potential gaming videos in the future. Top Dog Role in Discord.

Cool Cats: $5, Access to finished sketches, Access to flat colored work, Access to Discord! Access to all written content, Shoutouts upon following! General Support, Member shout-out, Commissions (digital), Work-in-progress updates (digital), Discord Access. Cool Cat Role in Discord.

Dedicated Fans: $1 Sneak peaks at WIPs, Shoutouts upon following! General Support, Member shout-out, Work-in-progress updates (digital), Exclusive content

Anything helps. All support is appreciated.

Howdy hey!

So, I'ma be making an alt. account that leans more towards NSFW content. There are some here that aren't quite comfortable with the things I like, and rather than make them see that on their submissions page, I'm just gonna put my fetish content there. I'll directly message some of you with the name of it and ask that you not follow that account. Please and thank you.

I haven't really gotten any judgemental comments (save for like, one maybe) about my stuff yet, but rather than just keep posting it here and running that risk, I'm gonna play it safe and make this move. I see others do the same thing, so... why not?

The icon for this account will be changed and the alt. will have the icon I have for this account. Just giving you a heads up.

Thank you for understanding!

It's 2025. A new year, the beginning of another quarter century, and the year of Black Ops 2. Honestly surprised I've made it this far. Hopefully I'll be around to see the turn of another quarter century. I'll be 48 when that happens, if all goes to plan.

2024 was a helluva year, for all the wrong reasons. My family and I had been kicked out of the place we called home in May, lost my cat, lived in a camping trailer for three months, and joined the Army.

The Army was actually pretty fun. I enjoyed the time I had spent there, for the most part. Until September when the whole world came crashing down on me with just a few words.

I've dealt with a couple losses last year, one being my cousin who died of a rapidly spreading cancer in his body. Just barely into his fifties too. Something about a chemical spill he was caught up in during his time in the Army.

And then, Forest passed. I still remember all the events after I received the news that day like it was yesterday. Needless to say, my mental health went to absolute shit after that. So much so, the Army decided it would be best that I was separated. I won't go into detail about that though.

It's been a struggle since I got back. I found myself a job and my own place, but the job is barely tolerable, and pushing me passed my stress limit. I've... unfortunately found solace in having a few drinks every so often. At least once a week, though sometimes I find myself looking down a bottle at least three days a week.

Trying to prevent it from becoming more of a problem by just forcing myself to stay home on my days off. Instead of going out, I've taken to streaming on Twitch. Xx_GhostWolf21_xX if you're interested.

I'm hanging in there, even if it's by a few threads. Long as they hold me up, I'll be just fine. Hopefully this year will be a little more prosperous and fruitful. Maybe I'll travel some this year. Maybe I'll finally start pursuing some of my dreams. I've been saying that for at least three years, since I graduated in 2021, but who knows? Maybe it'll be different this year. Here's to hoping. Cheers 🍻

Well, some of y'all know it's Thanksgiving today. I'm thankful, first off, that I'm still here and kickin'. I could've been long gone a long time ago, but I'm still here, still fightin' and still kickin' ass and takin' names.

Which leads me to my next thing to be thankful for. I'm thankful for the friends and family I have. I dunno where I'd be without everyone I know, here, IRL, and elsewhere. Thank you all for being a part of my life.

I'm thankful to Forest as well. He created a community, a pack, that's stood fast. I'm thankful to have met him when I did. I'm thankful to have met the community he's created, and built to last.

Lastly, I'm thankful for the opportunity to start anew everyday, to look at my past self, be it a minute, a day, or a decade, and see how far I've come, how much I've grown. It's been a helluva 22 years, and I'm still growing everyday.

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!

If all goes right, I'll be headed to Pittsburgh next summer for Anthrocon 2025. It's my first time going to any convention of any sort, let alone a furry convention.

I'll likely be the dude with all white hair with a haircut not unlike Dante from the DMC reboot. I'm also kinda short, standing at 5'7". I won't be in a fursuit on account of because a) I'm broke and can't get one and b) I have a feeling it'll be really stuffy in one with all the people. Plus, it's Pennsylvania in summer, I imagine it'll be pretty warm!

Probably gonna be staying at the Wyndham nearby the convention center.

There's a few things to know about me if you bump into me:

I'm pretty chill, balanced by a bit of awkwardness because I don't get out and socialize much.

I prefer small groups of people, but if I get too overwhelmed, you might see me duck out of a crowd and try to find a place to recuperate. When I'm overwhelmed, it's nothing big. You just might see me start fidgeting around and getting a little restless. Again, I don't get out much, so big crowds kinda mess with me a bit.

I may goof around a good bit, depending on how long it takes me to acclimate. But usually, I need to be a little buzzed to really get me out of my shell. Might see me at a nearby bar when the day is done. And if there's karaoke there, you goddamn right I'ma do it XD

I'm a FUCKING NERD. If you strike up a conversation with me and it's about anime or video games, you've got my attention and I could probably talk all day- Though I do talk about anything and everything. You just might need to interact with me first, cause I'm shy as fuck. Which is weird, cause despite being an introvert, I can be pretty outgoing-

Might be wearing things akin to being a country boy, cause that's what I am. I'm a country boy from Nevada, and I tend to wear that proudly. I'm no rebel flag flying, tobacco chewing, gun toting beet-red necked dude, I'm just a small town dude, and I tend to like to get my hands rough and dirty. Even have a horse I take care of. But I do tend to wear apparel like NineLine (I support our troops 😅) and Ariat. Probably gonna be in blue jeans and boots, might have a hat on (backwards). If it's really warm, I'll probably be in a tank-top.

If I seem to be ignoring you, I'm not. I might have my earbuds in because if I'm not engaging in social interactions, I like to listen to music. Just tap me on the shoulder and give me a second to pop my earbuds out before you try to speak, otherwise I might not catch what you're saying.

Also, I'm jumpy, so be sure I can see you, or I might suddenly act like a nine-banded armadillo and jump a good couple feet in the air (possibly accompanied by a goofy karate pose for comedic effect.)

Last thing: I might be hopped up on a lot of caffeine! It takes a lot of energy for me to try and be social. So if I'm rambling or I'm really shaky, that's why.

If by some chance you bunk with me (might help me a lot financially-) I tend to be a night owl. I'll probably be up till the wee hours of the morning before I finally go to sleep (at the time I'm writing this, it's currently 1:46 PST). I'm not loud by any means, at least not intentionally. More than likely I'll be on my phone, earbuds in, and just chilling. Though there might be a time I go out and come back pretty late at night too. Especially if there's a pool at the hotel- I really, really like to swim and hang out for a good while.

That's about it. Like I said, if all goes well, I'll be there this summer. Hope to see a few of you there! Hit me up on Discord if you're planning on going! User Tag: preacherdemonhunter777

I haven't had much time to really give my thoughts on this, but I'll give it my best shot to deliver this in a meaningful way. I'm not good with words, and it's worse when I'm in the mental state I'm in because I get lost in thought in the middle of writing.

A little over two months ago now, someone I considered a good friend passed away. Some of y'all watching me knew him as Forest. I don't know what happened, and I'll be respectful not to push for details. He died September 3rd, and I didn't find out until September 15th. I was in Basic training in the Army at the time. It hit me pretty hard.

The day I found out, I broke. With the exception of my childhood dog, no death I ever went through had ever made me cry, and I've lost quite a few people over the years. Just this year alone I had two people I knew pass away. It stung, but not near as bad as finding out that Forest was gone.

I pushed on for about a week, tried to keep going. But his death was and is something I've had a hard time accepting. Every now and then I find myself writing to him, talking with him as if he were right next to me. Sometimes I feel as though he is. I often catch myself saying things like "The others need you more than me."

I didn't know him as well as I would've liked to. The interactions I did have from him though were always positive. I haven't gone through our DMs yet, I've been putting it off, as well as looking through his gallery and other things, because I'm still having such a hard time with coming to terms that he's gone.

I'm a pretty young guy, I'm 22 now, and I met him not long after I turned 19, three years ago. I've met quite a few extraordinary people through him, and for that I'm thankful. I'm thankful to have met him, to have been inspired by him, regardless of how short I knew him.

He was a man who pushed himself to great lengths to make the community he built happy, to provide for those he loved, and all and all be a great human being. Someone I consider to be a really great friend has said many of the same things:   Shirou14 but it doesn't stop the fact of any of it being any less true.

I got a tattoo of the collar he drew on his Sona, forever engraved on my right wrist. Inside the medallion is a wolf paw. A little reminder of him for me, I guess.

Forest had a huge heart, and he lived with a love and compassion I haven't seen in much of society. I dare to say he was more human than most of us. It hardly seemed like anything could bring him down. Now he's flying high. And I know he's watching us, proud of everyone for being as strong as they have been.

I would like to say I too am proud of everyone. You guys are strong. He lives on through you, through me, through the entire community he's built over the years. Together we'll get through this.

I'm checking in on everyone I can. Being there for everyone as much as I can. As the Army Infantry likes to say, "Follow me!" Because together, I know we'll push through.

And for you Forest, if you're watching, fly high, brother. We miss you... I miss you. Leave a light on for everyone and guide them through the dark. Until the day we meet again, brother...

So, I'm back from the Army. I failed, if you couldn't tell from how soon I'm back. What happened? Well, I'm not gonna go into too much detail. My mental health took a shit on me again, and that's all you really need to know.

The last couple months have been Hell. I'm doing my best to be there for everyone. I care too much about the people I love (you know who you are) to just disappear. But I'll say, it's taking a lot out of me. I'm doing my best to stay positive, keep my head above the water. I think I'm doing okay, but I'm also getting tired. I know if I give up, I'll drown, and if I drown, then I can't be there for everyone.

The best I can describe it is by using Greek mythology. Specifically that of Sisyphus. He was a man who was damned in the Underworld for his trickery and his cheating of death twice. His punishment was to forever roll a heavy boulder up hill. He never quite makes it to the top, because as he does, something gives and it rolls all the way back down the steep hill.

My life is that boulder, and I'm Sisyphus. I feel damned to forever roll a massive boulder, never quite making it to the top before I have to start all over. It's draining me.

Another example is Atlas, the Titan who was condemned to forever hold the Earth on his shoulders (or the sky, depending on the myth). I feel a heavy burden on my shoulders, but I know if I were to just put it down, everything would fall apart.

My birthday was on Monday, and while it was a good day, I couldn't help but have thoughts creep into my mind. I did my best to shake them off, and even chase them away with a couple drinks that night, but that's how it's been. From back in September to now, I've been haunted by really bad thoughts. Those of sadness, of anger, of pain. I can't shake them.

And it makes being there for everyone all the harder. I know I have to focus on myself, but I can't. I care too much for everyone. I have a heart of gold.

I'm 22 but feel like I've lived a full life with how drained I feel. Like any given moment, I could give my last bit of energy and just... crumble. Like Vegeta after his final atonement.

I'm sorry for the sudden negativity. I just had to get this off my chest. I'll be okay. I've made it this long. I just have to get this out before it builds up too much longer and I just explode. It's happened before, and I don't like how it feels after.

https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-pay.....fa-2b6b172172d2

I'm trying to clear my debts before I leave for Army Basic in about two weeks. Anything helps.

Commissions are open. I'll be taking one at a time. I'm unemployed and need some kind of income to hold me over until August. Anything goes except rape, sex, diaper, scat, urine, feet, vomit, and satanism. Hit me up here or on Discord!

Fixed prices. $45 for digital art and $20 for traditional art (digital comes in full color and traditional comes in black and white).

I'm going to be leaving FA officially. I've had a lot of things change in my life, very suddenly. Today, I got baptized, then lost a four year relationship with my girlfriend. I'm in a very low spot. I hardly contribute to FA, and I don't have much reason to keep it.

Thank you for the good times.

CW: Thoughts of self harm. And yes, this is how I feel. This is my inner demons telling my this shit...

Cut yourself. Remind yourself what a failure you've become. You push everyone away and fail everyone. You fuck everything up. Cut up. Remind yourself what a shitty person you were. What a shitty person you are. Fuck your future, think of your past. Look what you did. Cut! Remind yourself!

If there ever comes a time where I'm inactive anywhere, Discord, FA... well that's really it... And I don't interact at all, give it maybe a month. If that month has past, then I've lost my battle. That's if I disappear without warning...

I am in a really bad situation. On the verge of homeless and about to max out my credit card. Please help. Anything helps.

https://gofund.me/714e5063

I've started a GoFundMe. I'm in a real pinch right now. On the verge of being homeless. Anything helps. The link is here:

https://gofund.me/714e5063

I made a Twitch. Follow if you'd like to watch me play games!

https://www.twitch.tv/xx_ghostwolf21_xx

lyrics to a song that in all honesty, might not ever actually be made, but here

Dear Me,
What's going on inside?
What's got you going?
Why are you doing that again?
Self-destructive, self-loathing,
Driving everyone away?

Fighting demons no one comprehends,
Battles waged remain unseen,
Wars fought, wars lost,
Why don't you just open up?

Dear Me,
What makes you tick?
Torn inside, feeling sick,
Angry again, do you even know why?
Dear me...
Dear me...

Dear me,
Pull it together,
You're losing it,
You're losing them,
You're losing her

PULL! IT! TOGETHER!

Sincerely yours...
Me

So, Saturday, November 4th, is my birthday. I turn 21 tomorrow. I am so not ready for it... but, I figure I let y'all know.

My mental health has been on the decline again. I'm having dangerous thoughts. Tempting thoughts. It's gotten to a point that if I don't come home and play my PS4 after I do my chores, I come home and sleep. I get my work done, I get my chores done, and then I veg out. I want to just lay there till I waist away, I wanna take shit as a crutch, drink as a crutch, I let my anger and frustrations out on the wrong people, and when the smoke has cleared, I'm left feeling like shit about it, and it feeds into my bad thoughts. I'm not sure how much longer I can keep fighting. I'm barely even able to keep awake and do much anymore... I don't know what else to do...

On top of taking a break (or leaving all together) I'm done with taking commissions. I can't keep my motivation up to finish one. I'll lose money rather than gain it at this point.

I've been really down lately. I don't know what's been up with me, but my depression has been so bad I've had zero motivation to do anything but sleep.

I'll be taking a break. Not that it really fucking matters...

I'm still open for commissions

Will Not Draw: Sex, rape, diaper, scat, urine, vomit, feet, cock vore unbirth, pec vore, cleavage vore, naval vore, nasal vore, tail vore, gas, satanic/Demonic Occult type stuff

Will draw: Anything not mentioned on that list

Trying to make a side gig outta this. I'm having trouble saving money and could use some help keeping a steady passive income.

Prices

Headshot Black and white: $15
Headshot Colored: $20

Bust Black and White: $20
Bust Color: $25

Full body Black and white: $25
Full body Color: $30

Extra Characters (2 or more) Black and White: $5

Extra Characters (2 or more) Colored $10

With Environment Black and White: $20


With Environment Colored: $30

With Colored Details (Shading and lighting, and effects): $50

These things take time. On average, you'll have about 3 days when I get to you. If you have a line of 3 people ahead of you, it'll take about 9 days. Allow me time to draw out the people who came first.

If you have Discord, add me at Mike Fox-Majin#0180 (Until the stupid update takes place anyway). If not, DM me here and I'll send you links of my progress.

STATUS UPDATES GUARANTEED

FULL REFUND GUARANTEED

Trying to make a side gig outta this. I'm having trouble saving money and could use some help keeping a steady passive income.

Prices

Headshot Black and white: $15
Headshot Colored: $20

Bust Black and White: $20
Bust Color: $25

Full body Black and white: $25
Full body Color: $30

Extra Characters (2 or more) Black and White: $5

Extra Characters (2 or more) Colored $10

With Environment Black and White: $20


With Environment Colored: $30

With Colored Details (Shading and lighting, and effects): $50

These things take time. On average, you'll have about 3 days when I get to you. If you have a line of 3 people ahead of you, it'll take about 9 days. Allow me time to draw out the people who came first.

If you have Discord, add me at Mike Fox-Majin#0180 (Until the stupid update takes place anyway). If not, DM me here and I'll send you links of my progress.

STATUS UPDATES GUARANTEED

FULL REFUND GUARANTEED

Anything helps. I'm trying to make a trip to Oregon, but the harder I try to save, the more money I seem to lose. Anything helps!

https://gofund.me/e5f3f6d2

I went to the optometrist Tuesday and they said I might have glaucoma. I guess my optic nerves are bigger than what's natural. I really hope not, but I do, I don't know how long it'll be before my vision starts to decline